10:10] GarbagePersonAlex: Agh...I hate feeling like this...my life feels so meaningless...
My life is completely monotonous and routine
every week blends into the next
Everything feels stagnant
Work sucks, family sucks, I have no friends, relationship feels like we're heading towards a breakup
I have basically no self esteem left
I just exist. I'm not actually living.
[10:14] Linn: I'm sorry alex
[23:15] LuluMinati: Guess who’s just gonna eat their feelings of worthlessness today! :smile:
[23:16] LuluMinati: And then wonder why I feel so awful tomorrow!
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[15:11] LuluMinati: I ruined my good mood utterly by looking at posts from people I’m missing on twitter and now I feel like a complete idiot. What was I expecting?
The simple thing would be to just message them, but I’m afraid they are mad at me for some reason. And I can’t shake the idea that if I’m going to be this silly with friendships anyway, I probably just don’t deserve them.
[15:12] Linn: Awh lulu :ldante:
[15:34] LuluMinati: I’m going to distract myself with 12 hours of cultist simulator and then I’ll feel bad for being a terrible friend and creator who breaks all their promises and accomplishes nothing. And prolly eat some oreos.
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[18:44] Ronan: My mother is a very large chested, obese woman who was a teen mom and has very few friends (and now she has none), and her plan for raising me has basically been "here's my second attempt at living life" whether she knew it or not
[18:45] Ronan: Growing up I was taught that I was always too fat and that I need to stop eating so that I don't get fat, when I got a double chin for the first time around 4th grade and she noticed she literally screamed at me over it
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[18:46] Ronan: Told that I would need a breast reduction for as long as I can remember, told to never trust my friends because they're secretly out to get me, told to never date or even hang out with boys or go to parties because I'll have sex and become teen pregnant like she did and my life will be ruined
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[20:34] Ronan: Tfw you're medically dianosed a narcoleptic, but your parents don't believe in mental illness/disorders to do with the brain besides autism so they still won't let you sleep when you desperately need to :')
[20:34] Ronan: My mom went so far as to follow me down to my room and just keep on yelling "No!!" at me until I got out of bed, as if I were a dog that was on furniture it's not allowed to be on instead of a human fucking being with a sleep disorder that isn't going to be cured through forced wakefulness