✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:20 PM
I will be engaging in supports and doing my duties as head support. I hope you understand (from my perspective) however that the lack of communication and events/ actions that unfolded don’t make me feel very comfortable currently. I don’t feel very close to the team, but maybe that is just me. But, I care about this server and supporting, moderating, & helping others. So I will continue to do that. I understand you make the decisions you feel are best in the server. I will continue to do the role you wish for me to have. Additionally, I understand if that means not being an admin now or in the future. If you are busy, I understand and there is no need to respond. I apologize if I’ve bothered you, as I know you are busy.
Zen - Today at 2:20 PM
You're never a both
I know these things take a minute to process, and I'm sorry  for that
We're all here for you, whenever you want to reach out
a bother*
dammit
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:22 PM
I don’t have really anything to reach out about
There’s nothing to be done
Zen - Today at 2:23 PM
that's fair
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:23 PM
Just feelings that I have
Zen - Today at 2:23 PM
yeah, i hear you
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:23 PM
And feeling excluded after I once was included.
Zen - Today at 2:24 PM
:frowning: yeah i''m sorry i know
i don't want to exclude you
i seriously think you're fucking awesome
but i get it
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:29 PM
But it is what it is. And I feel as if sharing my current feelings could prevent me from ever moving up again on the team (not sure if this is even a possibility). So ya I guess that’s where I’m at. Also I don’t talk very much to any of the current admin team (especially one on one) so I hope you can see why I may think these compliments/ feelings being told to me don’t feel too real.
Zen - Today at 2:34 PM
yeah i hear you
but on my part they're not platitudes
i've seen what you can do
and who you are
and i think you're neat
but i know what you're saying, like, i would feel jerked around
and i'm reeeeeally embarassed that i've done that to you
and it sucks that i hurt you that way
it was never my intention
sometimes i don't trust my instincts
and that usually ends poorly
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:39 PM
What instincts?
I’m not sure if you’re referring to your instincts in this situation?
I’m just very much a proponent of effective and honest communication and when that doesn’t occur I don’t feel comfortable.
Zen - Today at 2:41 PM
oh sorry, like, i didn't listen to myself early on to avoid this
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:41 PM
Like you should’ve left me as head support?
Zen - Today at 2:41 PM
I should have put you in charge there yeah
bc you're great at dealling with the supports and watching the channels and it's a big job in and of itself
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:43 PM
But in my feelings it now seems like oh you weren’t good enough to be an admin we will stick you back in this position
And then keep you there because you’re the only one
Zen - Today at 2:43 PM
no no, please don't feel like it's "good enough"
it's more like, is it the right fit
there's no negative connotations