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- sample text: you're not stable and nor am I
- eroticism: Well if you don't feel safe around me I understand.
- sample text: It's not just that, I don't know what to think of you anymore, I don't know if I can trust you
- sample text: and then comes the times where you just want to shut off or go all immature
- sample text: and just
- sample text: i can't have this happen again
- sample text: but
- sample text: it wil
- sample text: it inevetably will
- sample text: and you know it too
- sample text: because it's how you are
- sample text: you'll go one way now
- sample text: then you'll go the other
- sample text: I need constant love and affection
- sample text: and half of the time I know you're just pretending, when really you just want to shut off
- sample text: and then comes the fact that you're still confused about your sexuality
- sample text: and I make you uncomfortable
- sample text: you say you want me to be happy but all i've done these past few days is cry
- sample text: and now honestly
- sample text: i'm a little bit scared of you
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- eroticism: That's fine, I'm a scary person.
- sample text: I don't think that I'll be happy with you
- sample text: So far
- sample text: All I've tried to do
- sample text: is make you change
- sample text: i'm so fucked up rn
- sample text: and after tonight I feel like you're just going to fuck me up even more
- eroticism: I'm not gonna do anything,
- sample text: how do I know
- sample text: a repeat of tonight won't happen
- sample text: after everything you said
- sample text: all i've done since i got with you is cry and have breakdowns
- sample text: well that's not completely true
- sample text: there were times where i was happy
- sample text: after tonight tho especially like
- sample text: i am actually scared of you
- sample text: and I don't trust you
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- eroticism: God I feel like blowing my brains out right now
- eroticism: My fucking hands are barely working
- sample text: :(
- eroticism: I want to cuddle please.
- eroticism: my fucking eyes are on fire and my limbs barely work
- sample text: we are done.
- sample text: this is not going to work.
- sample text: after everything you said to me tonight I seriously question your sanity and mental integrity
- sample text: and how you really feel.
- eroticism: :// so you're breaking up with me
- sample text: do you want me to be happy?
- eroticism: Yes
- sample text: because so far you haven't made me happy
- sample text: I have cried every night
- sample text: I've had at least two serious breakdowns
- sample text: since we got together
- sample text: and I want everything to be okay
- sample text: but
- sample text: I'd just be forcing you to be a way that you're not
- sample text: I've literally had to MAKE you be more affectionate...
- sample text: and even then there were times where shit just went wrong anyway
- sample text: I want to be happy as much as you do
- sample text: but you are seriously fucking me up
- eroticism: I'm sorry I'm bad with feelings...
- sample text: you don't say...
- sample text: We are
- sample text: polar opposite
- sample text: when it comes to feelings
- sample text: i am the most emotional, loving, affectionate person there is
- sample text: and you're just
- sample text: not
- eroticism: You can't say I'm just not...
- sample text: okay maybe not loving
- sample text: but you're not very in tune with your emotions
- sample text: and I literally had to make you be affectionate
- eroticism: Not my fault I'm not good with feelings...
- sample text: I know it's not I know that
- sample text: I never said it was your fault
- sample text: I'm not blaming you for anything right now
- sample text: I know you've got issues too
- sample text: and that's exactly why you're fucking me up
- sample text: because I have issues too
- sample text: and I don't know how to deal with other people's issue
- sample text: s
- sample text: I just want affection all the time
- sample text: do you even remember much of what you said earlier?
- sample text: it made me feel the emotional equivalent of a bullet wound
- sample text: I was in pain
- eroticism: I'm sorry...
- sample text: And I know
- sample text: I know you weren't in control of what you were saying
- sample text: you weren't yourself
- sample text: I get that sometimes
- sample text: like that time I flipped shit on you
- sample text: there's times where I will say the nastiest things for the sole purpose of hurting someone
- sample text: and I don't mean to
- sample text: because in those moments I'm not myself
- sample text: just like you were not yourself when you said those things to me
- sample text: however
- sample text: right now
- sample text: I am myself
- eroticism: I'm not...
- eroticism: I'm tired me...
- eroticism: And I just want to cuddle and forget everything and not wake up.
- sample text: me too.
- sample text: but I feel like being with you is only going to bring me more pian
- sample text: pain
- eroticism: You're probably right.
- eroticism: I'm a loser and will probably never make enough money to see you.
- sample text: You're not even sure about living here anyway
- sample text: and then you're still confused about your sexuality
- sample text: and you're unstable
- sample text: and so am I
- sample text: and two unstable people is never a good mix
- sample text: one person can't take care of the other
- sample text: we're both just gradually fucking each other up even more
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- eroticism: That's true.
- eroticism: You're expecting too much of me, and I can't be stable enough to be dependable for you.
- sample text: exactly..
- sample text: and then
- sample text: when one of us breaks down
- sample text: neither of us has the mental capacity to deal with it
- eroticism: Yeah
- eroticism: I really do care about you though..
- sample text: I know you do
- sample text: and I care about you too.
- sample text: I want you to be happy too
- sample text: but I really don't think I can be the one for you
- sample text: and you can't be the one for me
- sample text: you need someone more stable
- sample text: someone who doesn't need as much from you
- sample text: someone who doesn't confuse you
- sample text: you also need time to find / come to terms with yourself
- sample text: and evidently a few days wasn't enough
- sample text: you just wanted it to be
- sample text: because you didn't want to be alone
- eroticism: I guess...
- sample text: I've done alot of talking, what do you think about everything I've said.
- sample text: I know that deep down you agree with me
- sample text: well maybe not even deep down
- sample text: maybe you just do
- eroticism: I really wish I wasn't such a wreck.
- eroticism: I really do want to be dependable...
- sample text: I know you do
- sample text: I know
- sample text: and I really don't want to be so dependent
- sample text: I wish I could be content with much less
- eroticism: I really am attracted to you...
- eroticism: Sexually and otherwise...
- sample text: but I do confuse you
- sample text: and when you really think about the fact I was born male, it makes you feel uncomfortable
- eroticism: Kinda
- eroticism: And the whole me wanting kids thing later in life.
- sample text: that's still thinking pretty far ahead
- sample text: but there really are alot of flaws here
- sample text: I want more from you
- sample text: than you can give
- eroticism: I kno,w but that's my ultimate goal.
- sample text: Then I can't help you there.
- eroticism: Have kids, and give them a good childhood,
- sample text: the only option would be adoption or a surrogate but I already know how you feel about that
- eroticism: What's a Surrogate
- sample text: a surrogate mother, it's a woman who volunteers to birth your child for you
- sample text: you don't have sex with her obviously
- eroticism: what the fuck
- sample text: mhm
- sample text: ''a woman who bears a child on behalf of another woman, either from her own egg fertilized by the other woman's partner, or from the implantation in her uterus of a fertilized egg from the other woman.'
- eroticism: That wouldn't even be out kid then.
- sample text: ah wait
- sample text: nvm
- sample text: i was mistakne
- sample text: it's for when uhhh
- sample text: women who can't have kids
- sample text: well
- sample text: couples who cant
- sample text: it uses sperm from the male and an egg from the famel
- sample text: female
- sample text: but we're digressing
- eroticism: famel
- sample text: you know what I meant
- sample text: but we're getting off track here
- eroticism: Yeah
- eroticism: My body and mind aches,
- sample text: I know
- sample text: me too
- sample text: but really, I don't think this is going to work with us, and deep down I think you feel the same
- sample text: you just want it to
- eroticism: I just want to be happy.
- sample text: So do I
- eroticism: But i have no one else.
- sample text: and nor do I
- eroticism: I literally talk to no one else.
- sample text: nor do i
- sample text: and I feel like that's the real reason you want to be with me
- sample text: because I'm the only one
- eroticism: Don't say that.
- eroticism: I genuinly like you, and feel like you care about me and want the best for me.
- sample text: I do
- sample text: and I don't think taht you're going to get the best being with me
- sample text: and I don't think I'm going to get the best thing with you
- sample text: evidently
- sample text: all I've done is made you feel bad because you can't give me enough
- sample text: at one point you even proioritzed your videogames over me
- sample text: come on
- eroticism: So are you just wanting to end things right now?
- eroticism: I really don't want to leave and you commit suicide or something like that.
- eroticism: I wouldn't be able to live if that happenbed.
- sample text: I won't kill myself.
- sample text: I promise you
- sample text: I will not kill myself
- sample text: I want to
- sample text: alot of the time
- sample text: but I wouldn't
- eroticism: So are you never wanting to talk again...
- sample text: I could only really talk again if you changed
- sample text: completely
- eroticism: How
- sample text: we've already talked
- sample text: about everything
- sample text: come on
- eroticism: I won't make fun of you or mock you or anything.
- sample text: it's stuff that you can't change.
- eroticism: Oh fuck this I'm way too tired, my profile picture just moved
- eroticism: holy fuck.
- eroticism: I really want to be happy Skylar.
- eroticism: I've been emotionally abused all my life so I just shut things out and shut my mind down when things get tough.
- sample text: I know
- eroticism: I'm really sorry.
- sample text: I understand
- sample text: I really do
- sample text: and I want to persever through it
- sample text: persevere*
- sample text: but I don't think you can
- sample text: you're just going to keep wearing me down
- sample text: and I don't mean that to be mean of course
- sample text: but how long until you flip again
- sample text: and I can't deal with it anymore
- eroticism: My whole body hurts...
- eroticism: I really do care about you..please believe me..
- sample text: I do belive you Jordan
- sample text: I know you do
- sample text: I really do
- sample text: I don't doubt you
- sample text: I'm not doubting anything you're saying right now
- sample text: but I feel like being with you is only going to bring me more anguish
- sample text: I want more than you can give me
- eroticism: I need to sleep okay?
- eroticism: I want to talk more when I wake up.
- sample text: fine.
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