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- He destroys my will.
- He crushes my heart.
- He causes my mind to wear out.
- He afflicts my body.
- My soul weeps in suffering.
- He changes my spirit to pain.
- He lets abusers overwhelm me.
- He does not listen to my pleas for mercy.
- Although I have not sinned, he burdens me with evil.
- I say to him, "I love you," and he rejects me.
- He does not silence accusers from torturing me.
- He calls me guilty without my knowing why.
- I cry out to him, but my words are meaningless.
- I must forever be unsatisfactory in his sight.
- He ignores my praise and repays my love with hurt.
- He does not relent his harsh discipline until I fail.
- With both feet he crushes my head and my heart.
- I thought I would be rewarded with loving kindness.
- He has reduced me completely to nothing.
- I am rejected by both God and man.
- No one intercedes on my behalf.
- They see what is done to me, but I am already nothing.
- My cause has vanished, my purpose to be trodden.
- He makes me a path and pebbles to be kicked.
- He gives blind people words to teach me.
- He lets mockers insult his understanding.
- He makes me pour out myself to my enemies.
- With guilt he forces me.
- He controls my every thought so that I hate myself.
- I cannot stand, nor do I want to go on.
- He has created no escape from him.
- Yet I will not hate my God.
- He makes every act a struggle.
- His discipline enslaves me and contends with me until I am nothing.
- I collapse and am no more.
- I am silent, I am feeble.
- I look to him but his face is full of disappointment.
- He has already taken everything from me; I have nothing to offer.
- He demands from me my self, all that I am.
- I submit myself to him into torture and torment.
- I look at those around me and not one can understand.
- Even in death, I will never find rest.
- Both Death and Life have made themselves my enemy.
- How am I so hated? How am I so despised?
- Look at how detestable I am!
- I collapse on a bed with a mattress called pain.
- He tucks me into bed with a blanket of nightmares.
- And somehow, anyhow, it is all my fault.
- He makes me take on the punishments of those he shows me.
- He tends to the grass outside the door.
- And I am mocked by envy at the grace he shows the ignorant.
- But he makes me say, "Punish me, not them."
- He changes my words so my heart concedes defeat.
- I have no heart to ask why; I am not brave enough.
- I am a coward and a stubborn mule who needs a bit in its mouth.
- Even the ground I walk upon sinks beneath me.
- Even his footstool has rejected me.
- I should cry. My tears should fall. But even they cost water.
- I curse myself and reject all words of hope and comfort,
- For I know I will never find peace and I will suffer always.
- I say, "Look," but no one has eyes.
- I say, "Listen," but no one has ears.
- Have you ever seen dust walk on dust? Come and laugh at me, I'm a joke!
- Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. Let the world rejoice while I mourn.
- Let them lock me away in a prison to support my value.
- I said that I was best friends with Mockery and it smiled at me.
- I said God's Hand has smacked me.
- Why should I suffer the company of fellow humans when this is my reward?
- My portion is on my plate and he makes me stare at the heap on my plate.
- "Yet for all this I must still somehow thank God," men tell me.
- "You must love God for hating you."
- They say to me, "He loves you so much that he makes you eat from your master's plate."
- I have rejected his Spirit, all the value I am and was personally given.
- He can take back his mercy and throw me to suffer among other cowards and non-believers.
- Nothing I say or do will ever make me valuable to him.
- Worthless am I! Useless! Stubborn! Detestable!
- How horrible is my fate; this wretch is not even worth punishing.
- I am not even worth his anger; retribution would be wasted on me.
- If you can calculate nothing, you can see me.
- I assert, so reject me. I request, so deny me.
- Let all you non-believers take my words and twist them against me for your own purposes.
- But his name must be praised forever.
- His majesty is more valuable than me.
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