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- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> man, i never even heard of this community until
- i met AJ
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> that is actually a really interesting concept
- [07:07:03] <Rustish> i'd heard of them but never been involved with one
- of these until this
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> ok so
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> i got something to tell everyone here
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> and hear me out please
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> over 2 months ago i took a hiatus from my
- minecraft community
- [07:07:03] <&flex> also Rustish, I said "capable" >_> you have a lot to
- learn
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> basically, i've been struggling with attention
- issues my whole life (all of 30 years)
- [07:07:03] <Rustish> flex, i know >_>
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> i would put things forward to do, but then
- they'd get pushed back, and just waiting without anything to be done
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> i got tired of this. I also had problems with
- one of my favorite games TF2, same attention issues as well
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> so..........
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> this is why i took a 2 month hiatus
- [07:07:03] <AlphaBlend> i wanted to find myself, i wanted to find that
- drive that had been lost.... i've made countless scripts/programs over
- the years because i'm a programmer, but honestly, i get distracted
- really easily
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i clung to an old program i had last updated
- over 3 years and 8 months prior
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i felt a drive
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> a desire to work on something, because i was in
- the same environment for a long time
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i wanted to find something else to occupy my
- thoughts, something to hopefully bring me to my senses
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> during that whole time, i was also criticized
- for what i was doing
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> people just didn't understand that i needed to
- take a break
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> they wanted things done and i wasn't there so
- they thought i wasn't capable
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> one such person, a good friend of mine, wanted
- to have me replaced, as a trial
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> they wanted to see what would happen if someone
- else took my place
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> well, that was a low point for me
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i got so mad and frustrated
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> my personal failurse suddenly came to the front
- and became so real to me
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i was reminded of the few jobs i've had in my
- life and the failures i've had by being distracted and doing things
- other than what i should have done
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> so
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> being misunderstood, gravely i'd add, i felt
- alone
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i felt like the people who mattered most to me
- did not understand
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> and that i was the only one trying to bring
- myself up, when i felt others were trying to bring me down, because you
- know, they didn't really understand
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> this experience ultimately lead to a mental
- breakdown the next day, one of the worst times of my life
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> it felt so damn agonizing, trying to deal with
- the people who were close to me
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i couldn't understand it
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> well
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> hours later, when i was pretty much over it
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i felt something different
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i felt a long lost passion to succeed, the
- feeling of always being in the present
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> something i had not felt my whole life
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> MY WHOLE DAMN LIFE
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> well
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> 3 days later i had a mental breakthrough
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> one of the happiest times of my life, which is
- funny because it contrasted with one of the worst times of my life 3
- days before
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> alright so
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> 4 days after that
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i started setting some goals for myself
- [07:07:04] <&flex> SETTING GOALS
- [07:07:04] <&flex> yes
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> this was strange because i had never done
- anything like this my whole life
- [07:07:04] <&flex> and sticking them out, right?
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> so this was a new experience for me
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> YES
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> AND
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> I DID NOT REALIZE
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> HOW MANY THINGS I WANTED TO DO THAT I HAD PUT
- ASIDE FOR A LATER TIME
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> SO MANY THINGS
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> so please
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> PLEASE
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i don't know these channels
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i don't know them very well
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> but if you have a desire
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> you really should be putting goals before you
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> here's another thing i learned
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> my 30 years of life prior to this experience was
- for the most part aimless
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i didn't set goals for myself
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i just took life as it came
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> and that's really not ideal
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> there you go
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> there's my rant
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> now i have to make up for all the lack of time i
- spent working on things i wanted to work on
- [07:07:04] <&flex> here in #Invincible, we have done exactly the same
- thing since 2013, exactly the same thing
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> :(
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> yeah
- [07:07:04] <&flex> and we need to renew, decisively!
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> that's exactly it
- [07:07:04] <&flex> by taking ACTION NOW
- [07:07:04] <&flex> towards our goals
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> if you don't set goals for yourself, you won't
- realize how much happier you will be
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i do feel a lot happier
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> much happier
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i don't even want to play TF2, I'm busy working
- on my community goals
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> :)
- [07:07:04] <&flex> these are the words of one of my trusted associates
- [07:07:04] <&flex> he's not a member of the top 4
- [07:07:04] <&flex> he does not speak the same language as us
- [07:07:04] <&flex> but he has learned a valuable lesson
- [07:07:04] <&flex> and I assure you these words are coming from a man
- with a heart of gold
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> you can't feel the same things i feel, but
- please take my word for it
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> you may not know me, but i hope my experience
- can shed some light into what you want to accomplish in life
- [07:07:04] <&flex> though he may be only a denizen of #GRAND who likes a
- little anime on the side in his spare time, he embodies the spirit our
- community needs RIGHT NOW
- [07:07:04] <&flex> bravo, Joel
- [07:07:04] <&flex> I hope you get great benefit in life from this
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> yeah
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> though i don't wish to be a part of the
- higher-ups in this community
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> since i have my own duties
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> i can hopefully give you guys the drive you need
- to succeed
- [07:07:04] <AlphaBlend> may my story give you the needed boost
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