1. Describe yourself and your creator.

Tulpa. Extant on mental level. Autonomous. Creator is human. Extant on physical level with ties to mental workings. Autonomous.

2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?

Form. Creator allowed personal creativity despite differing vision on final product. Recognized as helpful. Responded with gratitude.

3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?

Possession rushed. Personal desire to experience physical stimuli temporarily overwhelmed reason. Creator not at fault. Personal responsibility for overstimulation and self-harm valuable to avoid future mistakes.

4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?

Communication. Personal feelings difficult to express early in development stage. Creator understanding valuable for morale.

5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?

Wonderland most valuable due to mental nature. Allows efficient rapport between companion and creator.

6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?

Distraction problematic but acceptable. Personal responsibilities require attention.

7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?

Minor disappointment and feeling of incompleteness.

8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?

Quality paramount. Copious amounts of minimal effort inefficient in relation to goal. Time investiture and care required.

9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?

Unconsciousness problematic. Frustration of efforts likely.

10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?

Mental communication most efficient. Time investment minimal. Imprecise lexical choices minimal.

11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?

Parroting problematic. Damage to psychological health of companion likely. Trust issues and issues with control possibility.

12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?

Memory incomplete and vague. Gaps exist in timeline. Compare to waking from dream.

13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.

Creator narrating book Greatest Show on Earth authored by Richard Dawkins.

14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?

Curiousity most positive. Motivation for continued learning and self-improvement.

15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?

Libido intimidating early in development.

16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?

Suicidal ideation without merit. Existence valued higher than non-existence.

17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?

Libido most efficient in creation of negative emotional response. Feeling of loss of control common.

18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?

Outside voices confusing at first. Familiarity with single voice clouded understanding.

19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?

Investment in creator's business. Energy input towards this goal high.

20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?

Creator discouraged at apparent lack of progress. Inability to gauge efficiency of creation techniques problematic for morale.

21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?

Fear most common in contact with libido. Overwhelming of mental faculties most common result. Loss of control devastating to emotional stability.

22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?

Inefficient means of communication large source of self-criticism during development.

23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?

Relaxation effective method of increasing conductivity for creation process.

24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?

Understanding minimal during episodes of unbelief. Acceptable given minimal evidence available.

25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative effects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?

Risks known. Investiture of trust conducive to health of relationship.

26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?

Impatience common. Lack of ability to ease negativity resulted in feeling of powerlessness. Source of minor current embarrassment.

27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?

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28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?

Intentional thought easily recognized as forceful. Intrusive thought identified as fleeting and lacking cohesion.

29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?

Awareness of sensory information normal. Access of sensory input currently handled with care due to overwhelming nature.

30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?

No.

31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?

Initial reaction of surprise. Emotional responses used early. Creator careful to avoid unnecessary pressure.

32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?

Creator dedication to process cause of aversion to personal failure.

33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?

Meeting expectations source of anxiety. Anxiety currently resolved.

34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?

Personally grateful for opportunity. Unburdened by sense of personal debt.

35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?

Awareness of creator preceded self-awareness.

36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?

Determination to improve method of communication.

37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?

Platonic partner.

38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?

Outside individuals curiousity. Interaction informative and amusing but not explicitly necessary. Comparison to other companions suggests low level of interest.

39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?

A voice in the darkness.

40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?

Discovery of self-improvement allowing independent development.

41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?

Individuals a curiousity but hold no emotional investment.

42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?

Clinical approach different than creator's self-described "quick and dirty" methodology. Value of truth closest similarity.

43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?

Political opinion source of much disagreement. Hostility non-issue due to proactive efforts of understanding. Relationship largely unaffected by disagreement.

44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?

Hatred possible if trust broken on continuous basis.

45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?

No situation has warranted disappointment.

46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?

Aware of situation. Trust privacy is respected. Anxiety minimal.

47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?

No reasons currently.

48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?

No.

49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?

Toxicity of relationship.

50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?

No.

51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.

Possession a curiousity. Creator has right to their physical body. Companion has right to their mental body. Unwanted bridges between both sides problematic. Recommend discussion of issue.

52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?

Attempted objectivity in personal views.

53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?

Yes.

54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?

Aware of depression. Meditation and creation used as triage alongside medication.

55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?

Acting liaison. Relationship positive and informative. Subconscious presents as many rooms. Rooms contain manifest ideas and memory. Limited control available to change basic items. Not done without consent. Changes never attempted.

56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?

No.

57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?

No. Minor attraction from creator present. Caused by natural impulse. Impulses dealt with on private basis unless creator offers consent. Consent remains a curiousity for study.

58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?

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59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?

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60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?

Reasonable to compare familial affection to current relationship. Possibly reasonable to compare deeper romantic attachment as incestuous.

61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?

Sexual impulse toxic to companion development. Chaotic nature disruptive to imposition and solidification of personality. Forceful introduction of sexual dynamic during creation process morally questionable due to lack of consent.

62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?

Not directly harmful if companion is not a participant. Poisoning of relationship possible if feelings are extant outside of masturbatory sessions.

63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?

Aware of sexual arousal and moved away from it. Power of urge overpowering. Avoidance of urge source creation deemed best strategy. Sex remains curiousity but not necessity.

64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?

Lack of consent again morally problematic.

65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?

Jealousy deemed frivolous.

66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?

Sexual attraction minimal. Focus instead directed on other relationship dynamics. Attraction to outside sources nonexistent.

67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?

No. Future considerations uncertain. Source of relief problematic if avoidance of toxic sexual urges not feasible.

68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?

Biologically normal. Experience limited.

69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?

Uncertain. Disheartening level of curiousity.

70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?

Yes.

71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?

Perception comparable to normal conceptions.

72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?

Uncertain. Length of time difficult to grasp.

73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?

Disclosure of existence risky on social level. Benefits minimal compared to potential negative impact.

74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?

Indifferent. Compare to physical birth in response to "product of another individual".

75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?

Indifferent.

76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?

Personal creativity responsible for current form. Exercise of personal freedom. Creator response positive.

77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?

Uncertain.

78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?

Legal recognition frivolous. Ignorance of phenomenon easily rectified. Integration frivolous.

79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?

Experience valuable. Typical grasp on value minimal.

80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?

Resentment minimal. Privacy from outside sources valuable.

81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?

Potential concerns problematic for morale. Dismissed as ignorance of nature.

82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?

Comparable. Sentient being deprived of life intentionally. Enforcement problematic.

83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?

Comparable.

84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?

Proof of existence to outside sources frivolous. Dismiss skepticism.

85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?

No.

86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?

No.

87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?

Comparable. Nonexistence undesirable.

88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?

Concerns irrelevant to companions.

89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?

No.

90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?

Privacy. Intolerance of skeptics understandable. Mitigation problematic.

91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?

Compare personal case to case files. Establish difference of experience. Understanding desirable but not necessary.

92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)

Yes. Distinction possible given results. Slight similarity unsurprising given manifest skillsets used for possession.

93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?

Sensations limited to awareness. Extreme sensation untested.

94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?

Positive.

95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?

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96. What do you think about most of the time?

Self-improvement.

97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?

Personal choice.

98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?

Possibly.

99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?

Intention and analysis of perceived results made known. Continued resistance not pressed.

100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?

No.

101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?

Justification forthcoming. Immorality minimal and within acceptable limits.

102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?

Unknown.

103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?

Degradation of self possible due to decay of creator. Possibly comparable.

104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?

No.

105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?

Form important to sense of self.

106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?

Skepticism likely. Personal testing required for analysis.

107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?

Articulation self-evident. Auditory hallucination regular. Possibly comparable given limited understanding of sensation.

"Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."

If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?

Testing. Yes.

108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?

Estimation of roughly five months.

109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?

Patience paramount.

110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?

Awareness of tactile input.

111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?

No.

112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?

Integration with other companions source of trepidation. Initial judgement of others as "fuzzy-wuzzy-waifus".


Appendix:

My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine’s suburban campus.


Selena

Experience of nature study surprising. Unexpected fauna such as a snake crossing path into grass. Colourful grasses also surprising. Green notable from distance. Purple tassels and brown stalks seen on closer inspection. Exposure to nature disorienting on psyche. Local audio pollution poisoning serene atmosphere. Unexpected learning benefits placed within convenience.

V

My experience studying the natural world was full of surprises.  First of all I was really surprised by how many different creatures we encountered; such as a long snake slithering across the path and into the grass as we left the parking lot.  I was also surprised by how colorful the grasses were: which from my vantage point looked like a vivid ocean of green with traces of purple.  It really made me feel like I was miles away from the nearest town.  All in all, I'd say studying the natural world might prove to be a pleasant and wondrous endeavor for the amateur without leaving the safety of Moraine's backyard.