Heh前週月曜日 午後8時50分
Just know
I care about you a fuck ton as i said, i care what happens to you as well, so if it goes too far and you end up ending it... Idefk what i would do with myself
Like
All i can ever think of is you
I eat breakfest, hey that reminded me of talking to Naomi
I go to schoo
l
Hey that reminds me of Naomi and her problems at french
I have a problem in english, i remember us talking about "assez " sounding like "asses" being smth you can never get enough of
I can go on
But like
I really just hope you wont end it all...
I have nothing to care about at all if you do ;-;
And im not even sure i'd make it if you did...
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時52分
You can go on living
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時52分
Like
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時52分
Go on with everyone else
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時52分
Well i could
But why would i
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時53分
Make sure Levi won't kill himself tho
Same for you
Don't.
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時53分
I dont even know what's going on with Levi
But like
If you're not gonna be around
I have no reason for living anyway
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時53分
yes you do(編集済)
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時53分
I'd go back to my normal i-dont-know-why-the-fuck-im-here
Routine
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時53分
You have a future
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時53分
Sure i do
But
If you're not gonna be there, what am i gonna do?
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時54分
Make someone else happy
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時54分
I dont want to do that
And who the fuck would actually want to be with me
I am socially awkward asf irl to most ppl
And seeing how shy i am, i cant start anything by myself
Like
Rn, if you leave me i'll just have literally nothing left to do
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時55分
You do
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時55分
And no other reason to really keep it up
What
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時55分
You do
There is nothing that keeps you away from staying alive
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時55分
Well
But
What keeps me alive?
You do
If you're not herre
Then what?
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時56分
Well what is the reason you won't be alive except for me not being here
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時56分
Nothing
Literally i just dont have anything else other than you
sure nothing is making me want to kill / harm myself
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時56分
See
So
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時56分
but vice versa
Nothing other than you
Is making me wanna keep ggoing
Im just not going to hurt myself cause nothing bad is happening, but nothing good is happening either
Two Tailed Devil Neko前週月曜日 午後8時57分
You're supposed to find your purpose in life, you won't just get one. If you lost one you need to find another one
Heh前週月曜日 午後8時57分
Well yeah, but i have a hard time figuring out what that would be, if not making you happy :/
That's all i ever wanna do
When you're not around, all i ever really do is talk to Rem about stuff i dont even remember like 10 min later, or thinking of you
When i fall asleep i think of you
Hell
Okay
Creepy but yeah
I even fell asleep just looking at a picture of you
and sorry
that was actually creepy this time
But well yeah
Like
I just
Cant ever get you out of my head :v
Idek... I mean it like i will never ever mean it toward anyone else when i tell you i love you
I really do :/
Realizing i can't be there for you like i am realizing now makes me cry, realizing i can't be helping you out more than just online, and even that might get taken away as well makes me want to hurt myself, i don't though cause i know you don't want me to cause i know how you feel about me doing that :v
Istg if you didn't love me, i would be the worst person in the world for being so obsessed with you... This is kinda what i was talking about when i say i don't wanna be too clingy, so uhh, yeah, this is why, sooo... Sorry :v
Heh前週月曜日 午後9時14分
Well... Just know, i hate feeling useless, like, that's the worst feeling for me, so not being able to help you out really hurts, and if you feel like you have to hide it from me, then in my eyes i really fucked up at some point, cause you won't even tell me if something is wrong... I know about the situation already, and ik that it wont just fix itself, and if it actually did, you'd deffinetly tell me cause that'd be weird as shit, so when you dont tell me about anything bad happening, i already know you're just hiding it, and knowing that you feel like you have to hide it from me makes me feel useless as shit, and it makes me hate myself cause im not even able to care for the person i love, i will never ever love someone this much again, so im really scared when you dont tell me stuff happening, especially since i my head that means you don't trust me enough to do so, trust or because you care for me... But even if it's bcause you care for me, then tell me, cause i know everything's not fine, i know shit is not just okay... And it hurts that you feel like you can't tell me about it cause of it hurting me, i wish you'd just forget about all that "dont tell him if it's gonna hurt him" crap, and just let me help you and talk to you as much as i can, i want to make you feel loved, cause you are loved, everyone in the group loves you as a good friend, some more than others, but no one in the group as far as i've seen straight up dislikes you, and you're especially loved by me, after all this, you're the only person i'll ever love like this again... Damn that turned out to be long, TL;DR fucking tell me if something's wrong please, i hate myself for not being able to be there for you ;-;
Heh前週月曜日 午後10時9分
Well... I love you so fucking deeply, so just please, do whatever you have to to stay alive and everything... Idc what happens to me, and ik you do, but please, compared to you im nowhere near the edge, so PLEASE, im begging you, tell me ;-;
Good night my love :heart: