I returned to education after two years off, I'm not sure I've picked the right major, let alone have a plan for the next years of my life, and also it's harder than I thought. My cognitive capacity has significantly deteriorated and this is super depressing. I've forgotten most of the Qur'an that I'd memorised too (which was nearly all of it).
Really everything is falling apart lol
My himmah for the deen is normally very high, and I had so many plans for this phase of my life, but now I feel so slowed down