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- [11:08 AM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: is this a new server?
- [11:42 AM] DotaFish: Yes
- [12:32 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: oki
- [12:32 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: why amn't staff?
- [12:33 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: not asking for it im just asking your reasoning
- [12:34 PM] DotaFish: I'm looking for people who I know I've seen act as staff and I'm looking for people who don't act on emotions
- [12:34 PM] DotaFish: I don't want people to be kicked/banned because somebody's feelings were simply hurt
- [12:34 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: you think id do that?
- [12:35 PM] DotaFish: Yes
- [12:35 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i really wouldnt.
- [12:36 PM] DotaFish: You are always emotional
- [12:36 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i act on impulse but i wouldnt do something as dumb as that(edited)
- [12:36 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: lmao
- [12:36 PM] DotaFish: I don't want emotional people as staff
- [12:36 PM] DotaFish: Don't take it personally
- [12:36 PM] DotaFish: I just need a logical body
- [12:36 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: tells an "emotional person" to not take it personally(edited)
- [12:36 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: ok
- [12:37 PM] DotaFish: Besides
- [12:37 PM] DotaFish: You get into a lot of trouble with the staff on Angela's and you get snarky towards them
- [12:37 PM] DotaFish: So I don't see staff like qualities
- [12:37 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: examples
- [12:38 PM] DotaFish: It takes 3 people 10 minutes to get you to make a legitimate apology about something
- [12:38 PM] DotaFish: And you only apologize when you realize you're like seconds away from being kicked
- [12:39 PM] DotaFish: You escalate simple situations to that point as well
- [12:39 PM] DotaFish: Something I don't want staff to do
- [12:39 PM] DotaFish: I hate escalation
- [12:39 PM] DotaFish: It is unnecessary
- [12:45 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: is that why we're not as good friends as we were before i showed you that part of myself?
- [12:45 PM] DotaFish: I've known that part of you as long as we've been friends
- [12:46 PM] DotaFish: And no, that's not why
- [12:46 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: then what is it
- [12:49 PM] DotaFish: That's a topic for another time
- [12:49 PM] DotaFish: But
- [12:49 PM] DotaFish: For now
- [12:49 PM] DotaFish: That's why you are not staff
- [12:49 PM] DotaFish: Because you don't have staff qualities
- [12:49 PM] DotaFish: Think of it like an actual job
- [12:54 PM] DotaFish: hugs
- [12:59 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: okay
- [1:00 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: so now its time for you to tell me why im not as good a friend as i was before
- [1:00 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: please
- [1:01 PM] DotaFish: I will when I get home
- [1:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: heck.
- [1:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im sorry
- [1:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: in advance.
- [1:04 PM] DotaFish: For wha?
- [1:05 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: for whatever you're going to tell me
- [1:05 PM] DotaFish: Ah
- [1:09 PM] DotaFish: Well don't be sorry
- [1:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i cant be sorry for lowering my position in the eyes in my friends?
- [2:34 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: can you say the words now?
- [2:37 PM] DotaFish: Not now
- [2:37 PM] DotaFish: I have to settle down
- [3:00 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: o-oh
- [3:00 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: okay..
- [6:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: ill just go fuck myself then
- [6:18 PM] DotaFish: hm?
- [6:18 PM] DotaFish: Sorry, I completely forgot
- [6:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: ok
- [7:09 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: so
- [7:09 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: are we just gonna like
- [7:10 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: never talk about it again then
- [7:10 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: just tell me so i can drop it
- [7:10 PM] DotaFish: idk
- [7:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: dies
- [7:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: are we even friends
- [7:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: do you even want to be
- [7:11 PM] DotaFish: Yes
- [7:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: are we as close as we ever were
- [7:11 PM] DotaFish: no
- [7:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: is it because of me
- [7:12 PM] DotaFish: Why did you ask that question
- [7:12 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: tell me, you were wrong about the thing about being an admin im sure you're wrong in whatever reasoning youre using to not tell me
- [7:12 PM] DotaFish: If I say yes you're going to get extremely sad
- [7:12 PM] DotaFish: Are you even prepared to hear me answer that
- [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: refer to previous statement
- [7:13 PM] DotaFish: I am not wrong
- [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: you are thought
- [7:13 PM] DotaFish: You couldn't even follow rule #2 on michelle's server
- [7:13 PM] DotaFish: You told me I need erecting~
- [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: and what did i immedeately do after
- [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i recognized my mistake, right
- [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but
- [7:13 PM] DotaFish: Yeah
- [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: thats not the point
- [7:14 PM] DotaFish: But you also keep getting on me about it
- [7:14 PM] DotaFish: Even on the server
- [7:14 PM] DotaFish: You were going to report one of my friends and you asked me if that's an admin like quality
- [7:14 PM] DotaFish: No, it is not
- [7:14 PM] DotaFish: to answer your question
- [7:14 PM] DotaFish: Constantly bugging me about it is not an admin like quality
- [7:14 PM] DotaFish: Accepting that you do not have certain qualities is an admin like quality
- [7:15 PM] DotaFish: Telling me I am wrong with my reasoning when it is my server and I know what I'm looking for in my admins
- [7:15 PM] DotaFish: Is not an admin like quality
- [7:15 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: oh
- [7:15 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: well
- [7:15 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i hate authority figures anyway
- [7:15 PM] DotaFish: I'm not going to try to sugar coat it
- [7:15 PM] DotaFish: I want you to know the truth
- [7:16 PM] DotaFish: And you have sealed your fate with your hatred of authority figures
- [7:16 PM] DotaFish: I do not discriminiate between friends and people who actually have the qualities I'm looking for
- [7:16 PM] DotaFish: I don't care if it's my friend or not
- [7:16 PM] DotaFish: That's why sarr isn't admin
- [7:16 PM] DotaFish: That's why endy isn't admin
- [7:16 PM] DotaFish: That's why you're not admin
- [7:16 PM] DotaFish: You are not alone in my friends who are not admins
- [7:16 PM] DotaFish: And continuing to bug me about it all day really does not make me want you as admin
- [7:17 PM] DotaFish: When I have stated already that no, you are not going to be admin
- [7:17 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: honestly thats why i have major anxiety when i ask my friends for literally anything.
- [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im sorry
- [7:18 PM] DotaFish: Nuh
- [7:18 PM] DotaFish: Don't be sorry
- [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: no
- [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i gave you shit for not making me admin
- [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: in a discord server that wont matter when we meet
- [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: none of this shit will
- [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: online anyway
- [7:18 PM] DotaFish: Yeah
- [7:18 PM] DotaFish: You can still talk to me and others
- [7:18 PM] DotaFish: But
- [7:19 PM] DotaFish: I take the staff position very seriously
- [7:19 PM] DotaFish: brb
- [7:19 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: and i understand why you dont trust me enough.
- [7:28 PM] DotaFish: Why's that?
- [7:29 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: because you trust me enough to get close to me, but you dont trust my interactions with other people
- [7:29 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: even though im p close with everyone else
- [7:29 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but i could see how you think we're not
- [7:30 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: just know michelle talked me through my blowing things up issue
- [7:30 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i feel like its gonna get better
- [7:31 PM] DotaFish: Alright
- [7:32 PM] DotaFish: I'll watch ya then
- [7:33 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: do you feel like thats why nwhis wont budge either?
- [7:34 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: actually
- [7:34 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: can you tell me why you think we arent as close now?
- [7:53 PM] DotaFish: what do ya mean by nwhis not budging?
- [7:53 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: about admininnig his server
- [7:53 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but the other question pls
- [7:54 PM] DotaFish: Nwhis takes it seriously on a similar level as me
- [7:54 PM] DotaFish: Anyway
- [7:54 PM] DotaFish: I suppose
- [7:54 PM] DotaFish: I will answer your question now
- [7:54 PM] DotaFish: But I dunno if you're going to like it
- [7:54 PM] DotaFish: I'm not going to sugar coat anything, alright?
- [7:54 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: ok
- [7:54 PM] DotaFish: alright
- [7:54 PM] DotaFish: Well
- [7:55 PM] DotaFish: It goes back a few months ago
- [7:55 PM] DotaFish: You have always come to me with problems and it's usually because somebody doesn't want to fuck you or be in a relationship with you
- [7:55 PM] DotaFish: And you claim to have nobody but you have everybody
- [7:56 PM] DotaFish: And when michelle said she wasn't attracted to you, it was quite bad
- [7:56 PM] DotaFish: I thought you had a huge problem
- [7:56 PM] DotaFish: But it was something as simple as michelle saying she did not want to be in a relationship with you
- [7:56 PM] DotaFish: Which seems to typically be your problem
- [7:56 PM] DotaFish: And nobody is ever enough
- [7:56 PM] DotaFish: Such as me
- [7:56 PM] DotaFish: Which is why you wanted to be poly
- [7:56 PM] DotaFish: Because you crave more
- [7:57 PM] DotaFish: I gave you my undivided attention and I was still not enough for you
- [7:57 PM] DotaFish: I didn't really have a choice whether to give you my undivided attention or not though because you never really let me talk to anybody else either
- [7:57 PM] DotaFish: You always thought I was fucking them
- [7:57 PM] DotaFish: Like michelle
- [7:57 PM] DotaFish: I've literally never fucked michelle and I don't plan to either
- [7:58 PM] DotaFish: But I let you cycle through like 3 doms
- [7:58 PM] DotaFish: And I let you fuck everybody
- [7:58 PM] DotaFish: You could not show me fairness though
- [7:58 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: could you not have brought this up..?
- [7:58 PM] DotaFish: I didn't want to hurt your feelings
- [7:58 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: wh
- [7:58 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: bangs head on a table
- [7:59 PM] DotaFish: Because you always have problems with somebody and I didn't want you to feel unloved
- [7:59 PM] DotaFish: But now it seems normal
- [7:59 PM] DotaFish: I feel like you've somewhat exploited my emotions because I feel you have merely clinged to me for emotional support
- [7:59 PM] DotaFish: For something that isn't even true nonetheless, like you not having anybody
- [8:00 PM] DotaFish: I have shown you my unconditional love
- [8:00 PM] DotaFish: But you just feel like I don't love you if I don't give you 100% of my attention
- [8:00 PM] DotaFish: Same for everybody else it seems
- [8:00 PM] DotaFish: I have other friends too
- [8:00 PM] DotaFish: I also have a life
- [8:01 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im so sorry
- [8:01 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i never meant for you to feel like that
- [8:01 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im crying now, looking back at it
- [8:01 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i fucking exploited you
- [8:01 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: what kind of a peice of shit am i
- [8:02 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i deserve the deepest level of hell
- [8:02 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im sorry
- [8:02 PM] DotaFish: No you don't
- [8:02 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i love you
- [8:02 PM] DotaFish: You are not a piece of s hit
- [8:02 PM] DotaFish: But I accept your apology
- [8:02 PM] DotaFish: You will learn though that
- [8:02 PM] DotaFish: I'm not actually cute and cuddly as it may seem
- [8:03 PM] DotaFish: I am michelle but worse
- [8:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: what do you mean
- [8:03 PM] DotaFish: I'm not going to sugar coat anything anymore
- [8:03 PM] DotaFish: I'm going to be entirely truthful
- [8:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: please do
- [8:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i want you to tell me when you have a problem
- [8:03 PM] DotaFish: But the difference between my truthfulness and michelle's truthfulness is that..
- [8:04 PM] DotaFish: I barely have any regards for how people feel
- [8:04 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: I didn't want to hurt your feelings
- [8:04 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: question mark?
- [8:04 PM] DotaFish: Because I wasn't being truthful with you
- [8:05 PM] DotaFish: But I feel like I'm done with the cute and cuddly phase
- [8:05 PM] DotaFish: I just want to be me now
- [8:05 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i completely understand
- [8:05 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im gonna miss the snuggly doat
- [8:05 PM] DotaFish: Eh
- [8:05 PM] DotaFish: It's not over
- [8:05 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but if this is who he wants to be
- [8:06 PM] DotaFish: Like
- [8:06 PM] DotaFish: I'm still a fluffy horse
- [8:06 PM] DotaFish: But I just want to be able to speak my mind
- [8:06 PM] DotaFish: Angela's server has transformed me into an rp machine, and not somebody who speaks
- [8:06 PM] DotaFish: Because I can't talk there
- [8:06 PM] DotaFish: So I'll still be all cuddly and stuff
- [8:06 PM] DotaFish: But I'm also going to speak
- [8:06 PM] DotaFish: If you get what I mean
- [8:07 PM] DotaFish: And I don't think you'll like it very much
- [8:07 PM] DotaFish: So I'm sorry in advance
- [8:07 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: no, you're usually wrong in you assumptions about me, so we'll see
- [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: now
- [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i wanna try this out
- [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: in your most truthful opinion
- [8:08 PM] DotaFish: Maybe you just don't realize some things about yourself
- [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: mayhaps
- [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but
- [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: do you think we could ever get back back together, now that i know what was bothering you?
- [8:08 PM] DotaFish: no
- [8:09 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: guess whos not crying?
- [8:09 PM] DotaFish: not you
- [8:10 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: there you go what those assumptions
- [8:10 PM] DotaFish: Well are you crying?
- [8:10 PM] DotaFish: Typically you make jokes like that when something is wrong
- [8:10 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: woag diana is online now
- [8:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: heck
- [8:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: adhd is fun
- [8:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but uh
- [8:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im sorry i fucked with you.
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