The actual apology! I NEVER thought I would write this, because when I first came here I thought it was unjustified. As time passed though and I talked about it with multiple mods and friends, I realize how much I actually did deserve it, and probably should've been purg'd long before this. The ultimate conclusion is that this brief time in purg was probably the best thing for me, as I can see the results of my actions a lot better than before. Let's begin the analysis.

The language
It's pretty noticeable how often I swear in a post, and people may often mistake this as rage. I'm not ALWAYS raging when I swear. But I have to remember that even though I grew up in a factory setting with the dregs of society, and I doubt many people here did, and this means I shouldn't carry that language to here. It puts me in a bad light, and puts whoever I represent into a bad light. I have to make a concerted effort to curb it in the more public places. This brings me to who I represent.

MS and the FNF Team
I knew things were getting bad, so I slowly hid away my affiliations to both those groups so they wouldn't get ragged on, although they did from those who knew I still existed with them. I have to say sorry to Vicious Pariah for reflecting bad on the team, even though I'm still part of it (I don't think he would KICK anyone out though). As for MS, I have no idea how many times I've lost my cool while being involved with them, and how many times I've wanted to leave because I knew my rage was harming them as a clan. Mobius approached me about that as far back as November even, and I still did little about it. Ultimately my rage was a leading cause in the decline of MS and poor reflection on the cool guys in it. In reality, I owe them a lot, considering all the bullshit they put up with because of me. I've already apologized to them a couple times, once more MIGHT make a difference. This brings me to the next point.

Competition
As I wrote prior to hacking v3, Eruanna is right. Competition destroyed me, and was definitely the deciding factor of almost all my rages. This is for a variety of reasons. First off, its not if I lose, its who I lose to and how they react to it. Losing to A3 so many times over the span of my competitive playing pissed me off every time. Same with everyone else. Maybe I just hate losing! It caused a lot of conflict between a lot of people and myself. Second, competitive postings and stuff. The "Ladder to Professional Play" thread in particular. I definitely lost my cool my in that thread, in fact my aim was to derail it and destroy the arguments enough to get it abyssed. Mainly this is because I can guarantee you Emzee hacks (several people agree with me) and it irked the shit out of me that a hacker was telling people how to play. There were a variety of alternatives I could've taken; I chose the wrong one. As for other competitive posts, I should've kept my cool and let people state their opinions, no matter how wrong I thought they were and trying to force my view on them. That is contradictory to what my actual goal was; to change patterns of thought, when in actuality I was giving people a choice: my way or get the fuck out. This brings me to another point.

OPINIONS
People have them. People state them. Changing someone's opinion is hard, and there is no use in going ballistic over it. Some people refuse to change their opinions, no matter what. That's just how it is and there is no way around it. The best way for me to approach an opinion I don't like is to calmly explain my point of view and expand on what I think is wrong without accusing someone of being retarded. Some of these opinions or statements are troll posts, which brings me to my last post.

TROLLS
People here think they are good trolls, when in reality they are pretty fail. But I make them successful by rising to pretty much any bait set out. This needs to stop, like, immediately. Ignore the trolls and close-minded individuals, and I should be ok.

Moral of the story!
I do owe you all an apology. I'm sorry for being an asshole unnecessarily, promoting a bad name for me and everyone who supports me. For me, it would be best if I stayed out of competition (stdl aside) and just focused on my modding and contributing to discussions in a courteous manner, rather than aggressive and hostile. I also have to thank you for purging me, as I said it was probably the best thing for me and who knows how much more out of hand I would've gotten.