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- My beloved and close one, shalom u’vracha!
- Your letter has reached my hand, and your words have reached my heart.
- You should know, my close one, that the existence of your letter disagrees with all of the descriptions contained
- within it. I will explain to you the meaning of this sentence.
- A failing many of us suffer is that when we focus on the ultimate level of attainments of great people, we discuss
- how they are complete in this or that area while omitting mention of the inner struggles that had previously raged
- within them. A listener would get the impression that these individuals came out of the hand of their Creator in
- full-blown ideal form.
- Everyone is awed at the purity of speech of the Chofetz Chaim, considering it a miraculous phenomenon. But who
- knows of the battles, struggles and obstacles, the slumps and regressions that the Chofetz Chaim encountered in
- his war with the yetzer hara? There are many such examples, to which a discerning individual such as yourself
- can certainly apply the rule.
- The result of this failing is that when an ambitious young man of spirit and enthusiasm meets obstacles, falls and
- slumps, he imagines himself as unworthy of being “planted in the house of Hashem”. According to this young
- man’s fancy, flourishing in the house of Hashem means to repose with calm spirit on “lush meadows” beside
- “tranquil waters” [Tehilim 23] delighting in the yetzer hatov, in the manner of the righteous delighting in the
- reflection of the Shechinah, with crowns on their heads, gathered in Gan Eden. And at the same time, untroubled
- by the agitation of the yetzer hara, along the lines of the verse “Free among the dead” [Tehilim 88].
- Know however, my dear friend, that your soul is rooted not in the the tranquility of the yetzer tov, but rather in the
- battle of the yetzer tov. And your precious, warm-hearted letter “testifies as one hundred witnesses” that you are a
- worthy warrior in the battalion of the yetzer tov. The English expression “lose a battle and win a war” applies.
- Certainly, you have stumbled and you will stumble again (a self-fulfilling prophecy is not intended) and in many
- battles you will fall lame. I promise you, though, that after losing those campaigns you will emerge from the way
- with laurels of victory upon your head and with the frey prey quivering between your teeth. Lose battles but win
- wars.
- The wisest of all men has said “A tzadik falls seven times and rises again” [Mishlei 24]. Fools believe the intent of
- this verse is to teach us something remarkable - the tzadik has fallen seven times and yet he rises. But the
- knowledgeable are aware that the essence of the tzadik’s rising again is by way of his seven falls. “‘And He saw
- all that He had made and behold, it was very good.’ ‘Good’: that is the yetzer tov. ‘Very good’: that is the yetzer
- hara” [Bereshis Rabba 91].
- My cherished one, I clasp you to my heart, and whisper in your ear that had your letter reported on your mitzvos
- and good deeds, I would have said that I had received a good letter from you. As things stand, with your letter
- telling of slumps and fails and obstacles, I say that I have received a very good letter from you. Your spirit is storming as it aspires to greatness. I beg of you, do not portray for yourself great men as being as one with their
- yetzer tov. Picture rather their greatness in terms of an awesome war with every base and low inclination.
- When you feel the turmoil of the yetzer hara within yourself, know that with that feeling you resemble great men
- far more than with the feeling of deep peace, which you desire. In those very areas where you feel yourself falling
- most frequently - particularly in those areas, do you have the greatest potential for serving as an instrument of
- distinction for the honor of Hashem.
- You do not want to deceive me, that I’ll think of you in a really good line you are so and so, and so and so seven
- times. But as for me, what do I have from all these seven? For me the foundation work is that during the past
- winter you have acquired a proper knowledge of the laws of monetary damages. You reviewed several times the
- masechta that you learned. Do not deny it, this is a crucial fact. In this fact is hidden the secret of the victory in
- your fight between your instincts.
- You write: "I will never forget who the desire to succeed and to go from strength to strength. But unfortunately I
- have already lost hope." I do not know how you dare to deny reality - have you not risen from strength to strength
- from that time you came to study?!
- I know you are not insolent, that the following is not accurate: if you find yourself to be consumed and overcome
- by evil, you think foolishly and naively that you've lost your hope. Your words simply lead to ridicule. I participate
- in your suffering, but suffering is the incubator of greatness. I saw your face when learning halacha. I saw your
- face when listening to the lessons. I saw your face on the night of shvi’i shel Pesach. The signs engraved on the
- face during the above are the signs of "in the end honor will come." The path of honor is not straight - the path of
- honor goes through turns “like a serpent by the road, or viper by the path” [Bereshis 49]. Is the venom of a snake
- within you? “It will strike at your heel, and you shall strike at its head” [Bereshis 3].
- I found it necessary to offer these things to you in a letter. The intention is to give enable you to review them
- occasionally. It should be obvious that I did not have the intention to address anything but the general line. With
- regard to individual points, it would be preferable to speak directly one to another.
- You are the one who is planted in the house of Hashem!
- With the participation of your suffering, with confidence in your victory, and with prayers for your success,
- Yitzchak Hutner.
- PS Now you understand the first sentence of the letter, that your letter is contrary to the descriptions contained
- within.
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