mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 hiii :3

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 Hey. c:

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 hows yoouuu?

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 Sickly, sort of miserable, but good I guess. c:
 You?

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 aaww
 im fine!
 i just thought of something

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 What's it?

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 well....remember that i told you that im going to try to go on welfare?

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 Uh huh.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 well if i stay on the welfare long enough, i can save enough to go to Otakuthon this summer!

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 ...that's a horrible way to use welfare though. :\
 You're aware that money comes from people like me right.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 well yes
 but im not going to use it all
 i will save up

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 ...you're still with your parents right?

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 yes

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 Okay. Not going to lie, I think that going on welfare while you're still living with your parents is a bad idea.
 I mean, if you were in an apartment alone or with someone else, I can get that. You have rent and electricity bills and the lot.
 But, really. :\

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 mhm
 well my parents said i can use it for whatever i want but ill definetly save up
 so ill use it for whatever i want

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 It just sounds extremely unfair.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 then thats too bad
 you dont even know why im wanting to go on welfare

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 Last time you mentioned your reasons, you said it was because you wanted a new computer and videogames.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 no thats not it

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 Then please update me.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 well lately i've been having pretty bad anxiety and its getting worse and also since i live in quebec and dont know any french and i have tried my best to learn it and i really really have tried but i failed miserably....it does not click into my head

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 ...jsyk, I have panic attacks on the bus every time I go to work
 Just saying.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 plus other things that my parents mentioned to the psychologist
 and my anxiety happens around night time and if i get an anxiety attack when im trying to fall asleep, i start to become upset and it grows and then i become angry
 and then i have lack of sleep and feel blehh the next day
 and i mean really blehh

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 ...and all of this prevents you from finding an appropriate job.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 in a way
 its just me not knowing any french prevents it

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 It's just.
 I know a lot of people at Dawson who speak french about as well as a Texan, but most of them have jobs.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 your point being?

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 Not speaking french makes it harder, but not impossible, to find a job. :\

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 well anyways im still going to try to go on welfare and there will be no second thoughts

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 Well that's nice.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 i can sense some jealousy so i apologize for bringing up this topic

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 Jealousy, what the fuck.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 am i wrong?

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 So far from the track you're on another galaxy.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 i see

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 I have two jobs, pay my own bills, expenses and help my parents pay theirs. I'm not jealous. I'm pissed there are people using the system because they can't find a job appropriate for their level of education or language.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 thats jealousy

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 Wh--
 Your.
 What.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 a form of jealousy

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 No, that's being confused and upset.
 Because I don't understand how you can even dare think that because you have anxiety problems that you can't get a job.
 I have a friend who has to be excused from half her classes because of physical repercussions of PTSD, PPD and bipolarism, and even she has a job.
 I almost pass out on the bus going to work and break out in cold sweats walking to my other job, and I don't back out of anything.

mishioshufox@hotmail.com dit :
 then thats you

Ｓｈｏｔｇｕｎ dit :
 So, no, this isn't jealousy, or envy, because if that were the case, I would be thinking that I wish I could take the easy way out.
 But I am so. no.
 t.
 I enjoy working for my own money rather than taking it from people who've worked hard for it, and have to give even though they're thousands of dollars in debt.
 But, really, you go ahead and take the easy way out of it and take from those who can barely keep their families housed.
 Go ahead.