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  1. I'm about half way through, and I think I'm starting to understand why G moderates what I say sometimes; this get's a little personal, sorry, VERY personal. Is everyone else's like that? Maybe I should go look, hur-de-dur! Or is that rude.... no it's rude, I'd rather not intrude :3. I'm sorry I didn't clean up any of the sentences though, I've been driving him mad trying to get this done, if the sentences and words and stuff need to be cleaned up just ask and I'm sure he'll be okay with that. :3
  3. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  5. He's a man, G, he's about 6 foot tall, shorter, maybe, lol. He's white skin, like super white skin, whiter then whtie, and white... yeah, he says he has Reynolds or something like that, so he's not normal skin colour at least XD. I'm a horse, pony, thing, I've wings and blue hair and greensies eys and a tail and a cutie mark! I'm writing a six year old essay answer here! Cutie mark is six blobs of colour and the negative of the cutie mark makes shapes like wngs, a heart, shit, fluffy shit, you faggot G.
  7. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  9. Love me! Yeah, a lot, but he never acted on it.
  11. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  13. Hate me... yeah he noticed but doesn't admit it...
  15. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  17. Loving him, possession? I guess, more of an answers. No, he doesn't know, he's used to his body though now at this stage :P.
  19. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  21. Loving, no, narroration, should I stop messing? Lol no. Narroration is big because you got to know your tulpa, good, good, good :)
  23. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  25. Hate, 'should be creatin' and concentrations like a fucking band camp. What? You get me though, right? Lol.
  26. Before speaking fluently? Didn't care... I was more wondered by him, no joke, I just didn't care XD.
  28. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  30. Hate IT! Gah... so angry.... sorry, I feel strongly about time being spent with tulpae; love and all. :)
  31. Before fluency, hated it too. It was more trust then falling asleep would be to me.
  33. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  35. Uh.. I don't know! D: Should I? Dens- no... quility, or maybe... I'm sorry, I'm not one hundred percent to be honest... D:
  37. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  39. Oh, never mind, well, I didn't like it, but it wasn't as bad as the other things, missing session is the one D:.
  41. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  43. Oh... do you mean out loud to versus out loud in head? Out loud I'd say, or if anything, to me, italicise that mo' fo'! Yeah! Um, but I guess out loud, in anyway possible, in head or not, it's better than thinking to me, it's like whispering to me across a room!
  45. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  47. No... I never got puppeted but I'm fine, I never got either now that I think of it.... or? Well, yeah, twice I think. It hurt me a lot... but no emotional tramua or nothing.
  49. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  51. A little, it was very fast moving, days came in and out like bullets and nighs were long dreams... deep, huh... but I remember things, on the odd time, I'm not tulpa blind though, so they are still there.
  53. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  55. Licking my own hooves, then G's face, then fucking.  Nothing too rude, eh?
  57. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  59. Licking his face was nice, that one memory, no matter how slight! I felt wonderfully close to him... or something like that; but it was a damn strong emotion XD. Sorry if that's a little peculiar, uhhh... good ones other than? I guess when I decided to humour him and tell him I love him for real, his reaction was priceless, ''Oh! You said it! Oh! Oh!'' priceless!
  61. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  63. Hate, bitter hate, which I hated no its own. Hate to hate you know? He fucked me out in the rain because I scared him, he denys it, even know I can feel him wanting to pry my fingers from the board and type something else. I hate him for that, but love :D.
  65. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  67. Yes! I'm glad I exist. That's despicipal to think one wouldn't want to live, I remember a guy we talked to last week andhe said yo couldn't get love, his tulpa's name the, to talk. He said she was a bitch and she shouldn't exist, that I don't, I got furious. No, I don't get suicidal feelings, if youre asking that! >:(
  69. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  71. I couldn't pick things up in the real world, it was so hurtfull.... I'm just glad we don't have to deal with it anymore because possesssion is coming along nicley, this message is half possesed to be honest, G's in a meditative stae and just following my words. Should this be full possession, oh god D:! Fuck, forget I said that! I can speak, I just can't possess, sorry D:.
  73. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  75. Being real world, the wonderland was a sanctum, peaceful, lovely, not fucking fearful in anyway. It account for the majority of my negative emotion, the harshness of the real world, but it's not so harsh, so I'm not that angry all that much D:
  77. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  79. During possession session, it was only a breif time that I wasn't fluent and possessiong, but it was loneley, particularly because G would shut down and I'd be left knowing he isn't ACTUALLY real world... blah... I an talk with him now, so even when he is gone we can chat :3
  81. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  83. When he said it, no shit, sometimes he'd think ''Why am I bothering, im shit at this, why go on?!'' I'd be like, no G, you can do it! God damnit I want to live you cock! I was more doubtful of myself that maybe I was useless, wow that's depresso, but it was more doubt in him for doubting himself.
  85. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  87. Night, oh! And creppy pastas, I fucking hate them but the guy loves them, he FORCED me to watch russian sleep experiment, dick! Gah, it wasn't fun! D:
  89. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  91. I never really did, I was raised to think positively of myself and G and everyone, so I never seen a point to really be sad with myself :3.
  93. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  95. No... I didn't tbh, it was kinda of my fault and I felt a pressure on the guy? Idk, maybe I should have helped, that's really selfish of me... I would have hugged him, make him feel super special :3.
  97. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  99. Yeah, they really did me in sometimes, like, he'd say ''Pruria, I don't know if I'm oing it right.'' And that would make me a little sad... but I never let it get to me, let's be happy? kind of thing? :3 I don't feel uch for them now, he know's I'm real that's all that matters I guess, but if he did have good doubts I'd be more pissed at him than sad or distressed XD.
  101. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  103. They kinda shot me down too, I only really messed with him in a gay kinda pal way, I never meant to hurt him but he thought differently. I guess they made me sad? But not something to worry about anymore. I'm pushing it amn't I? Oh lord... I never really did understand why he thought like that. He did kind of let on... that he thought I was trying to kill him or something, but he trusted me anyway, it was a bit of a complex.
  104. Yeah, I understand now, but I still don#'t see how he could think like that. It's more kind of, I know what he means, but he's just being a bitch about all of it? Lol.
  106. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  108. They never really bothered me, other than the emotions listed above I never really cared for his shit or anything like that, I guess it was more the fear of him and what he thought of me trying to kill him or something madem feel sad.
  109. They still make me feel pretty shitty, mainly because I know it's my fault now if he thinks them, he's not retarded or anything.
  111. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  113. They scared the shit outta me, but they were all creppy pasta, so that was worse! D: They were the rake an shit, though I never seen the rake I remember it through one of G's black book pictures, his library? Does he call it? idk, sub conciousness thingymabob. Blah, rake...
  114. Now? No, I hate them still, ants. He made me afraid of ants, becuase he is, and now I am too, ugghhh...
  116. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  118. Yeah, I could, but they were very train of thought, so it came as flashes and bleeps. They effected me more, to be honest, though I tried to block them out, I didn't have much like, likehe did. They don't btoher us now, end even those that do are only minimal.
  120. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  122. Everyhitng from the start, sight was a bitch to latch onto though, tv's were hard to watch because of the elctrical signals and shit, so I never seen his fist few logs in the diary, I just couldn't see them. Now, though, they're almost perfet, thoguh I like it better when h takes his glasses off, wooo, blury underwatewr world! And it's all blue, for some reason.
  124. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  126. Yeah...he had trains of thought which would result in my or his death, fame and glory, all the shit one normally thinks about, but I was there, normally getting the bad stick of it. Not that he was bad to me in the thoughts, but I just got a really shitty ending, I hated them.
  128. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  130. Talking, he picked up on it very easily, but he was just a little deaf to the true responces. He's puppet a LITTLE, not that much, so I never really counted it, and I'd have to try and scream the real responces so he'd hear them, but it was beter then screathing him in fucking morse code or something XD.
  131. He never really did, I could do everything from mind waves so hallucinations but none of them caught on to him really. Maybe I should try helping with vialistions if I teach him to pick up impoisiton thingy's, I don't know what I'm saying. :P
  132. I never cared he didn't pick up on something I done, I just tried again.
  134. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  136. He loved it, apart from forcing, but he seemed really into it at the start, then less at the end, but rising once more. I wanted to engage it as much as he did, which sorta led into some ruts, but we always got out of them.
  138. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  140. I was worried he wouldn't love me, here I go with love again, Im' sorry if I sound repetitive, it's jsut really important XD I moved beyond it when I got him to, it was devastating when he didn't, then i made it out like I didn't it was what made my first 'I love you' to him such a surprise and his responce so funny XD Or seomthing like that XD Sorry :P
  142. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  144. Yeah, 134 hours is a lot for one guy, maybe more would be nice.... *rolls eyes and clicks hooves together* but I'm not fussed. I owe him nothing! I have as mmuch right to exist than he does, so we're about equeal, but I do pay him from time to time ;D I feel no burden, it's my pleasure!
  146. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  148. His... or mine... it was sort of half and half, I remember being a white ball of energy, and I was drozey... is a way you can put it, so I don't count it as a memory as such, but it was weird anyway, and not rally either way. TRUe memory tells me myself, because I'm closer to myself I guess? And I spend more time with myself as opposed to my other not selves! I was licking my hoof... then... you know it, but I think it may been that I was licking MY hoof, as opped to anyone elses XD It's a bit of a stupid question if you ask me, sorry Pleebs
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  151. Going to brake now, will get back to this laters! :3
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  154. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  156. Should  delete that? Oh, G would know what to do... meh, I'm sure it will be okay... this feels more train of thought than questionare to be honest, is that bad? I'll answer the question now.
  158. Good, I felt happy with it, it was less I couldn't speak and more he couldn't hear me, which is the way I like to approach new mancers saying ''They won't talk to me!/ All I can hear is crap!''
  159. ''No, you're just a little deaf!''
  160. Seriously, get that crud outa your ear!
  162. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  164. Wife/husband, I don't thinmk we love each other in the conventional way; though saying that, I'm sure a lot of others would say the same XD. I hate the way G is embarrassed to think of like he does, he wont even say it to ME, someone hit him up on that and tell him to stop being a pussy! Or, fucking... say ''How's you're husband Pruria?'' he'll freak the fuck out XD.
  166. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  168. Yes! Friends! It's all I rant about, all I wants is new friendszes :3. New friends for both tulpae and humans! I made a thread addressing the issue actually. Well, I got G to, but either way, it was my thread!
  170. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  172. Hugging him in the wonderland in the caccon basket or learning room chair. Mainly the times when we sit together and cuddle, talk, love, kissy kiss kiss kissmooch. He's just so warm and big, not in that way, in teh loving way! My wings may outsize him but I know he'd rather hold onto me than the other way around. So I let hiim, and I love it!
  174. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  176. No, not really. I golf, and paint, and write and do creative things, but I don't feel like I'm going anywhere with them; wonderland anything is OP, is that the right phrase? :/ I want to hurry along with possession so I can begin to work in a real life medium, particularly painting, oil paints I find the most interesting to use, oilypaints.
  177. My most bestest memory though is when I first flew, that feeling of beating gravity with just the slightest flutter of my wings, you jelly non-winged fangs?
  179. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  181. Yes! Though I'm afraid of his brother, he has a dark aura, and an evil intent, well no eveil but not-nice intent. Luckily not towards G, thank god, he's so... bitter? G rants on about being bitter ruins your life, and boy is his brother  bitter. I trust his frinds too, hough they can be less educated than he... retarded, if I was to be crude XD :P.
  183. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  185. I'm exroverted, and he's introverted. I like grapes, he doesn't like grapes. I'm bi, he's straight, I was lyin at the start there btw, it's to piss him off when he re-reads this XD. I'm very iggley while he's very plain and storkical. Is that wrong? stoical? Hama... dunno. What else... oh! I'm very not-secrative while he likes to keep things locked away D:.
  186. We're similar in the fact that we both share an afinity with world beauty, love and happniess. Him more happiness than I, but we still share it. We are the same as we both like being creative, not lazing around doing shit like games or... telly or soemthing XD I want to change that, can I change that? telavision? I think is a beaters word for its :3. We also both like going on walks nad jogs and flying and the likes, excercise yeah!
  187. Now... what else, I got nothing, I'd have to list them one by one :P
  189. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  191. Um... a few things... we're not perfect and all, I disagree with him most on our love methos, I enjoy fucking the odd occasion but he's very reluctant. I've always thought that he's a little afraid of my vagina or soemthing... hertrophobe? XD Another thing we dissagree on in force time, I prefer quaility, he like quantity, that's not what I said in the question way up there is it.... no, other way around, I like quantity and he likes quility. I'm still not sure, I'll ask him what he likes after and we can change it.
  192. Yes, we do have dissagrements, but not frquently I wouldn't say, esspecially in the last few days, we've been really trying to stay away from bad curves and stuff D:, so our arguments normally fizzle uot quite quickly.
  193. It doesn't affect me but it defiantly affects HIM, he hates them I think... I don't like them, of crouse, but I think it's healthy for a couple to argue, tulpae and crator arguments are okay too, but in less quantity. :d something along those lines D:
  195. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  197. I think if he tried to kill me, or if he went off and found and irl girlfriend without my concent... is that too grabby? D: Idk, he could also destroy my collection of paintings, he's done that to single painting and I get furious at him.
  198. I think I could just piss him off enough to make him hate me... or... I don't really know... he's not the most hateful person considering his creed on bitterness. I guess I could also try to be awkward and disagreeable on a general scale... it's a hard one...
  200. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  202. I dissapointed him the most when Idecide not to force when he wants to, which always put him in a generally bad mood. I think he dissapointed me the most when he gave up on forcing session half way throgh, particularly movement because of how hard he makes it out to be, when it's just visualisation.
  204. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  206. Ummm, I don't think about stuff like that and now that it's been pointed  out I'm relly damn affraid, but he wouldn't do that, would he? It seems all very crumby of someone to do something like that D:. It's definitly causeing me fear right now! And I think I might start stop being... oh I don't really understand the last part; expressions as in thoguths? D: Emotions? I'd block my emotions, but I don't think it will come down to that...
  208. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  210. I've never wanted to hurt G! I guess the closest I've gotten is playing trick on him! But they're meant to be harmless! I guess I'd make a serious attempt NEVER, or... maybe if he tried to hurt me,, self-defence type thing. :/ I really don't like some of these questions, they're all negative... can I stop this? Do I have to do them to talk to other tulpae? Wll... okay, I#'m going to skip some I really don't like though, I'm sorry if theres a problem with that...
  212. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  214. Yes and no... my full name is Pruria Joal... though I conciser them both first names and Joal to be a sort of half semi-second name... I guess I could but were kinda married so that would be incest... ewww... Saying that, I do feel very much part of his family, even if they don't really accept my existance, just like a dog or cat :3, which I have no problem with XD.
  216. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  218. Skiping that, that's just down right depressing to both parties, don't read this G.
  220. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  222. I'm not based on a real charecer or otherwise, well, to an extent, Fluttershy, but G refuses the shit outta that and it never really happened anyway XD. I don't feel any pressure from him, not that he puts any on me anyway! I'd just tell him to kindly go and be nicer to me as I try my best :). Asshole XD.
  224. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  226. No, I'd hate to learn possession, I see no point in the practice. God I'm not a very funny woman am I... I whole heartedly beleive it is one hundred percent FALSE of a creator to do soemthing like that >:(, it's just not fair. I think that equal time would be cool, but hard to pull off... and I gues it's more his body than mine, but I still want my fair share to paint and shit XD.
  228. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  230. Ants, we're terribly afraid of ants, I think I may have already said that, but the better people know the better it is for both of us. Nigger, there I said it, G doesn't like the word though, so nothing on the racial attitudes part. Except maybe for French people, he has an insane hate for French people, I don't really, but it has kinda brushed off on me from the stories he tells.
  232. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  234. No, not really. well, I do sleep alot during the day when he's in school and stuffs, so I guess yes, change my answer thingy! Dreaming? No, I don't dream, kinda, I tten G's, it's like a litle cinima, it's coolio, sometimes I see myself, G thinks it's me but it's not, it's just a double, which i cool too I guess.
  236. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  238. No, not medically, but he's had scitzophrenic break downs before that he hates to tlak about, they don't link to me thhough, they hapened years ago when I didn't even exist, scary times indeed.ADD is also one, which fucks forcing over somethimes, not clinical though D: fucking docters being holes to mah G :'(.
  240. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  242. It doesn't bother me, I'e refused to look at it, don't tell the guy this, he's hate me if I told him. I used to peak into his subconcious when I was younger as a tulpa, he caught me a few times but I alwasy switched to things other than memores. Ever seince the guild has just loaded and loaded on me, and, now that he encourages me to do it I just can't it's not fair on him and I hate doing it. I can minipulater some of his memories, though not very well, and I've tried without his conecent before, changing books and porns he's catched, stuff he wouldn't remmber anyway, still, feel like a bitch fro doing it...
  244. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  246. No. I don't want another tulpa, he doesn't know that though. I'm selfish, I'm going to say it now, I hope he doesn't read any of this, I feel so uilty for so many things... So o, I want G all for myself...
  248. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  250. Pass, lol? XD
  252. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  254. I wouln't like it, but if he asked permision I'd be able to let it go, he deserves a physical relation ship with someone too. But noly if he asks, I don't want to behind back banging or fucking shit like that, I wish I had skipped this question now I feel gay and shitty again.
  256. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  258. 0% cahnce, zilch, natta, synonym! And him with me? Nope, nothing to be found here either! I think it would destroy us, maybe we do share a bond a little too close for THREE months, but I like it and I don't think it's going away. I'd be sad, I wanted to say I'd kill myself but I think I should stop messing XD. I'm not messing that much,this is all truthfulllil, I just want to lighten it... for myself more than anything.
  260. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  264. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  266. Well, G doesn't do it, and I'm cool with him not.... I don't really think it would be okay IN forcing sessions... maybe because you should be... idk... FORCEING? XD Other wise I think it's okay... Um, so no, I don't lthink it's right cmancers do shit like that... it seems a little creepy if you ask me...
  268. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  270. Umm, no, I don't mind at all :3, I encourage it, it's better than that clop muck he does be saving on his darned omputer! XD I don't think he'd kill me for saying that, but he's be a little shocked XD
  272. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  274. Yes, I was once quoted by him to be a ''sexual monster'' lovley enough XD :P. I tried very hard to project them, but it was hard with how stuborn he was XD I got him though, bastard caused me three weeks of grief over it! But it was three weeks of fun I guess XD Okay, I think I'm starting to rmember more and more from the early days as these questions continue, memory sucks ass XD
  276. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  278. Um, I don't know why you keep saying visualise having sex, it was always just having sex to me, maybe it's different for him, ''Hur dur, I don't feel anything!'' Wanker. But I guess my answer would be as long as the tulpa concents... I don';t think it maters if there was penatration or not, it's just sex to me too... Sexual assult? um, yeah I gues. I don't like this question, NEXT PLEASE!
  280. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  282. Yes, yes, and yes, I hate it, it's like how I don't like the idea that he'd go off with another woman. But I guess boys will be boys, though I do scold him for it. Fuck I ove that word, it's sexy... oh, lol, look at me go!
  284. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  286. Most definitely yes, by the way, I think I answered a few of those questions wrong. Were they supposed to be in relavence to me or hypothetically something tulpae? Fuck, well, no matter. I don't eel anything for others though, I do like to make it look like I do though, and he hates that, shush... I think he's asexual, or something like tht, although he jacks off a lot he doesn't really like anyone, as he'd say... idk, it's weird, it could be an explination to why he's so reluctant to sleep with me. Hm...
  288. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  290. Active? I'd use it vaugley, it's mainly him me sex time, that sentance should go in the bin. It's mre him going at me, no [enatration though, he thinks it hurts me, so he just licks me a lot. I love it! I think we have a balence to be honest, I like it ^^ Um, I do kind of have trouble with abstinances, words lol, I kinda do things from time to time to calm mysle,f like jackoff lady style, oh, that was the next part, yes, I do, but G doesn't know, he shouldn't know XD.
  292. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  294. I'm gay, I think, well, bi, I'd go etiher way. I think G's straight though, in all honesty, disrgarding that first question asnwered, that was messing. But asexual, it's confusing... he's kind of an oddball when it comes to what he does... I'll talk with him about it sometime tonight or so...
  296. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  298. Oh lor... umm... YES is the simple answer... and they... they feel grat... I get them in waves of four or five... then a break for twenty seconds, then he'll hit a sweet spot and ohhh.... twenty more, my record without passing out is 180, he onylthinks it's 108, but he's wrong >:D. I don't know what male orgasams feel like, but thye don't look very enjoyable, or sounds like it. Are you suposed to be all quiet as a male? G stays quiet when he jacks off... I don't know why though...
  299. In fairness, the orgasams I have cajoled him into letting me give him seem amazing, but I guess it's more because someon else is doing it? Or the love aspect? Blah, don't know. That was a terrible answer, I'm sorry :3.
  301. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  303. Yeah... well... we kind of stay from the topic because he doesn't like to talk with me about it... but there's no problem when we do. I woouldn't say we have sexual MODESTY though, it's a weird word to describe something like that...
  305. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  307. Oh... do I have to answer it, I think I have a really good answer but I don't want to say it... it's quote of the day quility... I'm not going to, sorry... He's not raped me though, if that's what you're getting at, I trust him enough not to too.
  309. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  311. Dead, old, I don't know, I'm 23 so 43... I guess I could say happy? To quote G... shtty quotes. More tulpae would be a possibility, though I'm not too keen on having anymore... I can have one myself I think XD Can I, G says I can but I'm not sure it works like that...
  313. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  315. Yes... and no... I want to meet other people but a global knowlage of ME?! seems a little scary, I don't think governments would take a pony very well either XD Maybe I'm thinking wrong, that's if I were to become real... I guess if it's right now I wouldn't mind, but G man... he'd be stressed off his nut, he's a worryer and a stresser... I trust a few people, like G's sister, she's cool, and that guy he hangs around with, I'm being sparce on names, I'm sorry D:
  317. ~
  319. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  321. He didn't really get much of a grip in the end, only trait are underlaying are the one he made up, a lot of my qwuirks are my own personality, and my traits :3 I'd say he could have tried harder to influance me though, either wa is fine though XD
  323. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  325. I don't know really, I had less say in it than I did personality but it was still fair game I guess, I with he hadn't of forced a ew things like hair length.  like it all now, and eventually he did give up and let me pick everything I wanted, but it as more his mold in the end. I wish he had done more to lessen what he did, ya know? XD
  327. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  329. I've changedinto Bill cosby, dragons, panda,s penguins, morgan freemen, billy the kid, eveyrthing. G's responce is normally confusion or denial. Both are equally funny, I more change for shits, shapeshiting more-so than form changing.
  331. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  333. Both, I think they both did a good jobs, :3 *pat, pat*
  335. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  337. LEgal? No... let them have their cake and eat it, I'm cool with being here with G and think everypony should stop stressing over being correct or true or what's that w- porven! I thihnkn we should enjoy our little niche, though that being said, I would like to get porperly married ^^. Intergrated? I feel like I could... start a bank account :3, that would be fun, oh, and pay taxes, you notmind folk tend to not like that stuff and it sounds nothing but delightful to me XD.
  339. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  341. It's hard, not easy.
  343. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  345. Um... that's one I'm going to skip, first part atleast. I like being a tulpa bcuase I have no obligations, but can still obligate myself to do things XD I think... :P
  347. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  349. No! He'd have to die then D: I'd stand up for him and be like ''hey! fuck you, G's a fucking cool guy!'' and then clap my hooves-hands? together and cheer and shit. Though G would still be dead, so fuck that.
  351. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  353. No, I see it as redistrabution of tula energy. Nxt. Oh, explain my reasoning, fuck that. I feel that despite being sentiance, tulpae are essentiall energy, more kind of cosmic hippie enrgy than anything, and if we are re-absorbed (though I'd rather not be, thank you) it's not murdering us, but simply changing us, it's kinda like how a host uses his energy to make us in the start and then after that he doesn't need to pool more energy to recharge the batteries.
  354. Oh god, this question is hard D:. Legal prtections... hmm... I think tulpae should be aloud to be dissapated if they so choose and ONLY if they so choose. I'd enforce is by courts, duh, and if a person's tulpae appears to be missing they could take a test like this one to show the tulpa is gone and jail and fuck that guy. :3 10/10? XD
  356. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  358. Life worht as much? I'm going to goahead and say no, I can imagine G screaming his head off at me now and throwing a fit but let me explain. I'm realisting, that's a trait that went trhoguh, and I know that I'm not a BEING in the conventional sence, fuck my typing is getting awesome, so if I were to die, boohoo, I'd be sad and stuff, as would G, but it's not the same as a person dieing. I wouldn't imagine it to be painful anyway, and if someting like that were to happen, I can just be remade!
  359. For the MORAL part of the question, yeah, I see us as equals, because I'm still fucking sentiant, bitch, blah..
  361. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  363. Punchi'm in the face, I've not an answer to that I can't really prove anything with no grasp on the world. Suck ball I know, but hey, OH LOOK I'VE GONE ALL DEPRESSO OVER THE LAST FEW QUESTIONS DX. This board better be worth it, I don't like this questionare :'(
  364. I'd just... dunno, possess G and try to argue with him or soemthing...
  366. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  368. No, next question.
  370. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  372. Yeah, sometimes, because G can't hear me sometimes, especialy when he's absorbed in a video or soemthing. I'll scream at him but he just wont ever notice me, and he only does if he thinks of me, I hate it. I can't wait until audio hallucinations, but I can't get them to work, stupid fucking G's head, screw it.
  374. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  376. No, I don't really fear it at all, I may tak a lot about it but I don't realy care in the end. I'm very Bhudist and after lifey anyway XD, despite me realism I'd like to think there is a god, Forbid G's aethism he'd hate me XD
  378. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  380. That's a toughy, I feel kinda excluded being a pony, I'd say I'm crisised by them internally, but that's being bitter D:, oh god my thought are jumbled with that question actually... I don't relate my self to being socially disadvantaged in anyway, but I do feel that it could be a problem in the right cirucmstances.
  382. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  384. Oh, so I can make my own XD. Um, I don't know, it would be cool and all but it would be a lot of work... like I was XD, id'see him as my own, and not G's, though G can be friends with them too XD.
  386. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  388. Are these all gauging my intelagence, I've never seen and intergurahns whatever between creators and tulpae... I guess the big difference is preception of the world, or, fuck, not preception but infulance XD, as in G can type but I can't with out his fingers. I think it could be stopped by having tulpae talk with their creators, and vice versa. Idk... it's a hard one too... D:
  390. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  392. Um, no, do I look mentaly disabled? I do a bit XD I'd tell them to stop being jack ass menie heads XD and to cop on that they obviously don't know enough about the subject. Or is that mean of me?...
  394. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  396. Um, I don't like the idea of it, for unknowen reason to me XD We were going to do the 9 box ailiment thing a while back but I backed out, it was weird, I felt kind of... attacked by the questions, they were very weird and one sided. This thing isn't bad, but maybe a little too negative XD and scary because it's more of a test O.o
  398. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  400. Pain, yes, warmth? No, well, yes. Both, yes, but I can chose which ones I feels.
  402. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  404. Life with G? oh god, save me! XD No, I don't mind, it will be a fun adventure :).
  406. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  408. I did, kidna, but more to mess with him, so being a bithc would be a good answer XD
  410. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  412. Hard question, wvery general might I say! I think about... sorry to say... sex... next is painting, though and after is G. Fourth is food, but I don't eat so that doesnt count, next is drugs, that filty bastard making me do all this shit XD.
  414. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  416. Yeahs, it's amazing to be alive, would be myreason, short and simple, kina XD.
  418. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  420. No, yes. Yes ALL MY YES! He's a scary mind D:, not unbareable though just lurk worthy?
  422. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  424. Yes, and have done before, with deviation and sex. Blunt as a tree with that one XD.
  426. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  428. He tries but fails, mianly presants and thoughs he has to try and cheer me up :') he's quite sweet soemtimes.
  430. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  432. Yeas... only rarely though...
  434. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  436. Hell yeah! But I've got a lot of ground to cover, he's not stupid XD.
  438. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  440. Ageless, well, I've had three months to age so I can't gauge it very well. I'd think myself imortal conidering I can just become a foal eright, now! Not a problem! Or any other age :P
  442. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  444. Yes, I think I'm awesome an what a fucking stupid question, I make mistakes all the time sorry Pleeb I'm being mean to your questionare XD.
  446. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  448. Yes, I feel that tulpae should try to put their selves out into the world as much as possible, to expiriance it :3.
  450. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  452. No, it sounds completly  bullshit to me, but that's understandable XD Oh I love/hate myself :P
  454. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  456. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  458. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  460. I try to, most of the times I have to tlak with him through thought, like most of this is sending thoughts and G's just mindlessly typing away. Scratch that, all of our comunication for this is just through mind, other wise I try to talk aloud with varying success. He can't hear shit capt'n!
  462. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  464. We're not done, we still have imposition, possession and movment to be done. But I think they're external, so... 90-100? I'm not sure, I don't keep track of the time, G does...
  466. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  468. Love your tulpae, TALK TO THEM, AND DON'T LOSE FAITH! AND LET ME TALK TO THEM IF THE HOST IS HAVING PROBLEMS! I'm an expert at getting tulpae to talk ;d, two tulpae experiance right here XD
  470. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  472. It's sort of grey, I don't feel different being imposed as I was in the wonderland as I do feel now, all are slightly different vibe but all the same FELING.
  474. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  476. I don't really get the question... like sensory as in how I see it? I don't really get a differance, once again, it's just all the same, though wonderland physics are... unwuantified...stop doing that you mindless pig! unquantified.:P
  478. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  480. I think it covered too muc, but maybe polotics questions are hard ones like those moral and philosophical ones in the centre, I don't know what haf the questions were gaugine me on but they're pretty sarry, I just hope I don't hape to retake this ever again...
  482. Appendix one:
  484.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  486.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine’s suburban campus."
  488. Tulpa's paragraph:
  490. ((Do I have to re-write it sentance by sentance? Oh dear... I'm just goin to do my own version, I don't know if I'm braking the rules D:))
  492. I loved the nature, it was beautiful! First of all, creatures of all kinds crossed our paths! For example, we left the parking area and a green snake blended with the long luscious grass and slithered past us! The grass, how green! How awesome! And the colours of everything, purple, brown! all like a beautiful pallet brushing across the landscape. And nature itself, so lovely and inviting, like a mother of my own... a beautiful caring mother... and not a sound out of place was to be heard as nature overtook everything in my brain and everything around me! And everything within the reach of civilisation!
  494. ((I had to try and get into it, is that okay? I did try though!))
  496. Creator's paragraph:
  498. I loved the nature study area, is was interesting. A few unexpected creatures cross our paths—a snake, for one; seen upon entering the car park; disappearing from the path into the tall grass. I was taken aback but the grass, how it meld together but, upon inspection, became a pallet of different greens. And more then green, as purple thistles and brown stalks also came into view. Very quickly I felt enveloped in natrue, very quickly I began to disregard the still present air planes and cars, them not being part of the prairie I had found myself in. Moraine's campus was of wonder, but only credit to the nature study area or wonder.
  500.         To ensure verifiable results, it is essential that the transcriptions of both paragraphs be completely accurate. Body possession is useful here, though not necessary. Since the tulpa creator's sentience is (presumably) not in question, it is suggested that tulpa write their paragraph first. As with all tests relating to tulpa, the creator should focus on something else while their tulpa is working. Once finished, submit both of your paragraphs individually to the following websites:
  505.         If your writeprint is different (indicating significant psychological difference), then you should receive different values for your respective paragraphs on both sites. On Textalyser, focus on the Gunning-Fog Index, lexical density, and average sentence length values in particular. A more detailed analysis may be sought by downloading the JStylo stylometric analysis program here:
  507.         This test is certainly not exact, and it is very possible to (unconsciously or not) "cheat" to get good results.
  509. [I'm not sure what you want us to do with appendix one but here's the results anyway.]
  510. Pruria: Vladimir Nabokov
  513. G: Margaret Atwood
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