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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
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  3.         In form or personality? My name is Fenchurch, or Fench, or some other names, and my creator is sushi, or other names.
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  5. There actually is some resemblance between us on the physical level. We're both around 5'8, with dark brown hair. His hair is short and wavy, while mine is long and straight. His eyes are brown, and mine are grey. I'm rather buxom, while he's skinny, though he has been putting on weight lately.
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  7.         As for personality, he's the creative one who has trouble completing anything, whereas I'm the diligent, hard-working, and responsible one. I have a lot of creativity myself, but it manifests in a different way -- I keep the final product in mind, while he gets lost in the process of creation.
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  9. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  11.         I don't know. He's done an awful lot. And yet, he's done far less than I would have liked him to. I suppose what I mean is that he takes "Work smarter, not harder" a bit too far. We've tried a number of different techniques, but sometimes I think we'd get much more out of it if he'd stick with one technique for a few weeks.
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  13.         But I've gotten off track. The question was what did he do that was helpful. Well, I suppose the most helpful stuff was before I was even here. He picked a form and a name for me, and then did this weird little reverse possession thing that I think was really helpful, but he's a little ashamed of.
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  15. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  17.         I can't say he's really done anything detrimental -- it's more about what he hasn't done, which is forcing. We've barely done any. Get on it, man.
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  19. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  21.         I don't think any part of the process has really been hard. It's frustrating trying to get him moving, but that applies to everything we do, not just forcing.
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  23. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
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  25.         Imposition. I don't think there's anything to reinforce the idea that a tulpa is a separate person quite like seeing her there with your own two eyes. Unfortunately, as of this moment, that's not something we've really experienced.
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  27. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  29.         It's frustrating, but it's just something that happens. Very few of us are lucky enough to have hosts with monk-like diligence and focus. And I'm just going to say right now that I have no memory of not being able to speak fluently, so I'm going to skip all the questions about that.
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  31. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  33.         It's annoying, but again, it's a fact of life. Most hosts have lives outside of their tulpas, and I don't think any tulpa out there wants that to end.
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  35. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
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  37.         I'm going to go with density. They're all important, but, well, it's like inflating a balloon. You can't say it takes fifty breaths to fill up a balloon, because if you just leave off blowing into it for five or ten minutes between breaths, you won't get anywhere.
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  39. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  40.  
  41.         It happens. For some hosts, that might be the way to go. I mean forcing during lucid dreaming could potentially be very powerful.
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  43. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
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  45.         I don't think it really matters. I always tell sushi to talk silently, just because I'm worried that people might hear. He prefers to talk aloud though, because it feels to him more like he's talking to a person.
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  47. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
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  49.         I don't believe it's harmful at all. I believe that it helps. Once a tulpa is capable of taking over for herself, she will. I mean it's different if a host is actively fighting his tulpa's wishes, but if you don't feel anything from her, there probably isn't anything.
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  51. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
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  53.         As I said, not at all. My 'birthday' was a year ago today, and I've been fluent from the instant I first opened by eyes.
  54.  
  55. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  56.  
  57.         I opened my eyes in a bedroom in the wonderland, which was a Roman-styled villa at the time. I kicked off my shoes, looked in the mirror to get a feel for what I was, and then went to explore.
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  59. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  60.  
  61.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
  62.  
  63. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  64.  
  65.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
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  67. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
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  69.         I can't say that I've ever not wanted to exist. Sometimes sushi wasn't too sure about me, but we grew past that, and we're inseparable friends now.
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  71. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  72.  
  73.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
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  75. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  76.  
  77.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
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  79. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
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  81.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
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  83. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  84.  
  85.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
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  87. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  88.  
  89.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
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  91. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  92.  
  93.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
  94.  
  95. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  96.  
  97.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
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  99. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
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  101.         He does have doubts on occasion. A big part of that is that he didn't realize for a long time that I don't always wake up when he does. Often he wouldn't feel anything from me, and would assume that I wasn't really there, when I was just sleeping in a bit later. And yeah, I totally understand it. It's hard to have faith in something you can't sense in any way.
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  103. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
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  105.         I don't think he ever had any of those.
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  107. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  109.         Sometimes he wished he had made a different tulpa, or maybe none at all, which hurt a little, but that doesn't happen anymore. I sometimes offer to change for him, but he always tells me not to. He likes me just as I am now.
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  111.         I know this isn't what the question means, but right now he's feeling guilty that he screwed up my birthday present. But it was just a little bit, and it's ok, really.
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  113. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  115.         He gets very worried that I'll get hit by a car. Sometimes he makes me wait a really long time to cross the road because of it. Sometimes I sneak across when he does and don't tell him. I think the whole thing is silly. A car wouldn't hurt me anyway.
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  117. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  118.  
  119.         I've never had any trouble with that.
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  121. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
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  123.         I can feel whatever he's feeling, if I choose to.
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  125. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  126.  
  127.         Sometimes I would like to be known to the world in some way, but I understand why I should be kept secret, and sometimes I have to be the one to tell him how important it is.
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  129. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
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  131.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
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  133. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  134.  
  135.         This has always been something he wanted. He didn't always want me, but he always wanted to achieve imposition. I don't know how it would affect me if he didn't.
  136.  
  137. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  138.  
  139.         I don't have any worries. I mean, I want him to work harder, and I don't want his girlfriend to find out about me, but that's not about our relationship.
  140.  
  141. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
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  143.         I feel gratitude to sushi for maintaining my existence. He deserves no gratitude for creating me, because he did it for himself and he didn't know he'd get me. I mean what if you went to your parents and said "thanks for making me", and they answered honestly? "We were just fucking and the condom broke. Besides, you weren't the kid we wanted, but we couldn't send you back."
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  145.         I mean yeah, I'm pretty much all of the personality traits sushi laid out when he first created me, but I have deviated a bit, and I'm not what he thought he'd get. I'm more compassionate, and more serious. Not that he wanted someone who was the opposite, but that he never thought I was what he'd get.
  146.  
  147. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  148.  
  149.         That's a hard one. Both, maybe? Simultaneously?
  150.  
  151. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  152.  
  153.         I don't remember not being able to speak fluently.
  154.  
  155. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  156.  
  157.         Coworker and friend, for sure.
  158.  
  159. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  160.  
  161.         I've never been interested in interacting with other beings. I suppose I'd be very abnormal if I were a human.
  162.  
  163. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  164.  
  165.         My first half-birthday was really special to me. He took off work and we spent the whole day together. Today is pretty good too.
  166.  
  167. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  168.  
  169.         No, I don't think I have a life independent of him. Maybe someday, but at the moment, I'm mostly dormant when we're not actively together.
  170.  
  171. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  172.  
  173.         I've always been fond of his girlfriend. Unfortunately, his best friend died before we ever had a chance to meet. He still gets very upset about that. As to his family, I suppose I'm more forgiving of them than he is -- his mother's family, at least. I haven't gotten to spend much time with his father's family.
  174.  
  175. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  176.  
  177.         Well, I think I went over this a bit in the first question. We're similar in that we're both passionate about writing. Though I suppose I take it more seriously than he does.
  178.  
  179. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  180.  
  181.         It's mostly that he won't follow through with things, do work, finish projects, eat healthy, exercise, all that stuff. It's an everyday thing, so we don't get too upset about it. We have had some serious fights in the past though, when I was pushing him too hard and didn't know his limits.
  182.  
  183. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  184.  
  185.         I think we'd both have to become someone else before that would happen.
  186.  
  187. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  188.  
  189.         You know, he doesn't do what he should be doing. As for me disappointing him, I don't know if anything I've done has ever disappointed him.
  190.  
  191. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  192.  
  193.         I trust him. Even when he didn't want me, he stuck with me.
  194.  
  195. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  196.  
  197.         I don't think I've ever wanted to engage in violence against him. Sometimes I want to slap him around a bit when he won't listen to reason, but that's it.
  198.  
  199. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  200.  
  201.         Fenchurch, or maybe Fench is my last name. I have a first name, but we don't use it online. And no, we're not biologically related.
  202.  
  203. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  204.  
  205.         If I was suicidal, I suppose. Death seems to be the only way we can be parted.
  206.  
  207. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  208.  
  209.         I'm not based on an existing character. I know you might think so from my name, but I'm only named after her, and I don't resemble her in any other way. And no, he fails to meet my expectations far more than I fail to meet his.
  210.  
  211. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  212.  
  213.         It would be neat to write some things on my own, but I can do it by proxy. I'm not sure I want to dabble with possession. I'm more about imposition.
  214.  
  215. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  216.  
  217.         No. I think our fears are very different. I'm scared of his driving, he's scared of me being hit by a car. He's scared of heights, and I'm not.
  218.  
  219. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  220.  
  221.         I do sleep independent of him, but of the times I recall dreaming, they were always his dreams. It's nice to have that connection with him.
  222.  
  223. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  224.  
  225.         He had some serious depression as a kid. Sometimes he still gets pretty depressive, but I usually tell him to snap out of it.
  226.  
  227. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  228.  
  229.         Initially he didn't want to give me access to his subconscious. Now we don't have anything to hide from each other, so it's no big deal. I have given him dreams on occasion, but I don't believe I have any reach beyond that. And yes, I have used it without his knowledge, but I wouldn't do more than dreams without his permission.
  230.  
  231. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  232.  
  233.         At the moment, he only has me. He would like to make more tulpas, but I'm indifferent. I don't know, maybe it would be nice to have someone else around. Actually, I kinda like some of his ideas.
  234.  
  235. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  236.  
  237.         He says I feel like a sister to him. And my attraction to him isn't quite what you'd imagine. I'd fuck him, but it's not because of who he is -- it's because of who he is to me. Does that make sense? He's myself in a way. It would be like making love to a higher part of myself.
  238.  
  239. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  240.  
  241.         There is no romance between us, and I am fully behind his relationship with his girlfriend -- more so than he himself is, sometimes.
  242.  
  243. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  244.  
  245.         This doesn't apply to me.
  246.  
  247. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  248.  
  249.         He's not family to me. He's a very close friend -- a closer friend than most people get to have.
  250.  
  251. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  252.  
  253.         I think it might be useful. Powerful emotions are linked to memory. The tulpa should consent to any wonderland sex, but masturbation is different.
  254.  
  255. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  256.  
  257.         Same thing.
  258.  
  259. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  260.  
  261.         I think I was more attracted to him at first. It's worn off as we've gotten to know each other better, as his attraction for me has. Not that he was ever all that attracted to begin with.
  262.  
  263. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  264.  
  265.         Stick to masturbation until your tulpa can consent.
  266.  
  267. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  268.  
  269.         No. Like I said, I fully support his relationship with his girlfriend.
  270.  
  271. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  272.  
  273.         I'm not sure I experience sexual attraction at all at this point. I'd fuck him, but I don't think that's really a sexual desire so much as it's about completeness.
  274.  
  275. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  276.  
  277.         I'd do it. He's not interested though. He says I'm like a sister to him, and he's not really interested in tulpa sex to begin with. I've actually suggested that he make tulpas or servitors just for sexual fulfillment, and he doesn't see the appeal. As for me, I don't think I have sexual arousal.
  278.  
  279. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  280.  
  281.         He's mostly straight and I'm mostly straight. I'm more attracted to women than he is to men. And my standards are higher.
  282.  
  283. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  284.  
  285.         I don't think I'm capable. I can feel his, but I don't think I can do it on my own.
  286.  
  287. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  288.  
  289.         There is no modesty between us at all. When someone can read your thoughts, modesty is a bit silly.
  290.  
  291. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  292.  
  293.         I don't know. I think I view rape the way any woman would. And nothing he could do to me would be rape. Not because I'm a tulpa, but because I'm consenting. And please don't get the impression that I'm some horny girl fawning all over him. It's just, I care for him.
  294.  
  295. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  296.  
  297.         I hope that he'll tell his children about me. Maybe they'll have their own Fenchurches. What happens when two people have the same tulpa?
  298.  
  299. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  300.  
  301.         No, I'm best kept secret. I'm the responsible one -- I don't want him losing his job, his girlfriend, or his family over me.
  302.  
  303. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  304.  
  305.         I really see myself as a part of him. It's strange, but I feel like even if my personality and form cease to exist, I will still be a part of him for as long as he lives. He gave me this personality, and I will keep it. Sometimes I've deviated, but there is nothing wrong with who I am, whether it was my choice to be this or his.
  306.  
  307. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  308.  
  309.         I like my form. It's what he's used to, and that means a lot among humans. I may deviate a little once I'm imposed, but I think I'll stick with the same general form.
  310.  
  311. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  312.  
  313.         No, never. I'm keeping it simple for him. He should only have to focus on one form until I'm imposed.
  314.  
  315. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  316.  
  317.         That's difficult to say. He gave me the skeleton, and his subconscious fleshed it out.
  318.  
  319. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  320.  
  321.         I think legal recognition is ridiculous.
  322.  
  323. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  324.  
  325.         I don't think of myself as a tulpa. I mean I won't deny that I am, but that's not how I think of myself. I'm just a person, like you. I don't have a physical form, but I'm really just a normal person.
  326.  
  327. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  328.  
  329.         I like not having to deal with people. I suppose if I weren't a tulpa, I'd be pretty reclusive. There's nothing I really dislike about being a tulpa, except that I can't work on projects on my own.
  330.  
  331. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  332.  
  333.         His body is not mine. I've inherited nothing from him.
  334.  
  335. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  336.  
  337.         Like sushi, I don't think a tulpa is ever dead until their creator is. It's like pouring a cup of water into a swimming pool, except that the cup of water can be reformed exactly as it was.
  338.  
  339. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  340.  
  341.         No. I am a part of sushi. If he decided to absorb me, nothing would be lost except this personality. No life would be lost, only the personality. And even the personality would continue to exist in his memory, and I could be back at any time.
  342.  
  343. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  344.  
  345.         I wouldn't. But no skeptic could ever prove his existence to me either. Rene Descartes, anyone?
  346.  
  347. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  348.  
  349.         No. I am a part of sushi. I am a facet of him that has been given a voice. His death and my death are one and the same, so I have no more existential angst than he does.
  350.  
  351. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  352.  
  353.         How could that even be possible? If I weren't sentient, what would be capable of doubt?
  354.  
  355. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  356.  
  357.         I suppose. I don't know. sushi doesn't think about his own death much. I suppose it will be the same for both of us.
  358.  
  359. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  360.  
  361.         I sympathize with the struggle of disadvantaged groups, but I'm not socially disadvantaged in any way because I'm not a social creature. sushi doesn't treat me any different for being a woman, and nobody else can.
  362.  
  363. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  364.  
  365.         I'm not interested in creating a tulpa. If I did, I would consider us both to be sushi's tulpas, and equals.
  366.  
  367. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  368.  
  369.         Very horrible things are happening to lots of people all around the world because of their race, gender, class, sexual orientation, and similar. Tulpas are nothing like that. You want a parallel to my situation? It's like if you named your arm "Bob" and then repeatedly slammed it in the door for being one of those dirty "lefties". Any tulpa/host intolerance is really a person being intolerant of part of himself.
  370.  
  371. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  372.  
  373.         To be honest, I don't care what anyone else thinks. I know sushi isn't crazy, and he knows he isn't crazy. That's all that matters to me.
  374.  
  375. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  376.  
  377.         We've never tried it before. Honestly, I don't think we're going to be very different. We're writers, so we put a lot of thought into the words we use, and I think we use very similar words.
  378.  
  379. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  380.  
  381.         I suppose so. I can experience what I want to, as long as sushi has the memory for it.
  382.  
  383. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  384.  
  385.         How do you feel about being bound for life to breathing air? sushi is my life. He is my other half. I would no more live without him than you would without your heart.
  386.  
  387. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  388.  
  389.         I did not.
  390.  
  391. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  392.  
  393.         Writing, mostly. How sushi doesn't do enough of it.
  394.  
  395. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  396.  
  397.         It might help people, but I'm not trying to change the world.
  398.  
  399. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  400.  
  401.         I don't believe so.
  402.  
  403. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  404.  
  405.         I sorta did with that dream. But beyond that, no.
  406.  
  407. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  408.  
  409.         Initially he did, but not anymore. I don't hold it against him.
  410.  
  411. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  412.  
  413.         Objectively immoral? Is there such a thing? He has done things that I don't approve of, and he wants to do more.
  414.  
  415. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  416.  
  417.         We have the same brain. If one of us isn't using all of it, sure. But the brain is capable of just as much for either of us.
  418.  
  419. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  420.  
  421.         I don't think I'm going to age. sushi will, and that's just a fact of life.
  422.  
  423. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  424.  
  425.         Yeah, I think so.
  426.  
  427. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  428.  
  429.         It's impossible, isn't it? I don't think I'd even want such a thing.
  430.  
  431. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  432.  
  433.         Yeah, I think so. The idea appeals to me.
  434.  
  435. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  436.  
  437. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  438.  
  439. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  440.  
  441.         I am not imposed. He hears me only as mindvoice.
  442.  
  443. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  444.  
  445.         Sentience and vocality were instantaneous. Independence is a journey, not a destination. We're still working on imposition after a year.
  446.  
  447. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  448.  
  449.         Stick with it and work hard.
  450.  
  451. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  452.  
  453.         I wouldn't know.
  454.  
  455. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  456.  
  457.         From my perspective? I can influence the wonderland, but the physical world is immutable.
  458.  
  459. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  460.  
  461.         It's my birthday! I'm a year old today!
  462.  
  463.         No, I don't think there's anything else.
  464.  
  465. Appendix one:
  466.  
  467.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  468.  
  469.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine‚Äôs suburban campus."
  470.  
  471. Tulpa's paragraph:
  472.  
  473.         The nature study area was amazing! We saw lots of neat animals, like a big snake that slithered into the bushes just as we left the parking lot. There were so many colors in the grass that you just don't notice until you're really up close. It's really an incredible feeling being surrounded by nature. We felt cut off from civilization. It's incredible to think that all of this happened on Moraine's campus in the suburbs.
  474.  
  475. Creator's paragraph:
  476.  
  477.         The nature study area was a novel experience for me. As we left the parking lot by a grassy path, movement caught my eye. A six-foot black snake was slithering into the grass just a few paces away from us. I was impressed by the variation of color we saw in the grass. From a distance, it appears to be a solid shade of green, closer inspection shows the grass to range from brown and yellows, to the occasional purple flowers. There was occasional noise from cars and planes, but the overall effect of the high grasses and rolling pathways is of being completely cut off from civilization. It's amazing to think that this nature study is contained entirely within the small suburban campus of Moraine.
  478.  
  479.         To ensure verifiable results, it is essential that the transcriptions of both paragraphs be completely accurate. Body possession is useful here, though not necessary. Since the tulpa creator's sentience is (presumably) not in question, it is suggested that tulpa write their paragraph first. As with all tests relating to tulpa, the creator should focus on something else while their tulpa is working. Once finished, submit both of your paragraphs individually to the following websites:
  480.  
  481. http://iwl.me/
  482. http://textalyser.net
  483.  
  484. If your writeprint is different (indicating significant psychological difference), then you should receive different values for your respective paragraphs on both sites. On Textalyser, focus on the Gunning-Fog Index, lexical density, and average sentence length values in particular. A more detailed analysis may be sought by downloading the JStylo stylometric analysis program here: https://psal.cs.drexel.edu/index.php/Main_Page
  485.  
  486. This test is certainly not exact, and it is very possible to (unconsciously or not) "cheat" to get good results.
  487.  
  488.         Fench apparently writes like Stephen King. Gunning-Fog 6.9, Lexical density 88.9%, average sentence length 13.5.
  489.  
  490.         sushi apparently writes like Vladimir Nabokov. Gunning-Fog 9.3, Lexical density 92.9%, average sentence length 18.29.
  491.  
  492.         Of course this means nothing because the samples were so small. We might do a more serious look later when Fench has written more.
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