When I first laid eyes on you, I thought you were the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen, starting with your eyes.

They're so bright and clear, and when you smile it's like a vacuum in them opens up and sucks my soul in, causing

me to be in an inescapble paradise of your love. Later, as you were walking away from me, I realized that yes, I

must have you. At first, I was really shy, I truly didn't notice you flirting with me, and when I got home I sent

you a friend request. I spent all day talking to you about potatoes and cats and our beleifs, before YOU invited me

over to drink. I really didn't know what was going to happen, but I hoped that you were as kind and caring as our

conversation made you seem. At first I didn't know if you just wanted to hook up or what, but I really wanted you

to just say you'd be mine, and when you said "Don't you think you should ask first?" I got so scared that I had

done something wrong, that even if I did ask, you would so no. Here we are over a year and a half later, and I

couldn't be happier with you. I know that sometimes I get frustrated, and sometimes we both get upset, and that we

say hurtful things. I just want you to know, that for everything I've ever done that's hurt you, I really am sorry,

and that nothing can make up for all the pain I've put you through, but I know that I can make you smile because

you're really happy. I've seen it, and when you smile at me with your big green eyes, you don't even have to say

anything, but I know that you truly care about me. You may think that I'm just with you because you're pretty, or

because the sex is great, or because you have a job, or because of whatever, but I'm not. I may not be able to tell

you why I love you, but I do know that whenever I'm with you, it just feels right. It's alright just felt right. I

never would've have slept with someone on a first date, but there was something about you, I don't know what it

was, but it made me open up to you. I don't know if I've ever told you this, but I cried the first time you told me

you loved me. When you told me that you had a secret, that you couldn't say over the phone, I hoped from the bottom

of my soul that it was you felt the same way about me as I do about you. I know I made it hard with the veganism

sometimes, and I'm sorry. I just wanted you to get a feeling of accomplishment out of converting me, instead of me

just being a push over. I wanted to hear all of your arguements, wanted to hear your explanations, wanted you to

show me all of those videos. I knew that animal testing was bad, but i didn't know how bad. I knew farm animals

suffered, but I didn't know how much. You showed me how much, and I think I'm a better person because of it. I know

that I lost my car, and my mom kicked me out, and I decided to leave the Army, and I did all of that because I

wanted us to be happy together. I love you so much, that I was willing to give up everything just to try and make

sure we can be happy together. I still feel that way about you, and when I say that I will do anything to make you

be in love with me again, I mean it, even if I have to type out our entire story together with 10 broken knuckles.

I've been thinking about doing this for a while, but if you do decide to stay with me, I'm going to recarve your

initials in. I really don't like that they've faded, and like our love, I want them to come back brighter and more

flamboyent then ever. I guess I'm going to try to express why I love you now, regardless of how corny or cheesy it

sounds, I just want you to know how i really feel about you. You are the most kind and caring person I know, and

even if you want to deny it, and argue about it, I know that it's true. My first day at work, i made sure to let

everyone know that I was married, and about how happpy I am with you, just because I love talking about you to

other people (and no, it's not always bad.) I really am sorry for all of the times I did say bad things about you

to people, i was just trying to seem cool, and I understand now that it wasn't cool, it was stupid and immature,

and just made me seem really uncool to the only person who's opinion really mattered- You, beautiful. I'm sorry if

I have been smothering you lately, I'm just trying to make up for all of the affection I've been wrongfully

depreaving you. I promise that if this letter changes everything, or that after reading this you'll soften up just

enough to let me try, that I may not be this smothering, but anytime you ask me to spend time with you, or walk you

to work, or help you with something, no arguemets, no excuses. You're going to get all of the love and positive

attention you deserve, and you're going to get it from me, so that I'll never put you into a situation like this

again. I know that i may have told you otherwise, and I don't remmeber, but Belial has let me see enough to know

that you really are the first person I've ever truly been in love with. I may have said that I was going to

marry/have kids with other people, but I didn't mean it. It was just old Bran muffin being a manipulative dick, and

I'm not like that anymore. I went out with Caitlin for less then a week, before breaking up with her because she

was crazy, and that when I was "trying to get with her" before we got together, it was really just me being polite

and hoping that she would show eevn a little interest. I met you the next day though, and even just sitting next to

you at Sonic gave me butterflies, and I tried so hard to seem like this really cool and funny person, in the hopes

that we could at least be friends. As far as the other person, the only reason we lasted as long as we did is

because neither one of us had any friends, no one to pay attention to us. That was it. As far as Lexi, I never

really liked her. She was interested in me, and that was all I needed then. I didn't know what love was, and if I

could take everything back, I would've talked to you in high school, and we could have been each others first.(Stephen read up to here, I haven't written the rest yet)


The reason I didn't wasn't anything because of you, I was just too shy and afraid that you'd reject me, and then if

there ever would be a situation where we'd meet and could be together, that it would ruin it. I wasn't a nice

person before we were together, and that I chose to drove Peris around even when I didn't owe him, or ask him for

gas money, that it would be repaid with someone as beautiful and amazing as you are. I know now that I have a problem with video games. I know I've told you, but it is a really bad problem, and I feel it deserves to be mentioned. I haven't touched it all day, I have no desire to. That video games have potentially destroyed eevrything I've held close to me (You, our relationship, our marraige, and the time I spend with you)