My mother yells at me for things that just seem so unfair
So i hide my insecurity, pretend that its not there
I Cant make any sense of this, i dont know why i exist
And everything i touch i seem to crumble in my fists

So ill make the chains thst bind me just as broken as i am
Pull the insides out of the dolls i loved and tear them in my hands
They say if you dont love yourself you can't love someone else
But ill still give my love away


Dig deep
I swear that ill go on without hearing that name
once more in my life
Why cant
Someone hold me unless im pathetic its not fair
Without that im still beautiful

Family name
We share the same curse
So i know i cant give up on finding my ray of hope
My family name
Doesnt matter much to me
I will tear down my firewall
And let all the glitches in
Ill live my life out of spite

Throw away the rest of this era and my youth
Put a ricetag on my madness from then on
I can only sell the emotions i dont need
 even if i consume them they will always stay with me

Th only emotions that people want tl hear about are the ones you want the least
But even if yiure forced to keeo tvem they wont go awat

Its orritating that i cant express anything
Its not contradictory
Look at how far ive lived, till the endvof thw world and myself

Family name
With a screwed up vocabulary
Your sadness shines, its not a problem
family name
dont pay it any mind
A sound argument anz justice just get in the way
Ill fight them tooth and nail