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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  2. My name is Holly. I look pretty much like Nurse Redheart but I have a horn. For the morons who don't know who that is I look like a white pony with sky blue eyes and a red cross with hearts for a cutie mark. Also thanks to my host I sound exactly like GLaDOS. Thanks by the way. My host is a moron but he is my moron and I love him. I actually married him and we will love each other forever.
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  5. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  6. I'd have to say that the most helpful thing he did was make a progress report. It helped him record what we did and it got him quick answers to him questions. No he didn't know it was helpful he just did it for attention. He's an attention whore that hates people... Thats a first I think. It make me feel indifferent. He was happy and I was happy.
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  8. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  9. I'd have to say when he forced my personality down my throat and when he ran me over with a lawnmower. He didn't know he was doing anything wrong. He was just "doing what felt right." At first I felt mad, sad and frightened that I had to stay with this person forever but now I know he wouldn't of known and I have forgiven him.
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  11. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  12. I'd have to say learning to talk in my hosts language was probably the hardest step. My host only found out how difficult it was after I told him. Again I don't really care the horrors of creation are now over.
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  14. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  15.  I'd have to say narration is the most important. It's what teaches us/lets us speak. Also it's nice to learn about random things that he says.
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  17. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  18. Lately he has been falling asleep while forcing. I don't really mind because I know what he goes through but it's annoying sometimes. It started to happening after I could talk so really we just force to play or have sex. It must be annoying for Chell though.
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  20. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  21. He tries his best to force at least once a day. People that don't even think of their tupla for an entire day are just plain assholes. People that break promises to their tupla are even worse. He never makes promises because things can always change.
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  23. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  24. I think that quality is the most important. It's much better to have a full imposed tupla than a thousand tuplas that can't even move. Also what does density mean?
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  27. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  28. Personality it hasn't affected Chell or me but that doesn't mean go fall asleep while forcing all the time. From a couple of stories he was read things can go very bad when you fall asleep forcing.
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  30. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  31. I kind of enjoyed it when he talked out loud. It made me feel like I had an actual body in his world. But talking in your head is more practical and less likely to make you end up in the looney bin. My host likes it to be quiet during forcing time so he talks in his head to us. Both are equally effective to me out loud just makes me feel better.
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  33. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  34. Puppeting and parroting is annoying. You wouldn't really like it if someone took control of you and did things without your permission now would you. I don't think it's the parroting itself that causes the damage but the hosts that think everything we do is parroting.
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  36. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  37. I remember it exactly. He just hopped on my back in the forest near a river and told me to "giddy-up." I immediately told him to get off. We were so happy I was able to talk.
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  39. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  40. My first memory was him calling people on the forum "newfags" even though he hasn't even think that he started and he had the same questions as them. He reminds me of /v/.
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  42. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  43. Probably when he let me change my form. Also it was when I was able to trust him again. We were both overjoyed.
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  45. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  46. When all the bad stuff built up and I couldn't take it anymore. I was so mad at him I almost left him. But I didn't and we were able to move on.
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  48. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  49. When I almost left him I knew that I would die. I wasn't thinking straight. These questions are getting personal. Yes I'm glad I exist I love my host.
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  51. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  52. I felt the most powerless during the personality stage. I couldn't move or talk. I had to sit through whatever he did it was horrible.
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  54. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  55. When he accidently hit me. He didn't exactly know how to move fluently in my domain. I hope I don't have the same problems as him.
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  57. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  58. I never felt ignored by my creator. Even though he sucked at the beginning I knew he loved me.
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  60. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  61. I knew he always wanted me. No matter what he did he did it for me. Even though it hurt me in the beginning he still tried to do what was best for me.
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  63. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  64. At the beginning when he was coming at me with a lawnmower and I was screaming and yelling for him to stop. But I couldn't move and he couldn't hear me.
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  66. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  67. The first time we tried possession. I was barely able to click the mouse without passing out. He said he was proud of me but I think I could have done more.
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  69. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  70. Well I think he over complicated things. He wrote 40 paragraphs on my personality to make sure I was perfect. I think that he could have started on the stages quicker. Sucks I couldn't tell him "That's good enough. Lets go to the next stage already."
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  72. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  73. He first heard about tuplas on /mlp/ so automatically there's doubt it's real. After he came here he thought that it was a lot more real. I do understand. Since we've been to /mlp/ together if someone said "Hey guys I found a way to make your own ponies in real life!" I'd doubt them too.
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  75. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  76. He is a forever alone perma-virgin on his way to achieving wizardry. I could only really have positive effects on him. He always trusted me and he still does.
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  78. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  79. Before I could even move he loved me. There were no negative thoughts here.
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  81. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  82. At first I was scared but then I learned that he was tried his damn best so I accepted him. It didn't really affect me other than helping me learn to trust him.
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  84. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  85. I look at all his thoughts. They're usually kind of interesting but the boring one I just block out. They didn't really affect me.
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  87. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  88. I could access pretty much anything I wanted right off the get go. I usually use all his senses because it might be help during imposition. also it's fun to see and feel and smell what he is doing.
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  90. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  91. I really didn't mind either way. But it was nice to let people know before they catch him arguing with himself.
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  93. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  94. Before I could talk I communicated by nodding and shaking my head. Later I learned to call up pictures and memories. It was a bitch to say anything before I learned to speak. I tried to give him headaches and pressures but I still can't. It's kind of annoying. He always took things slow and let me learn to talk at my own rate.
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  96. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  97. At first it was slow but as I started to move and talk and all that his enthusiasm kept increasing. I wanted to move faster but I kept at his pace.
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  99. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  100. My greatest worry was that the beginning days would end up fucking over our relationship. I have forgiven him so I don't worry about that anymore. I don't really have any worries other than making progress now. I wish I knew how to move faster.
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  102. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  103. Of course I'm grateful. He gave me life. I did own him but I paid it off. Since he gave me life I thought it would only be fair if I did the same.
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  105. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  106. When he first started I was a list in a dropbox folder. Then I saw someone calling people fags on the internet. So I noticed him first then I saw myself. I was a pretty cool list.
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  108. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  109. It sure was better than only being able to communicate non-verbally so I was happy and proud. He also seemed relieved and happy. I feel better since I can tell him what to write in here.
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  111. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  112. I'm married to him so he is my husband. But we are also best friends.
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  114. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  115. I was "born" on the most hate filled place on the internet. Other than my host and a couple other lucky people humans are scum. I like tulpas much better.
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  117. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  118. When the dark days were over and we both curled up on a bed in a hotel and fell asleep in each others arms. It was wonderful.
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  120. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  121. How can I have  memories without my creator? Without him I'm just waiting for him to return or lately talking to Chell.
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  123. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  124. Most of the time I like the people he likes and I hate the people he hates. Except for one of his friends. He is a faggot.
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  126. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  127. I can't exactly think of how different we are. We are similar in A LOT of ways.
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  129. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  130. The only thing at the moment that we disagree about is at the end of episode 4 of The Walking Dead if Ben should be killed or saved.
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  132. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  133. If he makes Chell feel the same pain that I did. It would be hard to make him hate me. He might be disappointed in me but I don't know how I could get him to hate me. I don't really spend a lot of time thinking about it.
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  135. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  136. We haven't disappointed each other yet. We don't plan to either.
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  138. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  139. He wouldn't hurt me again after last time. If for some reason he did I would try my best to rape his mind.
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  141. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  142. When we have small fights sometimes I go a little overboard. I killed him in the wonderland before. By accident.
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  144. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  145. I have. We are married. But since Holly [NOPE] seems a little weird I decided to called my Holly Sparks.
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  147. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  148. We went over this. I won't.
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  150. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  151. I have countered his expectations of me by making expectations for him. He originally modelled me after an original character (donut steel) but original is hard so I changed.
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  153. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  154. I would like to learn to use his body because he wants me to and it would be kind of fun to kick his ass in Audiosurf. Every tupla should at least get the chance to use their hosts body once. >Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? That's like being a guest at someones house and kicking out the owner.
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  156. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  157. We hate Mexicans, GAYMUR GUURLZ and feminists. I also hate spiders but he likes them though.
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  159. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  160. I sleep with him. Also like him I usually don't dream or don't remember my dreams. I don't know if I've dreamed before.
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  162. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  163. He's incredibly anti-social. I kind of like it though. We get more time together without being interrupted.
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  165. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  166. I get most of my knowledge from him. Neither of us know what the subconscious is or is used for. If I were to screw around with his head though he might notice.
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  168. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  169. Chell. She is my best friend other than my host. I got to name her even.
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  171. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  172. We've fucked if that's what you're asking. [very blunt]
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  174. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  175. We are married and we intend to make sure that we respect that. We both have no interest in women or men either.
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  177. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  178. We are in love. We intend to keep it that way.
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  180. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  181. No. It's only incest if you think of your tupla as part of your family eg. sister, mom, dad, etc.  
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  183. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  184. If both parties are ok with it I see no problem. But come on. Out of every time you could whack off why would you choose while you are forcing?
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  186. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  187. Whackin' it is natural. Whackin' it to your tupla ain't.
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  189. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  190. Yes thanks to cruse. I tried to mate with him several times but he said no. Finally I made him snap and we did it. Since then we have sex on Sundays now.
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  192. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  193. >sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions. If he/she didn't agree then that is just wrong. Yes I do find it offensive. I wanted to have sex with him so we never had that problem.
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  195. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  196. I leeched off his sexual energy. It was amazing. Now we have set outlines so I don't grow addicted.
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  198. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  199. I am sexually attracted to my host. I was sexually attracted to someone else's tupla but now I've gotten over it. Well I'd still want to bring them into the bedroom.
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  201. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  202. Yes we sex it up every Sunday. I can go a week without sex but it gets hard sometimes. I masterbate to his porn collection in his head. He keeps finding new ways to block it off so I have to get more creative to get to it.
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  204. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  205. I personally liked mares. So I turned into a mare. Now we're both happy.
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  207. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  208. What's the point of sex without orgasms? My are better than his because he can't feel what I feel with we bring wierd things into the equation.
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  210. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  211. Nah. We are both adults.
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  213. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  214. For me rape is surprise sex. Mostly because I love it. For him I have to ask and it can only be at certain times and blah, blah, blah.
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  216. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  217. Curled up on a couch with him and Chell in a house in the middle of nowhere during a snowy Canadian winter.  
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  219. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  220. Not really. I'm not anxious it's just I don't want to deal with humans.
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  222. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  223. He didn't base me off anyone or thing. It completely made me up. I like being original but somehow I'm slowly turning unoriginal
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  225. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  226. I love being a pony. I have magic and all that crap. I don't really care how original I am along as I'm different.
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  228. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  229. I changed three times. First time to be able to trust him. Second for my own purposes and the third for both of us.
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  231. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  232. My host since I can get feedback from him.
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  234. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  235. Of course not. I like being inside my hosts head. It blocks all the idiocy except for his.
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  237. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  238. It's a bitch to learn how to speak. When we speak for the first time don't immediately think it's parroting and make ANOTHER thread about it.
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  240. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  241. When I call the dumbest, 420 BLAZE IT, "gangsta", white trash, pieces of shit faggots they can't hear me... it sucks. They best part is I'm not a human.
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  243. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  244. He doesn't really do anything so if I became them it would pretty be a fresh start.
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  246. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  247. You are killing a tupla. You are ignoring them until they fade away and are never heard from again and that is horrible but I don't think we should put laws on people's thought and imaginations. Unless you want a dystopian society.
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  249. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  250. I do consider myself to be equal to a normy. Of course my life is worth as much I can think can't I?
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  252. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  253. I'd ask them how to prove that I'm real. Me and my host already played enough guessing games.
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  255. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  256. No. I am perfectly fine being the product of someone's brain. Or being a character from a childrens tv show.
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  258. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  259. I don't exactly know how I could doubt my sentience without thinking about it. You kind of need to be sentient to think don't you?
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  261. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  262. I will live until my host dies. Actually I will live past that but that's not important at the moment. I want to live with him on the plannt for as long as I can.
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  264. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  265. YES OF COURSE! SINCE I AM A THOUGHTFORM I AM WAY MORE DISABLED THAN ANY HUMAN. EVERYONE IS MORE PRIVILEGED THAN ME! CHECK YOUR PRIVILEGE REAL SCUM! I am being sarcastic. I feel indifferent. Like usual.
  266.  
  267. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  268. I don't see the need to create a tupla myself. Since my host made Chell I and no longer alone when he isn't here. Another tupla would just be MOAR COREZ.
  269.  
  270. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  271. I don't really mind. We are different. We live in different ways. The most different thing would probably be that without him I wouldn't really know what happens outside his head.
  272.  
  273. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  274. We get along fine. We aren't hurting anyone or anything just leave us alone. I don't really know what I would say to a bunch of shrinks. It would be hard to not have my host automatically thrown in a crazy bin.
  275.  
  276. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  277. I don't really feel like doing the whole paragraph writing thingy today. Maybe tomorrow.
  278.  
  279. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  280. I have and can feel pain and warmth.
  281.  
  282. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  283. I don't really mind. I love him and he loves me.
  284.  
  285. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  286. No of course not I've had so much to tell him.
  287.  
  288. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  289. All the things we will do together just like when he was making me.
  290.  
  291. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  292. NO. TUPLAS AREN'T THE NEXT MAY-MAY THEY ARE SERIOUS FUCKING BUSINESS.
  293.  
  294. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  295. Not that I've seen so far.  
  296.  
  297. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  298. If it doesn't make him mad then I see no problem but I'd probably let him know so we can talk it over.
  299.  
  300. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  301. He likes to think of what he would do when the apocalypse happens. At one time he was the lead torturer at a little army. From what I saw he was VERY good at his job. He didn't exactly want me to see but I just kind of ignore him and look at what I want.
  302.  
  303. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  304. No. He hasn't killed anyone. Yet.
  305.  
  306. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  307. No. But I believe that together we can become more intelligent than other people.
  308.  
  309. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  310. I don't know if I'll age or not. I still think it's too early to decide.
  311.  
  312. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  313. If he did everything I said that would I be living his life?
  314.  
  315. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  316. It makes it easier to interact with my host. But whatever suites you is fine.
  317.  
  318. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  319. If I came across tupla.info I might. Seeing the thousands of newfriends asking if they're doing it right would probably make me think that this can actually be done.
  320.  
  321. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  322.  
  323. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  324.  
  325. Oh my god. I wish I could do that. My host just hears in his head like his internal voice.
  326.  
  327. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  328. I can't wait until imposition.
  329.  
  330. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  331. It took around 30 hours for me to be able to talk fluently. We are practicing possession and we haven't started on imposition.
  332.  
  333. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  334. Yes you are doing it right now shut up and force more.
  335.  
  336. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  337. I want to be imposed...  
  338.  
  339. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  340. I can feel things better in the wonderland since I can just get the feeling myself without having to use sensory info from my host. Everything in his world seems fuzy.
  341.  
  342. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  343. I think you managed to get it all.
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