Keeping up this lie is killing me. You don't understand how fucking bad I feel inside lying to the person I care the most about, especially having caused you so much pain in the past. In the beginning when I first met you maybe I wasn't even talking to you seriously, just to everyone in the chat. Brian is the friend I had in highschool up until like maybe a few months into knowing you. Everything I told you about what happened at his house and stuff was true, how he would have friends over and molest me and he raped me. I could never get over it and I still haven't to this day, it haunts me. Well anyways, as I was saying, I didn't think we would actually hit it off. I was kinda just fantasy mode and also trolling a lot - it was my thing. When I was on the chat I talked about my roommate not even directly to you but you read it and responded about it later. So I had to keep up with it. Like I said before I didn't think this was going anywhere. Anyways I used Brian cause I couldnt get him out of my mind. And I had to continue with that until now. I actually moved from my dad's house (everything i told you about him is true) up here to Lima to live with my grandma and go to school. And because of this most of what I've said about my mom (all the good stuff) is actually my grandma. My mom is still batshit crazy and she still pays me every month for the jeep. But all the stuff I've said recently has been my grandma, so I guess you like my grandma, not my mom. This is also why I mute my mic so often and why I usually only cam at night. This is the only thing I've ever lied to you about. I really hope you can forgive me, though I don't really expect you to.