<Mare> I have. because I still think Toast deserves one more chance. You don't know him like I do. He is a really nice guy in real life, and he has been having a lot of issues in real-life. RP is all he has left and since I stopped playin in his channel to dedicate more time to pprp, he's been really dedicated to proving himself. I feel like it's my fault...But I can say with a hundred percent...
<Mare> ...certainty that he is very, very serious about being a better roleplayer.
<Mare> So yes. I have caused drama.
<[NLR]Fade> I don't see how that's drama
<[NLR]Fade> I understand that, but just because i don't know him irl like you do, does not mean anything. You were not in our channel prior. You never did see what effect had on our channel, and how our channel is worse for it. How he acts irl, and how he effected our rp are to different things. I know him on the basis that he told us we were all wrong, that our rp was changing because of his relationships and we sho
<[NLR]Fade> uld adhere to that. That he gridlocked two important chars, when we told him no. That our channel was devolving into nothing more than toast and shipping co. It was a terrible time for our channel. And i never wanted to log on here. But i did. And we are finally managing to rebuild what was lost. IRL issues don't concern me, i am a roleplayer, and unless somepony approaches me directly how they lead to th
<[NLR]Fade> e impeding of our rp is irrelevant.
<[NLR]Fade> I know you support toast. I know yastin supports toast. That does not mean i think less of you for having a differing opinion.
<Mare> Nutter, you don't know how hard he's taking this. It's stressing him so bad. I know I wasn't here, but surely this roleplaying game isn't worth holding such a grudge? I can't stand seeing him so sad.
<Mare> and I feel so guilty all the time for abandoning his channel.
<[NLR]Fade> In that case. Surely a roleplaying game is not worth having an emotional breakdown over, right?
<Mare> Oh, that's not fair...this pat year he lost his mom, his job and his apartment. Rp is all he has left.
<[NLR]Fade> And if my rp is ruined because of him?
<Mare> I don't think it will
<[NLR]Fade> It was.
<Mare> but you could seriously change his life.
<Mare> you cannot IMAGINE how much it would mean to him.
<[NLR]Fade> You cannot imagine how his presence in our rp effected my life. I get it. Your close to toast. I am not. He is sad. I am happy because i don't have to stay up until four in the morning making sure he is not fucking. Or having to watch from school, to ensure he would not continue to ruin what it is we had worked months to build. And i simply sat as our game was dismantled because, it was his game now. And
<[NLR]Fade> his roles, And his emotions, took precedence over all ours.
<Mare> I know he will keep his word. It's all he has left.
<Mare> i know you and he aren't friends, but I hoped you and I were...and as your friend I'm asking you please. You've got a chance to make someone else very very happy. And I KNOW he would keep his word.
<Mare> I feel like such a terrible friend, because I don't have the time to devote to more than one RP, and I'd rather spend my time with you all than with his channel. The problem is, he would rather spend time with you than his own channel, too.
<[NLR]Fade> I could not play. I could not enjoy myself. I could not have fun in the game we built. You say it's not fair to him. It's just as not fair to myself to risk having to quit an rp i am more integrated in than him. One that had effected my own life  in such a negative manner. We are friends. But me and him are not, from day one in this channel he was telling me we were wrong. I should grant him happiness at
<[NLR]Fade> the cost of my own fun? Risk the rp for the 10 players who regular here, because he has taken this rp so to heart? I don't understand why we should do that. It's an rp. It should not effect some one on such a powerful level. I understand you want him in because he is your friend. But i don't want him in because he is not my friend. Because he attacked what i built. He attacked appletops chars, drove ignae
<[NLR]Fade> sia to not even bother playing, redmist to do the same. I don't know how i can trust his word when he continues to do the very same things we had kicked him out initially in excess even still. His rp style was not compatible with ours then. We told him. He did not listen. Even if i was to be swayed, appletop and ignaesia will not be, i am more than sure of it.
<Mare> Have you read his stuff with Lucien? It's great. And the most important part is that reading it reminds me of you. His whole style has changed to reflect yours. He looks up to you.
<[NLR]Fade> Whether or not, as i said, i was to allow it, which at this point is simply refuse and see no logic behind doing, The others would have to aswell. And that's not going to happen. Appletop would possibly allow. But iggy is even more adamant in this decision than i am.
<Mare> You could convince Ig. I know I couldn't.
<[NLR]Fade> The last thing i want to do, is argue with my fellow admins, over toast.