Gojiran, being the best rapper and giving me confidence

I know you can feel the fists clenching, the blood pumping
Enough of the slumping, the thoughts play
I need to get my anger out on bay, they say
But as much as it's powerful, it's unlawful
You'd rather see yourself' colorful than see it ireful
There's people you love, and people you don't want to see hurt
And then there's some you would shove, some you'd like to see in the dirt
You can't help but stay alert, but would do anything to revert
So many to exert, but only one to divert So much shit to concert, yet only so few that just play with no concern
I got friends I worry about, and I know you do too
They've made me feel blue but they're still my crew, they're glued on, not leaving anytime soon
Ones that could be valuable, but only some are so evaluable
And only so few special could be treasurable, maybe one day it'll be memorable
But I don't get my hopes up
I wish I could go through a glow up, but I don't even have a startup
Sometimes I can't stand so much shit I feel like I could throw up
High-strung, I feel like it could have stung
I'm bad at hiding it but there's no shame under my tongue
I still feel happy and sappy, not too savvy but it's still never crappy
I make them laugh, I feel like I could make this a paragraph, put it up on a bar graph
I know where I stand, but the arrogance ended me banned
So much to regret, so much that I place my bets, even the ones that I just met.