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PASSWORD -
USERNAME - @CLOUDYCHRIS

FULL NAME - kwon siah
NICKNAME/S - bunny, my mother used to call me bunny, whenever i was a scared bundle in my bed on new years eve, it calmed me down and it fits so well, because bunnies are always scared of everything and so am i ; ceci, it's ashortened form of my english name, cecile and all of my friends back in canada call me ceci, including my dad.
BIRTHDATE - 24.08.1998
BIRTHPLACE -toronto, canada
HOMETOWN - seoul, south korea
NATIONALITY - canadian
ETHNICITY - korean

HEIGHT - 167cm
WEIGHT - 51kg

SLOT -district 9
BACKUP SLOT - mirror
BACKGROUND - i'm a daughter of two korean immigrants in canada. i have always been a little skittish, but everything went really downhill when my little brother was born. I was two years old at the time and he did nothing but scream. I couldn't get any sleep in at the time, resulting in me getting moody and adding to my parents' stress. all they did was yell. we got so many complaints from our neighbors that we eventually had to move. the new apartment was next to a highway, adding into my fear of sounds. the tip of the iceberg was a series of severe car crashes next to our home. they robbed the last bit of my sleep, i was traumatized at just three years old. i moved out when i was 16, into a shared apartment with some kids from high school. i thought that i might feel better, but those incidents left their marks. my parents got divorced when i was 17 and i actually decided to accompany my father to korea, leaving my mom nd brother behind.
PERSONALITY - i'm very gullible, my few friends always pull pranks on me, resulting in me slapping them and ignoring them for the rest of the day. i often act very impulsive, not thinking about possible consequences my actions may have. i once got into real trouble when i told my brother that i wished he was dead instead of me being traumatized because of him. i have very high standards not just for myself, but for others too. it takes a lot for me to come out of my shell and actually talk to people, as i'm very cautious and introverted, especially in public. I hate going outside because of possible noises that could trigger my fear. i'm super insecure about everything concerning my looks, figure and character. i always try to show the best version of myself and get really sad and disappointed in myself if i can't accomplish that. i'm very pessimistic and give up on things easily. i just want to improve in everything i do and get aknowledged for that, not get made fun of because of my 'oblivious' fear. i can't do anything against it and i don't want to take pills either. i just want a simple life, a romantic boyfriend and lose weight. i need to improve, or i won't get any of that. it's my fault that i am like this and i have to work super hard to make up for all my flaws.

LIKES -
- watermelons, i love the taste, it just throws me back to rare summers in canada
- the countryside, there rarely are loud sounds there, i miss the landscapes of ontario like crazy, especially the niagara falls
- cats, they calm me down and make me feel safe, even in a huge city like seoul, i always visit cat cafes.
- wine, i put a record on, light a few candles and sip my white wine, all by myself. it's just so relaxing and makes me forget all of my daily struggles
-working out, i just love pushing my boundaries, especially in running. i love to feel dizzy after running, it makes me feel worthy
- piano, i love thhe sound and the calm athmosphere around it
DISLIKES -
- closed spaces, i hate the feeling of being limited, i limit myself too much already, i don't need a room to do it for me
- selfies, i just hate seeing my face on a phone screen. my instagram is full of cats and everything but my face or body
- cars, they're just too noisy and dangerous, i'd rather go by bike or take the subway.
- amusement parks, i love roller coasters, but all of the screaming people make me crumble, my fear skyrocketing
- tomatoes, the taste and texture just make me cringe, i don't get people who eat those devils
- sharks, i am petrified of them, no particular reason for it, it just has always been like this
HABITS -
- rolling eyes, especially when i'm receiving uncalled for critism
- talking to myself, i guess i never really got enough attention, so i learned to entertain myself
- cracking knuckles, it just established itself, my parents hate it, but i won't change, it just kind of takes pressure of my joints
LANGUAGES SPOKEN - english, korean and a bit of french

FACE CLAIM - good days nayoon
BACKUP FACE CLAIM - oh my girls binnie
RELATIONSHIPS WITH OTHER SLOTS -
ANY REQUESTED SCENES -
- lISTEN,, i just want a major cat scene with chan and her, probably them arguing which breed of cat cat is the cutest or smth like that!
- her having a mental breakdown right in front of him and him lifting her up, calming her down.
- her brother visiting and her yelling at him to get out of her face, chan standing in front of her to shield her from him
- her almost dying and him saving her, kissng her and crying because he was so worried
- her being sO CONFUSED and him confessing, confusing her even more because she doesn't understand how someone can fall in love with her
- him reassuring her that she's safe because he's here to save her from everything evil
- him vanishing and her screaming her lungs out, before collapsing and losing every kind of interest in life, wanting to die, stopping to play


REASON FOR PHOBIA SHE HAS -  the constant screaming of my little brother and parents, adding to it were the constant car crashes next to our apartment block. loud noises never were something positive to me, they always ment pain, heated arguments, death and lack of sleep, every time i hear loud sounds, i get thrown back to those days and i get reminded how sucky my childhood actually was and it makes me feel sad and frantic.
FIRST IMPRESSION OF LOVE INTEREST - he had a great aura surrounding him, especially his smile made me melt. i tried to concentrate on the cats, but caught myself staring him over and over again. i was a puddle on the floor, did i mention that handsome boys who love cats are my weakness?
INTERACTIONS - she's pretty cold and hesitant concerning him, just because she's never been in love and is just very insecure about her ability to satisfy him. he's the complete opposite, extremely warm and loving, reassuring her in everything she does and not giving up on her, always helping her out whenever she needs his help.
RELATIONSHIP - chan of course noticed me staring and smiled to himself, deciding to talk to me. i was so flustered and embarrassed that i suddenly forgot how to korean. luckily that angel of a boy was fluent in english with a hella attractive accent attached to it. i couldn't believe to have run into such an angel. we always texted back and forth, not sure of when to meet again, because of busy schedules and the constant thread of death. right now they're still unsure of when to meet again, because somehow they are too shy to function normally.

TRIVIA -
- my strongest subjects in school were english literature and history
- i can't swim
- i had braces from age 12 to age 15.
- i'm lactose intolerant
- i always sneeze three times in a row
- i don't like ice cream
- i love to cook and bake
HOW DEDICATED ARE YOU TO THIS APPLYFIC - very, because i love concepts like these
MESSAGE TO ME - all the best for your af, i'll support it even if i don't get accepted!
HAVE YOU ABIDED BY ALL THE RULES - i mean- i wrote more than asked but i hope the form is still acceptable!