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- In therapy I got told to accept and forgive
- But how can one put past behind one's back
- Leave pain and sorrow; focus on present and better future
- If one's suffering neither was nor will ever be acknowledged?
- Yes - in a perfect world, I would talk openly about my childhood
- With close to no fear about being pointed a finger or two and told
- "you had a perfect childhood"
- I do not consider my growing up in any way the 'worst'
- Though, I would not in any way wish it on my worst enemy
- How can I overcome a hurtful experience if the people who caused it
- See no harm in their actions, on the contrary - see their actions as rightful
- As if not defending your child was not a mother's job
- As if words being slapped in your mind and punches being yelled are part of a
- Normal Childhood
- I keep trying to lock up my history and first chapters
- Hide them all in the back of mind, out of sight
- But the door no longer works and someone keeps it open
- Please
- Leave it closed
- Leave the demons there, don't let them in
- For you see, loving my family despite all that happened was my curse
- You cannot love someone who shares hate wrapped in laughter and ignorance
- A child is naive, helpless and unprotected - but not stupid nor immature
- A child hears all and soaks up, their mind is thirsty for knowledge and love
- Their heart wishes to be seen and wanted
- Using all they can to achieve such end-point
- Please, hear me out
- What you say was not what I got or felt
- A pat on the head does not replace a hug
- A "she knows I love her" isn't same as showing compassion
- Friends can break your heart too
- Bullying isn't only name calling
- Parents can feel dead to you while sharing daily meals
- Sexual assault can traumatize even if didn't fit people's criteria
- Understand that your reality is yours alone
- I respect that
- My reality is mine and it feels as real to my soul
- Respect that too
- Just because you're right from your reality
- Does not mean my reality is wrong
- Don't you realize I would give anything to feel what you tell me?
- Traumas are no walk in the park, something that you can put off on weekend or holidays
- It is constant and heavy, not always present but always waiting
- Though I hope you never get to experience this overwhelming feeling and mental nightmare
- Sometimes you ought to be grateful for ignorance
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