Alice Margatroid says
Then hate me. But hate me honestly. Don't hate me because you don't understand me.
And you obviously do.
You seem to think I'm some sort of mechanical beast, weighing lives with no care for those I hurt and those I help. And if you honestly think that, you aren't paying attention.
You think I hurt people intentionally? Fuck off then. People get hurt. That's life. And more than that, most of the people Chen has accused me of hurting wasn't me, it was them.
I can't stop people from loving me. They know that I'm taken, that I can't give that back to them. If they decide to go ahead any way, if they decide to pine after someone who cannot give to them that way, when they specifically say they cannot, then that is on them.
And I am sorry that such things happen. I wish I could clone myself, so every person obsessed, in love, or in lust with me could have a piece. I tear my soul apart trying to please every single person, give every single person exactly what they ask for, what they need.
But if no one comes to me, what can I do? If I cannot give romantic love, I cannot give it. and I SPECIFICALLY said I could not.
Do not condemn me for being unable to give what I specifically say I cannot give.
hate me, but hate me honestly Victorica. If I hurt people you care about, then fucking tell me. Because no one else did. Because no one comes and says "Hey, you are fucking up, go talk to so and so".
Everyone hides it and everyone avoids it.
So you got beef with me, you say it loud and proud, to my face. And you tell me what I SHOULD do, and how I SHOULD do it, and I will 100% get behind that. But you never did. Neither did Chen. Neither did anyone I supposedly hurt. So I get to hear about it months later.
Fourth hand, through the grape vine, after it's too late, when if it had been discussed openly when it happened, we could have come to a better conclusion.