Maho Yamaguchi

Showroom:

"I had tried to send a mobame mail before but I got stopped and couldn't send anything. I wanted to tell everything, but nothing will get solved until I say the truth.
There's still other people who might go on to suffer the same experience, but I decided to just wait for a month. But they did nothing at all to deal with it in the end.
Even Imamura-san, he would speak about «making it a clean NGT», «making it a new NGT», of how «people who do bad things would get fired» ...and yet they did nothing to deal with it.
Everyone's personal informations, they got disclosed around too.
That, once again, I... The fact that carrying oneself diligently would result in...
I wouldn't be able to bear it, if any other girl working with seriousness will end up in a dreadful experience like this.
I am glad that I got helped out of it, this time around ...but I couldn't avoid wondering what it would have happened if I had ended up getting killed instead.
But if things had gone beyond the point of recovery, I just wouldn't have made it out in time.
Why is it that things that aren't allowed in other groups are tolerated within NGT? I really can't understand it...
It doesn't feel like I am being alive anymore.
Normally... Even some time before, like for the Aikabu Senbatsu, it was happy to work along together with everyone. ...Every day felt enjoyable after getting into Team G. It really felt uplifting. Laughing all together, being all smiles on a normal basis, that alone made things enjoyable enough. That alone was enough to feel happy.
Yet, in spite of that, how could things have come to this? I have no idea...
Is there anything wrong about carrying oneself diligently? So is getting into love affairs the right choice, instead? I have no idea about that anymore, either... I don't understand what's the point of it all...
Why it's people who carry themselves diligently who are forced to experience these situations? Is there anything wrong about carrying oneself diligently? For what reason should someone end up in a dreadful experience like this?
I truly wanted to say everything about it, but they promised me they would solve things out for me, so during the course of this month I decided to bear it and wait, although the situation was disturbing.
And despite all of that, as a result, they did nothing. The people who committed those wrongdoings, everything about that was left untouched as it was...
I don't understand it anymore.
What would have happened if someone had done something beyond the point of recovery instead? I want to tell everything, but it would cause trouble for the people who have offered me their assistance. But then again, even someone else besides me (stream is cut off here by the management)"

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Twitter:

I'm reluctant to speak about such things. I don't want to cause trouble on people who gave me assistance. I don't want people to hate about NGT, so during this one month I kept it silent although it felt distressing. I even pleaded to avoid saying that it involved NGT when on the news. Even this is because I greatly care for this group. This is also because I had hopes that everything would have gotten dealt with and solved.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082737318438481920

Even so, I decided to bear up with it for a month, believing and wanting to protect this group. In the end, they decided not to deal with it. What's more, Imamura-san, even though he had heard every detail about the members from the police, even though he said he would take measures against it, in the end tried to dismiss it as me having just victimhood delusions. I decided to remain silent for the sake of the group even though such an incident took place, and yet I got betrayed.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082737839266119680

I do not wish for anyone to hate on NGT. There's many girls who are working earnestly in here, and I couldn't stand it if they faced the same situation as I did. It feels painful to me, so I wish that the girls I care for so much will never go on to feel the same thing. It's fine if it's just me crying, but seeing as how everyone had been crying, feeling frustrated and uneasy, I want to do something about it. So I'm going to tell the truth.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082738142984036352

Last month, after the end of a theater show, I was assaulted by two men while on my way home. A certain member informed them about what time we would return back home from theater shows, one more member also informed them about my house address and apartment number. Yet another certain member also incited the perpetrators to go to where my home was. Is it really necessary for members who are in a relationship with fans to have your private informations leaked and be assaulted by others if you aren't in a relationship with fans yourself?
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082739730582626305

Is there anything wrong with not getting in any love affair, and doing your idol work with diligence? Is there anything wrong with wanting not to have a relationship with fans? Why wanting to honor the rules means I would have to go on to experience such dreadful situations, in this group? Why is it such a group where you cannot protect girls who go about their jobs diligently? Is it right for people to betray so many fans behind their back and being in a relationship with others? I can't understand how this can be allowed.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082740443480113152

Be it handshake events or theater shows, I have never taken a break to rest even if I was in a bad health. This is because there are fans looking forward to it. As well as people who'll have no chance to meet me again another time. This is because it's not a guaranteed they would come to meet me. This is one of my policies, which I have always settled on. Even so, why even that one had to be broken...? It feels frightening that the bonds that were built with everyone would be undone.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082740843549605888

The fact that such a thing took place, and yet I was made to take a hiatus, while it was being brushed off as if nothing happened... But since Imamura-san is a man, it means that he has no understanding of the terror felt by a girl while being assaulted...? I am now frightened of walking out alone anymore. Even though I had moved out, my parent's home as well as my telephone number all got leaked around and everyone has learned about them. I have no place where to escape.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082742993818288128

I always had a very cautious nature even on normal times. When I would enter my home, as well as when I would enter my apartment, I tend to act while paying caution to even the slightest things. Even on that day, I checked to see if there was anyone in the external corridor before entering my apartment and quickly closing back the door, but before I could then someone's hand came out from the other side, at which point he pulled it back open by force. I was grabbed by the face and was almost pushed down on the ground. I desperately tried to drive him away. If I give up now, I would get myself killed, I thought to myself, and was determined not to give up just then. I was just about to repel him, when another man came out from another apartment on the opposite side. That apartment was one where another member lived. This man replaced the previous man and once again grabbed me by the face and in the same way tried to pin me down on the ground. I attempted to cry for help, but from the fear my voice wouldn't come out. Even if I tried to shout, it took me about a minute before I could manage to get my voice to come out. "Help me, help me", I shouted. Then the man then covered my mouth shut. I started to wonder if I would be taken inside into my home while like that and then get killed. In the middle of this, the sound of the elevator started blaring, which helped diverting their attention, thinking to myself "Am I going to get dragged into home like this, locked in, and they'd do something to me? I have no idea" I managed to get out toward the corridor. Even then, the fright made me feel weak at the knees, preventing me from escaping. I tried to inform the police, but I got my cellphone taken away.

I'd like to think of everything as a lie, but this is the truth. I asked for help from those members who I could trust at the time I got assaulted. Those girls were there too, being listening to the testimony from the culprit up until the police came over, the staff was also there. As the culprit started naming the names of those certain members one after another, those girls broke out crying at it too. The fact that those girls working so diligently couldn't be allowed to feel at ease and work in their activities safely, it feels so odious to me.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082744718625189888

I have already informed the police. That certain members are also involved in this is also the truth. The culprits were arrested on charges of physical violence, but they were released already.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082745620744482817

If you suspect that those could be lies, feel free to doubt me, I don't mind. Another thing that won't be reported on news is NGT's name. They would hide the fact that there was an idol involved, that's why. There are plenty of gentle people among NGT fans, I don't want people outside to think badly of them because of a part of them. Even on the part of the victim of the assault, I thought how it wouldn't bring a good image on NGT, either, which is why I had requested for it myself. It will be announced as a "23 years old self-employee" and just that.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082748090438676480

I am sorry everyone. I didn't want to say anything that would break everyone's dreams. But nothing is going to change unless I say something. It's that I don't want to see other girls end up feeling the same as I did. It's that things shouldn't get past the point of no return. I am sorry. There was nothing else for me to do but speak it out. I am sorry. Even I, if only I could, I'd go one month back and go on to live as just a normal idol.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082749874758545408

Every day felt fun after getting into Team G. Even with the Aikabu event we worked hard together with all fans, and while the Sousenkyou ended with frustrating results, even at the handshake event many people kept coming in growing numbers. That everyone felt rejoyced at it also made me happy. That was a rewarding idol job, and I never considered any such thing as graduating. There are still many things I want to do.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082752001761456128

I am sorry. But all the same, this is all I could do. It is not just me, even those other members who are engaging in ther jobs with seriousness have reached their limit. Even so, especially because there are also girls who carry on with seriousness, please believe. I wish you wouldn't go on to hate NGT. As far as I'm concerned, I don't know what it will be of me, so keep giving your welcome to Team G.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082755235804721152

My apologies for having shocked to everyone with this. And I can only guess that hearing of the happening that I had come face-to-face with could have made you feel a sense of fear. I am deeply sorry. There are girls other than me who are going through these same feelings, and I wished I could be of help to them with this. I'm praying so that everyone can live each single day day safely, wholesomely, and happily.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082769401483452416

Moreover, please do not hate NGT48 by any means. The fact I couldn't take a firm decision until this point was also because I had in mind the state of NGT48. But on the other hand, I wish no one else would go on to feel the same way, which left me with no choice but tell the truth. I am sorry.
There are also many girls in here who are working diligently.
So please keep giving your support to Team G, I beg you.
https://twitter.com/maho_yamaguchi/status/1082769634657370113