*[TEXTS THAT ELIN HAS SAVED]*
ElinJLToday at 1:02 AM
Thank you for listening! Really means alot right now. I’m just broken down completely..
SERiACToday at 1:27 AM
Don't worry I honestly kinda feel you
And it's always nice to help friends
ElinJLToday at 1:28 AM
Yeah. I just don’t know if I can put up with this for a long time... If it’s gonna be like this until christmas then I don’t even know
I never get emotional about guys... But this is so sensitive to me. I feel like the luckiest girl sometimes and sometimes I just don’t feel like he wants me at all
SERiACToday at 1:30 AM
I understand you
And I really don't even know myself
you just have to talk with him at some point
idk what he really wants
ElinJLToday at 1:31 AM
Yes, but first he has to like respond if we even are going to have the conversation...
Nah I just feel like beaten up and there’s no hope left
I can’t constantly put myself down like this and cry
SERiACToday at 1:32 AM
Yeah I don't know what to say about this, he just feels more distant all the time
yeah
I can't really tell you what to do here
just really confusing situation
it's really all up to you
ElinJLToday at 1:34 AM
I know... The fact that he never texts me first, calls me and all that makes me Also wonder
When he was talking about love that it is just ”stupid because you’ll end up hurt”
I Said ”that is really weak”
I just can’t put myself through this... I really like him! But is it really worth it when I get double signals? When he calls me MaLady and ”I could never Say something bad about you because you’re Elin” and then just poof gone.
SERiACToday at 1:40 AM
I don't know
the whole situation is just so complicated
I guess jimmy never thought this would go this far
idk tho
Just really weird
all of this
ElinJLToday at 1:41 AM
It is... He is caring and all. Definetly feels like there’s something there
I don’t know... I only wish right now that I didn’t let me guard down this much and got lots of feelings and now I just sit here
I don’t know, right now I just can’t take anymore. I want to do everything right... I’m gonna take a break because if I talk to him now I think I Will break down completely
SERiACToday at 1:56 AM
Do what you need to
ElinJLToday at 1:57 AM
I Hate this situation but I can’t leave it
Yeah, be there for him seriac, he is sweet. Probably the sweetest I ever met and Will meet. He loves you, he needs you. I’m happy he has a friend like you.
SERiACToday at 2:00 AM
Thank you it means a lot :slight_smile:  and I will always be there for him, even he says that I am more of a brother to him than his real brothers
we just connect really well together
ElinJLToday at 2:00 AM
I know you do, it’s special
He adores you I can really tell
As long as Jimmy and you have together and that you’re Both happy then I’m fine with leaving it I guess. Because I can only see this go down right now... And I know if it does I’ll lose you Both
SERiACToday at 2:03 AM
You are still my friend don't worry about it
I don't leave my friends just like that
and jimmy doesn't hate you and I don't think he ever will
so even in the worst case there wont be any hard feelings
ElinJLToday at 2:06 AM
Yeah I guess it won’t change. But alot changes somehow. Because if he doesn’t feel anything for me and I go around and feel stuff it Will never work
SERiACToday at 2:07 AM
I know he does
but he is just super on and off
and just other stuff
that makes this all so hard and weird
ElinJLToday at 2:11 AM
It’s like someone is cutting in my chest.. I just don’t see how he likes me. It feels like he wants me when it’s Good and not wanna talk to me when it’s bad
Idk it has gotten too much for me
SERiACToday at 2:13 AM
yeah
The situation just changes all the time
I just don't know myself either
but I understand it sucks for you obviouslky
ElinJLToday at 2:16 AM
It does...
Seriac I really don’t see any hope at all
Right now I’m just crying Every single night
Calling Sofia or texting her Every single morning to talk about this and I’ve Done that for awhile
I am pretty weak
SERiACToday at 2:21 AM
I mean
I just don't know how to help you right now I am sorry
ElinJLToday at 2:22 AM
There is no help than either just move on or stay :/
SERiACToday at 2:23 AM
yeah
but thats something you have to decide
I cannot do it for you
ElinJLToday at 2:23 AM
I know.
Jimmy has to make his choice aswell
SERiACToday at 2:24 AM
Yeah I should probably ask what is his decision
but I kinda feel like I already know what it is
considering the last week we have been talking
ElinJLToday at 2:24 AM
And what is that?
SERiACToday at 2:26 AM
It's better to ask him first honestly
I don't want say anything before I'm 100% sure¨
ElinJLToday at 2:27 AM
I guess it’s bad news
:/
I just don’t feel like talking and asking right now. I just wanna know a little so I can think about it for the nect 2 weeks
SERiACToday at 2:29 AM
Yeah I will see how this goes
I really hope for the best tho
It is really sad to see you like this
trust me it really is
ElinJLToday at 2:30 AM
I just don’t think he wants me :/ which hurts alot
Seriac can you please give me a little insight in what you think he’s feeling? Since you talked about it.
I rather just hear it now and so I know if I should move on or just a little bit of what I should really do
SERiACToday at 2:33 AM
I mean I could do that
but last time I did that you talked to jimmy that I said this and this and honestly it was a mistake
because then he told me how he felt
but now its different again
ElinJLToday at 2:34 AM
Yeah... I know. I can really Say that this time I Will not speak to Jimmy
I don’t even wanna contact him right now because I’m hurt
I just wanna know a little...
Because right now I don’t know anything and that is even worde
Worse
SERiACToday at 2:36 AM
hmm
Honestly just
idk this is hard to talk about
because there are some stuff I never said because jimmy wouldnt want that obviously
but I just feel like it has been going down hill more and more
and I feel like he liked playing with you and stuff
but after you started playing a lot with Elic he probably felt like it is better to let go and that he is happy if you find happiness
Elic isnt the problem tho
right from the start
I feel like he didnt expect this to go this far
but you got closer and stuff
and he couldnt just cast you aside
he didnt want to hurt you
thats why he wanted to quit
and now I feel like he just wants to slowly let go idk
I really dont
the whole thing is just so on and off
ElinJLToday at 2:39 AM
Quit what?
Why does he wanna let me go? Is it feelings or is it because it is too hard
The thing is that kills me even more. Because I don’t know how to Say it in English
But in sweden we have 3 states of love
First attraktion, then we become kära and then in love
I would Say that I’m kär

SERiACToday at 2:42 AM
I see
yeah I see
Just from the start
I feel like I have been keeping this alive for so long
but resently jimmy just has been so distant about this
and sometimes when I defend you he asks me do I care about his feelings at all
all this is just really hard
ElinJLToday at 2:44 AM
Everyone tells me to let go
SERiACToday at 2:44 AM
hmmh
I feel like this is something you can't truly let go
you can take a break
not think about it
but some day it will come back
since old salt makes you thirsty
as we say in finland
ElinJLToday at 2:45 AM
Everywhere I turn I hear Jimmy
I don’t know I just wanna talk and Say my stuff right now
And then either let go or continue, I just need an END if he wants it
SERiACToday at 2:47 AM
maybe you should just send him a message
something like talk with me tomorrow if you care at all or talk with me so we can handle this once and for all
or what ever
just so he understands you really want to talk
not chat
talk
ElinJLToday at 2:48 AM
Okey... It’s just Every single time we talk
Idk he says just the right things
It’s hard
I’ll write to him now
SERiACToday at 2:50 AM
He is sleeping now
so he wont talk until tomorrow
ElinJLToday at 2:50 AM
I know but I write it now
I Hate this...
I promise I Will get my heart broken
SERiACToday at 2:52 AM
Stay strong
ElinJLToday at 2:52 AM
It’s hard
SERiACToday at 2:52 AM
as long as you have friends and family you will be fine
sometimes love can hurt
trust me I know
ElinJLToday at 2:52 AM
I know. I just thought I really had found something
ElinJLToday at 2:54 AM
I guess... I don’t know. I’ve Done everything to hang out with Jimmy
Just the other day he talked about me driving him around, being his lady and stuff
SERiACToday at 2:55 AM
Idk
Maybe he will say what he wants
I'm sure he will talk
if you just type you really want to talk
nothing more
ElinJLToday at 2:56 AM

That’s what I wrote
SERiACToday at 2:59 AM
I feel like thats ok
but I would have just said I really want to talk with you tomorrow
SERiACToday at 3:00 AM
Kinda feel like you want to say some angry stuff at him cus you wrote prata in capslock
ElinJLToday at 3:00 AM
Hahah yeah :sweat_smile:
Changing it
I guess I’m pretty upset though
SERiACToday at 3:01 AM
yeah dw
I would be also
ElinJLToday at 3:02 AM
Yeah, Idk I just think it is weird
That he wants to let go of me if he still likes me
Is it because it is too difficult?
SERiACToday at 3:09 AM
At this point
I don't even know myself
ElinJLToday at 3:10 AM
Yeah...
Like one week ago he Said that ”he wanted it to go slow and us to be friends but didn’t wanna let go of me”
I should probably sleep so I’ll get up in reasonable time
Thanks for your time Santeri
It means alot to me
SERiACToday at 3:22 AM
yeah dw about it
I just really hope this gets sorted out