Caroline I'm really really sorry that I made you mad at me. I swear on my life I didn't mean to. I'm so sorry. I'm really nervous about what happened tonight. I really don't feel good about it... My stomach really hurts cause I'm so nervous. I think you were probably saying some things you didn't mean to say. I just don't know. I mean you told me that you didn't like alex that much and you liked me a lot more and thought about me way more while you were in Honduras. But then you told me you told Zach you liked him a lot more than Barrett. And you were kind of all over here. And you kept asking him to text you tomorrow... And I'm not positive but I think you were asking him to hang out and get drunk with you tomorrow night. I just don't understand. It really sucked to have to sit there and watch you be like all over someone... I just like you so much. And I mean... If you like Zach... It makes me realize something. It wasn't just that alex was better than me and you wanted to choose him over me... If you end up having a thing with Zach then it's obvious that it's just everyone is better than me. And that I'm just not good enough for you. I mean... I guess I know that I'm not. You're Caroline Poole. I mean I guess I always knew that... I don't know I guess I just pretended otherwise. I'm sorry I'm so fucking stupid. I did this to myself by thinking I actually had a chance with Caroline Poole. I'm fucking stupid. I don't know. I'm just a fucking loser Caroline. But yeah... That's why I said I didn't know if you still wanted me to stay. I'm really sorry please don't be mad at me... It's just that like... For the last half of the night you wouldn't sit with me. Actually a lot of the night. And when Zach was leaving you got up and gave him a long hug and everything. And when I was leaving you just gave me a weird look and said bye, until I said something. I mean you clearly didn't care that I was leaving. And I mean... Before I came you were so concerned that Zach came. I don't know if you even really wanted me to come but I was just with Zach. I said I was gonna come alone and you just were wanted Zach to come. So I mean did you even want me to come? I don't know. Caroline I'm really really sorry. It sounds like I'm mad but I'm really not mad at you. I just feel like I should tell you what I'm thinking about. I'm always thinking about you. Caroline I'm never going to be able to get over you. I really mean never Caroline. I know that's weird. I'm really sorry. I just love you so much. And I mean it's really love Caroline... That's not something that can change with me. I'm so sorry. I just love you so much. And I care about you like crazy. Caroline... Just tell me what I'm supposed to do. Cause I don't know. All I know is that I love you and I can't stop thinking about you Caroline. I don't want to stop. I won't stop. When I'm with you is the happiest I am in my entire life Caroline. Damn Caroline. I love you so much. It just hurts so bad when I think about how I can't have you. You're the only thing I care about. You're the only thing I want Caroline. God. I'm so sorry I'm so stupid Caroline. I'm fucking pathetic. I'm really sorry that you have to deal with me Caroline. Just please don't be mad at me tomorrow. Please talk to me. This week was the hardest week I've been through in a long time cause I couldn't talk to you. Please don't make me have to go through that again Caroline. Please. I need to talk to you. Caroline I really hope you got home safely. I'm kind of worried since you didn't text me... But I'm sure you made it home fine. I'm really sorry Caroline. Please text me tomorrow. Please Caroline. But I'm going to sleep. I love you so much Caroline. And I care about you more than anything in the world. Goodnight Caroline I love you