the house internet just went down, i'm out of food, i need to shave and shower and do laundry, and all i can think about is i need to talk with you, communicate with you, share things with you, tell you what's happening and ask about stuff there or i swear to god i'm going to lose my mind!


maybe my biggest fear is being alone and may you take this opportunity to help that as soon as possible? we could be dead by tomorrow, i'm tired of waking up and feeling scared so don't torture me okay? it's not what i want to remember - it's not good for me


there are six or seven other people I could be giving my energy to and I'm trying to give it to you and you want to _____ me? it's selfish

how can I trust you if you're blocking me? trust must be equal

how can this f*****-up situation be what you want compared to before - you know we were both happier? so wtf

are you saying my age is more important than all the good feelings we were creating together? why limit that now? before things really get started? I know we both know it's not a problem, and might even be a benefit - i know i made mistakes and it's my fault but i already said sorry and isn't the punishment enough already ? we should be equals

do you have any idea how much dedication and effort this is going to take? and time? everything is against me and I don't need anything more against me before the real wars I have to fight start? i need all the support i can get right now, not later
you should want to be keeping me as close as possible especially considering these special circumstances, I think? if you think about it i'm already in a box, and making the box smaller is just cruel
i'm saying i don't even have to message you if you don't want rn but this situation is just making me feel bad and i cannot stand it because more than myself i just want you to be happy like before again and i hate the feeling like i messed up

why should I give you what you want if you won't give me what I want lol
I've had enough drama and mind games in my life already


you deserve a spanking for wanting to torture me. oh, but i know you will be a good mom

but you need to smoke some weed take some LSD and chill the f*** out !

you're blocking someone who's been single for years

why are you still? do you know how lonely I am, honestly

I know I'm maybe perfect for you, do i even really have to do anything? you should want to try to be as close as possible to me yourself

influencing you to do anything is worthless, it should all come from you yourself
look i don't want to complain but i can't ignore my feelings and uh i feel sick about this hello, i'm asking you to not give me any negative feelings at all, it's the right thing to do!

I already made my feelings clear in the other pastebin, that should be enough, this is just extra
all of this is nothing compared to hugging you or kissing your neck or anything irl but right now i'm trying to keep a better foundation of support, if you make it easy for me i will <3 you even more
ok i'm watching your stream and i got to the dancing. you are sexy and i love you (still i dislike watching from any distance)
ok i'm going to take a shower right