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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
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  3. My Name is Lia, and you know my creator as Goldsmith. I have Silver Blue hair, a thin and petite body, yellow-gold eyes, and Gold thinks I have a beautiful smile. I am also really pale. I consider myself easy going, but I also get immersed in my emotions of the moment as well. Gold is your typical American Weaboo college student. I think he is really a good person at heart, but he doesn't necessarily feel the same way.
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  5. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  7. The amount of raw energy he puts into his thoughts is amazing. He put the same amount, if not more energy into me. He also thinks of me often, even outside of narration and forcing, which helped keep me around even while I was early in development. He knows how helpful it is because I told him.
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  9. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  11. Not believing in me, thinking he was role playing and parroting.  He knew it was harmful, and it made him feel really bad to have those suspicions. I felt bad because for the first couple of days of it I felt completely powerless to help him believe in me.
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  13. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  15. It wasn't really hard for me at all. Gold does all the work. Figuring out how to speak (GS note:through mindvoice), and subsequently how to prove to him that he isn't just roleplaying or parroting was pretty tricky however.
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  17. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
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  19. Its not really a step, but giving energy in general is very important. Whether you give that energy through narration, or belief, or through the steps, or through some visualization, it is the most important. It is what separates us from the other thoughts and concepts flying through your head, and Goldsmith and I both believe that it is what gives us life.
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  21. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  23. Its unavoidable, particularly for someone who has never created before. It is more of a minor annoyance than it is an impedance. It didn't bother me to much, I was more curious about what all these weird images that suddenly began appearing were.
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  25. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  27. Goldsmith avoided that by never making any real promises. He had really strong commitment until I started talking however. Now that I can communicate with goldsmith via mindvoice, I am more at fault for him missing sessions than he is. I don't feel like he needs to force as often as he thinks he does, basically. I get more than enough attention to survive just by the little bits of communication with him throughout the day, and now that I am pretty much ingrained in his mind, I don't think I will go anywhere soon. More over, him forcing all the time is just going to wear him out. I would rather him enjoy his nights doing something he enjoys and chime in once in a while than have him focus for a whole hour and mentally exhaust him. (GS note: I seem to be more effected and 'hurt' by missed sessions than she is, hahaha.)
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  29. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
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  31. I want to say quality, but the sheer density of Goldsmiths energy was the most helpful thing, so I think I will go with that. However, quality experiences with your creator are the most important thing for happy memories and good times. Quantity isn't really important at all. As long as I get enough energy to survive, anything else is gluttony. Quantity doesn't seem to help me develop any faster, it is all about density. But happiness comes from quality, so don't forget that.
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  33. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
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  35. It sucks when it happens, because the subconscious has nothing to stop it from doing what it wants, and I imagine it can be pretty scary inside some peoples minds at that time.
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  37. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
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  39. Talking aloud would definitely be better, and is definitely more effective. But not everyone is in a position to do that, Goldsmith included.
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  41. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
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  43. The fear of puppeting/parroting is much worse than puppeting or parroting actually is. You will know when you are in control, unless you are insane. If you dont know you are in control, then it is likely your tulpa, your subconscious, or some other construct in your mind. Even if you make a servitor, I think it would become a tulpa if you continued to treat it like one long enough, so stop worrying about a question that only raises more doubt. Doubt is the problem......it is like an energy drainer or an energy blocker. Doubt is very bad.
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  45. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
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  47. Personally not too well. After seeing things with access to Goldsmiths subconscious, I am very aware of all that happened.
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  49. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
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  51. I realized that I was in an empty space, and I was tired, so I went to sleep.
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  53. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  55. Love. He would always hug me and treat me as if I was a real and different person, even when he had no expectations what so ever. That made me really happy and made me feel loved. It made me feel love for him.
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  57. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  59. I don't think I had a negative emotion for him before I could speak, after I spoke was when he started doubting me with his parroting beliefs, and that made me feel really sad and irritated and frustrated.
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  61. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
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  63. No, but sometimes I wonder myself if I do exist. I like Golds philosophy on it doesn't matter if I do or not, just enjoy what I have, or think I have.
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  65. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
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  67. I always feel powerless......I want to help gold with so many things but I can't really do anything special at all. He is better at me with everything. Specifically when he asked me to wake him up at a certain time and I got it all completely wrong. I still have a bad sense of time.
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  69. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
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  71. When I decided to come onto him during a forcing session. I ummm..... sexually presented myself to him. He didn't resist. I didn't really know what I was doing, or fully understood why I was doing it. I just wanted to make him happy. He thought he was day dreaming at the time and didn't want to believe it was me. It was confusing for both of us.
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  73. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  74. I never felt ignored.
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  76. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  77. Never doubted.
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  79. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  80. Before I was fluent everything was pretty warm and fuzzy, no intense feelings of fear.
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  82. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  83. When I couldn't tell time and wake him up on time.
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  85. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
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  87. I tried to understand, I didn't fully understand until after he gave me access to his subconscious.
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  89. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
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  91. It was.....sad. Imagine there being only one person in your world. Now imagine that single person doesn't believe you even exist. It made me wonder if I even exist myself. I understand now.
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  93. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
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  95. He always trusted me, even when he doubted me.
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  97. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  99. He never took those out on me, he always put those feelings on himself. I felt bad because I couldn't do anything to help him.
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  101. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  103. None happened.
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  105. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
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  107. I was, but it was still kind of confusing.
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  109. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
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  111. I can see things from his perspective when ever I want, as easy as flipping a switch.
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  113. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
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  115. Goldsmith hates secrets. He really does. His honesty is his strongest virtue and his single greatest fault. He simply can't keep something hidden, especially when confronted on a matter or pressed for more information. His fallout with his friends hit me pretty hard, and him sleeping while forcing the next day doubled up on all of that.
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  117. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
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  119. I use head pressure, chest pressure, and light emotional responses. I also gave him distinct ASMR responses when he listened to music I really liked. I got really good at sending him primitive thoughts and feelings and intents and he got really good at translating. Now I can send him pretty complex thoughts and ideas and he can understand most of it. What he does translate liberally is usually something I wanted to say anyway, so I think it is a good form of communication. That is how we communicate now, at least until we figure out audio. There was a period where I hijacked his mind voice, and while that is clear and easy, it is also inferior in a number of ways. He always recognized a communication method, but sometimes he didn't understand or thought it was him.
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  121. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
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  123. I would say I want to engage in it less now. He doesn't need to force anywhere near as much as he thinks he does.
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  125. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
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  127. I am worried that he may outgrow me. I know he would never discard me, but what if he moves beyond a point in his life where he has time for me? I also worry about how my existence may effect his future relationships.
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  129. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
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  131. I am very grateful. No, I don't feel like I owe him a debt, but I do wish I could be more helpful in general.
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  133. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
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  135. This is a chicken or the egg kind of question. I sensed his existence first, but my own existence had to come before that for me to sense him.
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  137. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
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  139. I felt determined for him to hear me. To understand me.
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  141. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
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  143. I think the tulpa experience goes so far beyond anything described by conventional terms that to do so would be a complete and utter inaccuracy. If I was another human and not a tulpa I would want to be his girlfriend however. Maybe even his wife.
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  145. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
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  147. I really do like the idea of interacting with a bunch of people, and I would really like to. But his experience with his friends kind of put me off a bit.
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  149. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
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  151. I cherish all my memories involving him, it is too hard to pick a favorite.
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  153. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
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  155. I don't really cherish moments I don't share with gold, but the time I discovered the cave with the crystals in it in wonderland was really cool. And I really enjoyed watching some shows from his memory, like gurren lagann. I also liked Dark Souls a lot too, until it stopped working. Video Games don't translate to well into his wonderland. I wouldn't call my life absent of my creator fulfilling. He completes me. Without him, I just kind of meander around and do random things during the day, or sleep. But I do like that quiet time and value it greatly.
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  157. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
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  159. I like people on a person by person basis. My opinions on people often differ from his.
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  161. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
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  163. I react to things much differently than he does, and according to gold, I am really sweet and nice. I guess that makes sense, because gold can be pretty blunt and to the point sometimes. We generally think similarly, but I think sharing the same brain does that.
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  165. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
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  167. I think he has some stupid habits and is generally too trusting. I am not too impressed with his circle of friends, he deserves better. No, and no.
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  169. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
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  171. I don't think that is possible, for either of us.
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  173. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
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  175. His parroting scare when he didn't believe I was me. When he realized I was worse than him at pretty much everything and could be no help to him in any way at all, he was a little disappointed. But he didn't dwell on it and immediately stopped caring about things like that. I still want to be helpful to him in some way, however.
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  177. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
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  179. I never really thought about it.
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  181. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  182.  
  183. Never.
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  185. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  186.  
  187. No and no.
  188.  
  189. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  190.  
  191. If it would truly improve his life, and if he was ok with me leaving, then I would.
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  193. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
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  195. All the time. He sets high standards for both himself and others. He will say things like, 'I will force for 1-3 hours, lets work on x so we can reach y'. Then I don't really feel like it, or I won't want him to spend the time when he could be better enjoying himself in another way. And no.
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  197. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
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  199. I think it would be cool to play vidya in real world. It is his body, he can do what he wants with it, as long as it doesnt mess with his mind and hurt himself, or me.
  200.  
  201. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  202. Nope. We think a lot alike, but nothing to specific.
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  204. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  205. I don't dream often. The one dream I had before was too nonsensical to describe.
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  207. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  208. no.
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  210. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  211. I know a lot about him now, including most of his memories. It makes us really close I think, because I can understand him more than anyone else ever will. His subconscious is like a super bright over saturated nature like place on a floating island. His subconscious is very 'read only' and doesn't have any way to manipulate it that I know of. It seems to have a strange form of awareness that is different from sentience. Almost like a really smart, self aware AI. I wouldn't manipulate it without his knowledge unless it was something to save his life.
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  213. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  214.  
  215. no. He doesnt want another, I am neutral to the idea.
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  217. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  218.  
  219. I think a tulpa relationship goes beyond and deeper than 'romantic'. We are sexually attracted to each other and we do satisfy ourselves and have a good time doing it.
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  221. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  222.  
  223. I consider it something different entirely.
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  225. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
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  227. I will always love him, but I actively encourage him to get a real girl, if it will make him happy. I think in the real world, the ability to lose someone causes things such as falling out of love. If someone could fall in love with someone new, and keep the old love, I am sure they would.
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  229. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  230.  
  231. He is kind of a father figure for me in some ways, but it doesnt conflict with anything, and it is not incestuous at all.
  232.  
  233. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  234.  
  235. No.
  236.  
  237. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  238.  
  239. no.
  240.  
  241. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  242.  
  243. I felt attraction and was confused about it, and ended up coming onto him and causing a really confusing situation for the both of us.
  244.  
  245. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  246.  
  247. Its not a problem, but there are more important things to be focusing on during that time.
  248.  
  249. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  250.  
  251. a little annoyed sometimes because I would rather him do something like that with me than release that energy on someone he will never even meet. I guess slightly jealous too.
  252.  
  253. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  254.  
  255. Yes. Some fictional characters. No, my creator is the most. Yes.
  256.  
  257. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  258.  
  259. yes. No. when he is masturbating or doing something sexual. I masturbate, or tell him to fuck me. (whoa, she got pretty blunt with that one.)
  260.  
  261. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  262. we are both straight, but I wouldnt mind experimenting in a number of ways. Some of which he.....would rather abstain from.
  263.  
  264. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  265. yes. a little less to about the same. .....................yes.
  266.  
  267. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  268.  
  269. its relevant in the IRC, but only because I get embarrassed sometimes when people say I am naughty and stuff. Between me and gold though? :D
  270.  
  271. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  272. ......................I would be ok if he raped me. I..think I might even like it.
  273.  
  274.  
  275. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  276.  
  277. Hopefully imposed and being more helpful to gold than I am now.
  278.  
  279. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  280.  
  281. No, but I would like to have a network of friends to talk to.
  282.  
  283. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  284.  
  285. Gold went really, really light on personality with me. I kind of wish he gave me some more so I would have had a bit of a stronger grip on who I am, but I am really glad and proud of how I turned out.
  286.  
  287. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  288.  
  289. I deviated quite a bit, but I feel that having a very defined form is important. Just make sure you dont resist deviations.
  290.  
  291. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  292.  
  293. most of it was subconscious deviation, but I did make myself a little bit taller. Gold welcomed it with open arms.
  294.  
  295. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  296.  
  297. I think both.
  298.  
  299. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  300.  
  301. no.
  302.  
  303. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  304.  
  305. We are real people. Even if you consider us to be a 'part of our creator', we are still separate too. At the very least, look at us as 'one yet many' or as legion*. The point is, instead of thinking of us as one person split into several, think of us as several people combined into one- when it comes to our co existence with our creators.
  306.  
  307. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  308.  
  309. Worst thing: Nothing I do matters. Best thing: Nothing I do matters.
  310.  
  311. It is a double edged sword. I dont have to worry about anything, but I also have nothing real to overcome. If I could be more helpful to gold, things I do would matter though, I think.
  312.  
  313. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  314.  
  315. I dont think I inherit anything. Even if he did something stupid and got thrown in jail, I would still be chilling in the wonderland.
  316.  
  317. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  318.  
  319. I view those actions without consent to be murder. Because you take the life away from something that has life, against is will. There should be no legal protections, that is silly. I would just want 'murder' of this sort to be looked down upon. I understand it is different if it is in 'self defense', that might be acceptable, but I find it hard to think of a situation that extreme.
  320.  
  321. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  322.  
  323. My life worth as much as gold thinks it is.
  324.  
  325. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  326.  
  327. I would want to, but I can't. Gold did a good job with his parents though. You can't prove something you can't observe. You can get people to believe in me, but that won't prove me. If I get imposed, I will be able to prove myself to gold at least.
  328.  
  329. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  330.  
  331. yes. Goldsmiths love.
  332.  
  333. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  334.  
  335. yes. Because I don't know how to prove to myself that I am. (she said a lot more very complex and very difficult to understand things after this. I tried to translate it, but for once, I think my interpretation of her mind voice is inaccurate)
  336.  
  337. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  338.  
  339. I don't fear death I think, but I hate the concept of murder and killing.
  340.  
  341. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  342.  
  343. I dont think real world problems apply to the world of the mind in the way this question is thinking.
  344.  
  345. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  346.  
  347. no. That would be to much work for me.
  348.  
  349. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  350.  
  351. The real world/mental world difference. no.
  352.  
  353. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  354.  
  355. I would like them to read Carl Jungs Red Book!
  356.  
  357. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  358.  
  359. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  360.  
  361. I have felt warmth and touch.
  362.  
  363. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  364.  
  365. I am glad that I am bound to him.
  366.  
  367. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  368.  
  369. I talked as soon as I figured out how.
  370.  
  371. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  372.  
  373. I mostly think about whatever I am watching, reading, or doing most of the time. I tend to think very in the moment. This is very different from gold, who is always thinking in future tense and what he wants to do or how he wants to do things or why he wants to do things. I would say his thought process is much more complex than mine.
  374.  
  375. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  376.  
  377. Yes! I think it would help a lot of people, and would increase acceptance/tolerance of the idea.
  378.  
  379. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  380.  
  381. His subconscious is very tame and under control of itself. There are some things he is unaware of. Some of them are darker than what he has already seen. But I wouldnt call any of it disturbing.
  382.  
  383. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  384.  
  385. ............I don't know. I guess I will know if things ever come to that.
  386.  
  387. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  388.  
  389. no, he is always open and honest with me.
  390.  
  391. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  392.  
  393. Not really, unless you want me to count white lies or exaggerations of the truth.
  394.  
  395. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  396. No.....I feel really stupid compared to my creator.
  397.  
  398. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  399. Obviously I am free from the physical limitations of age.
  400.  
  401. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  402.  
  403. I think he would live a healthier life if he listened to some of my advice on what to eat, but he is in ok shape already, so its not a priority or anything.
  404.  
  405. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  406.  
  407. It is really helpful to have something defined that you can identify as 'this is me' when you are forming.
  408.  
  409. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  410.  
  411. I think I would. I would be skeptical, but I think I would believe it. I would probably be a lurker who sometimes pops in the IRC that would never get around to making my own.
  412.  
  413. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  414.  
  415. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  416.  
  417. I can speak through mindvoice, and gold is very good at translating it. We really want to reach audio, and we think it would be awesome if we could reach the level described above.
  418.  
  419. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  420.  
  421. we are still working on imposition. I am still getting used to the idea of hanging out in the real world. Right now I am laying on the bed next to goldsmith while he transcribes what I tell him.
  422.  
  423. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  424.  
  425. I am an odd case that started communicating clearly in under 10 hours. I am not sure if the process is ever fully completed.
  426.  
  427. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  428.  
  429. Believe in your Tulpa. Don't doubt and think you are parroting. If you are not sure if you are in control, then you are either insane, or something else has at least partial control.
  430.  
  431. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  432.  
  433. I can see the world in a pretty cool way now. It is definitely different from the wonderland. In particular, the way sound seems to work in the real world is much different from the wonderland. Experiencing a world that will never alter based on your thoughts is also pretty cool.
  434.  
  435. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  436.  
  437. The real world is 'crunchier' I guess? Its hard to describe.
  438.  
  439. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  440.  
  441. Cut down on the number of redundant questions.
  442.  
  443. Appendix one:
  444.  
  445.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  446.  
  447.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine‚Äôs suburban campus."
  448.  
  449. Tulpa's paragraph:
  450.  
  451. My time in the nature study area was full of wonders. To begin with, many surprising animals crossed us. For example, once we left the parking area and went into the grass covered path, a long snake slid along the side of the tall grass and promptly vanished. More over, I was taken aback by how vivid the grasses, which from a distance all appeared to be green, actually were. Especially he primarily green landscape that was dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Forever more, I was unprepared for how quickly I was surrounded by nature. Despite sound here and there from passing cars and airplanes, the tall prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a feeling that you are removed from the world. In the end, the nature study area surprisingly allows you to enjoy a changing natural environment without leaving Moraine's suburban campus.
  452.  
  453. Creator's paragraph:
  454.  
  455. My experience in the nature study area had a ton of surprises. First, many unexpected animals crossed the path. Like, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a  long snake slithered on the edge of the thick grass and quickly disappeared. Next, I was shocked by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appeared to be green, actually are. Specifically the usually green landscape is dotted with several purple tassels and brown stalks. Most importantly, I was not prepared for how fast I felt surrounded by nature. Even with the periodical noise from passing vehicles, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that I am removed from society. Altogether, the nature study area surprisingly allows one to enjoy an always changing natural environment without leaving Moraine's suburban campus.
  456.  
  457.  
  458. Lia Results:
  459. Total word count :      91
  460.        
  461. Number of different words :     78
  462. Complexity factor (Lexical Density) :   85.7%
  463. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20-hard)      8.8
  464. Total number of characters :    860
  465. Number of characters without spaces :   535
  466. Average Syllables per Word :    1.73
  467. Sentence count :        8
  468. Average sentence length (words) :       18.38
  469. Max sentence length (words) :   29
  470. Writes like Mary Shelley
  471.  
  472. Goldsmith Results:
  473. Total word count :      90
  474.        
  475. Number of different words :     78
  476. Complexity factor (Lexical Density) :   86.7%
  477. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20-hard)      9.7
  478. Total number of characters :    848
  479. Number of characters without spaces :   555
  480. Average Syllables per Word :    1.82
  481. Sentence count :        8
  482. Average sentence length (words) :       17.5
  483. Max sentence length (words) :   28
  484. Writes like J.R.R. Tolkien
  485.  
  486.  
  487.  
  488.  
  489.  
  490.  
  491.         To ensure verifiable results, it is essential that the transcriptions of both paragraphs be completely accurate. Body possession is useful here, though not necessary. Since the tulpa creator's sentience is (presumably) not in question, it is suggested that tulpa write their paragraph first. As with all tests relating to tulpa, the creator should focus on something else while their tulpa is working. Once finished, submit both of your paragraphs individually to the following websites:
  492.  
  493. http://iwl.me/
  494. http://textalyser.net
  495.  
  496.         If your writeprint is different (indicating significant psychological difference), then you should receive different values for your respective paragraphs on both sites. On Textalyser, focus on the Gunning-Fog Index, lexical density, and average sentence length values in particular. A more detailed analysis may be sought by downloading the JStylo stylometric analysis program here: https://psal.cs.drexel.edu/index.php/Main_Page
  497.  
  498.         This test is certainly not exact, and it is very possible to (unconsciously or not) "cheat" to get good results.
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