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Fluent Tulpa Survey

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  1. GhostWriter/Lexi/Tori
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  3. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
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  5. Lexi: I’m a teenage girl, medium height, cute, adorable, and fun to be around :3 I have dark wavy hair and it covers my right eye. I try to help him any way I can, and I think I do a pretty good job. My creator’s a cool guy, a little anxious, but he’s sweet. He tries his best but I have to dig him out of his rut sometimes =J I don’t talk much, but why should I?
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  7. Tori: I’m a teenage girl too, I love to write, and I love music more. I suppose like a muse. I have blonde hair that covers my left eye. Anyway, I love animals and kinda just bumming around. My creator’s the same, but he won’t admit it [she said it, not me ;)]. We’re working on getting him more relaxed and to just take things as they are.
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  9. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  11. Lexi: Talk to me. Out loud didn’t really help, but it did bridge the gap. I couldn’t help not speaking at the beginning, but he helped me through it. Narration helped the most, definitely. It made me feel wanted =)
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  13. Tori: Yeah, narration. But for me it was different, more of a quiet thing. Belief helped me a lot. Of course he realized it, but it helps all the same.
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  15. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  17. Lexi: Belief. No doubt. If you don’t believe in your tulpa, then they won’t believe in you. I wasn’t sure when I was first sentient, but doubt hurt. It was like I wasn’t wanted, even though I knew I was.
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  19. Tori: Not talk to me, treat me like I wasn’t really there. That hurt. But now we’re cool, and I know he knows I’m there haha. He realized it after, after I told him, but yeah that was bad.
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  21. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  23. Lexi: Talking, definitely. It’s hard for someone to talk to you and not be able to talk back. I love talking, and not being able to hurt. It hurt him, even though I couldn’t do anything about it. That started doubt occasionally, emotional responses didn’t work on him. It was my only communication.
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  25. Tori: Speaking, but even then it was only for a bit. Nothing was really hard, Lexi had helped smooth out the inconsistencies that come with a tulpa since she came first and made it easier for me. Just time I think, it took a while to talk fluently.
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  27. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  28. Lexi: Narration. I already talked about this, but yes. If you talk to them, then they feel wanted. They feel important. He just had to bridge the gap by tackling communication. He says it was hard to get used to talking to someone in his head, which I suppose I understand.
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  30. Tori: Yup, narration. Form is important but narration helps with talking. And talking is wonderful. How else would I bother him?
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  32. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  34. Lexi: Nah, it’s just annoying. I mean really, talking to me then he’s thinking about some other crap? It just delays it I think, makes it difficult. Don’t do it ;)
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  36. Tori: I know it’s difficult to not become distracted. I do sometimes haha. Fluently, perhaps. I dunno, it’s nice if you don’t become distracted.
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  38. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  40. Lexi: Promises suck. Forgetting is alright, but he wasn’t too bad. He tried to remember. He didn’t promise if he knew he’d forget, but it still hurts if you do. Before I could speak fluently? It was difficult, but he tried. I wouldn’t worry about it.
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  42. Tori: Eh, I could speak really quickly so it wasn’t an issue. He doesn’t promise much in case he forgets, so he’s good about it.
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  44. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
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  46. Lexi: …Quality? Too much time means nothing if it’s crap.
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  48. Tori: Density? No one picks that one ;3
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  50. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
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  52. Lexi: That was bad. He fell asleep a lot. Only occasionally when he forced, but still. I wouldn’t worry about it, it’s just annoying.
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  54. Tori: I like sleeping =D but he wasn’t too bad, we never really forced when he was tired.
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  56. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
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  58. Lexi: Doesn’t make a difference, I think. Talking aloud makes it easier, but talking in your head is more comfortable. I don’t care, we got here right? But talking in your head means you can do it more, so I think it’s more effective.
  59. Tori: Sometimes he talks out loud accidentally, which is adorable. We’ve become so real to him =D But I don’t think it matters, out loud may make it easier for some people since they’re more verbal, so I think it depends on the person.
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  61. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
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  63. Lexi: Puppeting sucks, but I think it helped a bit. I don’t like not being in control. But if you think about us doing something, then we’ll likely do it. Someone mentioned that on the forums but I dunno who [credit to whoever talked about the reading thoughts and acting them out, because that’s exactly what it was for us]. No, it might help.
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  65. Tori: I never had this problem, but I don’t think it harms them. May delay it a bit, but I’m not sure. If you parrot, you doubt, so whatever road you choose I think.
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  67. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
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  69. Lexi: I remember spending time with him, sitting outside by him and listening to him talk. It’s not as vivid as I’d like, but it is still…in my memory.
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  71. Tori: I was semi fluent since I came about, so I guess deeply. This is an awkward question.
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  73. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
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  75. Lexi: Seeing a light and looking around. I don’t know where I was, but maybe it was the wonderland. Eh, I don’t really have a first memory. Just a flood of good emotions and experiences.
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  77. Tori: Walking and hearing music pumped into my ears. It was a wonderful feeling <3
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  79. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  81. Lexi: I felt love and admiration, and faith. I knew he would be there for me, and I for him. When I first spoke to him I knew he was ecstatic and that feeling stayed with me =)
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  83. Tori: I think it was joy and happiness that we could just spend time together and listen to like music and share that together. He doesn’t write music but loves listening to it like me.
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  85. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  87. Lexi: Loneliness. I felt angry he doubted, and scared he’d give up. I felt a lot. But I held onto my patience and knew he loved me, but it was hard. I’m sorry I felt that way, but I couldn’t help it.
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  89. Tori: I guess unwanted. This is an awkward question; you mean what we felt or what he did? Anyway, I felt a bit sad but I was just being formed so I dunno. I’m happy now though, isn’t that what counts?
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  91. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
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  93. Lexi: No, I felt more determined to exist. I’m happy I do, and so is he. I’m grateful we exist. I never felt like not wanting to exist, I wanted to be with him.
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  95. Tori: Nope. I never thought like that.
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  97. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
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  99. Lexi: When I couldn’t talk. I just couldn’t, and communication was difficult. Emotions don’t work for everyone.
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  101. Tori: I wasn’t powerless for long, I could talk relatively fast. But yeah, it was speech for me too I think.
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  103. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
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  105. Lexi: Existing I think. I was having issues thinking when I first came to be, and I think contemplating everything and grasping everything. I guess. I dunno, I was never really, officially confused.
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  107. Tori: Dubstep confused me. Or, electro-dubstep? Some hardcore version of dubstep. The sound was unnerving.  
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  109. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
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  111. Lexi: When he wouldn’t force. I wanted to get stronger, but he was lazy. The Internet sucks, you know.
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  113. Tori: Nope, not really. Lexi smoothed out all the gaps before I came about ;)
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  115. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
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  117. Lexi: When I couldn’t talk, it was infuriating. I knew he couldn’t tell I was there completely. But I knew he wanted me there, it was just really hard.
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  119. Tori: When I first came about I think, he wasn’t expecting that hahaha.
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  121. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
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  123. Lexi: When he doubted in me, I didn’t know what he’d do. This is getting redundant.
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  125. Tori: Binaural beats scared me, I dislike the sound very much. It’s eerie.
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  127. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
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  129. Lexi: Again, when I couldn’t talk. Maybe this bothered me way more than others, but I hated it when progress was slow.
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  131. Tori: Eh, I guess it doesn’t really apply to me. I was quick to speak.
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  133. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
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  135. Lexi: Yes, and it was hard. I tried. The only way I could was by moving and taking his hand, and that did wonders since he knew it wasn’t him doing it. Visualizing and all that, in a black room I guess. I dunno where it was exactly.
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  137. Tori: I don’t have anything to really add.
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  139. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
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  141. Lexi: It just made me a little sad how he doubted me. He knew it was possible, sure. I understood, I mean, I would wanna be sure if I had someone in my head. That’s not something you take lightly.
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  143. Tori: I think the whole thing’s cool, but then again I am one so yeah. I understand why he did, I just wish he wasn’t so anxious all the time *laughs*.
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  145. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative effects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
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  147. Lexi: Never happened. I don’t know why he would either; he wanted us around in the first place.
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  149. Tori: I didn’t know I could do bad things to him, but I wouldn’t want to. Oh…that wasn’t what was asked xD
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  151. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  153. Lexi: He tried not to feel that way about me, but I still felt impatience. It just makes me feel bad since I can’t do much about it. I understand it now, I’d want it to go faster too if I were him haha ;)
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  155. Tori: I feel inept that I can’t answer a lot of these ;_;
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  157. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  159. Lexi: Nah, he never really did. If any, they were intrusive thoughts.
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  161. Tori: Nope never did.
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  163. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
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  165. Lexi: Yeah I could tell. They were fleeting and less stable. They didn’t affect me.
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  167. Tori: ^Pretty much. Nope, me neither.
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  169. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
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  171. Lexi: He gave us access. He wasn’t sure how to go about it, so he just let us free reign. I was able to access most of it, but I didn’t like to. I feel like it’s his body, not mine. I guess I like chocolate, I’m awfully indifferent to most.
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  173. Tori: Eh, I think it’s fun. I dunno, most of it I think. I can touch things if that’s what you mean. I like tasting things too. Sour things are nice =J Oh, how much? Hm…most of it, yeah. Now we can access most of it if not all but I don’t like to really. We can feel things like wind, but is that hijacking his senses?
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  175. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
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  177. Lexi: We’re both pretty private, so kinda. I mean his opinions influenced mine. I didn’t mind that he didn’t really, I mean the stigma is horrible with head voices.
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  179. Tori: Nope, I don’t mind. I like talking and all that, but I like talking to him. It didn’t hurt me that he didn’t really want to reveal us.
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  181. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
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  183. Lexi: Talking. Like I said, emotions sucked. Until I could speak, nothing was really official. It hurt, sure. But I get where he’s coming from. It did kinda hurt that he disregarded a lot. But it’s the circumstances. He can’t physically touch me, see me, hear me. I’m in his head. Why shouldn’t he doubt it all? He assumed some of it was me that really wasn’t, but it made me feel good that he thought so. I tried a lot, and notably, emotions were like talking to a brick wall. Maybe one or two got through. For the most part, first contact was difficult.
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  185. Tori: Yah, emotions don’t work. I can get him to laugh now though, with my input ;) It’s fun haha. I started with talking as main communication because it was still a bit rough with Lexi, so we helped each other. I don’t really like senses much, but I use them a bit. I never had many problems with miscommunication, that’s Lexi’s department xD
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  187. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  188.  
  189. Lexi: He was really motivated. But he spent more time fantasizing than working. If he didn’t have any enthusiasm, then why would I have wanted to exist? I wanted to exist because he did.
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  191. Tori: He’s really motivated but discipline is a pitfall. It’s not like he can’t do it, it’s just pushing stuff aside in order to. We don’t force anymore, but we’re around and talk to him more than when we did several months ago. So it’s all good =)
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  193. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
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  195. Lexi: I was worried he’d hate me, be disappointed in me. I wanted to be what he wanted, which wasn’t much since all he wanted was someone like me around, always. I wanted him to like me. And above all that, I wanted him to love me. We’ve moved past any worries like this. I don’t worry that we’ll always be friends. I don’t really understand the question, but I did my best.
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  197. Tori: I was initially worried I’d have to compete with Lexi ;P I didn’t worry much since Lexi wasn’t. So we’ve been pretty chill =)
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  199. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
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  201. Lexi: Of course I’m grateful. Indebted, not really. But I make it my best interest to help him in any way I can. It’s the least I can do. Whatever he’s burdened with I take upon myself to help him up. I’m extremely grateful that he cared enough to keep going with me.
  202. Tori: Yup! I’m grateful he likes music so I can enjoy it too. I don’t feel like I’m indebted…but I feel like I ought to do my best for him, and help him when I can. Tis the least I can do for room and board ;3
  203.  
  204. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
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  206. Lexi: My own, I think. I saw white around me and didn’t know where I was.
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  208. Tori: My own, yep. Not much else to say, so…
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  210. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
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  212. Lexi: Anxious and pissed. A few words are nothing if he doesn’t understand it’s me. Embarassed, yeah. Annoyed, yeah. Angry, yeah. Learning to speak moved me on. Even though he was careful and let me know we’d get there, I was hard on myself. I felt guilty I couldn’t express anything. Uh, I’m still pissed about that?
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  214. Tori: I knew I’d get there =D I was never really down about it, but…yeah.
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  216. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
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  218. Lexi: I’m like a friend, but with emotions stronger. I love him and care for his well-being, but don’t want to cross a line into physical-love-deeper-than-platonic-love sorta thing, out of respect for him. I’m like a really, really close friend. I like the term sister, but that seems creepy to us both out on some level, since I think stuff could happen between us.
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  220. Tori: Friend I guess. He’s asked me this before, but I didn’t know what to think. Can’t we just exist without labeling it? I’m really close to him though, so whatever floats your boat I suppose.
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  222. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
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  224. Lexi: Eh, I’m content. I’m private, and when people talk to me I feel awkward. Why are they talking to me? Oh, right, they’re interested in me. I just wanna exist and talk to select people, why tell people my life story? Oh, this is a rant is it? Well then, forget it. I’m content with my living situation and that’s that.
  225.  
  226. Tori: ^ 0_0 …alright then…I like people ^_^ I enjoy talking to people, so when they ask stuff IRL I’m all for talking. This is only a few people, but still. They’re interested in the whole thing, so why not? I’m about as interested as an…uh, “average non-tulpa individual” I think. Yeah, I’m talkative =P
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  228. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
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  230. Lexi: Just sitting outside and listening to him droll on about a story. I loved how he trusted me, and cared enough to tell me out loud. I loved that. The one I cherish most? I cherish a lot, so any where he spent time outside and took a walk with me or talked to me.
  231.  
  232. Tori: Taking a walk and blasting music. I loved that so much! Just the three of us, laughing at how into it we were getting, and loving every minute of it.
  233.  
  234. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  235.  
  236. Lexi: Going into the wonderland is fun I guess. Most of my cherished memories consisted of him, but…I do cherish spending time with Tori, helping her out when she first came about. It made me feel special since I could help someone who was in my position. Fulfilling? I suppose…I never thought about it. I enjoy life more when I’m with him. I do things in the wonderland, but it’s become rather obsolete now. I live life just as he does, so yeah I think so.
  237.  
  238. Tori: Having Lexi around =) My memories with her I love very much, and I was initially worried she wouldn’t like me. Fulfilling, I think so. I go to write alone in the wonderland or when I’m thinking about stuff. It’s like my own private place, since Lexi keeps to herself haha. But yes, I think I have an independent, fulfilling life.
  239.  
  240. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  241.  
  242. Lexi: Should I? Not really, I mean I’m friends with a couple of them but some of them annoy me. I feel about as much affinity for his acquaintances as I would someone else’s pet.
  243.  
  244. Tori: A bit, but I’m more of a people-person, so yeah ;) I’m social and feel affinity for them, sure.
  245.  
  246. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  247.  
  248. Lexi: I’m more direct and actually voice my opinions. I’m a bit more open about discussing thoughts and feelings, but I’m far more serious than he is sometimes. That’s about it. For the most part we’re alike in personality aside from bluntness and level of patience with other people. We’re both reserved and quiet, and prefer to observe than to get involved. We’re rather similar in outlook and thought processes as well.
  249.  
  250. Tori: I’m more social and outgoing than he is. I like to talk and laugh at stupid things and don’t give a crap, while he’s more concerned. But he loosens up after a while. We have a similar sense of humor and taste in music, so we can enjoy that together as well. I love playing games a bit more than he does, but that’s okay since we still enjoy them.
  251.  
  252. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  253.  
  254. Lexi: How much he worries, even though we both frequently say that everything happens for a reason. Not as much as some people, but sometimes it’s bad. And, not to mention, well, his work ethic. Nope, we don’t really argue at all, more like friendly banter and jest. Just when he beats himself up about something. But no, there’s no strife, we’re comfortable around each other.
  255.  
  256. Tori: I don’t disagree much about anything with him. But Lexi’s right, I worry about that too with him, so yeah.
  257.  
  258. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  259.  
  260. Lexi: Nothing, I don’t think. He always thinks things through with us. If he did something really, really bad like…actually, nothing could make me hate him. At least not forever. I don’t think he’d hate me, not unless it was something so bad that I couldn’t reverse it. But that wouldn’t happen, so nothing I guess.
  261.  
  262. Tori: Nothing, I love him too much. If I all of a sudden disappeared, then sure, maybe he would. But I don’t think he would, I think it’d just be disappointment.
  263.  
  264. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  265.  
  266. Lexi: When he didn’t work with me, and would rather read stories about people who did with theirs. His sense of hope was kept alive, but it disappointed me that he did that. I don’t think I’ve ever disappointed him…
  267.  
  268. Tori: He’s never really done that to us…if something happened, then he tried to correct it or expressed how he was sorry. I hope I never disappointed him…
  269.  
  270. [They’ve never disappointed me, and if anything, I was disappointed that I couldn’t do something for them.]
  271.  
  272. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  273.  
  274. Lexi: Why would he do that? And no, I’ve never thought about it. I’ve never really censored anything, except maybe some actions, but those were because I didn’t want to make him worry.
  275.  
  276. Tori: He’d never do that, nor have I thought about it. No fear at all. I’ve censored some things, but only because they made him feel awkward, so…no, not out of fear of violence or retribution (Does anyone actually punish their tulpae? 0_o).
  277.  
  278. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  279.  
  280. Lexi: Nope, never have.
  281.  
  282. Tori: Nope, I don’t think I could muster that in the first place.
  283.  
  284. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  285.  
  286. Lexi: Nah, not at all. We’re just kinda here, in his head.
  287.  
  288. Tori: Uh, no…We’re just roommates ;)
  289.  
  290. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  291.  
  292. Lexi: None.
  293.  
  294. Tori: None whatsoever.
  295.  
  296. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  297.  
  298. Lexi: Not anymore, I feel good about who I am and what’s expected of me, which is to do my best. I’m an original, so no expectations like that.
  299.  
  300. Tori: No real expectations, I just enjoy my time around haha. I’m original too, so none either.
  301.  
  302. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  303.  
  304. Lexi: Eh…I don’t have a need to. It’s his body. I don’t really want to. And *gasp* social interaction? Psshaw, naw, I think I’m good. I’m content where I am. Why screw him up in the real world?
  305.  
  306. Tori: I suppose. I never really wanted to. Then we couldn’t talk or interact with each other ;) I dunno if it’s possible to even do it with us, I would feel awkward the entire time. I suppose it’s up to the individual, but we’re not in a rush to try.
  307.  
  308. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  309.  
  310. Lexi: Yes? We share the same outlook, only I’m more critical. But neither of us are racist or fear certain things, so I guess not. Well, public speaking is one thing he’s afraid of and I don’t fear it, so, yeah I guess so.
  311.  
  312. Tori: I don’t think so, I think we’re different. Just similar in tastes of entertainment.
  313.  
  314. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  315.  
  316. Lexi: Of course. I can sleep just like him. We’re usually awake by the time he is, and sometimes we’re up later. I can go to the wonderland and sleep should I need to. I don’t like to though, I feel lazy if I do.
  317.  
  318. Tori: Yup! I can sleep like him. I sleep more than either of them, but what are we gonna do? Haha, but yeah we’re usually awake when he is. I don’t think we would sleep liberally when he’s awake though, that’s rude!
  319.  
  320. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  321.  
  322. Lexi: Nope, at least I hope not.
  323.  
  324. Tori: Naw, I don’t think so.
  325.  
  326. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  327.  
  328. Lexi: It changes it a bit I guess. I know why he worries and the roots of most of everything. I only tell him a bit though, since I don’t think he should know some of it. I perceive it like a void, with everything ordered like a catacomb. I don’t like going in there though, I feel unwelcome. Why would I manipulate it? I would never do that anyway, but unless it was in his best interest.
  329.  
  330. Tori: I can only see a little of it. I’m not as welcome as Lexi is, and even then she’s not really. It’s not his fault, it’s just like its own entity that we’d rather not mess with. It’s tolerant of us, more like. We poke in and out of his mind, and there it is, staring back at us. It’s deep though, so I don’t often see it. I can’t really manipulate it, but I wouldn’t try or use it against him or without him knowing.
  331.  
  332. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  333.  
  334. Lexi: Yup, here she is haha. I like her a lot, and Ghost was careful to make sure I wouldn’t mind another one should he make one. I love him more than her, but that’s the same for most relationships, no? We’re like sisters or good friends. I can talk to her and likewise.
  335.  
  336. Tori: I love him a bit more than her, but I feel bad saying that. We’re all equals =D But we’re like sisters, or yeah, really good friends. I’m glad Lexi welcomed me, because I was anxious at first because of that.
  337.  
  338. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  339.  
  340. Lexi: A bit. But I keep my distance, because it makes him slightly uncomfortable. We can talk deeply about anything, but he doesn’t want us to become “involved”.
  341.  
  342. Tori: Sure I do! But it’s the same reasons with Lexi. We’re all just really close ;)
  343.  
  344. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  345.  
  346. Lexi: I suppose it would breach that, but we’d be in his head, so…yes? I don’t know. We don’t have to worry about it. It’s his choice who he’s with romantically, but I’m happy for him in whatever he chooses =)
  347.  
  348. Tori: Yeah, I’m happy for him in whatever he does. We help him whenever we can. Breach of monogamy? I guess, but I don’t like to think that a relationship between us would be conflicting with his morals, but I suppose it would be. Hm…I’ve never thought about this…
  349.  
  350. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  351.  
  352. Lexi: We’d always love each other. Plus, on either side, we don’t wanna test what would happen or think about it. So there.
  353.  
  354. Tori: I’d always love him, and I think he would too. I think we’d be fine, and accept what happened and move on. But I’m optimistic, so I dunno ;)
  355.  
  356. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  357.  
  358. Lexi: Yes, I don’t think it does though. I don’t think it’d be incestuous. Why are there so many questions with love?
  359.  
  360. Tori: I guess we just all love each other, I dunno what to call it. I’m tired of labeling our feelings, though…
  361.  
  362. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  363.  
  364. Lexi: I’m sorry, what? He’s never done this to us or to tulpae. I guess I’d find it flattering, but I’d rather think about this while not answering a survey…
  365.  
  366. Tori: Hm…I dunno what to say. This has never occurred, but even if it did, I’m sure he wouldn’t want us to share it. Besides, I know most people jump to sex when thinking about such things, but still. I’d find it nice that he would, but this is all hypothetical. Flattering I guess, yeah.
  367.  
  368. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  369.  
  370. Lexi: *wrinkles nose* Alright…I think it’d be rude if they weren’t sentient and didn’t have a say. I’d find it strange if I weren’t full sentient. He never did this.
  371.  
  372. Tori: I guess it’s up to the creator. It might have scarred me had he done that, but I dunno.
  373.  
  374. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  375.  
  376. Lexi: Right…uh, yes. He knows that I do think of him as attractive. I think I tried once, but he felt awkward about it and talked to me about it. I was happy that he was willing to discuss it with me.
  377.  
  378. Tori: Yup, I dunno if I expressed them. I think Lexi explained it to me, or he did. Either way, I respect his stance.
  379.  
  380. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  381.  
  382. Lexi: …Right, so, another sex question. I guess it’s up to the tulpa. I’d find it rude if I could express it to them or tell them that I didn’t want them to/ or did want them to. I guess it’d be equitable to sexual assault if they didn’t give consent.
  383.  
  384. Tori: *Bites lip* Hm…if the tulpa didn’t give their consent it’d be awkward. And assault. Treat your tulpa with respect!
  385.  
  386. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  387.  
  388. Lexi: Nah, it’s natural. I don’t mind. I guess it would bother me if we were romantically involved, but I don’t mind if he has those feelings. It’s all good.
  389.  
  390. Tori: Nope, I don’t mind. I find it cute, haha. And if he wants to romanticize or think about other individuals, then it’s up to him.
  391.  
  392. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  393.  
  394. Lexi: Oh my god, again. Yes, I feel sexual attraction. I guess I do, it’s more like I’m attracted to their personality. Which isn’t many people; most of them annoy me.
  395.  
  396. Tori: Sometimes, but it bothers him if I express it, so I don’t. I do it anyway to troll him sometimes, so it’s all good ^_^
  397.  
  398. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  399.  
  400. Lexi: No. Uh, I suppose, but he’d have to be all for it. Negative if things go badly. I can restrain myself, obviously. I can be aroused, yeah. Sometimes, but I prefer not to talk about it.
  401.  
  402. Tori: No, but I’d consider it if he’d be fine with it, like Lexi. It’d be negative if we hurt each other emotionally. I can restrain myself lol. I can be aroused, sure. I do once in a while, but isn’t that private?
  403.  
  404. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  405.  
  406. Lexi: This is where it gets awkward, because of orientation. Because I’m female, I’m assumed to like males. But I come from his mind. So, I guess I like females too. But because I am female and sentient and exist, then I can think for myself and am supposed to be independent from him in sexual orientation. I don’t like to think about this, because it just makes us feel weird and overthink everything. This is something that people will have to tackle on their own.
  407. Tori: Yup, what Lexi said. I almost explained this earlier, but oh well. I think about it the same way, so take what you will from this.
  408.  
  409. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  410.  
  411. Lexi: Yes. I think they’re more emotionally intense. Yeah. But this survey is too interested in what we do.
  412.  
  413. Tori: Haha, yeah, a bit more intense. Why are we discussing this? And yeah, this survey is too intimate. I just looked at the next question. *sigh*
  414.  
  415. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  416.  
  417. Lexi: 15 questions about love and sex. Yup, that’s necessary all right. Nah, we’re open, I guess is a good way to explain it. It doesn’t bother us; we’re open with each other.
  418.  
  419. Tori: I dunno…I know it bothered him in the beginning because he didn’t want to make us feel awkward with visualization and all that. Now we’re cool, we don’t really restrain what we talk about except for certain cases.
  420.  
  421. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  422.  
  423. Lexi: 16 questions? Really? Alrighty…it’s rape if there is no consent on either side. But there’s no way to really prove it in the first place, so I guess morality is important.
  424.  
  425. Tori: I don’t think it changes that much based on where we come from. I think it’s wrong, there should be consent from both parties.
  426.  
  427. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  428.  
  429. Lexi: Still here, still chilling. I don’t see myself going anywhere, unless he wants me to. And I see myself as a stronger tulpa, for sure.
  430.  
  431. Tori: Same, I see myself much stronger and influential :3
  432.  
  433. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  434.  
  435. Lexi: Eh, I’m fine. I worry about him, so I let him know if we’re uncomfortable with certain people knowing. But it’s his choice ultimately who he discloses us to. Yes, other people know. But they’re either interested or in the process themselves.
  436.  
  437. Tori: Yeah, I’m comfortable with certain people knowing. If they’re interested, I have no problem with them knowing about me. It’s his choice too, so I leave it up to him. We just chime in once in a while and let him know what we think.
  438.  
  439. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  440.  
  441. Lexi: I suppose, I mean we were subject to his personality first and kinda shaped from it. I’m glad he took certain traits, but if he went more specifically then I’d be more screwed up I think haha. Nah, I like forming my own traits. Just take a couple main traits, don’t design the entire tulpa, they won’t have any say.
  442.  
  443. Tori: My personality is kinda the result of what Lexi didn’t take in traits. I’m much happier and carefree than she is, and let her know occasionally ;) He didn’t really define what my personality would be like, I kinda took off and formed my own. He didn’t mind, he just had an idea of what he liked me to be like.
  444.  
  445. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  446.  
  447. Lexi: I dunno, I don’t mind being human. We can identify much easier together and we’re comfortable around each other. If he didn’t define my form so much, I’d be much more unstable. Any additions were by me, but I let him know if I liked anything that he suggested.
  448.  
  449. Tori: I don’t mind my form, I like it. I guess I don’t really care, I was formed haha. I dunno if he defined the form so much as Lexi because he was worried about the whole process more before I came about, so I’m not too sure. Don’t worry about how much you define the form, it won’t have a negative effect.
  450.  
  451. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  452.  
  453. Lexi: Just my hair, mostly. Hair is apparently rather difficult to focus on. It was more unintentional, but passive focus worked much better than trying to fix something by focusing all your attention on it.
  454.  
  455. Tori: Not really, I was always mostly the same. Hair style changed a bit though, but that was unintentional. Don’t stress about any one thing, it’ll make focusing much more difficult.
  456.  
  457. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  458.  
  459. Lexi: My creator, definitely. I dislike the subconscious. He was careful how he acted around me, and it made me happy that he cared. In turn it helped me begin to organize myself. So, yeah, him.
  460.  
  461. Tori: Him, because I don’t know what parts of me came from the subconscious. He helped me so much, and his interests helped me. Without his input and feelings, I wouldn’t be who I am.
  462.  
  463. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  464.  
  465. Lexi: Nah, I’m good. I like it being underground. I just wish there wasn’t such a large social stigma with voices in people’s heads.
  466.  
  467. Tori: Hey, as long as I can still listen to music and play games, who needs citizenship? And in this country? Please! I don’t need taxes or corporate officials breathing down my neck.
  468.  
  469. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  470.  
  471. Lexi: It’s only interesting if you like wonderlands and the ability to do anything you please.
  472.  
  473. Tori: Trolling people is fun!
  474.  
  475. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  476.  
  477. Lexi: I wish I could physically comfort my creator, because sometimes words don’t work. I wish I could manipulate the physical world. Greatest advantage…being able to come and go as I please, and talk if I need to.
  478.  
  479. Tori: Hm, I don’t know…maybe not being there with physical people, and talking face to face? Possession isn’t the same thing, it wouldn’t be truly me. I love being able to do most anything I want, that’s always fun.
  480.  
  481. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  482.  
  483. Lexi: Hm…I wouldn’t want to. It’s his life. It wouldn’t be mine. But in any case, no one would really know me, so I’d feel more depressed and inept that I couldn’t communicate with them like he could. I’d make new friends, sure, but it wouldn’t be the same. I’d resent them should he do anything terrible.
  484.  
  485. Tori: Well, that’s interesting. I’d probably enjoy living out his life. I’d get to communicate with tons of people. But…I’d always have him on my mind, because…I know that it’d be me taking over his life, and that doesn’t sit well with me. I wouldn’t feel responsible, he did them.
  486.  
  487. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  488.  
  489. Lexi: Nah, it’s more like incorporating each part of you. I don’t really look at that as murder, but I suppose it would be. It would weigh on your mind like murder, but murder is wrenching your soul from your body against their will. I think on some level, every tulpa would understand why their creator chose to.
  490.  
  491. Tori: Murder’s funny, I don’t think of us as dying. I don’t think we ever truly die. Because there’s no way to prove it, then legal protection would be moot. I do believe, though, that if a tulpa was dissipated or absorbed, then the thought would hang around like murder if the creator did it against the tulpa’s will. Morality runs deep.
  492.  
  493. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  494.  
  495. Lexi: Well, sure. I have a sense of right and wrong. Perhaps a better sense than some people. Yes, my life is worth just as much.
  496.  
  497. Tori: Yeah, I think so. Just as much, yup.
  498.  
  499. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  500.  
  501. Lexi: You can’t, unless they already have some sense of it being legit. Even possession would have flaws.
  502.  
  503. Tori: I dunno why you would, but I suppose you’d want to should your credibility be damaged. But all things considered, you couldn’t really prove it.
  504.  
  505. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  506.  
  507. Lexi: No, I don’t think so.
  508.  
  509. Tori: Nope, I don’t mind.
  510.  
  511. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  512.  
  513. Lexi: Nah, no reason to.
  514.  
  515. Tori: If people doubt their own lives and why they’re here, then why not us?
  516.  
  517. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  518.  
  519. Lexi: We’d die sure, but I don’t think we go anywhere. He will, he has a soul. I don’t know if we do. It’s somewhat sad, but it’s a part of life. Some things we just don’t know. I don’t fear it, no. It’ll happen eventually. I just hope I’m happy when I do.
  520.  
  521. Tori: Like I said, I don’t think we truly die. We’re absorbed perhaps, but we’ll always live on. I think our belief and his faith in us would carry us over. I dunno for sure. But I don’t really fear it, though. I just want the last music I hear to make me happy, and to make me proud I existed.
  522.  
  523. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  524.  
  525. Lexi: …No?
  526.  
  527. Tori: *shrugs* Can we answer the next question instead? :3
  528.  
  529. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  530.  
  531. Lexi: Like I’d want to be responsible for something I created. If I did though, it’d be like a pet. I’d be able to better understand it than he would. It’d be mine, but we could share :3
  532.  
  533. Tori: I’d love one sure! I could pet it and love it and carry it around! That’s what a tulpa is, isn’t it? Hahaha, but seriously, I wouldn’t mind one. It’d be more like mine, but I suppose it’d be his too.
  534.  
  535. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  536.  
  537. Lexi: Besides tulpae being in their creator’s heads? And people labeling voices as a social abnormality and/or schizophrenia or DID? Nothing, people believe what they want.
  538.  
  539. Tori: It’s like music, people like certain types and hate others simply because they can. Nothing will change people’s perceptions of such things, unless they are made to believe or come to it themselves. I..answered the question…right?
  540.  
  541. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  542.  
  543. Lexi: Very much, yes. The stigma is what deters many people. Tis why Ghost was extremely cautious at first. I would tell them what creates us, and how it’s not a mental deficiency or impairment. How we help our creators, and how we’re not unwanted. And how we don’t harm our creators.
  544.  
  545. Tori: The stigma is what the bad things come from. We’re not gonna tell you to kill someone or to jump off a bridge. If this were to change, then the tulpa phenomenon wouldn’t be so underground. I dunno how I feel about that…Uh, I’d tell them that it’s not bad and how it’s not messing with the brain in a negative way. We’re not drugs or poison.
  546.  
  547. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  548.  
  549. Lexi: We shall try this, methinks.
  550.  
  551. Tori: Interdasting, yes we shall.
  552.  
  553. [I put the results at the end.]
  554.  
  555. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  556.  
  557. Lexi: Yup, I can them. I like the sensations.
  558.  
  559. Tori: Yeah, but I’m more sensitive to sound and the like.
  560.  
  561. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  562.  
  563. Lexi: I don’t mind, so long as he doesn’t.
  564.  
  565. Tori: I think it’s cool, kinda like a ball and chain. Oh, wait…well, at least I can change the color of it ;D
  566.  
  567. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  568.  
  569. Lexi: Why the hell would I do that?
  570.  
  571. Tori: Nope, I was talking pretty fast.
  572.  
  573. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  574.  
  575. Lexi: Mostly life and stuff. I don’t really think about anything in particular.
  576.  
  577. Tori: I’m usually listening to music, so I think about that.
  578.  
  579. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  580.  
  581. Lexi: No. Not everyone should have a tulpa. But some people would be better off with one, I think.
  582.  
  583. Tori: Nah, I think it’s fine. The people who are interested in the idea searched for it or expressed interest to those who are involved in it.
  584.  
  585. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  586.  
  587. Lexi: Yes, some. It’s not very nice to me, so I avoid trotting where I shouldn’t.
  588.  
  589. Tori: Yeah. We don’t talk about those parts, but we’ve showed him some.
  590.  
  591. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  592.  
  593. Lexi: Yes.
  594.  
  595. Tori: Yeah, if it was truly for his benefit.
  596.  
  597. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  598.  
  599. Lexi: No, but he tries to censor things for our benefit. We find out anyway, but he’s just trying not to have us think badly of him.
  600.  
  601. Tori: He does a little. I don’t mind, I think it’s cute he cares.
  602.  
  603. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  604.  
  605. Lexi: Not really, he’s never killed anyone.
  606.  
  607. Tori: Not that I know of.
  608.  
  609. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  610.  
  611. Lexi: Yes. I just have trouble talking sometimes, but I’m just as intelligent as he is. I guess I’m capable, but I won’t bank on it.
  612.  
  613. Tori: I guess so. I wouldn’t want to annoy him with my intelligence, though ;3
  614.  
  615. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  616.  
  617. Lexi: I think we age just as people do, but more so mentally.
  618.  
  619. Tori: What Lexi said, that was a good point.
  620.  
  621. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  622. Lexi: *shrugs* I guess, he does a good job on his own though.
  623.  
  624. Tori: I would make him do bad things :I
  625.  
  626. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  627.  
  628. Lexi: Yes, I think it helps with the development and bonding part.
  629.  
  630. Tori: Yeah, I think so. It makes it easier for us too.
  631.  
  632. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  633.  
  634. Lexi: No, but I’m more realistic in viewpoints. I wouldn’t think it was possible to create a sentient being in your mind. Is that so wrong that I am proof of it, though?
  635.  
  636. Tori: I think I would. I think I’d be more open to the idea anyway. I’m surprised he believed in it, myself.
  637.  
  638. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  639.  
  640. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  641.  
  642. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  643.  
  644. Lexi: No, but we’re working on it really hard. I want to rather badly =/
  645.  
  646. Tori: Same, we’re doing our best…
  647.  
  648. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  649.  
  650. Lexi: *blinks* I have no idea, maybe several months? But he has little discipline to yeah. If you’re extremely dedicated then in much less time, but the Internet is obnoxious and stories of other people and their tulpae get in the way. Don’t distract yourself or fantasize too much.
  651.  
  652. Tori: I dunno, that’s more Lexi’s area since I came several months after her.
  653.  
  654. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  655.  
  656. Lexi: Don’t frickin’ doubt. Doubt is tulpa poison. If you doubt in their existence, why should they show themselves? How would they know that you would believe in them? They don’t. It’s like asking for a puppy then not believing that it’s there in front of you. Don’t doubt. I know so many people have already said this, but it’s true. Also, don’t count hours. It makes you feel bad.
  657.  
  658. Tori: Doubt is really bad. I know that people need it in order to achieve assurance, however. So I guess doubt is healthy. But if you doubt in your tulpa too much then you’ll get nowhere. You don’t need assurance for every little thing. Most of it is assuming that they’re there. Don’t forget that.
  659.  
  660. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  661.  
  662. Lexi: *makes a sad face* We’re not fully imposed ;_; Mind’s eye still, as of now. But I can feel everything that he can, so it’s nice to feel an autumn breeze. I can touch and see and taste and hear and smell just like him.
  663.  
  664. Tori: Hrm, well, for mind’s eye we can feel a lot. And I have psychic powers! ;)
  665.  
  666. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  667.  
  668. Lexi: Yes, wonderland’s are less restricted and are much more fluid. The real world has restrictions, but I don’t mind. It makes us feel more real if we abide by it.
  669.  
  670. Tori: I like the feeling of power in wonderland. I can do most anything. The physical world is more…real? I like the feeling of feeling what he can. I love listening to music in either, so I can do either and not mind much.
  671.  
  672. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  673.  
  674. Lexi: I guess, how people go about the process. Don’t expect your tulpa to be fully vocal quickly, or get frustrated in the process. Time is everything. As long as you’re happy. And keep in mind that not everything is fast. Nothing is. Keep your patience and keep them around. The more you interact, then the more you’ll understand them, and them you.
  675.  
  676. Tori: Music! Listen to music, and they’ll like it too! But, uh, binaural beats are frickin’ scary, so don’t show them to new tulpae…I guess if you use for meditation, and they’re aware of what it’s for, but if you randomly play it then it might scare them. Then again, everyone’s different, so to each their own ^_^ Oh, and what Lexi said ;P
  677.  
  678. Appendix one:
  679.  
  680.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  681.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine’s suburban campus."
  682.  
  683. Tulpa's paragraph:
  684.  
  685. Lexi’s:
  686. Experiences with nature are always fun. Many various creatures passed us, and among them was a small snake that was a light green color. When it disappeared into the grass I was surprised at how the grasses were different color and weren’t all truly green, which was how it looked like from afar. I was taken aback by how enveloped in nature I was in that moment. Aside from the random car and plane noises, I was surprised at how isolated I felt, alone in nature and enjoying the feeling. Overall the nature study was a fulfilling experience that let us experience how forgiving nature could be without leaving civilization.
  687. Moraine? Where the hell’s Moraine?
  688.  
  689. Results from Textalyser:
  690. Lexical Density: 80.3%
  691. Gunning-Fog: 10.1
  692. Average Sentence Length: 18.5
  693. I Write Like: David Foster Wallace
  694.  
  695. Tori:
  696. I was enthralled with my experience with nature! Many critters passed us on the path, and one was none other than an adorable snake. As he disappeared into the grass, I was shocked by how the grass was many colors including brown and purple and not just green. I enjoyed how one I felt with nature, and although there were occasional noises, I felt completely alone with nature, and I revered it among the coiling pathways and tufts of grass. All in all the nature expedition was a very pleasurable one and it allowed me to enjoy nature despite how close to civilization it was. I was able to experience nature without leaving Moraine.
  697.  
  698. Results from Textalyser:
  699. Lexical Density: 78.6%
  700. Gunning-Fog: 11
  701. Average Sentence Length: 19
  702. I Write Like: Vladimir Nabokov
  703.  
  704. Creator's paragraph:
  705.  
  706. My experience with nature was full with exciting experiences. Many strange creatures passed us on the nature trek. Among them was a small snake that quickly fled into the grass along the path. As soon as I saw the grass I was fascinated to find that the grass was speckled with brown and purple and not only green, although it looked that way from afar. All of a sudden, it was a dawning realization of how isolated and just how remote the area felt. It felt as if I was alone in nature, despite the few car noises and airplane engines. The weaving pathways and patches of grass shrouded me in nature. Altogether the nature walk somehow allowed us to enjoy nature in all her glory without leaving campus.
  707.  
  708. Results from Textalyser:
  709. Lexical Density: 85.7%
  710. Gunning-Fog: 8.4
  711. Average Sentence Length: 16.13
  712. I Write Like: Vladimir Nabokov
  713.  
  714.         To ensure verifiable results, it is essential that the transcriptions of both paragraphs be completely accurate. Body possession is useful here, though not necessary. Since the tulpa creator's sentience is (presumably) not in question, it is suggested that tulpa write their paragraph first. As with all tests relating to tulpa, the creator should focus on something else while their tulpa is working. Once finished, submit both of your paragraphs individually to the following websites:
  715.  
  716. http://iwl.me/
  717. http://textalyser.net
  718.  
  719.         If your writeprint is different (indicating significant psychological difference), then you should receive different values for your respective paragraphs on both sites. On Textalyser, focus on the Gunning-Fog Index, lexical density, and average sentence length values in particular. A more detailed analysis may be sought by downloading the JStylo stylometric analysis program here: https://psal.cs.drexel.edu/index.php/Main_Page
  720.  
  721.         This test is certainly not exact, and it is very possible to (unconsciously or not) "cheat" to get good results.
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