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- Well. where do I even start with this?
- First off, I think you needed some closure. Actually, honestly, I needed some closure, so I’m writing this thing that I’ll probably have a “messenger” deliver to you. We’ll get to what that means in a bit. You want a real experience while reading this? Put on my favorite songs, “Johnny Cash - Hurt”; “Wallows - Ground”, or “Dead Sara - Heart Shaped Box”.
- Firstly; I love you. Or rather, I LOVED you. The old you — the one that was happy and a joy to be around, the one with the absolute charm and caring atmosphere. You are a perfect being. I wish I could’ve told you that — but you changed. You changed in a way you didn’t mean to. I felt sadness resonate off of you as you spoke to me — I felt coldness, I felt change that I didn’t like. But this was after the blast. I loved LIVIE, not “RibbonChan”. RibbonChan wasn’t a friendly being - she pushed me away and refused to get closer.
- But that’s my fault. I blame myself for everything that happened last year - you getting into another relationship with a cowardly loser who didn’t let you talk to other people. You don’t listen when I tell you to stop getting into these fake relationships with people who control your every move. Because the reason I know so much about controlling relationships is because I used to be in one, and after that, I was never the same. I changed - but for the better - to be the person I am now. Those months in that relationship I could’ve stopped, but I couldn’t because of sundown. I ghosted you. And that’s the only thing i regret in my entire life.
- I wish I had enough “sorry”s in the world to give you and make you forgive me for that. The pain is so unbearable. The pain that we’ll never be like we were last year, where all was good. My life wasn’t hell back then, and I had you, the only thing I cared about.
- Every time I type one of these I have so many thoughts flowing into my head but when I calm myself I realize I don’t have much to say. So I guess I’ll end it here.
- Thank you so much for the memories. I’ll never forget you, but I can’t keep living like this, chasing after a ghost of you that doesn’t exist anymore. I unfriended Lucy and Kenny - we never really were friends anyway. Ace or somebody will probably deliver this to you, so I don’t care, but I know you’ll get this somehow.
- Thank you, for everything,
- Your friend, Chiliboy#4854
- “Don’t forget, because I won’t. I’ll live forever, and you will too, but one of us will be memories until we both end up in the ground.” -F
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