AethusYesterday at 20:21
Hey sweetheart
Hope you're doing alright

DenakYesterday at 20:22
I'm getting by

AethusYesterday at 20:22
Mm. I was wondering if you were thinking of playing We Were Here Together with me sometime.

DenakYesterday at 20:23
Yeah, I was thinking about that. You've just been uh, slightly down lately so I thought to give you space

AethusYesterday at 20:25
I have. And i greatly appreciate that
I'm in a better position now, so I'd welcome it

DenakYesterday at 20:28
I'm happy to hear that. If I'm honest though, I'm kind of upset that you hurt Theo

AethusYesterday at 20:30
Yeah I'm sorry about that. I've sent him a message and he's accepted what I've said.
Feel free to have a chat with him about it

DenakYesterday at 20:32
We've already talked about it. The problem I have is that I feel like these down periods you have where you're acting borderline hostile to the friends around you isn't healthy, and has created lasting damage

AethusYesterday at 20:37
You're absolutely right, it's not healthy at all and I wish I didn't do it. But it's my temperament in those times, I have barely any control.

DenakYesterday at 20:42
Have you thought about talking to a therapist about it?
I'm just personally starting to grow weary of these cycles. Something needs to change.

AethusYesterday at 20:44
I haven't seriously considered it no. I don't believe I need external help to do this. My belief on this is that my life is quite stressful currently. I have many opportunities whereby I can fall into a bad mood, not a lot the other way round. And when I am in such a mood, it is tough to come back out. I'm not a machine, I can't ignore the feelings.

DenakYesterday at 20:45
Yeah, I can understand that. The trouble I have is that in your bad moods your behavior is very problematic and you don't seem to have any other ways of coping with it other than withdrawing from everyone
It feels draining that I can only be your friend when you're in a good mood

AethusYesterday at 20:47
With respect Denny, what exactly do you do when you find you're in a bad mood?

DenakYesterday at 20:49
I find ways to channel the bad mood into something, air out my frustrations.
I try to keep it bottled up in me

AethusYesterday at 20:49
Mmhm. But do you not then withdraw yourself from others?

DenakYesterday at 20:50
I don't. I cope with my own feelings by confiding with others. Leaving me all alone in my bad feelings is the worst outcome from me
I sometimes need time on my own to process things, true. But I don't cut off all connections and drive everyone out

AethusYesterday at 20:54
Do you not feel that you would grow even wearier if I were to confide in you when these moods strike?

DenakYesterday at 20:54
That's what friends are for. I'm here to be your friend when times are good, and I'm here to support you when things aren't going that great

AethusYesterday at 20:55
I appreciate that sweetie but that doesn't really answer my question.

DenakYesterday at 20:55
The answer is no, that's what I was trying to get at

AethusYesterday at 20:56
Well I will take your word for it then. I just know that personally, if someone kept coming to me time and time again, it would be wearysome for me.

DenakYesterday at 20:57
The crucial point lies in maintaining a balance. Yeah, you're having a bad day and something's bothering you, you can vent about it. But if you had a funny moment in games, some nice surprise you had while at work or something else you can talk about that too
Like, honestly my day has not been the greatest and the past few hours I've been dealing with bouts of anxiety. I've been doing my best to not let it get to me, to keep my focus on the good things I have
I have a loving boyfriend who's there to support me through everything, I have my cozy chair and room I can relax and play games in. I treated myself with a bit of chocolate after getting home and so on

AethusYesterday at 20:59
That's very true.
I am a big advocate for balance in ones life..though I struggle in certain aspects. I guess this is one more to add to the "work on this" pile.

DenakYesterday at 21:01
I hope you can take something from this talk and use it to improve yourself. I care about you a lot, and that means I want to help you improve on things you're struggling with and help you through the bad times

AethusYesterday at 21:02
I have, definitely. Thank you very much tiger.
I'll make sure to work on this now.

DenakYesterday at 21:02
I'm happy to :heart: