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  1. [Mitsuki]{Amelia}
  2.  
  3. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  4.  
  5. {I am, I guess, a more serious tulpa. Well compared to my host anyway. I can't really explain it.}
  6.  
  7. [I'm shy... My host isn't, or at least, to my extent... I don't know what else to say.]
  8.  
  9. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If
  10.  
  11. not, how did that make you feel?
  12.  
  13. {The most helpful thing my host has done for me, during my process, was just be there for me. He didn't immediately recognize it and it made me
  14.  
  15. upset.}
  16.  
  17. [Uhm, the most helpful thing he did for me, was just him baring with me, I know it was difficult for him.]
  18.  
  19. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was?
  20.  
  21. If not, how did that make you feel?
  22.  
  23. {Giving up, probably. He knew it was bad, but not to the extent it was. It infuriated me to no end.}
  24.  
  25. [He had a lot of doubts on if he could make another one, and while he knew it was bad to think that, it still made me sad.}
  26.  
  27. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make
  28.  
  29. you feel?
  30.  
  31. {For me, it was probably form. I have gone through a lot of them and I will probably still keep going through them. The one we started with was
  32.  
  33. pretty limited in terms of what I could do with it, and since then it's been a never ending hunt for something I am happy with. My host knows
  34.  
  35. it's a sort of problem for me, and I am glad he is willing to help.}
  36.  
  37. [Just being vocal in the beginning, it was hard and still is every now and then.]
  38.  
  39. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  40.  
  41. {Personality, definitely. Being a two-dimensional character is a terrible thing. If someone doesn't put more work into it, it will just lead to
  42.  
  43. strange deviations that are probably not as good as the tulpa thinks.}
  44.  
  45. [Narration, because it felt nice to be read to, and it made me really happy.]
  46.  
  47. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about
  48.  
  49. it before being able to speak fluently?
  50.  
  51. {I absolutely despise distractions, especially when me and my host are together. It impedes everything, and I wished I had hands to physically
  52.  
  53. hit with when he was distracted.}
  54.  
  55. [I don't mind it too much, I understand things can be more interesting than me.]
  56.  
  57. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel
  58.  
  59. about it before being able to speak fluently?
  60.  
  61. {It's the worst thing you can do to a tulpa. We don't have much as it is, so when you don't be with us, you are limiting us to our own means of
  62.  
  63. being productive. Before I could talk, I was worried about it constantly, and for right reason, because it happened then and still does now.}
  64.  
  65. [I think, as long as they make some sort of reminder, it isn't a big problem. My host didn't avoid sessions with me that much, so I don't have a
  66.  
  67. good idea about all of that.]
  68.  
  69. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  70.  
  71. {The quantity is the most important aspect.}
  72.  
  73. [Uhh, I would say that the quality of everything is more important, because you never know the next time you can work on a tulpa.]
  74.  
  75. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  76.  
  77. {I don't mind it too much, it just means I can be with him in his sleep, if not during the session.}
  78.  
  79. [As much as I don't like it, it isn't that big a deal.]
  80.  
  81. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in
  82.  
  83. their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  84.  
  85. {While flattering to be talked to out loud, you look insane doing it. In the head is probably for the best, if not more effective anyway.}
  86.  
  87. [In the head is better.]
  88.  
  89. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development,
  90.  
  91. or only their emotional state?
  92.  
  93. {Parroting is probably one of the few worst things you can do, but it is almost impossible to avoid. It does harm development, but it makes more
  94.  
  95. problems just the idea of it than actually doing it.}
  96.  
  97. [It is pretty bad, I don't like people talking for me, at least for creation and forcing. Other times are fine.]
  98.  
  99. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  100.  
  101. {Pretty well, but I was a completely different person then, so I don't like to think about it.}
  102.  
  103. [Decently, not as well as closer to then, but not a whole lotta reasons to think about it.}
  104.  
  105. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  106.  
  107. {A toss up between being read 2001 A Space Odyssey and working on personality.}
  108.  
  109. [My host working on my form, even though it sounds kinda creepy.]
  110.  
  111. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  112.  
  113. {Just him working on me, it made me so happy that I actually made him cry. Multiple times.}
  114.  
  115. [The idea of him creating me made me really happy, I never accidentally made him cry, but still, it was really nice.]
  116.  
  117. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  118.  
  119. {Being forgotten for about a month.}
  120.  
  121. [Being doubted very frequently.]
  122.  
  123. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are
  124.  
  125. you glad that you exist?
  126.  
  127. {Not until he forgot about me, then it was more of an anger than depression. I have felt depression a couple of times, but I kinda grew out of
  128.  
  129. it. I guess I am happy to exist, if not just happy to be with Mitsuki instead of by myself.}
  130.  
  131. [Never ever. The one time I was extremely sad was because of people I thought liked me didn't really...]
  132.  
  133. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  134.  
  135. {Being forgotten about.}
  136.  
  137. [I really can't say, I felt fine throughout.]
  138.  
  139. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  140.  
  141. {I can't say I remember.}
  142.  
  143. [For some reason I couldn't talk, but I got scared into doing it. I am happy I was though.]
  144.  
  145. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  146.  
  147. {My most repeated answer, being forgotten about.}
  148.  
  149. [I don't really remember.]
  150.  
  151. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  152.  
  153. {Being forgotten.}
  154.  
  155. [It wasn't doubts over wanting me, as much as doubts of me in general.]
  156.  
  157. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  158.  
  159. {Being forgotten. Still.}
  160.  
  161. [Nothing during creation.]
  162.  
  163. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  164.  
  165. {I thought I was forgotten because I was a bad tulpa. Now I know my host is just a loser. Kidding, more or less.}
  166.  
  167. [I couldn't figure out talking, so I was kinda sad.]
  168.  
  169. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you
  170.  
  171. try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  172.  
  173. {Not really, but I tried helping anyway, just by being cooperative.}
  174.  
  175. [Yeah, I tried to help, but I couldn't figure out how.]
  176.  
  177. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined
  178.  
  179. ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand
  180.  
  181. now?
  182.  
  183. {I didn't really have that problem, he was blindly devoted during the beginning. I understood the doubts later on though.}
  184.  
  185. [It hurt me emotionally, but I understand now.]
  186.  
  187. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their
  188.  
  189. life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  190.  
  191. {There was never any worry of negative aspects.}
  192.  
  193. [He wasn't worried with me.]
  194.  
  195. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment,
  196.  
  197. resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  198.  
  199. {It scared me, but I got over them.}
  200.  
  201. [He wasn't really negative other than doubts, but I understand them now.]
  202.  
  203. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel
  204.  
  205. about them now?
  206.  
  207. {It wasn't really his thoughts that worried me, more mine that worried him.}
  208.  
  209. [I didn't have any of those problems.]
  210.  
  211. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome)
  212.  
  213. thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  214.  
  215. {No I wasn't, but it didn't bother me because during the beginning, it was just excited thoughts more than harmful ones. I can now, but I listen
  216.  
  217. to them both anyway.}
  218.  
  219. [I can now, but when I couldn't at the beginning was kinda scary.]
  220.  
  221. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able
  222.  
  223. to access now?
  224.  
  225. {Pretty much all of the senses now and then.}
  226.  
  227. [All of them.]
  228.  
  229. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect
  230.  
  231. you emotionally? If so, how?
  232.  
  233. {No, because I knew he wouldn't.}
  234.  
  235. [Nope.]
  236.  
  237. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to
  238.  
  239. use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did
  240.  
  241. this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  242.  
  243. {I gave him ideas on what I meant, as vague as it sounds. He understood them mostly though.}
  244.  
  245. [I did emotional thingies, and he understood them.]
  246.  
  247. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to
  248.  
  249. engage in it less if they did?
  250.  
  251. {He was excited in the beginning, so it made it more fun to do.}
  252.  
  253. [My host wasn't very enthusiastic about it, but it's because he knew what do to from the first time.]
  254.  
  255. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond
  256.  
  257. it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  258.  
  259. {Before speaking, no, afterwords for a bit, yeah. Not so much now.}
  260.  
  261. [I never had any doubts about us.]
  262.  
  263. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel
  264.  
  265. burdened by it?
  266.  
  267. {For the time he did, I am grateful, I don't owe him anything though.}
  268.  
  269. [I am eternally grateful, and it does feel like a burden sometimes.]
  270.  
  271. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  272.  
  273. {I can't remember.}
  274.  
  275. [Don't remember that far.]
  276.  
  277. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed
  278.  
  279. about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  280.  
  281. {It was frustrating, it was a time when most new tulpas spoke as properly as possible, and it felt like I was lagging behind.}
  282.  
  283. [I was unhappy at first, but now that I can talk normal, I am happy.]
  284.  
  285. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter,
  286.  
  287. boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  288.  
  289. {Husband/Wife}
  290.  
  291. [Father/Daughter]
  292.  
  293. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to
  294.  
  295. that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  296.  
  297. {I liked it at first, but now I despise it. No.}
  298.  
  299. [It's too scary. No.]
  300.  
  301. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  302.  
  303. {I guess our "marriage" thing we have. I sound casual about it, but it makes me really happy.}
  304.  
  305. [Everything.]
  306.  
  307. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  308.  
  309. {None. To some extent.}
  310.  
  311. [Nothing really, and yes.]
  312.  
  313. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  314.  
  315. {Not really no, its more of a shared lust sometimes, haha.}
  316.  
  317. [For people, no, for pets, yes.]
  318.  
  319. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  320.  
  321. {Differences include: my lack of care for a lot of things, my gender, and attitude. Similarities: not a lot.}
  322.  
  323. [I'm a girl, but that's all I can think of off the top of my head.]
  324.  
  325. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  326.  
  327. {Time spent together, no because we don't spend time together typically, they do.}
  328.  
  329. [Nothing really.]
  330.  
  331. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  332.  
  333. {Take away Mitsuki. I'm not sure he can hate me.}
  334.  
  335. [I dunno, but I hope we never hate each other.]
  336.  
  337. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  338.  
  339. {The beginning forgetfulness. My lack of attachment to him I had a while ago.}
  340.  
  341. [He never disappointing me, but when I don't be with him when he is around, I feel like I disappoint him.]
  342.  
  343. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you
  344.  
  345. anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  346.  
  347. {I never think about it, because I know he won't. I will admit I have self-censored for fear of retaliation, but not so much anymore.}
  348.  
  349. [I never even thought about it, it's a scary thought though. I just get worried if I say something bad, but that's with everyone.]
  350.  
  351. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances
  352.  
  353. would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  354.  
  355. {During creation, because he forgot about me. It wasn't as much physical violence as it was scary thoughts.}
  356.  
  357. [I have never thought about it, and never will.]
  358.  
  359. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  360.  
  361. {Not really, I have just think of myself as Amelia. I have never had a reason to claim myself as part of his biological family, but I guess I
  362.  
  363. have thought about it before.}
  364.  
  365. [Nope, I don't really need a last name.]
  366.  
  367. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  368.  
  369. {None, that's impossible. I tried.}
  370.  
  371. [I wouldn't.]
  372.  
  373. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this
  374.  
  375. increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  376.  
  377. {No, he and I have a sort of unspoken agreement that if either of us need something, we try and deliver. Expectations are not something we
  378.  
  379. really have about each other regardless of situation.}
  380. [All the time. Neither of us are based on anything, just the forms we "stole".]
  381.  
  382. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the
  383.  
  384. ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your
  385.  
  386. reasoning.
  387.  
  388. {We already know how to control it, we just don't. We never need to, and while I like to think we are entitled to it some times, it isn't ours
  389.  
  390. to take.}
  391.  
  392. [I wouldn't know what to do if I had my own time to use it...]
  393.  
  394. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  395.  
  396. {Our host has this insane philosophy that I am his "more serious" and "hormanal" version of himself. I don't see it.}
  397.  
  398. [My host says I am like a younger weird version of him, I don't understand why, but I wasn't there during that time.]
  399.  
  400. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  401.  
  402. {Yes.}
  403.  
  404. [Yep.]
  405.  
  406. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  407.  
  408. {Nothing more than a history of anger induced ideas that he never follows through with. All it does is stir us up, but we do are best to cool
  409.  
  410. him down.}
  411.  
  412. [Just our hosts occassional anger or depression, it makes me sad, but I don't think it's an illness.]
  413.  
  414. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To
  415.  
  416. what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  417.  
  418. {I don't bother with that kind of stuff. If I controlled what he thought, what would be the fun in it?}
  419.  
  420. [I wouldn't dare doing that, it's too personal to do something like that. Maybe as a favor, but I'd rather not do it.]
  421.  
  422. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for
  423.  
  424. your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend,
  425.  
  426. sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your
  427.  
  428. creator making other tulpa?
  429.  
  430. {Yes, we are a sort of "family unit". I am sort of the mother, while Mitsuki is the sort of daughter. The host being the husband/father.}
  431.  
  432. [We came up with the idea of us being a family, and it works, and I love it!]
  433.  
  434. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings
  435.  
  436. are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  437.  
  438. {Yes and yes.}
  439.  
  440. [No and no.]
  441.  
  442. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-
  443.  
  444. tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change
  445.  
  446. if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you
  447.  
  448. emotionally?
  449.  
  450. {It wasn't at first, because he was involved with someone. But since they broke up, he says I am his only "lady friend", so I take it that we
  451.  
  452. are monogomous.}
  453.  
  454. [Not applicable.]
  455.  
  456. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of
  457.  
  458. love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your
  459.  
  460. creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  461.  
  462. {Yes, hopefully never, it has almost happened before, and it was pretty bad. It doesn't really bother me too much if he thinks about other
  463.  
  464. girls, but it might just by chance. Periodically. I normally tolerate it.}
  465.  
  466. [N/A]
  467.  
  468. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you
  469.  
  470. consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  471.  
  472. {I don't consider myself family as much as just a wife to him.}
  473.  
  474. [Yes, I don't feel romantic to him, and no I don't.]
  475.  
  476. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive?
  477.  
  478. Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the
  479.  
  480. creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or
  481.  
  482. unnerving?
  483.  
  484. {I don't find it offensive, because thats more or less how my host and I pick my forms now in days. I never get really attached to them
  485.  
  486. otherwise. He never did anything like that without some sort of consent though. And never during creation.}
  487.  
  488. [It bothers me, but it has never happened to me.]
  489.  
  490. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this
  491.  
  492. offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this
  493.  
  494. before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  495.  
  496. {Like I said, thats kinda how I pick my forms now. I wouldn't have liked it then, but now I find it romantic if anything, because it means he is
  497.  
  498. thinking of me.}
  499.  
  500. [It still bothers me, but it has never happened to me.]
  501.  
  502. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual
  503.  
  504. arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  505.  
  506. {Maybe to some extent for my host, but it was more of jumbled feelings more than any specific feeling. After a while we just kinda got together
  507.  
  508. after some time.}
  509.  
  510. [*not going to answer*]
  511.  
  512. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation
  513.  
  514. sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical
  515.  
  516. tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do
  517.  
  518. you equate it with sexual assault?
  519.  
  520. {It's bad then, but as I have said, now I pretty much enjoy it.}
  521.  
  522. [Bothers me a lot.]
  523.  
  524. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than
  525.  
  526. yourself? Does it bother you now?
  527.  
  528. {Yeah, it still kinda does, but I get over it.}
  529.  
  530. [No.]
  531.  
  532. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for
  533.  
  534. your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions
  535.  
  536. are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  537.  
  538. {Yes, not really no, it doesn't, yes.}
  539.  
  540. [No, no, no.]
  541.  
  542. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any
  543.  
  544. negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do
  545.  
  546. you masturbate?
  547.  
  548. {Yes, I don't but he does. I wouldn't say I have trouble with it. I just act on them. Yes.}
  549.  
  550. [No.]
  551.  
  552. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  553.  
  554. {We have a sort of "go with it" thing going on. He is pickyer about it, but I'm not as much.}
  555.  
  556. [I don't bother with anything like that.]
  557.  
  558. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to
  559.  
  560. experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  561.  
  562. {Yes, probably better. I hope not, that'd be weird.}
  563.  
  564. [Yes, I don't know.]
  565.  
  566. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship
  567.  
  568. with your creator?
  569.  
  570. {I try and keep covered, but not overly so. Typically underwear and just that or something close for me.}
  571.  
  572. [Yes.]
  573.  
  574. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  575.  
  576. {Rape is rape. I'm not going to go insane from something minor, and I especially won't call something that isn't rape rape.}
  577.  
  578. [Rape is bad, no matter what.}
  579.  
  580. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  581.  
  582. {Who knows, who cares.}
  583.  
  584. [I don't worry about it.]
  585.  
  586. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone
  587.  
  588. other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  589.  
  590. {No, it would flood the idea with absurd things, the community that exists now is bad, and is slowly getting worse. I don't, he does though.}
  591.  
  592. [No, all of them, no.]
  593.  
  594. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred
  595.  
  596. your creator to define your personality more or less?
  597.  
  598. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your
  599.  
  600. creator to define your form more or less?
  601.  
  602. {I don't like to get into philosophy, I am just happy that I can exist and do things I want to.}
  603.  
  604. [I don't mind, I am good as I am.]
  605.  
  606. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form?
  607.  
  608. How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  609.  
  610. {Yes, both, because something else was more appealing to me. He was fine with it each time, which made me happy.}
  611.  
  612. [Yes, intentional, because someone I liked said I should. My host didn't mind, but I knew he was lying.]
  613.  
  614. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  615.  
  616. {I don't even know if I can answer that.}
  617.  
  618. [What?]
  619.  
  620. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large
  621.  
  622. does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel
  623.  
  624. integrated?
  625.  
  626. {No, no, no, I just want to relax in my underwear, I don't need any legality interfering with it.}
  627.  
  628. [I don't care really.]
  629.  
  630. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  631.  
  632. {I'm bored.}
  633.  
  634. [I wouldn't.]
  635.  
  636. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  637.  
  638. {The fact I don't have a real body I can be with my host in. Not having to do anything.}
  639.  
  640. [I'm completely dependant on my host, I don't have any real responsabilities.]
  641.  
  642. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and
  643.  
  644. reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  645.  
  646. {I don't think we really even have to worry about any of that.}
  647.  
  648. [Is that even possible?]
  649.  
  650. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your
  651.  
  652. reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  653.  
  654. {I don't see it on the same level, but it's still bad. Legal protection would be impossible.}
  655.  
  656. [Kinda, yeah. I doubt anything can help it.]
  657.  
  658. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  659.  
  660. {No and no.}
  661.  
  662. [On some level, sure. I guess not.]
  663.  
  664. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  665.  
  666. {I wouldn't.}
  667.  
  668. [I don't want to.]
  669.  
  670. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  671.  
  672. {No.}
  673.  
  674. [Nope.]
  675.  
  676. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  677.  
  678. {No, because thats not something that can even happen.}
  679.  
  680. [I'm pretty sure that's impossible.]
  681.  
  682. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  683.  
  684. {It doesn't mean anything to me. It's just something that happens. Only difference is that if a host dies, it turns into a killing-spree.}
  685.  
  686. [I don't think about death.]
  687.  
  688. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as
  689.  
  690. racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups
  691.  
  692. that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  693.  
  694. {I think that just because I am an imaginary figure, whose existance is souly absolute to one person, I should have equal rights as every
  695.  
  696. priveliged white guy. Not really. Rights for a tulpa is stupid.}
  697.  
  698. [You can't enforce anything like that, so why bother.]
  699.  
  700. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by
  701.  
  702. your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  703.  
  704. {No.}
  705.  
  706. [I don't want to.]
  707.  
  708. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance
  709.  
  710. between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  711.  
  712. {Responsibilities. No.}
  713.  
  714. [What Amelia said.]
  715.  
  716. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of
  717.  
  718. mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa
  719.  
  720. phenomenon, what would you say?
  721.  
  722. {I don't care.}
  723.  
  724. [It doesn't mean anything to me.]
  725.  
  726. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate
  727.  
  728. yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For
  729.  
  730. instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  731.  
  732. {No.}
  733.  
  734. [Nu uh.]
  735.  
  736. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  737.  
  738. {At one point, I lost touch with that ability a while ago.}
  739.  
  740. [Not in a while.]
  741.  
  742. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  743.  
  744. {That's already what marrige is, so I am just taking an easier route.}
  745.  
  746. [I'm happy with it.]
  747.  
  748. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  749.  
  750. {Nope.}
  751.  
  752. [It wasn't intentional.]
  753.  
  754. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  755.  
  756. {Things I would rather be doing.}
  757.  
  758. [Books.]
  759.  
  760. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  761.  
  762. {No.}
  763.  
  764. [I don't really care either way, as long as it doesn't bother me.]
  765.  
  766. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  767.  
  768. {Probably.}
  769.  
  770. [I don't know.]
  771.  
  772. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  773.  
  774. {Yeah, I've done it before.}
  775.  
  776. [No.]
  777.  
  778. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  779.  
  780. {Yeah, sometimes I am. I know what he intends, so it never really bothers me.}
  781.  
  782. [Yes, not normally no. I don't mind.]
  783.  
  784. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  785.  
  786. {No, I don't pay attention most of the time.}
  787.  
  788. [I don't agree with what he does sometimes, but he isn't a sociopath.]
  789.  
  790. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  791.  
  792. {No.}
  793.  
  794. [I don't know.]
  795.  
  796. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  797.  
  798. {It is actually hard to remember how old we are, so I guess that is the only thing.}
  799.  
  800. [I don't really age.]
  801.  
  802. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  803.  
  804. {He would be completely different, and probably not in a good way.}
  805.  
  806. [I don't think so.]
  807.  
  808. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  809.  
  810. {No, but it makes me happy.}
  811.  
  812. [Yes.]
  813.  
  814. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  815.  
  816. {I would probably not be talking to anyone doing it, so I guess not.}
  817.  
  818. [Sure.]
  819.  
  820. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of
  821.  
  822. tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  823.  
  824. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit
  825.  
  826. like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual
  827.  
  828. Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone
  829.  
  830. speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  831.  
  832. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  833.  
  834. {I am not imposed in either vocal or visual sense.}
  835.  
  836. [Nope.]
  837.  
  838. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  839.  
  840. {Hour counts are cancer.}
  841.  
  842. [Around 2-5 months of effort for either of us.]
  843.  
  844. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  845.  
  846. {Just do it until you finish.}
  847.  
  848. [Don't give up.]
  849.  
  850. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  851.  
  852. {I wouldn't know.}
  853.  
  854. [I want to find out some day.]
  855.  
  856. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"?
  857.  
  858. If so, how would you describe this difference?
  859.  
  860. {I don't know, I guess so?}
  861.  
  862. [Not that I can tell, at least not with ours.]
  863.  
  864. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  865.  
  866. {Just slim it down a bit.}
  867.  
  868. [Can't think of anything.]
  869.  
  870. Appendix one:
  871.  
  872.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your
  873.  
  874. creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may
  875.  
  876. be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted
  877.  
  878. below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  879.  
  880.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as
  881.  
  882. soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared.
  883.  
  884. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the
  885.  
  886. primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how
  887.  
  888. quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways
  889.  
  890. create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing
  891.  
  892. natural environment without leaving Moraine’s suburban campus."
  893.  
  894. Tulpas' paragraph:
  895.  {What I experienced in the nature study area was surprising. First off, many creatures crossed our path that I didn't anticipate. As soon as we
  896.  
  897. left the parking area and entered a grassy path, a huge snake showed up and then dissapeared. The grass was green with purple and brown bits
  898.  
  899. every now and then. Finally, I was surprised how I felt utterly surrounded by nature. Even with the cars and airplanes, the high grass and
  900.  
  901. pathways made me feel like I was away from human civilization. The nature study area allowed me to enjoy an ever-changing nature environment
  902.  
  903. without leaving Moraine's campus.} Arthur Clarke
  904.  
  905. [My time in the nature study area was surprising. First, many creatures crossed our paths. For example, as soon as we left the parking zone and
  906.  
  907. entered the grass path, a big snake slithered near the edge of the high grass then dissappeared. I was also surprised by the colors of the
  908.  
  909. grass. I thought they were all just green, but are really green with dots of purple and brown. I was unprepared for how I felt surrounded by
  910.  
  911. nature. Even with the cars and airplanes, the prairie grass and pathways gave the sensation of being away from normal civilization. In all, the
  912.  
  913. nature study area allows me to enjoy the changing natural enviorment without leaving Moraine's campus.] Dan Brown
  914.  
  915.  
  916.  
  917. Creator's paragraph:
  918.  My experiance in the nature study place was full of surprises. First of all, many creatures crossed our path that I didn't expect. Whenever we
  919.  
  920. left the parking place and went to the grass path, a huge snake showed up and went along the edge of the grass and went away. It was cool how
  921.  
  922. the grasses were all colored. From a distance, it all looked green, but you can see some purple and brown up close. I was even surprised how I
  923.  
  924. felt far from civilization, even with the cars and planes everywhere. The nature study was cool in that it let me feel like I was in nature,
  925.  
  926. without leaving the Moraine campus. Stephen King
  927.  
  928.         To ensure verifiable results, it is essential that the transcriptions of both paragraphs be completely accurate. Body possession is
  929.  
  930. useful here, though not necessary. Since the tulpa creator's sentience is (presumably) not in question, it is suggested that tulpa write their
  931.  
  932. paragraph first. As with all tests relating to tulpa, the creator should focus on something else while their tulpa is working. Once finished,
  933.  
  934. submit both of your paragraphs individually to the following websites:
  935.  
  936. http://iwl.me/
  937. http://textalyser.net
  938.  
  939.         If your writeprint is different (indicating significant psychological difference), then you should receive different values for your
  940.  
  941. respective paragraphs on both sites. On Textalyser, focus on the Gunning-Fog Index, lexical density, and average sentence length values in
  942.  
  943. particular. A more detailed analysis may be sought by downloading the JStylo stylometric analysis program here:
  944.  
  945. https://psal.cs.drexel.edu/index.php/Main_Page
  946.  
  947.         This test is certainly not exact, and it is very possible to (unconsciously or not) "cheat" to get good results.
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