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- ephraim - Today at 4:02 PM
- let go
- me go
- kaito - Today at 4:02 PM
- no
- ephraim - Today at 4:02 PM
- let me go
- kaito - Today at 4:02 PM
- no
- ephraim - Today at 4:02 PM
- you will get better
- find better
- kaito - Today at 4:02 PM
- you're the only good im ever going to get, ephraim
- everyone else has treated me like utter shit
- youre not one of those people
- i literally owe my life to you
- if you hadn't talked to me who knows where i'd be in life now
- certainly wouldn't be as confident with moving out than i am now
- certainly wouldn't be looking forward to the future
- certainly wouldn't be interested in marrying someone so soon after getting into a relationship
- i feel so strongly attracted to you because you actually give a shit about me
- you dont want to use me, you let me consent to anything we're doing, you stop if im uncomfortable
- you don't want to materialise me
- you dont want to hurt me
- this is all so new and its hard for me to experience it all at the same time but its happening and for that i owe you so much
- so so much
- i couldn't ask for anyone better than you, ephraim
- you really do make me so happy
- and i want to make you just as happy too
- so please, stay with me, ok
- we'll help fix each other
- i want to spend the rest of my life with you
- please, ephraim
- i really do love you
- i really want to marry you and see your dorky face light up
- i cannot wait for that day
- ephraim - Today at 4:08 PM
- let me go
- kaito - Today at 4:08 PM
- n
- n
- no
- i wont because i love you and i care about you
- and i know that your life will get so much better soon
- please believe me
- ephraim - Today at 4:09 PM
- i believe
- let me go
- kaito - Today at 4:11 PM
- ?
- i dont want to
- ephraim - Today at 4:11 PM
- it will probably end up like they all say
- not positive
- let me go
- let me fucking die
- kaito - Today at 4:13 PM
- no
- ephraim - Today at 4:13 PM
- you're just saying all this so you can keep me to yourself
- what more do you want from me
- kaito - Today at 4:13 PM
- what
- ephraim - Today at 4:13 PM
- you just want to keep me
- you are going to end up like the rest of them
- kaito - Today at 4:14 PM
- i dont understand
- ephraim - Today at 4:14 PM
- you are going to bait me with love and comfort and make me feel like i am loved
- you are going to take everything from me
- kaito - Today at 4:14 PM
- no
- thats
- ephraim - Today at 4:14 PM
- they all have
- kaito - Today at 4:14 PM
- thats not my intention
- ephraim - Today at 4:14 PM
- what makes you different
- kaito - Today at 4:14 PM
- i promise
- ephraim - Today at 4:15 PM
- what makes you different from the rest of those grubby thieves that bait me and use me
- kaito - Today at 4:15 PM
- what makes me different is that ive experienced the same thing
- ive been used
- ive been stolen from
- ive literally thought suicide was the answer
- i told you this already
- i could have jumped from that bridge if i really wanted to
- no one would have stopped me
- i would never ever wish that kind of pain on anyone
- not even on the people i hate the most
- because its such a disgusting feeling afterwards
- you feel so happy that youre with someone who you think cares about you and suddenly everything is stripped away like a flash of light
- and the more you think about it, the more obvious it was that they used you and you were too blind to even notice it because your thoughts and feelings were too far into the ploy of manipulation
- and yes it fucking hurts
- its the worst feeling ive ever had
- ive got it from both ex partners and my family
- and i still have to deal with the latter for one more year
- ive dealt with this shit too, ephraim
- i know what its like
- thats why it's not my intention to hurt you
- because i want to see you happy
- i want you to know that you actually have someone here to relate to
- who has experienced things you have
- who will ultimately always be there for you, regardless of what happens
- ephraim - Today at 4:19 PM
- it feels so weird watching you compare both our lives as if we went through the same exact occurrences every step of the way with the same quantities
- but carry on
- kaito - Today at 4:19 PM
- i mean
- ive not experienced just as much as you have
- but i meant in a way that we've experienced the same subjects
- enough to have a mutual understanding of the feelings
- and i'm scared, ok
- i'm scared for you
- i worry about you so often
- whenever you get upset, i fear you'll do something stupid and end up getting yourself into a mess
- but whenever youre here
- whenever you talk to me
- like i said, time goes by so quickly
- i don't even notice what happens most of the time around me because im so content on just talking to you
- seeing how you are
- listening to what your day was like
- listening to activities you did
- it makes me genuinely happy to know that youre happy
- i only have those two selfies of you smiling on my phone
- the rest are tucked away in discord somewhere
- but i keep them because whenever i feel sad i'll go back to them
- ill remind myself that you're ok
- that you're happy
- because if you're happy, then so am i
- and it brings me such joy knowing that one day ill be able to see that smile for as long as i wish
- i wont have to pretend im kissing you anymore, and ill be able to kiss you in real life
- i'll be able to hug you and cuddle you and keep you warm and safe
- and give you the support you need for when you feel sad
- and it wont be just me supporting you
- ive told a lot of my friends about you, and they're all so eager to meet you
- even other internet friends from britain are tempted to come down when you do so they can see you together
- thats just how much of an influence youve been on my life, ephraim
- you've made me so happy that i just cant stop talking about you
- i send an average of 5 screenshots per day to toki from our conversations
- and whilst she doesnt reply with much, she knows that i never would have done this with anyone else i was in a relationship with prior to this one
- my irl friends
- hayden, dominic, elliott
- theyve seen an improvement in my mood so much that they dont actually ask me how i am anymore
- they know im ok
- because im with you
- it's such a wonderful feeling
- i don't feel unsafe or at risk anymore
- and i honestly want you to feel the same
- and i know its hard sometimes for me to show how much i care about you
- im not good with my words like that
- but i can prove it with my actions
- ill give you so much more love than i can already give now to you when we meet
- and i promise you with all my heart ill make it count
- i wont let anyone hurt you again
- there's no moon without the sun
- there is no life without the sun
- there is no joy without the sun
- you are wanted a lot more than you think
- and i am here to help you
- to support you
- to love you and care for you and look after you
- i'm not like those who hurt you
- i see a future for us and it is just as bright as you
- so please spend it with me
- you are such a wonderful and amazing and wonderous human being
- im so glad you exist
- i'm so glad you're here
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