Well, lets start with the most simple thing. You said that I don't care about you, which is not truth. If I didn't care about you, I wouldn't be making this uh.. Letter? Let's call it a letter, to you. You are putting emotions, feeling, love, into something that was purely decided on logical thought. I did put the 'pros' and 'cons' and, after talking with the main people involved, being them Random, SpiresK and Akari, deciding that it would be best for us to retcon the whole thing you did.

You have to admit it, the thing was purely OOC based, literally no IC reason to do that.

With that, I also thought that it wouldn't be a nice idea to have you with Silver Lake, even with the retcon.
Why is that? Because of two things.

1 - You did hide from me, many things, because as you said. You have to be 'very careful' when talking to me about anything. You gave up on the idea AFTER our fight, as you said. Because you felt guilty or something, that didn't get very clear. It was a 'denial' based on feeling guilty, but still.. The idea crossed your mind at one moment, and it by itself is bad.

2 - You were bored. And as said on "1-", you did hide it from me. I got this bad situation as a good chance for you to actually say "fuck it" to Silver Lake, and RP the way you want. You were always a cute free spirit with your characters, so I get that our peaceful settlement with strict rules can make you get bored.

Now, to the other things.
I don't want to stop talking to you at all. As I said, my decisions were based on pure logic, reason. I didn't put a single bit of my emotions in it, because I wanted it to work. I am sorry if the outcome hurts you, but every single time we RP, being it on DU, Eternia, SoA, or whatever.. You and I end up fighting over something. Two years ago we kinda did this for almost the same reason, I am pretty sure about it.

You are bringging something about a GAME to IRL. I repeat, a GAME. I don't want a -GAME- to do this with you. You are adorable, you care about other people feelings, you care about their well being. Not Belle, or Katsuki, or Freyja, YOU do it. Your job is literally help people with disa.. Disabilities? I can't english sometimes, I am sorry.

I want you to understand that those are TWO DIFFERENT THINGS. The GAME and the IRL. In game? I am either Shiro Mayer or the player NickBought. I am not Nicholas Inácio Mayer. In game, I am with Calie Marie, outside of the game? I am just friends with her. You are taking my behavior as a player to our friendship and relationship. There is this saying here on Brazil...
"Friends are friends, business apart"
It means that when you are dealing with business, you can't take friends as something 'better', you know? Because it's business.

Just.. Stop and think about what you did, and about how much it means. Understand it, and also understand of why I did what I did. Also understand that my decision has NOTHING to do with you, or with me, or with us. We are both adults, and we can handle this like it. Respond once you feel ready to it or something. I don't want a 'goodbye'.