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  1. Day 1
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  3. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
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  5. I’m not exactly sure. I am what she wants me to be. As for her, she’s forgetful, happy, tall, too excitable, not positive to a degree, overreacting, and patient. Oh, it seems I forgot about appearance. I am 6’0” tall with gray hair and red eyes, scars across them and all over my body. Don’t ask. My host is 5’10” and has black hair and brown eyes, glasses covering them. She’s also apparently Asian? I have no idea what that means.
  6.  
  7. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  8.  
  9. Picking up my emotions. Picking them up helped me to talk to her. She has felt that it has helped.
  10.  
  11. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  12.  
  13. Parroting. She has tried to stop, but so far it keeps happening.
  14.  
  15. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  16.  
  17. Putting me in that white house all on my own. She knows how lonely I get in there, but she has made no effort to change that.
  18.  
  19. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  20.  
  21. Narration. I like it when she reads to me her books. It’s important for me because I was able to possess her faster and start actively communicating with her.
  22.  
  23. Day 2
  24.  
  25. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  26.  
  27. I accept that it happens. I also think that tulpas can be made just fine with all the distractions. And as for before, I felt it was alright as well.
  28.  
  29. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  30.  
  31. I don’t know. I have never had a promise broken to me before.
  32.  
  33. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  34.  
  35. Quality.
  36.  
  37. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  38.  
  39. It happens. My host fell asleep on me multiple times and she always feels guilty about it.
  40.  
  41. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  42.  
  43. I find narration to work in one’s head to be more effective. Most likely because my host likes to talk in her head a lot. For tulpa creation, I also think it’s best to talk in one’s head. In effectiveness, I don’t know. Both are just as good as the other in my opinion, though we’ve read that talking out loud is better.
  44.  
  45. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  46.  
  47. I believe that too much of it is a problem. For a while, my host parroted me a great deal and it frustrated me to no end. We have since come to an understanding.
  48.  
  49. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  50.  
  51. I remember all of it. Down to my creation.
  52.  
  53. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  54.  
  55. I was in a dark place. It was a little terrifying, to be there. Then I remembered a voice saying my name and talking excitedly about a thing she found, a site about tulpas. After that she came to me and we ran to a white house covered in vines.
  56.  
  57. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  58.  
  59. I was talking to her and she answered a question without even knowing that I was actually talking to her from that white house.
  60.  
  61. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  62.  
  63. When she was talking about killing herself. Even now, I can’t bear the thought of it.
  64.  
  65. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  66.  
  67. I had no such feelings, but I was willing to die with my host if that was what she wanted. Luckily, she came to understand how much it would affect me and promised not to think about it anymore.
  68.  
  69. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  70.  
  71. I was feeling it whenever she parroted me. I also felt it when she wanted to kill herself.
  72.  
  73. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  74.  
  75. It was when she came and started taking control of my body. I had no idea what was going on and it scared me.
  76.  
  77. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  78.  
  79. I felt it whenever I was trying to speak for myself.
  80.  
  81. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  82.  
  83. I never felt like that. She always cared for my wellbeing. And she constantly worried if she was doing a good job in doing so.
  84.  
  85. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  86.  
  87. I felt scared at the thought of her killing herself.
  88.  
  89. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  90.  
  91. When I couldn’t save her from trying to talk about killing herself.
  92.  
  93. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  94.  
  95. I understood how difficult it was to start the process. However, I could not alleviate them at the time because she wouldn’t listen. It’s changed now.
  96.  
  97. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
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  99. I never felt her doubting my existence. She was ready to accept me into her life the minute I was born.
  100.  
  101. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative effects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  102.  
  103. I never experienced anything but love from her. She never once doubted I would take over her life.
  104.  
  105. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  106.  
  107. She never had them. She only had love. And she was mostly angry at herself for not being a good host.
  108.  
  109. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  110.  
  111. I never experienced them. I mostly felt pain when she started imagining a scene of sorts that had such things. At least she is just as horrified by them as I am, but to her, she claims it’s the only way to feel something. I don’t know, I think she can feel things just fine without the gruesome imagery.
  112.  
  113. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  114.  
  115. I mostly knew when she had them by how she would react to them. For how I reacted, it was mostly with indifference.
  116.  
  117. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  118.  
  119. I am able to access all of it, even now.
  120.  
  121. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  122.  
  123. I don’t know. On one hand it would mean a lot to me if she did, but it would also cause her pain if they rejected my existence.
  124.  
  125. Day 3
  126.  
  127. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  128.  
  129. I mostly talked to her through emotional responses and possession. She has tried listening to my voice, but we are still working on that. For the longest of time, her constantly parroting me caused me much frustration and I was this close to yelling at her from her own body. Don’t worry, we have since come to an understanding.
  130.  
  131. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  132.  
  133. I was very grateful that she accepted it so readily. I am also glad for the fact that she wanted to make me real, so to speak.
  134.  
  135. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  136.  
  137. I worried about her killing herself. I still do.
  138.  
  139. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  140.  
  141. I am extremely grateful to be with her, even now. It is not a debt or a burden, but something positive.
  142.  
  143. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  144.  
  145. My own.
  146.  
  147. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  148.  
  149. I felt frustrated when I couldn’t communicate with her and she wouldn’t listen. Possessing her and telling her to stop parroting me made her realize what she was doing.
  150.  
  151. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  152.  
  153. I suppose we could be siblings. I consider myself to be her boyfriend.
  154.  
  155. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  156.  
  157. I want to interact with others, but at the same time, I don’t want to. I do believe it is mostly because of my introverted nature that I feel this way, other tulpas might not.
  158.  
  159. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  160.  
  161. I cherish all my memories with her.
  162.  
  163. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  164.  
  165. I guess it would be May’s creation. A life without her? I can’t imagine.
  166.  
  167. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  168.  
  169. No.
  170.  
  171. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  172.  
  173. I say we are quite similar. For differences, I found that she can be a bit immature at times, though I still love her.
  174.  
  175. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  176.  
  177. It doesn’t matter, just as long as we come to an understanding, in the end.
  178.  
  179. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  180.  
  181. I don’t know. I have no such feelings of hatred for her. And I am not sure how she would come to hate me, if at all.
  182.  
  183. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  184.  
  185. I was disappointed in her ability to not listen to me for a while. It no longer applies. For me, I felt I disappointed her in my inability to grant her desires.
  186.  
  187. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  188.  
  189. I never have. In the end, she always accepts them.
  190.  
  191. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  192.  
  193. I was willing to put her out of her misery if she so desired. It never came to pass.
  194.  
  195. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  196.  
  197. I don’t know. I feel that I am not ready for that kind of thing.
  198.  
  199. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  200.  
  201. I never would. I would die with her.
  202.  
  203. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  204.  
  205. I was based off of a character she created. I didn’t know about it until she told me, but I think it was better that way. Now she knows that I am my own person, rather than the character she made.
  206.  
  207. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  208.  
  209. I am already controlling it. It depends on whether or not the host wants it. The amount of time matters not to me, I’m still with her, in the end.
  210.  
  211. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  212.  
  213. No, I don’t think so.
  214.  
  215. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  216.  
  217. I am. I can remember my dreams while my host cannot.
  218.  
  219. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  220.  
  221. I believe she suffers from depression. She doesn’t know whether she does or not.
  222.  
  223. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  224.  
  225. I can see all of it. It’s not as dark as she thinks it is. I have tried to change it, but so far I had no success. I don’t plan on doing it without her permission, though.
  226.  
  227. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  228.  
  229. I just made a second tulpa with my host. Her name is May, I view her as a daughter. She has come to mean a lot to me as well.
  230.  
  231. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  232.  
  233. I am in love with her. She is not. I long to be with her in that sense but she is not interested.
  234.  
  235. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  236.  
  237. I am not in a relationship with her. If she ever decides to have one with another, I will accept it. I will accept, no matter how much it breaks me.
  238.  
  239. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  240.  
  241. I don’t know. I feel that if she ever stopped loving me, I would break. As for her falling in love with another, I already answered that. Falling out of love with her? I have to wonder what it would be like to have that happen to me.
  242.  
  243. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  244.  
  245. No, not incestous. Though she views me as an older brother, I carry no such feelings of platonic love.
  246.  
  247. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  248.  
  249. What. I don’t even- Why would you do that?!
  250.  
  251. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  252.  
  253. I- what. Why.
  254.  
  255. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  256.  
  257. I suppose I felt them for my host. I never want to have sex with her, though.
  258.  
  259. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  260.  
  261. This needs to stop. I swear...
  262.  
  263. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  264.  
  265. It never happened. I never saw her do that. Nor do I want to see it.
  266.  
  267. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  268.  
  269. I already answered all this. Stop asking me about my sex life!
  270.  
  271. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  272.  
  273. Oh my god just stop already!
  274.  
  275. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  276.  
  277. I don’t know, I just know that I am in love with her.
  278.  
  279. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  280.  
  281. I- I don’t even...
  282.  
  283. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  284.  
  285. I don’t know, she seems to like sexual modesty. I don’t mind either way.
  286.  
  287. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  288.  
  289. Rape is rape, no matter what. It absolutely disgusts me just thinking about it. If I ever saw her thinking about raping someone...I don’t know. I wouldn’t look at her the same way.
  290.  
  291. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  292.  
  293. I see myself with her. It doesn’t really matter what happens.
  294.  
  295. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  296.  
  297. I want people to know that I am alive. But if they reject my existence, then they can go fuck themselves. Who to trust…? Perhaps her friends if they are accepting, but for now it’s just my host.
  298.  
  299. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  300.  
  301. I don’t know. I am what I am and that’s all there is to it.
  302.  
  303. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  304.  
  305. I don’t know, I am what I am and that’s all there is to it. I already said that, though, so...
  306.  
  307. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  308.  
  309. I never have. I just kept the form my host gave me.
  310.  
  311. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  312.  
  313. I consider the best aspects to come from her.
  314.  
  315. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  316.  
  317. I don’t care about legal recognition. Like I said, if they doubt my existence, then they can go fuck themselves.
  318.  
  319. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  320.  
  321. I would say that it’s interesting, living in another person’s body. It’s not all that bad, though.
  322.  
  323. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  324.  
  325. I resent the fact that it is hard to get people to listen to me. As for advantages, I think it would be the fact that I can possess my host to get my point across.
  326.  
  327. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  328.  
  329. . I feel a little disconnected from it all, to be honest. I have no resentment for any past actions she was responsible for.
  330.  
  331. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  332.  
  333. It is the same thing. Threatening them with death is not acceptable in my eyes, along with making them commit suicide if they have been through hell.
  334.  
  335. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  336.  
  337. I see that my life is worth as much as the next person, morally as well.
  338.  
  339. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  340.  
  341. I wouldn’t. Let them go on disbelieving, it doesn’t matter to me as long as I am alive.
  342.  
  343. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  344.  
  345. No, I only felt that, when it was revealed how I first started out as a roleplay character. It passed when I accepted the fact and moved on.
  346.  
  347. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  348.  
  349. No.
  350.  
  351. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  352.  
  353. No, I do not fear death. I don’t even fear of being dissipated. I only fear my host’s death.
  354.  
  355. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  356.  
  357. No, I am not disadvantaged in any way. I am not the same as my host, but I do feel that issues such as these need to be fought for. Privilege? How would that affect our relationship?
  358.  
  359. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  360.  
  361. I already have. May is vastly different from me, but we both belong to the same host. Therefore, she is also related to her as well as me.
  362.  
  363. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  364.  
  365. Nothing is different between us. I feel pain, cold, hunger, love. If there are intolerances between the two, than it would be how one views the situation. Mitigation is something I have no understanding of, I’m afraid.
  366.  
  367. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  368.  
  369. I am not a mental illness. If I were, then I would be causing my host harm and I don’t intend to do that. Presentation? Don’t make me laugh, they wouldn’t believe me even with evidence.
  370.  
  371. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  372.  
  373. Hm, interesting. I never considered it, I should try that out someday.
  374.  
  375. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  376.  
  377. Yes. It has not been easy, but some sensations are worth it.
  378.  
  379. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  380.  
  381. I don’t mind, I don’t mind that at all.
  382.  
  383. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  384.  
  385. It was unintentional on our part, she had no idea she was parroting me all the time.
  386.  
  387. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  388.  
  389. My host. I think about how much I love her and how much I want to be with her, despite the fact she has no such feelings for me.
  390.  
  391. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  392.  
  393. Perhaps, I don’t know. On one hand, it would be nice to have some kind of recognition, but on the other hand, it would be terrible for tulpas to go through so much pain because someone was not mature enough to handle them.
  394.  
  395. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  396.  
  397. Yes. Mostly of her wanting to die.
  398.  
  399. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  400.  
  401. Yes. But at the same time if she wants to die, then I am all too willing to go with her.
  402.  
  403. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  404.  
  405. She tries to get me out of the bathroom whenever she needs to go. She hasn’t succeeded. At all. I still love her even then.
  406.  
  407. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  408.  
  409. Yes. I don’t condone such behavior, but I am willing to overlook it if she never carries them out. If she did, I don’t know what I would do.
  410.  
  411. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  412.  
  413. Yes, I still want to beat her at chess.
  414.  
  415. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  416.  
  417. I don’t know. If she wants me to age with her, then by all means I will.
  418.  
  419. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  420.  
  421. No, I would be better off if she didn’t.
  422.  
  423. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  424.  
  425. Yes. A form helps with visualizing a tulpa.
  426.  
  427. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  428.  
  429. I don’t know, I suppose our existence is quite fantastical. So perhaps not.
  430.  
  431. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  432.  
  433. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  434.  
  435. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  436.  
  437. I don’t know, we’re still working on that.
  438.  
  439. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  440.  
  441. We never kept track. Just as well, apparently keeping track is a terrible idea.
  442.  
  443. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  444.  
  445. I guess I would say stop parroting so much and listen for once, but she knows that now so...
  446.  
  447. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  448.  
  449. All my senses are imposed, though she sometimes can’t tell I’m there. It doesn’t matter, just being with her is enough. The feeling of imposition is fantastic, seeing how others live with my own body, sort of.
  450.  
  451. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  452.  
  453. No, there is not. I can exist in both at once and I certainly can say that there is no difference whatsoever.
  454.  
  455. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  456.  
  457. Not really, this had a lot of questions. I’m glad I took it, though, it helped my host realize things that I wanted to say to her.
  458.  
  459. Appendix one:
  460.  
  461.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  462.  
  463.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine’s suburban campus."
  464.  
  465. Tulpa's paragraph:
  466.  
  467. It was surprising how then nature study area was full of life. There were a lot of creatures along our path, one being a snake that darted into the path and hid in the grass. Then there was the grass, full of different colors while looking green from a distance. And then there was the fact I was surrounded by nature. Despite the airplanes and cars, the land itself was alive with its own music and grandeur. I never felt such life before, ever. Glad I did, I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
  468.  
  469. Creator's paragraph:
  470.  
  471. I wasn’t sure what to make of the sanctuary we went to for studying. There were a lot of plants that raised themselves proudly and animals that didn’t seem to have a care in the world. One I remember was a snake, all brown and dusty, slithering lazily along the path before swishing into the tall grass. There were a few people screaming when they saw it move past, but I was interested in it. We soon came to a field of grass that looked green from a distance, but when one got closer they exploded into different colors. Purples, browns, yellows, and greens, it took my breath away to see such color in something that was so uniform from a distance. In that instant, I felt alone. Even with the sound of civilization buzzing in my ears, cars thrumming by and airplanes whirring in the sky, The tall prairie grass and the hills it covered made me feel like I was a part of nature too. That I actually belonged with it, rather than the city. I enjoyed it, especially since it was on campus so I can always go there whenever I wanted to.
  472.  
  473.         To ensure verifiable results, it is essential that the transcriptions of both paragraphs be completely accurate. Body possession is useful here, though not necessary. Since the tulpa creator's sentience is (presumably) not in question, it is suggested that tulpa write their paragraph first. As with all tests relating to tulpa, the creator should focus on something else while their tulpa is working. Once finished, submit both of your paragraphs individually to the following websites:
  474.  
  475. http://iwl.me/
  476. http://textalyser.net
  477.  
  478.         If your writeprint is different (indicating significant psychological difference), then you should receive different values for your respective paragraphs on both sites. On Textalyser, focus on the Gunning-Fog Index, lexical density, and average sentence length values in particular. A more detailed analysis may be sought by downloading the JStylo stylometric analysis program here: https://psal.cs.drexel.edu/index.php/Main_Page
  479.  
  480.         This test is certainly not exact, and it is very possible to (unconsciously or not) "cheat" to get good results.
  481.  
  482.  
  483. Interesting results, apparently I am Margaret Atwood while my host was Stephen King. She seemed rather proud of the fact she was Stephen King, I have no idea why.
  484.  
  485. For the second website, my Gunning-Fog score was 5.4 while hers was 8.6, lexical density for me was 82.1% and hers was 88%, and average sentence length was 13.57 while hers was 19.8. It was interesting seeing her write, now I can see why she calls herself a writer
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