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Minding the Gap (2018)

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  8. That's not how we do this
  9. in the hood, you know.
  10.  
  11. 2
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  13. [man #1] All right, now, come up here.
  14.  
  15. 3
  16. 00:00:30,102 --> 00:00:33,024
  17. Always ignoring the no trespassing signs.
  18.  
  19. 4
  20. 00:00:33,191 --> 00:00:34,151
  21. [laughing]
  22.  
  23. 5
  24. 00:00:34,235 --> 00:00:36,072
  25. What are you talking about?
  26. We didn't even see it.
  27.  
  28. 6
  29. 00:00:37,491 --> 00:00:38,828
  30. [Zack] It's scary, man.
  31.  
  32. 7
  33. 00:00:43,128 --> 00:00:45,508
  34. Uh, I think... I think I'm gonna die.
  35.  
  36. 8
  37. 00:00:45,967 --> 00:00:48,430
  38. -You got like six more.
  39. -[Zack] Are you fucking serious?
  40.  
  41. 9
  42. 00:00:48,514 --> 00:00:50,852
  43. We have a long way to go.
  44. We're not even halfway.
  45.  
  46. 10
  47. 00:00:51,144 --> 00:00:53,524
  48. OK, let's do it. Let's go up.
  49. We're already going up. Come on, Keire.
  50.  
  51. 11
  52. 00:00:53,607 --> 00:00:55,653
  53. [Zack] No, I'm not going up.
  54. We're going down.
  55.  
  56. 12
  57. 00:00:55,737 --> 00:00:57,031
  58. [man #2] Do you want me to come
  59. and push you?
  60.  
  61. 13
  62. 00:00:57,114 --> 00:00:58,868
  63. We're going right back down.
  64.  
  65. 14
  66. 00:00:59,327 --> 00:01:02,207
  67. Come on, I... I just got
  68. the courage to do this.
  69.  
  70. 15
  71. 00:01:02,291 --> 00:01:03,293
  72. We're going down.
  73.  
  74. 16
  75. 00:01:03,376 --> 00:01:05,172
  76. -I already told him. I'm bailing out.
  77. -OK.
  78.  
  79. 17
  80. 00:01:05,422 --> 00:01:06,466
  81. -Good, I'm...
  82. -I wanna go,
  83.  
  84. 18
  85. 00:01:06,550 --> 00:01:08,219
  86. -but he's so scared.
  87. -I'm with you. I don't wanna die.
  88.  
  89. 19
  90. 00:01:09,013 --> 00:01:11,309
  91. [Zack] Your whole life society
  92. tell you, like,
  93.  
  94. 20
  95. 00:01:11,392 --> 00:01:13,522
  96. "Oh, be a man, and you're strong,
  97.  
  98. 21
  99. 00:01:13,606 --> 00:01:16,904
  100. and you're tough,
  101. and margaritas are gay," you know, like...
  102.  
  103. 22
  104. 00:01:17,196 --> 00:01:19,450
  105. You know, you don't grow up
  106. thinking that's the way you are.
  107.  
  108. 23
  109. 00:01:20,745 --> 00:01:23,542
  110. When you are a kid,
  111. you just do, you just act
  112.  
  113. 24
  114. 00:01:23,626 --> 00:01:26,799
  115. and then somewhere along the line,
  116. everyone loses that.
  117.  
  118. 25
  119. 00:01:36,860 --> 00:01:39,365
  120. [instrumental music playing]
  121.  
  122. 26
  123. 00:03:28,124 --> 00:03:30,546
  124. It's... I really wanted to clean up.
  125. I'm freaking hungry.
  126.  
  127. 27
  128. 00:03:32,382 --> 00:03:36,474
  129. [Keire] I spend, like, the majority
  130. of my time here alone.
  131.  
  132. 28
  133. 00:03:38,478 --> 00:03:39,564
  134. [Bing] Why do you think that is?
  135.  
  136. 29
  137. 00:03:40,398 --> 00:03:41,943
  138. [Keire] It's-- It's me, because I...
  139.  
  140. 30
  141. 00:03:42,110 --> 00:03:45,033
  142. I always felt like
  143. I didn't fit in with my family.
  144.  
  145. 31
  146. 00:03:45,993 --> 00:03:49,375
  147. It seems like they don't understand
  148. why I escaped already in the first place.
  149.  
  150. 32
  151. 00:03:49,668 --> 00:03:50,670
  152. [sighs]
  153.  
  154. 33
  155. 00:03:53,884 --> 00:03:56,682
  156. -[gunshot]
  157. -[Zack] Oh, do not shoot that in my house.
  158.  
  159. 34
  160. 00:03:57,474 --> 00:04:00,271
  161. See this is why
  162. we are not allowed to go anywhere.
  163.  
  164. 35
  165. 00:04:00,438 --> 00:04:01,608
  166. Is this, right here.
  167.  
  168. 36
  169. 00:04:02,317 --> 00:04:03,987
  170. [man] Oh, fuck off!
  171.  
  172. 37
  173. 00:04:04,488 --> 00:04:08,622
  174. If you go... If you go behind a tree,
  175. you're-- you're OK. You got cover.
  176.  
  177. 38
  178. 00:04:09,958 --> 00:04:11,210
  179. [laughing]
  180.  
  181. 39
  182. 00:04:12,462 --> 00:04:14,551
  183. Are you gonna put me smoking weed,
  184. in that thing?
  185.  
  186. 40
  187. 00:04:14,759 --> 00:04:17,221
  188. [Bing] Maybe. I don't think just to do it.
  189.  
  190. 41
  191. 00:04:17,557 --> 00:04:19,560
  192. I've given you free range, I mean, I...
  193.  
  194. 42
  195. 00:04:20,563 --> 00:04:22,065
  196. I've no stipulation.
  197.  
  198. 43
  199. 00:04:26,323 --> 00:04:29,581
  200. [Zack] I've always needed more
  201. out of life, more out of where I was.
  202.  
  203. 44
  204. 00:04:30,206 --> 00:04:32,920
  205. You know, my parents ran
  206. this very controlling house
  207.  
  208. 45
  209. 00:04:33,004 --> 00:04:34,799
  210. and so, I ran away a lot.
  211.  
  212. 46
  213. 00:04:34,883 --> 00:04:38,766
  214. When I was like 16, I was no longer living
  215. with my parents, like, at all.
  216.  
  217. 47
  218. 00:04:39,517 --> 00:04:41,563
  219. I just wanted to fucking escape.
  220.  
  221. 48
  222. 00:04:41,563 --> 00:04:43,984
  223. ["Video Life"
  224. by Chris Spedding plays]
  225.  
  226. 49
  227. 00:04:43,984 --> 00:04:44,903
  228. [man] Yeah!
  229.  
  230. 50
  231. 00:04:48,869 --> 00:04:51,457
  232. Ready for some fucking intense action.
  233. Take one.
  234.  
  235. 51
  236. 00:04:54,213 --> 00:04:55,966
  237. No!
  238.  
  239. 52
  240. 00:05:06,780 --> 00:05:09,409
  241. I can see that thing there
  242. moving around, Bing, I know you're playing
  243.  
  244. 53
  245. 00:05:09,786 --> 00:05:11,038
  246. with my face or something.
  247.  
  248. 54
  249. 00:05:11,330 --> 00:05:13,084
  250. [Bing] Zack over here,
  251. he's going to crash.
  252.  
  253. 55
  254. 00:05:18,177 --> 00:05:20,056
  255. [Bing] Come, buddy, come...
  256.  
  257. 56
  258. 00:05:20,516 --> 00:05:22,394
  259. [man laughing] Oh, my...
  260.  
  261. 57
  262. 00:05:22,645 --> 00:05:24,439
  263. [Zack] Oh, shit, there's a cop.
  264.  
  265. 58
  266. 00:05:26,152 --> 00:05:27,445
  267. -[screaming]
  268. -Hey, no, don't.
  269.  
  270. 59
  271. 00:05:27,530 --> 00:05:28,447
  272. No, it' fine.
  273.  
  274. 60
  275. 00:05:28,532 --> 00:05:32,080
  276. -[laughing] Oh, my God!
  277. -Oh, my God! Oh!
  278.  
  279. 61
  280. 00:05:32,289 --> 00:05:34,794
  281. -[screaming]
  282. -What the fuck?
  283.  
  284. 62
  285. 00:05:40,931 --> 00:05:43,102
  286. Dude, I'm like bleeding.
  287. It's like in it.
  288.  
  289. 63
  290. 00:05:44,731 --> 00:05:46,233
  291. [Bing] How long have you known Keire?
  292.  
  293. 64
  294. 00:05:46,568 --> 00:05:49,114
  295. [Zack] Man, I want to say,
  296. when I met Keire, he was like 11.
  297.  
  298. 65
  299. 00:05:49,448 --> 00:05:51,578
  300. He'd-- He'd ride the bus to the park.
  301.  
  302. 66
  303. 00:05:52,663 --> 00:05:54,751
  304. And then, he'd pretty much
  305. be stuck at the park.
  306.  
  307. 67
  308. 00:05:54,834 --> 00:05:58,675
  309. He'd have to ask everyone for money
  310. so he could get enough for the bus home.
  311.  
  312. 68
  313. 00:06:00,220 --> 00:06:02,265
  314. [Keire] Well, I remember
  315. the first time I met him,
  316.  
  317. 69
  318. 00:06:02,432 --> 00:06:05,104
  319. I was standing where the bikers transfer.
  320.  
  321. 70
  322. 00:06:05,188 --> 00:06:08,528
  323. And this dude hit me,
  324. like, right in the rib with his pegs.
  325.  
  326. 71
  327. 00:06:08,737 --> 00:06:12,285
  328. And I remember Zack,
  329. and he just started screaming at this kid,
  330.  
  331. 72
  332. 00:06:12,369 --> 00:06:14,874
  333. "I'm gonna fucking beat your ass,
  334. like, blah, blah, blah..."
  335.  
  336. 73
  337. 00:06:14,958 --> 00:06:17,003
  338. So, I was like, I wanna be like that guy.
  339.  
  340. 74
  341. 00:06:17,337 --> 00:06:18,464
  342. Oh, ho, ho!
  343.  
  344. 75
  345. 00:06:24,351 --> 00:06:26,397
  346. [Bing] What did you think of me,
  347. we were growing up
  348.  
  349. 76
  350. 00:06:26,480 --> 00:06:27,566
  351. and I was filming all of us?
  352.  
  353. 77
  354. 00:06:27,650 --> 00:06:31,658
  355. [Zack] I thought, it was cool, how you can
  356. put all these different moments
  357.  
  358. 78
  359. 00:06:31,741 --> 00:06:35,541
  360. into, like, one long video and just
  361. make it seem, like, the best time ever.
  362.  
  363. 79
  364. 00:06:36,458 --> 00:06:38,603
  365. Oh, God, no! You've been
  366. filming the whole time?
  367.  
  368. 80
  369. 00:06:38,645 --> 00:06:40,425
  370. I thought you were
  371. like, taking a picture.
  372.  
  373. 81
  374. 00:06:49,944 --> 00:06:53,117
  375. She... She just drove by
  376. and didn't even care!
  377.  
  378. 82
  379. 00:06:56,206 --> 00:06:59,212
  380. -[Keire] Oh, God! Yes!
  381. -[Zack] Fuck, yeah!
  382.  
  383. 83
  384. 00:06:59,672 --> 00:07:00,799
  385. Whoo!
  386.  
  387. 84
  388. 00:07:00,883 --> 00:07:03,847
  389. [Zack] Skateboarding is more of a family
  390. than my family.
  391.  
  392. 85
  393. 00:07:04,181 --> 00:07:07,730
  394. We formed a family together,
  395. like to look out for each other
  396.  
  397. 86
  398. 00:07:07,813 --> 00:07:10,861
  399. because no one else
  400. was looking out for us.
  401.  
  402. 87
  403. 00:07:32,988 --> 00:07:33,865
  404. [chuckles]
  405.  
  406. 88
  407. 00:07:35,409 --> 00:07:37,372
  408. No, I'm not jumping in.
  409.  
  410. 89
  411. 00:07:39,710 --> 00:07:43,134
  412. It could be three feet only,
  413. but, "Oh, shit! I'm drowning."
  414.  
  415. 90
  416. 00:07:45,973 --> 00:07:47,518
  417. No more smoking weed in the house.
  418.  
  419. 91
  420. 00:07:47,601 --> 00:07:49,020
  421. -[Keire] Good.
  422. -There's no more smoking cigarettes
  423.  
  424. 92
  425. 00:07:49,104 --> 00:07:50,398
  426. -in the house, either.
  427. -[Keire] Good.
  428.  
  429. 93
  430. 00:07:50,481 --> 00:07:53,070
  431. Which I tried to break myself up
  432. a while ago but...
  433.  
  434. 94
  435. 00:07:53,697 --> 00:07:55,116
  436. There's so much trash on my porch,
  437.  
  438. 95
  439. 00:07:55,199 --> 00:07:57,078
  440. I'm like, I just can't go back out there
  441. and smoke.
  442.  
  443. 96
  444. 00:07:58,455 --> 00:08:01,086
  445. -I don't know. I guess, like...
  446. -There's just a bunch of boxes...
  447.  
  448. 97
  449. 00:08:01,170 --> 00:08:03,090
  450. -and baby stuff.
  451. -It's boxes. It's baby shit.
  452.  
  453. 98
  454. 00:08:03,299 --> 00:08:05,219
  455. You know how hard
  456. baby shit is put together?
  457.  
  458. 99
  459. 00:08:05,386 --> 00:08:06,806
  460. Do you know how ridiculous this shit is?
  461.  
  462. 100
  463. 00:08:07,098 --> 00:08:08,810
  464. And there's like,
  465. they are five different language
  466.  
  467. 101
  468. 00:08:08,894 --> 00:08:10,814
  469. on the instructions, but not English.
  470.  
  471. 102
  472. 00:08:10,981 --> 00:08:14,362
  473. And I'm like, "Why couldn't I have just
  474. bought this, I don't understand.
  475.  
  476. 103
  477. 00:08:14,446 --> 00:08:16,743
  478. Why I had to buy a box
  479. and put it together."
  480.  
  481. 104
  482. 00:08:16,826 --> 00:08:18,370
  483. It doesn't make any fucking sense.
  484.  
  485. 105
  486. 00:08:19,331 --> 00:08:20,374
  487. [Zack] I can't believe that.
  488.  
  489. 106
  490. 00:08:20,667 --> 00:08:22,003
  491. She's just gonna have the baby.
  492.  
  493. 107
  494. 00:08:22,128 --> 00:08:24,592
  495. And I'm there, just gonna be like,
  496. "OK, here's the baby, go home."
  497.  
  498. 108
  499. 00:08:25,051 --> 00:08:26,596
  500. I feel like, somewhere along the line,
  501.  
  502. 109
  503. 00:08:26,804 --> 00:08:29,017
  504. there should be like a class
  505. for this or something,
  506.  
  507. 110
  508. 00:08:29,184 --> 00:08:31,271
  509. that I should have taken,
  510. that I'm fucked up.
  511.  
  512. 111
  513. 00:08:32,650 --> 00:08:36,198
  514. [Keire] I feel like
  515. life might be moving too fast.
  516.  
  517. 112
  518. 00:08:37,534 --> 00:08:41,332
  519. We have to fully grow up
  520. and it's gonna fucking suck.
  521.  
  522. 113
  523. 00:08:43,212 --> 00:08:45,968
  524. -How'd you do it? Oh, my God!
  525. -[screaming]
  526.  
  527. 114
  528. 00:08:47,303 --> 00:08:48,974
  529. Oh, my beer! Oh, God!
  530.  
  531. 115
  532. 00:08:49,391 --> 00:08:50,602
  533. It's all over you.
  534.  
  535. 116
  536. 00:08:51,311 --> 00:08:52,773
  537. -Yeah!
  538. -Oh, shit!
  539.  
  540. 117
  541. 00:08:53,650 --> 00:08:55,862
  542. [dog barking]
  543.  
  544. 118
  545. 00:08:58,367 --> 00:08:59,704
  546. [Zack talking indistinctly]
  547.  
  548. 119
  549. 00:09:00,121 --> 00:09:02,835
  550. If somebody poked Keire in the eye,
  551.  
  552. 120
  553. 00:09:03,043 --> 00:09:05,882
  554. -I would freak the fuck out!
  555. -Poke me in the eye?
  556.  
  557. 121
  558. 00:09:06,216 --> 00:09:07,595
  559. [man] Oh, you don't poke nigga's
  560. in the eye?
  561.  
  562. 122
  563. 00:09:08,345 --> 00:09:10,349
  564. That guy would be mad at you
  565. for saying "nigga".
  566.  
  567. 123
  568. 00:09:11,143 --> 00:09:13,565
  569. Fuck him. He poked you
  570. in the eye. He had it coming.
  571.  
  572. 124
  573. 00:09:13,648 --> 00:09:16,028
  574. Yeah, he did have it coming.
  575. He poked me in the eye.
  576.  
  577. 125
  578. 00:09:16,111 --> 00:09:17,823
  579. -Yeah, fuck that guy.
  580. -[man laughing]
  581.  
  582. 126
  583. 00:09:18,157 --> 00:09:20,537
  584. [Zack] Hey, Kyle, how are you
  585. gonna get down on the roof?
  586.  
  587. 127
  588. 00:09:20,829 --> 00:09:24,294
  589. Yeah, I'm fine. I'm gonna watch
  590. the fucking fire works today.
  591.  
  592. 128
  593. 00:09:24,377 --> 00:09:26,966
  594. -How we're gonna get you down, man?
  595. -A ladder.
  596.  
  597. 129
  598. 00:09:27,551 --> 00:09:29,930
  599. We don't have a ladder, Kyle!
  600.  
  601. 130
  602. 00:09:30,264 --> 00:09:34,022
  603. I'm having a good time, 'cause
  604. I'm on the top level of my fucking roof.
  605.  
  606. 131
  607. 00:09:34,230 --> 00:09:36,485
  608. -You want to know why? Guess what, Liu?
  609. -Keire, this isn't a joke, yo.
  610.  
  611. 132
  612. 00:09:36,569 --> 00:09:38,907
  613. -It's not a joke. It's America's...
  614. -You're all the way on my fucking roof.
  615.  
  616. 133
  617. 00:09:38,990 --> 00:09:40,702
  618. ...fucking birthday, dude.
  619.  
  620. 134
  621. 00:09:40,869 --> 00:09:41,954
  622. -[man laughing]
  623. -[Kyle] Guess what?
  624.  
  625. 135
  626. 00:09:42,038 --> 00:09:43,833
  627. In the land of the fucking free...
  628.  
  629. 136
  630. 00:09:43,917 --> 00:09:45,044
  631. [Zack] Dude, I'm telling you...
  632.  
  633. 137
  634. 00:09:45,127 --> 00:09:46,881
  635. [Kyle] ...I'm on this
  636. son-of-a-bitching roof, dude.
  637.  
  638. 138
  639. 00:09:47,465 --> 00:09:51,557
  640. Land of the fucking free,
  641. on this son bitching roof...
  642.  
  643. 139
  644. 00:09:51,766 --> 00:09:54,689
  645. Fucking fire works, dude! Yes!
  646.  
  647. 140
  648. 00:09:54,772 --> 00:09:57,402
  649. -[man] Oh, my God.
  650. -[Kyle screaming]
  651.  
  652. 141
  653. 00:09:58,070 --> 00:10:01,577
  654. Happy fucking birthday, dude!
  655.  
  656. 142
  657. 00:10:01,869 --> 00:10:03,832
  658. [screaming]
  659.  
  660. 143
  661. 00:10:04,667 --> 00:10:06,546
  662. Oh, my God, Keire.
  663.  
  664. 144
  665. 00:10:07,004 --> 00:10:10,846
  666. Fuck! Bless America!
  667.  
  668. 145
  669. 00:10:13,977 --> 00:10:15,479
  670. [baby crying]
  671.  
  672. 146
  673. 00:10:26,376 --> 00:10:28,798
  674. [Nina] I never thought I'd be OK
  675. with changing the diaper.
  676.  
  677. 147
  678. 00:10:29,424 --> 00:10:30,927
  679. But I'm pretty OK with it.
  680.  
  681. 148
  682. 00:10:31,011 --> 00:10:32,263
  683. [Zack] We've been tag team in it, though.
  684.  
  685. 149
  686. 00:10:32,598 --> 00:10:33,641
  687. So, it's easier.
  688.  
  689. 150
  690. 00:10:34,142 --> 00:10:38,275
  691. Yeah, it was so funny, because,
  692. um, I had Zack give the baby a bottle
  693.  
  694. 151
  695. 00:10:38,651 --> 00:10:40,655
  696. and Keire was like, "Oh, my God,
  697.  
  698. 152
  699. 00:10:40,739 --> 00:10:43,243
  700. -they're freaking out."
  701. -Yeah, it weirded him out the whole time.
  702.  
  703. 153
  704. 00:10:43,327 --> 00:10:45,540
  705. He's like, "I can't believe
  706. you're actually a dad."
  707.  
  708. 154
  709. 00:10:47,503 --> 00:10:48,505
  710. [Zack] He is dashing.
  711.  
  712. 155
  713. 00:10:49,799 --> 00:10:52,888
  714. -[baby crying]
  715. -Oh, don't be grumpy.
  716.  
  717. 156
  718. 00:10:54,390 --> 00:10:56,102
  719. [Zack] I would do anything for that kid.
  720.  
  721. 157
  722. 00:10:56,896 --> 00:11:00,862
  723. I wanna give him every opportunity
  724. I possibly can, to help him succeed,
  725.  
  726. 158
  727. 00:11:00,946 --> 00:11:02,950
  728. help him be happy, to be a good person.
  729.  
  730. 159
  731. 00:11:27,749 --> 00:11:31,841
  732. It's interesting how much having a kid
  733. would force you to, like, grow up.
  734.  
  735. 160
  736. 00:11:32,551 --> 00:11:34,012
  737. Like, I can't get home from work,
  738.  
  739. 161
  740. 00:11:34,178 --> 00:11:36,474
  741. and fucking drink 12 pack,
  742. like I normally do
  743.  
  744. 162
  745. 00:11:36,559 --> 00:11:38,646
  746. 'cause, like, what if I have to get up
  747. and feed the kid, or you know
  748.  
  749. 163
  750. 00:11:38,730 --> 00:11:40,859
  751. what if something happens, I have
  752. to take him to the hospital, like...
  753.  
  754. 164
  755. 00:11:41,401 --> 00:11:42,361
  756. I don't know.
  757.  
  758. 165
  759. 00:11:43,405 --> 00:11:45,660
  760. Lately I've been having
  761. a lot of anxiety about...
  762.  
  763. 166
  764. 00:11:46,537 --> 00:11:49,250
  765. not feeling like a grownup,
  766. and not feeling like I've...
  767.  
  768. 167
  769. 00:11:49,835 --> 00:11:52,298
  770. done enough things
  771. to set my life up properly and...
  772.  
  773. 168
  774. 00:11:53,300 --> 00:11:55,095
  775. it's time I do something, you know.
  776.  
  777. 169
  778. 00:11:56,389 --> 00:12:00,189
  779. OK, so, I need you to read over
  780. all of these, these are the rules
  781.  
  782. 170
  783. 00:12:00,272 --> 00:12:01,817
  784. of the testing center.
  785. -OK. OK.
  786.  
  787. 171
  788. 00:12:01,943 --> 00:12:03,487
  789. "No cellphone, no computer..."
  790.  
  791. 172
  792. 00:12:03,571 --> 00:12:04,447
  793. OK.
  794.  
  795. 173
  796. 00:12:05,157 --> 00:12:07,244
  797. -Where do you work at?
  798. -Um, I'm a roofer.
  799.  
  800. 174
  801. 00:12:08,080 --> 00:12:09,165
  802. That's hard work.
  803.  
  804. 175
  805. 00:12:09,583 --> 00:12:11,461
  806. It is. That's why I'm taking this.
  807.  
  808. 176
  809. 00:12:11,545 --> 00:12:12,589
  810. [nurse chuckles]
  811.  
  812. 177
  813. 00:12:18,475 --> 00:12:20,187
  814. I couldn't understand
  815. what they wanted me to do.
  816.  
  817. 178
  818. 00:12:20,647 --> 00:12:23,026
  819. You know, like,
  820. the way it was written, I just...
  821.  
  822. 179
  823. 00:12:23,611 --> 00:12:25,364
  824. I was having trouble,
  825. I just didn't understand.
  826.  
  827. 180
  828. 00:12:26,617 --> 00:12:27,703
  829. [sighs] That was rough.
  830.  
  831. 181
  832. 00:12:35,300 --> 00:12:37,054
  833. How are you today? What time is it?
  834.  
  835. 182
  836. 00:12:40,647 --> 00:12:41,855
  837. Oh...
  838.  
  839. 183
  840. 00:12:41,939 --> 00:12:43,150
  841. Fuck. [laughing]
  842.  
  843. 184
  844. 00:12:44,778 --> 00:12:45,864
  845. Oh, man.
  846.  
  847. 185
  848. 00:12:46,949 --> 00:12:49,412
  849. I'm at home. Bring me some cigarettes
  850. and a beer pump, dude.
  851.  
  852. 186
  853. 00:12:49,495 --> 00:12:50,665
  854. I'll pay you when you get here.
  855.  
  856. 187
  857. 00:12:50,915 --> 00:12:52,753
  858. Talking about Keire
  859. and his skateboard, yo,
  860.  
  861. 188
  862. 00:12:52,836 --> 00:12:54,590
  863. -Keire and his skateboard.
  864. -Oh! Yeah.
  865.  
  866. 189
  867. 00:12:54,673 --> 00:12:57,011
  868. -He'll be doing his little thing.
  869. -All good, cousin.
  870.  
  871. 190
  872. 00:12:57,470 --> 00:12:58,848
  873. Like, talking shit to him, you know.
  874.  
  875. 191
  876. 00:12:58,931 --> 00:13:01,269
  877. Being a little, brother,
  878. you know, being the youngest brother.
  879.  
  880. 192
  881. 00:13:01,729 --> 00:13:03,900
  882. You know, you got to think--
  883. but if he wasn't the youngest,
  884.  
  885. 193
  886. 00:13:03,983 --> 00:13:06,196
  887. he'd probably be running the streets
  888. with us. You know what I'm saying?
  889.  
  890. 194
  891. 00:13:07,031 --> 00:13:09,452
  892. All I could say is,
  893. I'm glad he ain't in the--, uh...
  894.  
  895. 195
  896. 00:13:09,745 --> 00:13:13,210
  897. where I'm at, right now, I got to go do,
  898. uh, a few days, you know.
  899.  
  900. 196
  901. 00:13:13,293 --> 00:13:15,715
  902. One thing about that,
  903. at least, uh, I got an out-date.
  904.  
  905. 197
  906. 00:13:16,049 --> 00:13:17,093
  907. [chuckles]
  908.  
  909. 198
  910. 00:13:17,594 --> 00:13:18,638
  911. All right, bro.
  912.  
  913. 199
  914. 00:13:24,273 --> 00:13:26,904
  915. [Keire humming]
  916.  
  917. 200
  918. 00:13:28,406 --> 00:13:29,743
  919. Sucks.
  920.  
  921. 201
  922. 00:13:30,077 --> 00:13:33,250
  923. [Roberta] Keire is quite different
  924. from the others.
  925.  
  926. 202
  927. 00:13:34,628 --> 00:13:36,214
  928. I think about it a lot.
  929.  
  930. 203
  931. 00:13:37,091 --> 00:13:38,468
  932. 'Cause I want him to start...
  933.  
  934. 204
  935. 00:13:39,387 --> 00:13:42,519
  936. getting real serious about
  937. what he's gonna be doing.
  938.  
  939. 205
  940. 00:13:43,228 --> 00:13:46,861
  941. [Keire sighs] I turned 18 in November.
  942.  
  943. 206
  944. 00:13:47,654 --> 00:13:50,075
  945. Ever since then I just feel like,
  946. I should get a good job
  947.  
  948. 207
  949. 00:13:50,158 --> 00:13:53,206
  950. or get like, "a" job,
  951. this "a" job in general.
  952.  
  953. 208
  954. 00:13:53,415 --> 00:13:55,252
  955. [door creaking]
  956.  
  957. 209
  958. 00:13:55,377 --> 00:13:56,547
  959. [Keire] But I don't know.
  960.  
  961. 210
  962. 00:13:57,172 --> 00:14:00,137
  963. I'm becoming a man, and like, I feel like,
  964. there's something I got fucked over on
  965.  
  966. 211
  967. 00:14:00,555 --> 00:14:04,103
  968. because, like, my childhood
  969. was really scary time.
  970.  
  971. 212
  972. 00:14:12,579 --> 00:14:14,666
  973. Fucking wrong with you?
  974. Throwing your fucking board at me?
  975.  
  976. 213
  977. 00:14:15,960 --> 00:14:16,962
  978. [man] Hey, kid, what happened?
  979.  
  980. 214
  981. 00:14:18,966 --> 00:14:20,010
  982. What did he do?
  983.  
  984. 215
  985. 00:14:22,306 --> 00:14:23,517
  986. Still wanna fight me now?
  987.  
  988. 216
  989. 00:14:27,316 --> 00:14:28,694
  990. -What happened?
  991. -You know what?
  992.  
  993. 217
  994. 00:14:29,571 --> 00:14:30,489
  995. Hey.
  996.  
  997. 218
  998. 00:14:32,076 --> 00:14:32,994
  999. Yeah.
  1000.  
  1001. 219
  1002. 00:14:33,704 --> 00:14:34,748
  1003. Yeah.
  1004.  
  1005. 220
  1006. 00:14:39,675 --> 00:14:41,845
  1007. [Roberta] Keire, he held in a lot,
  1008.  
  1009. 221
  1010. 00:14:42,597 --> 00:14:44,726
  1011. and his dad, you know,
  1012.  
  1013. 222
  1014. 00:14:45,520 --> 00:14:47,565
  1015. he was really kind of strict on him.
  1016.  
  1017. 223
  1018. 00:14:49,778 --> 00:14:52,491
  1019. You know, his father was,
  1020. he was a carpenter,
  1021.  
  1022. 224
  1023. 00:14:52,993 --> 00:14:55,038
  1024. and he wanted Keire to do that,
  1025.  
  1026. 225
  1027. 00:14:55,372 --> 00:14:58,796
  1028. because he couldn't get the other boys
  1029. to, you know, follow his foot steps.
  1030.  
  1031. 226
  1032. 00:14:59,881 --> 00:15:02,595
  1033. -But Keire didn't like it.
  1034. -[Keire] Damn it!
  1035.  
  1036. 227
  1037. 00:15:07,438 --> 00:15:09,066
  1038. -Yeah!
  1039. -Do it!
  1040.  
  1041. 228
  1042. 00:15:11,112 --> 00:15:13,868
  1043. [Zack] And like, sometimes
  1044. I'd know that I have to work with him.
  1045.  
  1046. 229
  1047. 00:15:13,993 --> 00:15:17,542
  1048. So, I'll sneak out my window,
  1049. like, throw my board out first
  1050.  
  1051. 230
  1052. 00:15:17,625 --> 00:15:18,878
  1053. and just climb out.
  1054.  
  1055. 231
  1056. 00:15:19,921 --> 00:15:21,132
  1057. Then when I got home,
  1058.  
  1059. 232
  1060. 00:15:21,842 --> 00:15:22,969
  1061. I got disciplined.
  1062.  
  1063. 233
  1064. 00:15:24,346 --> 00:15:26,392
  1065. And then I would go skate for a while.
  1066.  
  1067. 234
  1068. 00:15:28,689 --> 00:15:30,067
  1069. [Bing] How did you get disciplined?
  1070.  
  1071. 235
  1072. 00:15:31,319 --> 00:15:32,321
  1073. Uh...
  1074.  
  1075. 236
  1076. 00:15:34,075 --> 00:15:40,003
  1077. I mean, well, they call it
  1078. child abuse now, but it's, um...
  1079.  
  1080. 237
  1081. 00:15:42,216 --> 00:15:44,011
  1082. [breathing heavily]
  1083.  
  1084. 238
  1085. 00:15:44,095 --> 00:15:45,723
  1086. Bitch! Uh!
  1087.  
  1088. 239
  1089. 00:15:46,767 --> 00:15:49,731
  1090. [Keire] That shit makes you angry,
  1091. like, oh, God...
  1092.  
  1093. 240
  1094. 00:15:50,273 --> 00:15:55,325
  1095. It, like, it like boils my-- my blood,
  1096. dude, like, uh... fuck.
  1097.  
  1098. 241
  1099. 00:16:03,717 --> 00:16:04,636
  1100. Fuck!
  1101.  
  1102. 242
  1103. 00:16:07,474 --> 00:16:08,561
  1104. [Bing] How bad did it get?
  1105.  
  1106. 243
  1107. 00:16:10,105 --> 00:16:11,232
  1108. Like, did you ever cry?
  1109.  
  1110. 244
  1111. 00:16:12,025 --> 00:16:15,490
  1112. Oh, at first. At first. Like...
  1113.  
  1114. 245
  1115. 00:16:17,369 --> 00:16:18,329
  1116. I mean...
  1117.  
  1118. 246
  1119. 00:16:22,087 --> 00:16:23,089
  1120. Weren't you?
  1121.  
  1122. 247
  1123. 00:16:24,300 --> 00:16:25,302
  1124. [Bing] I did cry.
  1125.  
  1126. 248
  1127. 00:16:27,557 --> 00:16:28,893
  1128. I feel like everybody cries.
  1129.  
  1130. 249
  1131. 00:16:51,020 --> 00:16:52,189
  1132. Is this the board you bought here?
  1133.  
  1134. 250
  1135. 00:16:53,441 --> 00:16:55,362
  1136. -[Bing] Uh...
  1137. -I think you did.
  1138.  
  1139. 251
  1140. 00:16:56,113 --> 00:16:57,324
  1141. A while ago.
  1142.  
  1143. 252
  1144. 00:16:57,742 --> 00:16:59,453
  1145. Remember, we had this board in the shop.
  1146.  
  1147. 253
  1148. 00:17:00,539 --> 00:17:03,879
  1149. I don't buy boards that much anymore,
  1150. 'cause I don't skate that much anymore.
  1151.  
  1152. 254
  1153. 00:17:04,003 --> 00:17:07,051
  1154. Dude, tell me about it.
  1155. I don't skate nearly enough.
  1156.  
  1157. 255
  1158. 00:17:07,929 --> 00:17:10,141
  1159. I don't really remember
  1160. when I first met you.
  1161.  
  1162. 256
  1163. 00:17:11,227 --> 00:17:15,234
  1164. I-- I just, he was just, that kid
  1165. that always there, you know, like...
  1166.  
  1167. 257
  1168. 00:17:17,364 --> 00:17:18,909
  1169. You come into the skate shop...
  1170.  
  1171. 258
  1172. 00:17:19,661 --> 00:17:21,999
  1173. I don't know, we talk about random stuff.
  1174.  
  1175. 259
  1176. 00:17:22,290 --> 00:17:24,211
  1177. And that happened with a lot of kids.
  1178.  
  1179. 260
  1180. 00:17:24,671 --> 00:17:26,717
  1181. And they could come in
  1182. and be like, yeah, dude...
  1183.  
  1184. 261
  1185. 00:17:26,800 --> 00:17:28,428
  1186. my parents suck or this is going on.
  1187.  
  1188. 262
  1189. 00:17:28,512 --> 00:17:30,265
  1190. and they'd come in unload, you know...
  1191.  
  1192. 263
  1193. 00:17:31,893 --> 00:17:33,897
  1194. But, like, you were introverted.
  1195.  
  1196. 264
  1197. 00:17:34,858 --> 00:17:38,072
  1198. And I didn't know, and I remember,
  1199. think I asked you if you were gay.
  1200.  
  1201. 265
  1202. 00:17:38,406 --> 00:17:39,909
  1203. Do you remember that at all?
  1204.  
  1205. 266
  1206. 00:17:40,452 --> 00:17:41,955
  1207. -[Bing] No.
  1208. -Like, I-- I asked you, like,
  1209.  
  1210. 267
  1211. 00:17:42,039 --> 00:17:44,168
  1212. dude, are you gay, like, what's...
  1213. What do you... You know, like,
  1214.  
  1215. 268
  1216. 00:17:44,251 --> 00:17:47,174
  1217. I knew-- I knew you had some
  1218. huge weight on you.
  1219.  
  1220. 269
  1221. 00:17:48,009 --> 00:17:51,432
  1222. And, you were like, "No, dude," you know.
  1223.  
  1224. 270
  1225. 00:17:52,267 --> 00:17:56,233
  1226. But I can't remember when you opened up
  1227. to me about your mom and stuff.
  1228.  
  1229. 271
  1230. 00:17:56,985 --> 00:18:00,367
  1231. But I-- You never really told me about
  1232. anything about what was going on with you
  1233.  
  1234. 272
  1235. 00:18:00,534 --> 00:18:04,542
  1236. and, I guess,
  1237. in retrospect now, I look at him like,
  1238.  
  1239. 273
  1240. 00:18:05,878 --> 00:18:07,464
  1241. I should've totally figured that out.
  1242.  
  1243. 274
  1244. 00:18:09,009 --> 00:18:11,556
  1245. Like, I could tell, with you
  1246. from the very beginning, like,
  1247.  
  1248. 275
  1249. 00:18:11,640 --> 00:18:16,273
  1250. skateboarding meant more to you than just
  1251. being cool and having friends, like...
  1252.  
  1253. 276
  1254. 00:18:18,779 --> 00:18:20,490
  1255. It was your thing to like...
  1256.  
  1257. 277
  1258. 00:18:21,993 --> 00:18:22,912
  1259. get away.
  1260.  
  1261. 278
  1262. 00:18:25,291 --> 00:18:27,505
  1263. It was kind of a life or death thing.
  1264.  
  1265. 279
  1266. 00:18:40,488 --> 00:18:42,827
  1267. [Zack] To other people it's funny,
  1268. ha-ha-ha, you know,
  1269.  
  1270. 280
  1271. 00:18:42,910 --> 00:18:44,329
  1272. oh, these guys are crazy,
  1273.  
  1274. 281
  1275. 00:18:44,831 --> 00:18:46,543
  1276. but in reality
  1277. I think it's a control thing.
  1278.  
  1279. 282
  1280. 00:18:47,879 --> 00:18:51,636
  1281. You fucking have to control
  1282. the most minute, small details
  1283.  
  1284. 283
  1285. 00:18:51,720 --> 00:18:55,018
  1286. to make you feel normal
  1287. in a world that's not normal.
  1288.  
  1289. 284
  1290. 00:18:59,778 --> 00:19:01,698
  1291. [Keire] It was kind of be like
  1292. a drug in a way.
  1293.  
  1294. 285
  1295. 00:19:01,948 --> 00:19:06,040
  1296. Like, I can seriously be on a verge
  1297. of having a fucking mental breakdown,
  1298.  
  1299. 286
  1300. 00:19:06,123 --> 00:19:10,256
  1301. but as long as I am able to go skate
  1302. then I am completely fine.
  1303.  
  1304. 287
  1305. 00:19:34,597 --> 00:19:35,641
  1306. Yeah!
  1307.  
  1308. 288
  1309. 00:19:58,562 --> 00:19:59,438
  1310. Bravo!
  1311.  
  1312. 289
  1313. 00:20:19,186 --> 00:20:20,104
  1314. Here goes nothing.
  1315.  
  1316. 290
  1317. 00:20:38,558 --> 00:20:40,436
  1318. [Keire] As soon as
  1319. the effect of the drug wears off,
  1320.  
  1321. 291
  1322. 00:20:40,813 --> 00:20:42,190
  1323. this thing just comes back to you.
  1324.  
  1325. 292
  1326. 00:20:49,622 --> 00:20:51,668
  1327. So, what happened?
  1328. Did we get paid yesterday, or...
  1329.  
  1330. 293
  1331. 00:20:51,751 --> 00:20:52,878
  1332. I don't know.
  1333.  
  1334. 294
  1335. 00:20:54,799 --> 00:20:55,801
  1336. I don't know, either.
  1337.  
  1338. 295
  1339. 00:20:56,051 --> 00:20:59,767
  1340. I need my hours, man. I got kids to feed.
  1341.  
  1342. 296
  1343. 00:21:02,982 --> 00:21:05,779
  1344. Dude, my boss is,
  1345. seriously, such an asshole,
  1346.  
  1347. 297
  1348. 00:21:05,863 --> 00:21:08,994
  1349. it is crazy, like...
  1350. Fucking, they're understaffed now,
  1351.  
  1352. 298
  1353. 00:21:09,077 --> 00:21:10,539
  1354. and he just told me to clock out.
  1355.  
  1356. 299
  1357. 00:21:13,962 --> 00:21:16,300
  1358. [Zack] My budget
  1359. is already spent out for a week,
  1360.  
  1361. 300
  1362. 00:21:16,383 --> 00:21:18,179
  1363. so, I'm a week behind every time.
  1364.  
  1365. 301
  1366. 00:21:18,471 --> 00:21:21,477
  1367. So, now, I have to figure out
  1368. how to come up with three extra hours
  1369.  
  1370. 302
  1371. 00:21:21,770 --> 00:21:24,066
  1372. on a schedule that I'm barely fucking on.
  1373.  
  1374. 303
  1375. 00:21:30,954 --> 00:21:33,000
  1376. [man] According to research
  1377. from the University of Illinois,
  1378.  
  1379. 304
  1380. 00:21:33,084 --> 00:21:37,258
  1381. about 47 percent of all Rockford workers,
  1382. 60,000 total
  1383.  
  1384. 305
  1385. 00:21:37,635 --> 00:21:39,847
  1386. earn less than $15 per hour.
  1387.  
  1388. 306
  1389. 00:21:39,931 --> 00:21:42,561
  1390. [man #2] Rockford has struggled
  1391. with unemployment for years.
  1392.  
  1393. 307
  1394. 00:21:42,645 --> 00:21:44,189
  1395. Companies have left, so, have the jobs.
  1396.  
  1397. 308
  1398. 00:21:44,272 --> 00:21:45,567
  1399. [woman] Out of all of Illinois,
  1400.  
  1401. 309
  1402. 00:21:45,651 --> 00:21:49,575
  1403. Rockford has seen the largest number
  1404. of people move away since 2010.
  1405.  
  1406. 310
  1407. 00:21:56,421 --> 00:21:58,134
  1408. How many people
  1409. are gonna be at that table?
  1410.  
  1411. 311
  1412. 00:21:58,844 --> 00:22:00,764
  1413. Uh, could be anywhere from 12 to 15.
  1414.  
  1415. 312
  1416. 00:22:01,306 --> 00:22:02,267
  1417. Great.
  1418.  
  1419. 313
  1420. 00:22:03,562 --> 00:22:05,148
  1421. Yeah, you took the hardest one. Good job.
  1422.  
  1423. 314
  1424. 00:22:18,842 --> 00:22:19,802
  1425. There you go.
  1426.  
  1427. 315
  1428. 00:22:20,762 --> 00:22:22,975
  1429. There you go.
  1430. I got you all lined up there.
  1431.  
  1432. 316
  1433. 00:22:24,102 --> 00:22:25,229
  1434. Come on, bud.
  1435.  
  1436. 317
  1437. 00:22:26,231 --> 00:22:27,442
  1438. I feel weird, 'cause like...
  1439.  
  1440. 318
  1441. 00:22:28,402 --> 00:22:29,404
  1442. I don't know.
  1443.  
  1444. 319
  1445. 00:22:29,572 --> 00:22:32,118
  1446. 'Cause I, like, talk to my baby,
  1447. like, baby-voicin'.
  1448.  
  1449. 320
  1450. 00:22:32,202 --> 00:22:33,788
  1451. But, I mean, it's a fucking baby,
  1452. that's how you talk to 'em,
  1453.  
  1454. 321
  1455. 00:22:33,872 --> 00:22:35,291
  1456. you know what I mean?
  1457. I'm not gonna be, like,
  1458.  
  1459. 322
  1460. 00:22:35,374 --> 00:22:38,255
  1461. "All right, Elliot, we're gonna put
  1462. your clothes on, lil' buddy.
  1463.  
  1464. 323
  1465. 00:22:40,092 --> 00:22:41,888
  1466. -[woman] Yes.
  1467. -[Zack] Oh, no.
  1468.  
  1469. 324
  1470. 00:22:42,305 --> 00:22:44,977
  1471. [Zack] It's like,
  1472. she works and I watch him
  1473.  
  1474. 325
  1475. 00:22:45,353 --> 00:22:48,568
  1476. or I work and she watches him.
  1477. I-- I don't know. And other than that,
  1478.  
  1479. 326
  1480. 00:22:48,652 --> 00:22:50,154
  1481. we're both pretty much around.
  1482.  
  1483. 327
  1484. 00:22:50,238 --> 00:22:51,406
  1485. All right.
  1486.  
  1487. 328
  1488. 00:22:54,246 --> 00:22:55,248
  1489. Here you go.
  1490.  
  1491. 329
  1492. 00:22:55,749 --> 00:22:58,546
  1493. Is that the action you want?
  1494. Is that the action you want?
  1495.  
  1496. 330
  1497. 00:22:59,172 --> 00:23:01,426
  1498. [Zack] It's a hard enough life,
  1499. being a baby.
  1500.  
  1501. 331
  1502. 00:23:02,345 --> 00:23:03,723
  1503. It's-- It's got to be stressful.
  1504.  
  1505. 332
  1506. 00:23:04,684 --> 00:23:06,854
  1507. I mean, you save a bunch of time
  1508. by not having to walk
  1509.  
  1510. 333
  1511. 00:23:06,938 --> 00:23:08,399
  1512. and go to the bathroom but...
  1513.  
  1514. 334
  1515. 00:23:09,109 --> 00:23:12,825
  1516. And then someone just cleans it for you,
  1517. someone feeds you every three hours.
  1518.  
  1519. 335
  1520. 00:23:14,704 --> 00:23:18,294
  1521. See, I've been off work all week
  1522. which normally never happens,
  1523.  
  1524. 336
  1525. 00:23:18,670 --> 00:23:22,302
  1526. I haven't left this house in five days
  1527. 'cause I haven't had time to do anything.
  1528.  
  1529. 337
  1530. 00:23:22,761 --> 00:23:25,308
  1531. And I get cooked up, super, super easily,
  1532.  
  1533. 338
  1534. 00:23:25,433 --> 00:23:27,563
  1535. so that, you know,
  1536. it's been driving me nuts.
  1537.  
  1538. 339
  1539. 00:23:28,606 --> 00:23:30,026
  1540. Have you met your uncle, have you?
  1541.  
  1542. 340
  1543. 00:23:30,944 --> 00:23:31,821
  1544. [baby cooing]
  1545.  
  1546. 341
  1547. 00:23:32,948 --> 00:23:34,952
  1548. Hey, mama's here.
  1549.  
  1550. 342
  1551. 00:23:35,746 --> 00:23:36,789
  1552. How was work?
  1553.  
  1554. 343
  1555. 00:23:37,081 --> 00:23:39,587
  1556. -Eh.
  1557. -How was after-work drinks?
  1558.  
  1559. 344
  1560. 00:23:43,636 --> 00:23:45,473
  1561. Jeez, girl. No wonder you're always broke.
  1562.  
  1563. 345
  1564. 00:23:45,557 --> 00:23:47,686
  1565. -Those things are probably like $7.
  1566. -They're $4.
  1567.  
  1568. 346
  1569. 00:23:52,195 --> 00:23:53,364
  1570. All right, are you gonna feed him?
  1571.  
  1572. 347
  1573. 00:23:53,865 --> 00:23:57,163
  1574. No, I told you to. I have to, like,
  1575. get ready and meet Jess.
  1576.  
  1577. 348
  1578. 00:23:57,246 --> 00:23:58,666
  1579. What? You did not tell me that.
  1580.  
  1581. 349
  1582. 00:23:58,750 --> 00:24:00,461
  1583. -Yeah, I did...
  1584. -You said, "I'm gonna feed him."
  1585.  
  1586. 350
  1587. 00:24:00,712 --> 00:24:02,549
  1588. You can't just feed him, like,
  1589. 11 hours and now you're going out...
  1590.  
  1591. 351
  1592. 00:24:02,633 --> 00:24:03,676
  1593. You did that to me for five months.
  1594.  
  1595. 352
  1596. 00:24:03,760 --> 00:24:04,845
  1597. -to the bar. You can't feed...
  1598. -Five months...
  1599.  
  1600. 353
  1601. 00:24:04,929 --> 00:24:06,682
  1602. -...your fucking kid.
  1603. -...you can't do it one day.
  1604.  
  1605. 354
  1606. 00:24:07,016 --> 00:24:08,603
  1607. You can't feed him, like, what the fuck?
  1608.  
  1609. 355
  1610. 00:24:08,978 --> 00:24:11,526
  1611. I'll feed him the bottle,
  1612. just feed him the solid food.
  1613.  
  1614. 356
  1615. 00:24:11,609 --> 00:24:13,445
  1616. -It's all I want you to do.
  1617. -That bottle's only three ounces
  1618.  
  1619. 357
  1620. 00:24:13,530 --> 00:24:15,282
  1621. they'll drink that in, like five minutes.
  1622.  
  1623. 358
  1624. 00:24:15,366 --> 00:24:17,203
  1625. Then I got to take care of him
  1626. all fucking nights still,
  1627.  
  1628. 359
  1629. 00:24:17,286 --> 00:24:18,790
  1630. -so, why can't you just...
  1631. -I haven't even gotten my fucking
  1632.  
  1633. 360
  1634. 00:24:18,873 --> 00:24:20,376
  1635. -jacket off.
  1636. -Why can't you just feed him?
  1637.  
  1638. 361
  1639. 00:24:20,544 --> 00:24:22,004
  1640. Dude, that's what
  1641. I don't fucking understand.
  1642.  
  1643. 362
  1644. 00:24:22,088 --> 00:24:23,340
  1645. I was stay-at-home mom
  1646.  
  1647. 363
  1648. 00:24:23,424 --> 00:24:26,012
  1649. and you said,
  1650. I work, you take care of Elliot,
  1651.  
  1652. 364
  1653. 00:24:26,263 --> 00:24:27,933
  1654. I did, and now, I'm working...
  1655.  
  1656. 365
  1657. 00:24:28,183 --> 00:24:30,522
  1658. Right, and you show up
  1659. somewhere between eight and nine,
  1660.  
  1661. 366
  1662. 00:24:30,647 --> 00:24:34,655
  1663. -just in-- just in time to put him to bed.
  1664. -That happened twice.
  1665.  
  1666. 367
  1667. 00:24:34,738 --> 00:24:35,866
  1668. -Last night was the only night...
  1669. -I told you...
  1670.  
  1671. 368
  1672. 00:24:35,949 --> 00:24:39,289
  1673. -...you stayed home all fucking week.
  1674. -That's a fucking lie and you know it.
  1675.  
  1676. 369
  1677. 00:24:39,456 --> 00:24:42,546
  1678. -Whatever. You're an idiot. Just go away.
  1679. -No, you're a fucking idiot.
  1680.  
  1681. 370
  1682. 00:24:44,090 --> 00:24:45,092
  1683. [sighs]
  1684.  
  1685. 371
  1686. 00:24:52,608 --> 00:24:53,568
  1687. [door locking]
  1688.  
  1689. 372
  1690. 00:24:54,612 --> 00:24:59,287
  1691. [Zack] I mean, she's like, going through
  1692. something now, she's like newly 21
  1693.  
  1694. 373
  1695. 00:24:59,370 --> 00:25:01,249
  1696. and wants to go out every night.
  1697.  
  1698. 374
  1699. 00:25:01,667 --> 00:25:04,507
  1700. And I told her, I'm like,
  1701. "You had a kid, like, too late."
  1702.  
  1703. 375
  1704. 00:25:04,882 --> 00:25:05,926
  1705. [baby crying]
  1706.  
  1707. 376
  1708. 00:25:06,636 --> 00:25:08,973
  1709. [Zack] I love that girl, I-- You know,
  1710. I do want to be with her.
  1711.  
  1712. 377
  1713. 00:25:09,057 --> 00:25:11,521
  1714. I just want her to chill the fuck out.
  1715.  
  1716. 378
  1717. 00:25:13,566 --> 00:25:16,154
  1718. And feel like,
  1719. it's just been me, like a lot.
  1720.  
  1721. 379
  1722. 00:25:17,114 --> 00:25:19,870
  1723. Well, she gets to go out every night
  1724. and do whatever fuck she wants.
  1725.  
  1726. 380
  1727. 00:25:19,954 --> 00:25:21,707
  1728. It drives me fricking insane.
  1729.  
  1730. 381
  1731. 00:25:23,503 --> 00:25:24,462
  1732. [Zack sighs]
  1733.  
  1734. 382
  1735. 00:25:25,715 --> 00:25:26,842
  1736. [baby cooing]
  1737.  
  1738. 383
  1739. 00:25:50,932 --> 00:25:53,395
  1740. [Keire] My-- My friend, like, messaged me,
  1741. he was like, "Hey,
  1742.  
  1743. 384
  1744. 00:25:53,688 --> 00:25:57,028
  1745. I can get you a job tomorrow,
  1746. like, if you wanted." And I was like,
  1747.  
  1748. 385
  1749. 00:25:57,194 --> 00:26:01,453
  1750. "Yeah." And-- but he's like, "But just
  1751. to warn you, it's really hard work."
  1752.  
  1753. 386
  1754. 00:26:06,463 --> 00:26:08,425
  1755. I don't like telling people
  1756. that I'm a dishwasher,
  1757.  
  1758. 387
  1759. 00:26:08,885 --> 00:26:13,435
  1760. but then again I don't really care, 'cause
  1761. it's like, how I make money. [laughing]
  1762.  
  1763. 388
  1764. 00:26:15,022 --> 00:26:17,193
  1765. It's like definitely my first real job.
  1766.  
  1767. 389
  1768. 00:26:19,238 --> 00:26:21,619
  1769. 'Cause I just don't want to, like, work
  1770.  
  1771. 390
  1772. 00:26:21,869 --> 00:26:25,292
  1773. some, like job I hate
  1774. for the rest of my life.
  1775.  
  1776. 391
  1777. 00:26:27,380 --> 00:26:28,841
  1778. [machinery whirring]
  1779.  
  1780. 392
  1781. 00:26:33,559 --> 00:26:37,274
  1782. The Main Street Skatepark,
  1783. aka the park set.
  1784.  
  1785. 393
  1786. 00:26:38,360 --> 00:26:40,406
  1787. [man] Main Street Skatepark
  1788. was a skatepark
  1789.  
  1790. 394
  1791. 00:26:40,489 --> 00:26:43,161
  1792. I had started with a guy that'd run a gym
  1793.  
  1794. 395
  1795. 00:26:43,245 --> 00:26:46,292
  1796. for a long time and he was looking
  1797. for an extra source of income
  1798.  
  1799. 396
  1800. 00:26:46,544 --> 00:26:48,004
  1801. -during the winter months.
  1802. -[men laughing]
  1803.  
  1804. 397
  1805. 00:26:48,923 --> 00:26:52,973
  1806. [man] You know, I had told him, I have
  1807. all this wood, we could build a skatepark.
  1808.  
  1809. 398
  1810. 00:26:54,350 --> 00:26:57,314
  1811. I'm calling it the Keire box right now
  1812. 'cause it's really weird-shaped and long.
  1813.  
  1814. 399
  1815. 00:26:57,398 --> 00:26:58,358
  1816. Crazy.
  1817.  
  1818. 400
  1819. 00:26:58,776 --> 00:27:00,947
  1820. Dude, what the fuck?
  1821.  
  1822. 401
  1823. 00:27:01,364 --> 00:27:03,076
  1824. That's how Keire
  1825. just walks around, like...
  1826.  
  1827. 402
  1828. 00:27:03,953 --> 00:27:07,293
  1829. Just lanking, like, your arms
  1830. are six feet and funny all the time.
  1831.  
  1832. 403
  1833. 00:27:08,713 --> 00:27:10,215
  1834. We have two-by-fours...
  1835.  
  1836. 404
  1837. 00:27:11,635 --> 00:27:12,971
  1838. OK.
  1839.  
  1840. 405
  1841. 00:27:19,902 --> 00:27:20,779
  1842. Boom.
  1843.  
  1844. 406
  1845. 00:27:23,993 --> 00:27:25,454
  1846. One and two...
  1847.  
  1848. 407
  1849. 00:27:26,749 --> 00:27:28,376
  1850. [Zack] My father was a carpenter.
  1851.  
  1852. 408
  1853. 00:27:28,460 --> 00:27:31,800
  1854. I learned a lot from him
  1855. and a lot from my family.
  1856.  
  1857. 409
  1858. 00:27:33,721 --> 00:27:39,315
  1859. In the 80's, my father started a skatepark
  1860. in my grandmother's roller rink.
  1861.  
  1862. 410
  1863. 00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:43,866
  1864. And, uh, they managed
  1865. the only indoor skatepark in the area
  1866.  
  1867. 411
  1868. 00:27:43,950 --> 00:27:46,079
  1869. for eight years or something like that.
  1870.  
  1871. 412
  1872. 00:27:51,172 --> 00:27:54,345
  1873. I was, kind of raised to, you know,
  1874. like, "Do what you wanna do."
  1875.  
  1876. 413
  1877. 00:27:54,846 --> 00:27:58,270
  1878. And then, somewhere along the line,
  1879. he just, like, flipped the switch,
  1880.  
  1881. 414
  1882. 00:27:58,353 --> 00:28:00,858
  1883. like, wanted to become,
  1884. like, conservative American.
  1885.  
  1886. 415
  1887. 00:28:01,442 --> 00:28:04,323
  1888. All of a sudden, there were
  1889. all these rules and expectations.
  1890.  
  1891. 416
  1892. 00:28:05,577 --> 00:28:11,379
  1893. They were, like, pushing me into this mold
  1894. of someone they thought was a good person.
  1895.  
  1896. 417
  1897. 00:28:13,133 --> 00:28:15,429
  1898. And I'm like, "Fuck that."
  1899. Like, I remember one of... you know,
  1900.  
  1901. 418
  1902. 00:28:15,513 --> 00:28:17,726
  1903. when I was a kid, like,
  1904. we've fucking sung punk music
  1905.  
  1906. 419
  1907. 00:28:17,809 --> 00:28:20,523
  1908. and fucking smoking joints
  1909. and, like, you know, like, fuck that.
  1910.  
  1911. 420
  1912. 00:28:36,054 --> 00:28:39,226
  1913. [Zack] All right, fine. I'll man-- I'll find
  1914. a babysitter then and then fuck you.
  1915.  
  1916. 421
  1917. 00:28:39,310 --> 00:28:40,563
  1918. I guess I'll talk to you later.
  1919.  
  1920. 422
  1921. 00:28:40,647 --> 00:28:43,276
  1922. First of all, you're supposed to have
  1923. until six p. m., so, I get my Saturday--
  1924.  
  1925. 423
  1926. 00:28:43,360 --> 00:28:44,696
  1927. You knew since Monday
  1928.  
  1929. 424
  1930. 00:28:44,780 --> 00:28:46,575
  1931. -that I had plans for that.
  1932. -Yo, it's that you shouldn't have
  1933.  
  1934. 425
  1935. 00:28:46,659 --> 00:28:49,706
  1936. fucking made plans for a Saturday
  1937. because this is supposed to be my day.
  1938.  
  1939. 426
  1940. 00:28:50,248 --> 00:28:52,712
  1941. -So, you... you get days off...
  1942. -I never get a day to myself.
  1943.  
  1944. 427
  1945. 00:28:52,796 --> 00:28:54,131
  1946. -...all the time...
  1947. -No, I don't.
  1948.  
  1949. 428
  1950. 00:28:54,215 --> 00:28:55,968
  1951. -I only get two days off a week.
  1952. -When do I ever get a day to myself?
  1953.  
  1954. 429
  1955. 00:28:56,052 --> 00:28:59,726
  1956. -This is supposed to be my day, today.
  1957. -OK, bye, Nina.
  1958.  
  1959. 430
  1960. 00:29:01,354 --> 00:29:02,439
  1961. [Zack sighs]
  1962.  
  1963. 431
  1964. 00:29:05,278 --> 00:29:06,615
  1965. Ain't that just the way.
  1966.  
  1967. 432
  1968. 00:29:08,326 --> 00:29:10,998
  1969. [Bing] Do you and Nina ever, like,
  1970. just tried talking it out?
  1971.  
  1972. 433
  1973. 00:29:15,006 --> 00:29:16,092
  1974. Successfully?
  1975.  
  1976. 434
  1977. 00:29:17,136 --> 00:29:18,012
  1978. Nope.
  1979.  
  1980. 435
  1981. 00:29:25,570 --> 00:29:27,574
  1982. -She's just so excited.
  1983. -I know.
  1984.  
  1985. 436
  1986. 00:29:28,576 --> 00:29:32,124
  1987. He's had a good day, we're just
  1988. playing outside and doing fun stuff, huh?
  1989.  
  1990. 437
  1991. 00:29:32,207 --> 00:29:33,501
  1992. We have a fire going.
  1993.  
  1994. 438
  1995. 00:29:33,669 --> 00:29:35,255
  1996. Oh, yeah. You wanna put some boards on it?
  1997.  
  1998. 439
  1999. 00:29:35,338 --> 00:29:36,800
  2000. -Yeah.
  2001. -OK. I'll hold the baby,
  2002.  
  2003. 440
  2004. 00:29:36,884 --> 00:29:38,011
  2005. you put some boards on there.
  2006.  
  2007. 441
  2008. 00:29:40,933 --> 00:29:42,937
  2009. [Nina] Me and Zack just fought a lot.
  2010.  
  2011. 442
  2012. 00:29:43,021 --> 00:29:47,029
  2013. Eventually, I just had to leave,
  2014. I'm like, "I can't do this anymore."
  2015.  
  2016. 443
  2017. 00:29:48,364 --> 00:29:49,325
  2018. Look at Mama.
  2019.  
  2020. 444
  2021. 00:29:49,618 --> 00:29:51,329
  2022. [Nina] Especially being a mom,
  2023.  
  2024. 445
  2025. 00:29:51,412 --> 00:29:54,084
  2026. you don't want to see your kid
  2027. in an environment like that.
  2028.  
  2029. 446
  2030. 00:29:55,420 --> 00:29:57,216
  2031. -That should be good, right.
  2032. -Yup.
  2033.  
  2034. 447
  2035. 00:29:57,759 --> 00:29:59,513
  2036. [Nina] I don't really have anywhere to go.
  2037.  
  2038. 448
  2039. 00:29:59,596 --> 00:30:02,142
  2040. And my aunt and uncle
  2041. just wound up being, like,
  2042.  
  2043. 449
  2044. 00:30:02,226 --> 00:30:03,854
  2045. "Hey, we want to help you."
  2046.  
  2047. 450
  2048. 00:30:05,315 --> 00:30:06,527
  2049. -Down there?
  2050. -Yeah.
  2051.  
  2052. 451
  2053. 00:30:07,194 --> 00:30:10,325
  2054. [Nina] In a perfect world,
  2055. it means, I could still be together.
  2056.  
  2057. 452
  2058. 00:30:11,912 --> 00:30:14,668
  2059. But I don't know.
  2060. Like I wanted to work out with him.
  2061.  
  2062. 453
  2063. 00:30:15,210 --> 00:30:16,588
  2064. He just doesn't get it.
  2065.  
  2066. 454
  2067. 00:30:23,686 --> 00:30:26,107
  2068. [Bing] I feel, like, a lot
  2069. of our parents are not together.
  2070.  
  2071. 455
  2072. 00:30:26,567 --> 00:30:27,694
  2073. Were your parents divorced?
  2074.  
  2075. 456
  2076. 00:30:32,202 --> 00:30:34,498
  2077. [Roberta] Well, he stayed with his dad,
  2078.  
  2079. 457
  2080. 00:30:34,666 --> 00:30:37,379
  2081. because, he told me,
  2082. he could raise him better
  2083.  
  2084. 458
  2085. 00:30:37,881 --> 00:30:40,636
  2086. because he could teach him things
  2087. that I couldn't.
  2088.  
  2089. 459
  2090. 00:30:41,429 --> 00:30:42,472
  2091. [straining]
  2092.  
  2093. 460
  2094. 00:30:43,726 --> 00:30:45,897
  2095. I really hope
  2096. that I don't get back in there
  2097.  
  2098. 461
  2099. 00:30:45,980 --> 00:30:48,276
  2100. and there'd be,
  2101. like, the same amount of boxes.
  2102.  
  2103. 462
  2104. 00:30:49,320 --> 00:30:50,196
  2105. [gasping]
  2106.  
  2107. 463
  2108. 00:30:51,658 --> 00:30:53,537
  2109. [Keire] You know,
  2110. like, I live with my dad,
  2111.  
  2112. 464
  2113. 00:30:54,163 --> 00:30:57,461
  2114. but he kept trying to make me work
  2115. like every single weekend.
  2116.  
  2117. 465
  2118. 00:30:58,463 --> 00:31:01,511
  2119. You know, I was like, "Come on, like,
  2120. I got to skate. I got to skate."
  2121.  
  2122. 466
  2123. 00:31:01,595 --> 00:31:04,141
  2124. Fuck, then we got into, like a fight.
  2125.  
  2126. 467
  2127. 00:31:05,393 --> 00:31:07,481
  2128. He was, like, I'm your dad,
  2129. like you're going to work,
  2130.  
  2131. 468
  2132. 00:31:07,607 --> 00:31:09,276
  2133. and I was just, like, "No."
  2134.  
  2135. 469
  2136. 00:31:09,903 --> 00:31:11,322
  2137. Then I tried to punch him.
  2138.  
  2139. 470
  2140. 00:31:14,495 --> 00:31:17,209
  2141. And then I moved out, like, the next day.
  2142.  
  2143. 471
  2144. 00:31:21,677 --> 00:31:25,643
  2145. Actually, one of the last things
  2146. I said to my dad was that, "I hate you."
  2147.  
  2148. 472
  2149. 00:31:28,774 --> 00:31:31,487
  2150. I was just so fucking angry,
  2151. 'cause he just kicked my ass.
  2152.  
  2153. 473
  2154. 00:31:36,790 --> 00:31:37,917
  2155. [Bing] Did you see
  2156. any violence in your household
  2157.  
  2158. 474
  2159. 00:31:38,001 --> 00:31:39,128
  2160. when you were growing up?
  2161.  
  2162. 475
  2163. 00:31:40,506 --> 00:31:41,633
  2164. I don't know, man. It's...
  2165.  
  2166. 476
  2167. 00:31:41,717 --> 00:31:43,136
  2168. That's a tough question, it's hard--
  2169.  
  2170. 477
  2171. 00:31:43,219 --> 00:31:45,641
  2172. It depends on
  2173. what you determine as violent.
  2174.  
  2175. 478
  2176. 00:31:48,104 --> 00:31:50,025
  2177. Like, when I was a kid,
  2178. if I was fucking up...
  2179.  
  2180. 479
  2181. 00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:51,987
  2182. [baby cooing]
  2183.  
  2184. 480
  2185. 00:31:52,070 --> 00:31:56,454
  2186. ...I got my ass whooped.
  2187. I feel like everyone does. I mean...
  2188.  
  2189. 481
  2190. 00:31:59,878 --> 00:32:01,757
  2191. Some people got it worse
  2192. than other people.
  2193.  
  2194. 482
  2195. 00:32:39,331 --> 00:32:40,291
  2196. [sighs]
  2197.  
  2198. 483
  2199. 00:32:50,228 --> 00:32:51,105
  2200. Yeah.
  2201.  
  2202. 484
  2203. 00:32:54,403 --> 00:32:56,867
  2204. This is my dad's closet, specifically,
  2205.  
  2206. 485
  2207. 00:32:57,284 --> 00:33:00,123
  2208. and he'd hide everything right here.
  2209.  
  2210. 486
  2211. 00:33:00,916 --> 00:33:06,553
  2212. Like, my PlayStation controllers,
  2213. entire computers, toys,
  2214.  
  2215. 487
  2216. 00:33:07,053 --> 00:33:11,771
  2217. and then his vintage porn was, like,
  2218. in the corner right there in-- in a stack.
  2219.  
  2220. 488
  2221. 00:33:14,026 --> 00:33:15,403
  2222. Along with, like...
  2223.  
  2224. 489
  2225. 00:33:16,155 --> 00:33:19,537
  2226. several firearms that were on the floor.
  2227.  
  2228. 490
  2229. 00:33:23,252 --> 00:33:26,509
  2230. I used to judge my relationship
  2231. with my father based on, like,
  2232.  
  2233. 491
  2234. 00:33:26,968 --> 00:33:28,680
  2235. a day-to-day basis on...
  2236.  
  2237. 492
  2238. 00:33:28,931 --> 00:33:32,187
  2239. how many things I've done to piss him off
  2240. in that given day.
  2241.  
  2242. 493
  2243. 00:33:32,688 --> 00:33:36,237
  2244. And this day that I was here
  2245. playing on the computer,
  2246.  
  2247. 494
  2248. 00:33:36,613 --> 00:33:39,744
  2249. felt like a good day,
  2250. that I hadn't done anything wrong,
  2251.  
  2252. 495
  2253. 00:33:40,161 --> 00:33:42,792
  2254. it all went without a hitch,
  2255. we hadn't talked very much,
  2256.  
  2257. 496
  2258. 00:33:42,875 --> 00:33:45,088
  2259. there wasn't much opportunity
  2260. for me to do anything bad,
  2261.  
  2262. 497
  2263. 00:33:46,131 --> 00:33:47,425
  2264. but then he just comes in...
  2265.  
  2266. 498
  2267. 00:33:48,261 --> 00:33:50,599
  2268. looks at me, I turn up and look at him...
  2269.  
  2270. 499
  2271. 00:33:52,102 --> 00:33:54,941
  2272. and he just says that,
  2273. I "look fucking stupid."
  2274.  
  2275. 500
  2276. 00:33:55,901 --> 00:33:58,030
  2277. And he walks out, and I thought
  2278. that was the end of it
  2279.  
  2280. 501
  2281. 00:33:58,114 --> 00:34:00,118
  2282. I was like,
  2283. "Oh, well, OK, that's not too bad"
  2284.  
  2285. 502
  2286. 00:34:00,368 --> 00:34:03,709
  2287. but then he comes back in
  2288. with a pair of, like meat scissors
  2289.  
  2290. 503
  2291. 00:34:04,084 --> 00:34:07,257
  2292. and he just starts,
  2293. he just like grabs my head
  2294.  
  2295. 504
  2296. 00:34:07,424 --> 00:34:09,136
  2297. and starts hacking my hair off.
  2298.  
  2299. 505
  2300. 00:34:20,993 --> 00:34:23,039
  2301. Always shut the doors because...
  2302.  
  2303. 506
  2304. 00:34:24,041 --> 00:34:27,339
  2305. you know, it keeps the-- [clears throat]
  2306. keeps the heat in...
  2307.  
  2308. 507
  2309. 00:34:29,635 --> 00:34:32,306
  2310. That was another thing worth punishing.
  2311.  
  2312. 508
  2313. 00:34:37,610 --> 00:34:38,485
  2314. [Bing] Where's your room?
  2315.  
  2316. 509
  2317. 00:34:39,029 --> 00:34:41,743
  2318. Oh, my room? That's right.
  2319. This used to be my brother's room.
  2320.  
  2321. 510
  2322. 00:34:46,208 --> 00:34:47,210
  2323. Uh, that's true.
  2324.  
  2325. 511
  2326. 00:34:47,291 --> 00:34:49,299
  2327. Um, yeah.
  2328.  
  2329. 512
  2330. 00:34:50,552 --> 00:34:51,428
  2331. [sighs]
  2332.  
  2333. 513
  2334. 00:34:52,097 --> 00:34:54,309
  2335. I remember hearing beating...
  2336.  
  2337. 514
  2338. 00:34:54,976 --> 00:34:58,067
  2339. and, like screaming
  2340. coming from your room, and it was like...
  2341.  
  2342. 515
  2343. 00:35:00,698 --> 00:35:06,417
  2344. unnerving screams of, like,
  2345. anguish almost, and I... it was like...
  2346.  
  2347. 516
  2348. 00:35:10,801 --> 00:35:15,769
  2349. really, really unnerving.
  2350. It was almost scaring.
  2351.  
  2352. 517
  2353. 00:35:22,323 --> 00:35:23,284
  2354. [sighs]
  2355.  
  2356. 518
  2357. 00:35:33,053 --> 00:35:33,930
  2358. Mom?
  2359.  
  2360. 519
  2361. 00:35:37,287 --> 00:35:39,316
  2362. Yeah, I have to wash my clothes
  2363. and my blankets.
  2364.  
  2365. 520
  2366. 00:35:41,886 --> 00:35:44,366
  2367. And my-- my blanket. I just need two.
  2368.  
  2369. 521
  2370. 00:35:44,408 --> 00:35:45,411
  2371. [sniffles]
  2372.  
  2373. 522
  2374. 00:35:47,408 --> 00:35:48,918
  2375. OK.
  2376.  
  2377. 523
  2378. 00:35:48,960 --> 00:35:50,631
  2379. [sniffles] Thank you
  2380.  
  2381. 524
  2382. 00:35:50,714 --> 00:35:52,258
  2383. [man] Use it for one. I need two hours.
  2384.  
  2385. 525
  2386. 00:35:52,342 --> 00:35:54,346
  2387. -OK. Thank you.
  2388. -[man] All right.
  2389.  
  2390. 526
  2391. 00:35:56,183 --> 00:36:00,734
  2392. [Keire] My mom has this new boyfriend,
  2393. and I don't really like him.
  2394.  
  2395. 527
  2396. 00:36:05,828 --> 00:36:09,084
  2397. [Bing] So, do you have
  2398. a new man in your life?
  2399.  
  2400. 528
  2401. 00:36:10,169 --> 00:36:11,965
  2402. -A new man in my life?
  2403. -Yeah.
  2404.  
  2405. 529
  2406. 00:36:13,008 --> 00:36:15,806
  2407. Hey, ain't this sort of personal there?
  2408.  
  2409. 530
  2410. 00:36:25,408 --> 00:36:26,368
  2411. Oh...
  2412.  
  2413. 531
  2414. 00:36:29,165 --> 00:36:30,167
  2415. Yeah?
  2416.  
  2417. 532
  2418. 00:36:33,173 --> 00:36:34,635
  2419. I'll be back in a minute.
  2420.  
  2421. 533
  2422. 00:36:39,394 --> 00:36:43,820
  2423. ♪ Happy birthday, dear Elliot... ♪
  2424.  
  2425. 534
  2426. 00:36:44,195 --> 00:36:49,039
  2427. ♪ Happy birthday to you... ♪
  2428.  
  2429. 535
  2430. 00:36:49,205 --> 00:36:50,918
  2431. [crowd cheering]
  2432.  
  2433. 536
  2434. 00:36:51,586 --> 00:36:53,506
  2435. [woman] He said, "What the heck?"
  2436.  
  2437. 537
  2438. 00:36:55,761 --> 00:36:56,763
  2439. [woman] Zack, look up.
  2440.  
  2441. 538
  2442. 00:36:57,598 --> 00:36:59,602
  2443. [indistinct chatter]
  2444.  
  2445. 539
  2446. 00:37:01,063 --> 00:37:03,359
  2447. Oh, hell, yeah.
  2448. It's all up in there, Zack.
  2449.  
  2450. 540
  2451. 00:37:04,987 --> 00:37:07,910
  2452. [Nina] My family, when I grew up,
  2453. we were all were very distant.
  2454.  
  2455. 541
  2456. 00:37:09,622 --> 00:37:13,797
  2457. It was very chaotic and I'd just stay
  2458. in my room the whole time.
  2459.  
  2460. 542
  2461. 00:37:15,842 --> 00:37:21,144
  2462. I think, 'cause of the way that I grew up,
  2463. like I really desperately craved love.
  2464.  
  2465. 543
  2466. 00:37:28,952 --> 00:37:31,331
  2467. [Zack] I think my dad had me
  2468. when he was 21
  2469.  
  2470. 544
  2471. 00:37:32,710 --> 00:37:35,882
  2472. and my mom left
  2473. when I was, like two or something.
  2474.  
  2475. 545
  2476. 00:37:37,928 --> 00:37:42,228
  2477. And so, I think, I was always looking
  2478. for something from my dad
  2479.  
  2480. 546
  2481. 00:37:42,311 --> 00:37:43,732
  2482. that I didn't get.
  2483.  
  2484. 547
  2485. 00:37:44,315 --> 00:37:46,571
  2486. Like, maybe something
  2487. I was supposed to get from my mom.
  2488.  
  2489. 548
  2490. 00:37:47,113 --> 00:37:49,952
  2491. I know. It's OK, it's OK.
  2492. Elliot, rip that off.
  2493.  
  2494. 549
  2495. 00:37:51,246 --> 00:37:53,960
  2496. [crowd cheering]
  2497.  
  2498. 550
  2499. 00:37:54,879 --> 00:37:55,964
  2500. [man whistling]
  2501.  
  2502. 551
  2503. 00:37:56,048 --> 00:37:57,216
  2504. [woman] All right!
  2505.  
  2506. 552
  2507. 00:38:01,349 --> 00:38:02,310
  2508. [Zack] Hi, baby.
  2509.  
  2510. 553
  2511. 00:38:04,272 --> 00:38:06,026
  2512. I love you. Give me a hug.
  2513.  
  2514. 554
  2515. 00:38:09,700 --> 00:38:12,038
  2516. -Love you, Nina.
  2517. -I was telling Bing about how you went
  2518.  
  2519. 555
  2520. 00:38:12,121 --> 00:38:14,000
  2521. on a date with Katie
  2522. and I almost killed her.
  2523.  
  2524. 556
  2525. 00:38:14,835 --> 00:38:16,171
  2526. -Yeah.
  2527. -It was bad.
  2528.  
  2529. 557
  2530. 00:38:16,296 --> 00:38:18,425
  2531. You know, like,
  2532. I'd usually don't get like that.
  2533.  
  2534. 558
  2535. 00:38:18,718 --> 00:38:23,310
  2536. She showed up at 11 o'clock at night
  2537. with this other girl, ready to fight.
  2538.  
  2539. 559
  2540. 00:38:24,897 --> 00:38:27,945
  2541. See this, you see what I'm dealing with
  2542. all the time. This little bitch.
  2543.  
  2544. 560
  2545. 00:38:30,324 --> 00:38:32,328
  2546. [Zack] Oh! Oh, yeah. Real slick there.
  2547.  
  2548. 561
  2549. 00:38:37,673 --> 00:38:39,844
  2550. -[man screaming] Fuck!
  2551. -[crowd cheering]
  2552.  
  2553. 562
  2554. 00:38:41,973 --> 00:38:43,810
  2555. -God bless you.
  2556. -All right, man.
  2557.  
  2558. 563
  2559. 00:38:45,187 --> 00:38:46,064
  2560. Do this.
  2561.  
  2562. 564
  2563. 00:38:49,154 --> 00:38:50,156
  2564. [man] Oh!
  2565.  
  2566. 565
  2567. 00:38:50,740 --> 00:38:52,160
  2568. -Fuck, yeah!
  2569. -That trick made me wanna
  2570.  
  2571. 566
  2572. 00:38:52,243 --> 00:38:54,372
  2573. touch my body, Keire. I'm not gonna lie.
  2574.  
  2575. 567
  2576. 00:38:54,455 --> 00:38:56,544
  2577. Like, you wanna take a shower. [laughing]
  2578.  
  2579. 568
  2580. 00:38:57,796 --> 00:38:59,800
  2581. -Oh, my God.
  2582. -Holy fuck.
  2583.  
  2584. 569
  2585. 00:39:00,342 --> 00:39:02,848
  2586. -That looks fucked up.
  2587. -That was crazy.
  2588.  
  2589. 570
  2590. 00:39:03,182 --> 00:39:06,856
  2591. [Keire] Like, this is the result of,
  2592. all those times I've ran away from home
  2593.  
  2594. 571
  2595. 00:39:06,939 --> 00:39:07,858
  2596. to the skate park.
  2597.  
  2598. 572
  2599. 00:39:08,860 --> 00:39:12,241
  2600. Like, I'd love for my dad to see
  2601. how much progress I've made
  2602.  
  2603. 573
  2604. 00:39:12,325 --> 00:39:14,580
  2605. since I was a little shithead
  2606. trying to escape it.
  2607.  
  2608. 574
  2609. 00:39:15,164 --> 00:39:16,667
  2610. Uh, it would bother me.
  2611.  
  2612. 575
  2613. 00:39:17,126 --> 00:39:18,880
  2614. [Keire] Maybe,
  2615. he'd just be like, "Oh, damn,
  2616.  
  2617. 576
  2618. 00:39:18,963 --> 00:39:21,384
  2619. you weren't just wasting
  2620. your-- your life.
  2621.  
  2622. 577
  2623. 00:39:24,558 --> 00:39:27,021
  2624. [Zack] I know
  2625. their relationship's definitely strained,
  2626.  
  2627. 578
  2628. 00:39:27,898 --> 00:39:30,904
  2629. and I don't think Keire really realized
  2630. how much his dad meant to him
  2631.  
  2632. 579
  2633. 00:39:30,987 --> 00:39:32,991
  2634. until his dad actually did pass away.
  2635.  
  2636. 580
  2637. 00:39:39,128 --> 00:39:40,715
  2638. [Keire] The day that my dad died,
  2639.  
  2640. 581
  2641. 00:39:41,383 --> 00:39:45,015
  2642. uh, I just got out of school,
  2643. it was, like a Friday,
  2644.  
  2645. 582
  2646. 00:39:45,517 --> 00:39:49,023
  2647. and... I just got off the bus...
  2648.  
  2649. 583
  2650. 00:39:49,775 --> 00:39:51,529
  2651. My mom was just, like freaking out,
  2652.  
  2653. 584
  2654. 00:39:51,612 --> 00:39:53,616
  2655. as soon as I got home,
  2656. she was, like, freaking out.
  2657.  
  2658. 585
  2659. 00:39:54,492 --> 00:39:57,833
  2660. And she was like, "He's gone, he's gone."
  2661. And I didn't wanna, like, believe it
  2662.  
  2663. 586
  2664. 00:39:57,916 --> 00:40:00,337
  2665. so, I was all mad at her
  2666. for, like, saying that.
  2667.  
  2668. 587
  2669. 00:40:00,421 --> 00:40:03,302
  2670. I was like, "Dad's strong, he's not dead,
  2671. I was like, whatever."
  2672.  
  2673. 588
  2674. 00:40:04,345 --> 00:40:07,686
  2675. And... they, like brought him out
  2676. on that stretcher...
  2677.  
  2678. 589
  2679. 00:40:07,769 --> 00:40:11,067
  2680. and I was just, like, "Holy fuck!" Like...
  2681.  
  2682. 590
  2683. 00:40:11,652 --> 00:40:13,614
  2684. He actually looks
  2685. kind of dead right there.
  2686.  
  2687. 591
  2688. 00:40:14,324 --> 00:40:18,373
  2689. And I was just like, "Fuck," and...
  2690. I don't know, it's just...
  2691.  
  2692. 592
  2693. 00:40:21,589 --> 00:40:22,758
  2694. I don't know. Uh...
  2695.  
  2696. 593
  2697. 00:40:24,260 --> 00:40:25,722
  2698. It's-- It's weird, it's just...
  2699.  
  2700. 594
  2701. 00:40:26,891 --> 00:40:29,855
  2702. It's just really difficult to...
  2703. for me to explain right now.
  2704.  
  2705. 595
  2706. 00:40:47,933 --> 00:40:49,937
  2707. -Hey.
  2708. -Well, hey, there, bud.
  2709.  
  2710. 596
  2711. 00:40:53,569 --> 00:40:55,573
  2712. [indistinct chatter]
  2713.  
  2714. 597
  2715. 00:40:56,449 --> 00:40:58,120
  2716. Ready? Come play with Daddy.
  2717.  
  2718. 598
  2719. 00:41:00,625 --> 00:41:02,921
  2720. Buddy, like this. Just one finger.
  2721.  
  2722. 599
  2723. 00:41:03,798 --> 00:41:04,716
  2724. Just one.
  2725.  
  2726. 600
  2727. 00:41:23,629 --> 00:41:24,882
  2728. [Zack] Hold him like this real fast.
  2729.  
  2730. 601
  2731. 00:41:24,965 --> 00:41:26,594
  2732. All right. I'll hold him
  2733. for a second just do your thing.
  2734.  
  2735. 602
  2736. 00:41:26,677 --> 00:41:28,054
  2737. Come on. Yeah, come here.
  2738.  
  2739. 603
  2740. 00:41:38,033 --> 00:41:39,243
  2741. Yeah!
  2742.  
  2743. 604
  2744. 00:41:40,622 --> 00:41:42,208
  2745. We're gonna make it to the poles.
  2746.  
  2747. 605
  2748. 00:41:42,876 --> 00:41:45,088
  2749. We're gonna make it! Whoo!
  2750.  
  2751. 606
  2752. 00:42:06,507 --> 00:42:09,470
  2753. [Bing] Uh, what--
  2754. what have you guys been up to?
  2755.  
  2756. 607
  2757. 00:42:10,765 --> 00:42:14,940
  2758. [Zack] Uh... lately we've been
  2759. adjusting to, uh...
  2760.  
  2761. 608
  2762. 00:42:15,900 --> 00:42:19,448
  2763. I don't know. Like, I-- I asked
  2764. if I can see my son, like every day
  2765.  
  2766. 609
  2767. 00:42:19,533 --> 00:42:21,870
  2768. and I only get to see him, like,
  2769. three times a week.
  2770.  
  2771. 610
  2772. 00:42:21,954 --> 00:42:23,916
  2773. It's really been bugging me out,
  2774. and she's been like...
  2775.  
  2776. 611
  2777. 00:42:24,793 --> 00:42:26,505
  2778. She's talking lot of shit, you know,
  2779.  
  2780. 612
  2781. 00:42:26,589 --> 00:42:29,761
  2782. telling me, you're piece of shit
  2783. and all the stuff, and...
  2784.  
  2785. 613
  2786. 00:42:30,638 --> 00:42:32,767
  2787. -It-- It got out of control, man...
  2788. -So...
  2789.  
  2790. 614
  2791. 00:42:32,851 --> 00:42:35,355
  2792. -I don't know.
  2793. -This is the video.
  2794.  
  2795. 615
  2796. 00:42:36,984 --> 00:42:39,488
  2797. [Nina screaming]
  2798.  
  2799. 616
  2800. 00:42:42,537 --> 00:42:45,083
  2801. 'Cause I hate you
  2802. and I'll fucking stab you.
  2803.  
  2804. 617
  2805. 00:42:45,292 --> 00:42:47,631
  2806. I will fucking stab you
  2807. with the fucking knife, Zack.
  2808.  
  2809. 618
  2810. 00:42:47,797 --> 00:42:51,597
  2811. -Fucking die! Die! Die!
  2812. -[Zack] Knock it off!
  2813.  
  2814. 619
  2815. 00:42:52,306 --> 00:42:55,354
  2816. -This is so fucking??
  2817. -[Nina] Get off of me!
  2818.  
  2819. 620
  2820. 00:42:55,730 --> 00:42:56,940
  2821. [Zack] Then stop it!
  2822.  
  2823. 621
  2824. 00:42:57,483 --> 00:42:59,821
  2825. -[Nina] Die! Die!
  2826. -[Zack] Not gonna stop?
  2827.  
  2828. 622
  2829. 00:43:00,155 --> 00:43:03,829
  2830. [Nina] You're doing this... it's like
  2831. you want me to fucking kill you.
  2832.  
  2833. 623
  2834. 00:43:05,374 --> 00:43:07,211
  2835. 'Cause you're asking for it!
  2836.  
  2837. 624
  2838. 00:43:09,591 --> 00:43:12,514
  2839. [Bing] Keire showed me some recordings
  2840. of you and Zack fighting.
  2841.  
  2842. 625
  2843. 00:43:12,931 --> 00:43:14,141
  2844. I bet, he did.
  2845.  
  2846. 626
  2847. 00:43:14,601 --> 00:43:17,481
  2848. [Bing] What--
  2849. What were those fights about?
  2850.  
  2851. 627
  2852. 00:43:17,565 --> 00:43:19,485
  2853. What were they like?
  2854.  
  2855. 628
  2856. 00:43:20,320 --> 00:43:21,406
  2857. Well...
  2858.  
  2859. 629
  2860. 00:43:22,157 --> 00:43:24,286
  2861. If he showed you the one where,
  2862. I'm like, Zack,
  2863.  
  2864. 630
  2865. 00:43:24,370 --> 00:43:26,124
  2866. -I'm gonna fucking kill you right now.
  2867. -Yeah.
  2868.  
  2869. 631
  2870. 00:43:26,834 --> 00:43:30,424
  2871. He beat my ass 10 minutes
  2872. before Keire took that video
  2873.  
  2874. 632
  2875. 00:43:30,508 --> 00:43:32,762
  2876. and he didn't decide to record that part.
  2877.  
  2878. 633
  2879. 00:43:33,597 --> 00:43:36,269
  2880. You know, I've got a scar
  2881. going down my eyebrow.
  2882.  
  2883. 634
  2884. 00:43:36,394 --> 00:43:40,945
  2885. I've got... He broke his coffee tables
  2886. with my body, like...
  2887.  
  2888. 635
  2889. 00:43:42,574 --> 00:43:44,953
  2890. Obviously, I'm not in the state of mind,
  2891.  
  2892. 636
  2893. 00:43:45,036 --> 00:43:47,792
  2894. like, I'm not... I'm going crazy
  2895. at this point
  2896.  
  2897. 637
  2898. 00:43:47,876 --> 00:43:50,673
  2899. because I'm a little girl,
  2900. you know, what I mean?
  2901.  
  2902. 638
  2903. 00:43:51,048 --> 00:43:53,386
  2904. And you have wasted Zack...
  2905.  
  2906. 639
  2907. 00:43:54,305 --> 00:43:57,937
  2908. doing all that and then it's like,
  2909. yeah, I'm gonna... yeah, like...
  2910.  
  2911. 640
  2912. 00:43:58,480 --> 00:44:01,235
  2913. of course I'm gonna tell you I'm gonna
  2914. fucking kill you if you-- you know.
  2915.  
  2916. 641
  2917. 00:44:02,154 --> 00:44:03,114
  2918. I don't know.
  2919.  
  2920. 642
  2921. 00:44:03,866 --> 00:44:06,120
  2922. [Bing] I didn't know that?
  2923. Why did he... Why was he hitting?
  2924.  
  2925. 643
  2926. 00:44:06,872 --> 00:44:08,793
  2927. Uh, he gets wasted.
  2928.  
  2929. 644
  2930. 00:44:09,502 --> 00:44:11,548
  2931. He, you know, will start fighting
  2932.  
  2933. 645
  2934. 00:44:11,632 --> 00:44:14,261
  2935. and then he'll take it
  2936. completely out of control and...
  2937.  
  2938. 646
  2939. 00:44:15,973 --> 00:44:20,273
  2940. That, I mean, that's not the first time
  2941. it's happened, either that recording...
  2942.  
  2943. 647
  2944. 00:44:20,650 --> 00:44:24,031
  2945. and I mean, I've been like
  2946. pretty, like, bruised up
  2947.  
  2948. 648
  2949. 00:44:24,114 --> 00:44:27,204
  2950. like, I'd have, like a... From him, like,
  2951. hitting me and like,
  2952.  
  2953. 649
  2954. 00:44:27,287 --> 00:44:31,045
  2955. I'd have, like a huge bruise
  2956. and like, just all over and then...
  2957.  
  2958. 650
  2959. 00:44:31,462 --> 00:44:35,136
  2960. You know, he'd like, see them the next day
  2961. and he, like, wouldn't even say anything
  2962.  
  2963. 651
  2964. 00:44:35,220 --> 00:44:37,182
  2965. like, not even a sorry or...
  2966.  
  2967. 652
  2968. 00:44:38,268 --> 00:44:39,186
  2969. anything like that.
  2970.  
  2971. 653
  2972. 00:44:40,731 --> 00:44:43,361
  2973. We just kind of ignore it
  2974. like it didn't happen.
  2975.  
  2976. 654
  2977. 00:44:47,871 --> 00:44:48,747
  2978. So...
  2979.  
  2980. 655
  2981. 00:45:02,567 --> 00:45:05,363
  2982. In a way, your footage will offset
  2983. with my footage because...
  2984.  
  2985. 656
  2986. 00:45:05,823 --> 00:45:09,706
  2987. this is the only time that I haven't shot
  2988. in the movie, so, it's like it...
  2989.  
  2990. 657
  2991. 00:45:10,123 --> 00:45:13,881
  2992. You know, so, like, even when
  2993. during the interview, when you're, like,
  2994.  
  2995. 658
  2996. 00:45:13,964 --> 00:45:16,427
  2997. shoot me, getting
  2998. my reaction shots, it'll, like...
  2999.  
  3000. 659
  3001. 00:45:17,054 --> 00:45:18,056
  3002. I don't know.
  3003.  
  3004. 660
  3005. 00:45:20,477 --> 00:45:22,941
  3006. We moved to Rockford
  3007. when I was eight or nine.
  3008.  
  3009. 661
  3010. 00:45:23,358 --> 00:45:25,988
  3011. And my mom met my step father...
  3012.  
  3013. 662
  3014. 00:45:26,573 --> 00:45:30,288
  3015. One day when she was working
  3016. at the pizza restaurant, this man came in.
  3017.  
  3018. 663
  3019. 00:45:30,413 --> 00:45:32,835
  3020. He had been a regular,
  3021. he had seen her before.
  3022.  
  3023. 664
  3024. 00:45:33,378 --> 00:45:37,845
  3025. Um, and he started getting to know her
  3026. and then one day he followed her home,
  3027.  
  3028. 665
  3029. 00:45:38,262 --> 00:45:40,935
  3030. found out where we lived and...
  3031.  
  3032. 666
  3033. 00:45:46,112 --> 00:45:47,489
  3034. then he became my step dad.
  3035.  
  3036. 667
  3037. 00:45:52,917 --> 00:45:53,794
  3038. But, um...
  3039.  
  3040. 668
  3041. 00:45:54,671 --> 00:45:59,054
  3042. Uh, you know, I think I was blaming her
  3043. for, sort of abandoning me
  3044.  
  3045. 669
  3046. 00:45:59,138 --> 00:46:00,432
  3047. when I was a kid.
  3048.  
  3049. 670
  3050. 00:46:31,410 --> 00:46:33,414
  3051. [indistinct conversation]
  3052.  
  3053. 671
  3054. 00:46:37,339 --> 00:46:40,679
  3055. Mom, can you, uh, can you clap your hands
  3056. just in front of your face?
  3057.  
  3058. 672
  3059. 00:46:41,640 --> 00:46:42,642
  3060. OK.
  3061.  
  3062. 673
  3063. 00:46:43,727 --> 00:46:44,729
  3064. [Bing chuckles]
  3065.  
  3066. 674
  3067. 00:46:44,813 --> 00:46:47,400
  3068. -What's that for?
  3069. -It's for a sound thing for later.
  3070.  
  3071. 675
  3072. 00:46:47,610 --> 00:46:49,196
  3073. -Oh.
  3074. -Can you see my face OK?
  3075.  
  3076. 676
  3077. 00:46:49,572 --> 00:46:52,870
  3078. -[stammers] No... Now is OK.
  3079. -No? OK.
  3080.  
  3081. 677
  3082. 00:46:52,995 --> 00:46:55,041
  3083. I'll just try it to hold it here for now.
  3084.  
  3085. 678
  3086. 00:46:55,166 --> 00:46:58,674
  3087. Now, [mumbles], I can see your eye.
  3088. [indistinct]
  3089.  
  3090. 679
  3091. 00:46:58,882 --> 00:47:00,970
  3092. I know, it's hard with all the lights.
  3093. I'm sorry.
  3094.  
  3095. 680
  3096. 00:47:01,972 --> 00:47:05,353
  3097. Um, so, I'm curious, uh...
  3098.  
  3099. 681
  3100. 00:47:05,938 --> 00:47:07,942
  3101. -Who is Dennis?
  3102. -[man] Hold on a second.
  3103.  
  3104. 682
  3105. 00:47:08,025 --> 00:47:08,902
  3106. -Oh!
  3107. -[man] I'm sorry.
  3108.  
  3109. 683
  3110. 00:47:10,948 --> 00:47:11,825
  3111. [man] OK.
  3112.  
  3113. 684
  3114. 00:47:12,242 --> 00:47:13,745
  3115. "Who is Dennis?"
  3116.  
  3117. 685
  3118. 00:47:13,912 --> 00:47:15,583
  3119. Why did you ask that?
  3120.  
  3121. 686
  3122. 00:47:15,875 --> 00:47:19,507
  3123. -Uh, because...
  3124. -You know who he is.
  3125.  
  3126. 687
  3127. 00:47:23,139 --> 00:47:25,226
  3128. Well, I don't feel like I know who he is.
  3129.  
  3130. 688
  3131. 00:47:28,775 --> 00:47:32,115
  3132. Did you know that, um...
  3133.  
  3134. 689
  3135. 00:47:33,242 --> 00:47:36,415
  3136. the first time I was ever alone with him,
  3137. that's when he...
  3138.  
  3139. 690
  3140. 00:47:37,334 --> 00:47:38,629
  3141. -grabbed me.
  3142. -You...
  3143.  
  3144. 691
  3145. 00:47:38,921 --> 00:47:40,173
  3146. He did-- Wait, what?
  3147.  
  3148. 692
  3149. 00:47:40,758 --> 00:47:45,601
  3150. The first time I was ever alone with him,
  3151. was the first time he grabbed me.
  3152.  
  3153. 693
  3154. 00:47:45,726 --> 00:47:46,937
  3155. -And hit you?
  3156. -Beat me. Yeah.
  3157.  
  3158. 694
  3159. 00:47:49,274 --> 00:47:52,239
  3160. I mean, how much did you know about
  3161. what was happening?
  3162.  
  3163. 695
  3164. 00:47:52,907 --> 00:47:54,911
  3165. -Because you were always gone working
  3166. -Right, right.
  3167.  
  3168. 696
  3169. 00:47:54,994 --> 00:47:59,378
  3170. Because he retired pretty soon after you,
  3171. you and him married.
  3172.  
  3173. 697
  3174. 00:47:59,545 --> 00:48:01,508
  3175. -Right.
  3176. -So, you weren't home that much.
  3177.  
  3178. 698
  3179. 00:48:01,591 --> 00:48:03,094
  3180. I was just with him.
  3181.  
  3182. 699
  3183. 00:48:03,679 --> 00:48:05,306
  3184. I think...
  3185.  
  3186. 700
  3187. 00:48:07,185 --> 00:48:08,563
  3188. [sighs]
  3189.  
  3190. 701
  3191. 00:48:08,855 --> 00:48:12,237
  3192. I don't-- I don't know
  3193. what else to say now.
  3194.  
  3195. 702
  3196. 00:48:12,613 --> 00:48:17,330
  3197. I wish I can go over, do again,
  3198. do differently, but...
  3199.  
  3200. 703
  3201. 00:48:17,832 --> 00:48:21,088
  3202. I-- I really...
  3203. I don't know what else to say now.
  3204.  
  3205. 704
  3206. 00:48:21,213 --> 00:48:23,510
  3207. It's all past. I-- I...
  3208.  
  3209. 705
  3210. 00:48:24,971 --> 00:48:28,394
  3211. [sighs] I would not.
  3212. I don't know it was that bad.
  3213.  
  3214. 706
  3215. 00:48:28,770 --> 00:48:31,526
  3216. I don't know he's that bad
  3217. especially behind me.
  3218.  
  3219. 707
  3220. 00:48:33,739 --> 00:48:37,162
  3221. I was... [groans]
  3222.  
  3223. 708
  3224. 00:48:38,832 --> 00:48:41,880
  3225. I wish I was stronger and I wasn't.
  3226.  
  3227. 709
  3228. 00:48:42,172 --> 00:48:45,763
  3229. I don't know. I-- I-- I...
  3230.  
  3231. 710
  3232. 00:48:48,685 --> 00:48:50,856
  3233. I don't know what else to say.
  3234.  
  3235. 711
  3236. 00:48:54,279 --> 00:48:55,365
  3237. Well...
  3238.  
  3239. 712
  3240. 00:48:57,035 --> 00:48:58,663
  3241. Did you-- I mean...
  3242.  
  3243. 713
  3244. 00:48:59,540 --> 00:49:01,502
  3245. But didn't he...
  3246.  
  3247. 714
  3248. 00:49:01,795 --> 00:49:05,093
  3249. [stammering] When was the first time
  3250. that he hurt you?
  3251.  
  3252. 715
  3253. 00:49:06,011 --> 00:49:08,809
  3254. I don't know what happened.
  3255. He come to choke me.
  3256.  
  3257. 716
  3258. 00:49:11,564 --> 00:49:13,568
  3259. Yeah, he has, few times.
  3260.  
  3261. 717
  3262. 00:49:31,722 --> 00:49:32,757
  3263. ...and they showed up.
  3264.  
  3265. 718
  3266. 00:49:40,622 --> 00:49:44,421
  3267. -So...
  3268. -But the thing is, I was as I tell you,
  3269.  
  3270. 719
  3271. 00:49:46,133 --> 00:49:47,636
  3272. with him...
  3273.  
  3274. 720
  3275. 00:50:28,425 --> 00:50:30,973
  3276. [female newscaster] The city of Rockford
  3277. is ranked as the number two
  3278.  
  3279. 721
  3280. 00:50:31,098 --> 00:50:33,687
  3281. most dangerous city with a population
  3282. under 200,000 people.
  3283.  
  3284. 722
  3285. 00:50:34,104 --> 00:50:35,857
  3286. [woman #2] Last year,
  3287. the Department of Justice
  3288.  
  3289. 723
  3290. 00:50:35,941 --> 00:50:39,281
  3291. created a 63-page report just for Rockford
  3292.  
  3293. 724
  3294. 00:50:39,364 --> 00:50:41,451
  3295. to help it
  3296. with it's violent crime problem.
  3297.  
  3298. 725
  3299. 00:50:41,536 --> 00:50:45,627
  3300. The Rockford police department presenting
  3301. final crime statistics for 2015.
  3302.  
  3303. 726
  3304. 00:50:45,794 --> 00:50:47,673
  3305. About a fourth of that violent crime
  3306.  
  3307. 727
  3308. 00:50:47,756 --> 00:50:50,344
  3309. can be attributed to
  3310. domestic violence incidents.
  3311.  
  3312. 728
  3313. 00:50:57,442 --> 00:51:00,532
  3314. [exhales, sighs, burps]
  3315.  
  3316. 729
  3317. 00:51:01,199 --> 00:51:02,995
  3318. You know what I found out today?
  3319.  
  3320. 730
  3321. 00:51:03,162 --> 00:51:05,626
  3322. Skateboarding thought me
  3323. how to be passionate.
  3324.  
  3325. 731
  3326. 00:51:06,168 --> 00:51:08,840
  3327. -That's where it all started.
  3328. -That's where it all started.
  3329.  
  3330. 732
  3331. 00:51:09,132 --> 00:51:10,510
  3332. -Yup.
  3333. -[man laughing]
  3334.  
  3335. 733
  3336. 00:51:10,719 --> 00:51:12,890
  3337. -I'm telling you.
  3338. -I didn't mean to laugh at you.
  3339.  
  3340. 734
  3341. 00:51:13,182 --> 00:51:14,935
  3342. It's all right. I knew that
  3343. you were probably just kidding.
  3344.  
  3345. 735
  3346. 00:51:15,227 --> 00:51:16,981
  3347. I don't like emotions.
  3348.  
  3349. 736
  3350. 00:51:19,402 --> 00:51:21,114
  3351. And so, I mean, I'm like my dad,
  3352.  
  3353. 737
  3354. 00:51:21,198 --> 00:51:22,408
  3355. [heavy voice] "There is no such thing
  3356. as emotions.
  3357.  
  3358. 738
  3359. 00:51:22,492 --> 00:51:24,538
  3360. Only work. Get back to it."
  3361.  
  3362. 739
  3363. 00:51:25,206 --> 00:51:27,502
  3364. [chuckles] "If you work hard enough,
  3365.  
  3366. 740
  3367. 00:51:27,711 --> 00:51:29,590
  3368. -all of your problems will go away.
  3369. -[cell phone ringing]
  3370.  
  3371. 741
  3372. 00:51:31,051 --> 00:51:32,428
  3373. [ringing continues]
  3374.  
  3375. 742
  3376. 00:51:34,307 --> 00:51:35,226
  3377. Hello?
  3378.  
  3379. 743
  3380. 00:51:35,936 --> 00:51:37,438
  3381. [female speaking indistinctly]
  3382.  
  3383. 744
  3384. 00:51:38,107 --> 00:51:40,194
  3385. All right. I'll be there in, like,
  3386. five minutes. Hold on.
  3387.  
  3388. 745
  3389. 00:51:41,279 --> 00:51:42,700
  3390. -[man] Zack?
  3391. -Mmm.
  3392.  
  3393. 746
  3394. 00:51:42,866 --> 00:51:44,285
  3395. I thought you weren't with Nina anymore.
  3396.  
  3397. 747
  3398. 00:51:48,293 --> 00:51:50,464
  3399. Um, not really.
  3400.  
  3401. 748
  3402. 00:51:51,174 --> 00:51:52,511
  3403. We do a lot of talking.
  3404.  
  3405. 749
  3406. 00:51:54,431 --> 00:51:55,433
  3407. [music playing on radio]
  3408.  
  3409. 750
  3410. 00:51:55,517 --> 00:51:56,519
  3411. How's work?
  3412.  
  3413. 751
  3414. 00:51:57,145 --> 00:51:58,188
  3415. [Nina] Good...
  3416.  
  3417. 752
  3418. 00:51:59,399 --> 00:52:00,694
  3419. [Zack] I like your hair.
  3420.  
  3421. 753
  3422. 00:52:01,612 --> 00:52:02,948
  3423. It's all swirly.
  3424.  
  3425. 754
  3426. 00:52:04,075 --> 00:52:05,161
  3427. [chuckles]
  3428.  
  3429. 755
  3430. 00:52:05,704 --> 00:52:07,958
  3431. I'm sorry.
  3432. I won't be nice to you next time.
  3433.  
  3434. 756
  3435. 00:52:08,041 --> 00:52:09,085
  3436. I'll not say anything.
  3437.  
  3438. 757
  3439. 00:52:09,169 --> 00:52:10,922
  3440. No, your hair looks like shit, Nina.
  3441.  
  3442. 758
  3443. 00:52:11,006 --> 00:52:12,509
  3444. -You are welcome.
  3445. -[Nina] I'm not used to you being nice to me.
  3446.  
  3447. 759
  3448. 00:52:12,926 --> 00:52:14,304
  3449. [mocking] Na na na na.
  3450.  
  3451. 760
  3452. 00:52:14,513 --> 00:52:16,851
  3453. -[Nina] Stop, Zack. I'm driving!
  3454. -[both laughing]
  3455.  
  3456. 761
  3457. 00:52:18,187 --> 00:52:21,276
  3458. -Stop. I'm driving. [continues laughing]
  3459. -Think you're a badass, huh?
  3460.  
  3461. 762
  3462. 00:52:21,611 --> 00:52:22,946
  3463. [indistinct dialogue]
  3464.  
  3465. 763
  3466. 00:52:23,155 --> 00:52:24,575
  3467. [Elliot crying]
  3468.  
  3469. 764
  3470. 00:52:24,867 --> 00:52:27,790
  3471. -[Nina] You're freaking Elliot out.
  3472. -Elliot's not freaked out.
  3473.  
  3474. 765
  3475. 00:52:28,123 --> 00:52:30,127
  3476. I mean, he's a little freaked out.
  3477.  
  3478. 766
  3479. 00:52:30,879 --> 00:52:32,340
  3480. -[roars]
  3481. -Stop!
  3482.  
  3483. 767
  3484. 00:52:32,591 --> 00:52:33,885
  3485. [Elliot crying]
  3486.  
  3487. 768
  3488. 00:52:34,302 --> 00:52:37,726
  3489. I'll be back.
  3490. Veggie burritos, potatoes, horchata.
  3491.  
  3492. 769
  3493. 00:52:38,018 --> 00:52:40,189
  3494. ♪ I'm feeling hot... ♪
  3495.  
  3496. 770
  3497. 00:52:40,397 --> 00:52:41,526
  3498. [Bing] So, you guys are...
  3499.  
  3500. 771
  3501. 00:52:41,734 --> 00:52:43,696
  3502. looking better that ever. Like, what's...
  3503.  
  3504. 772
  3505. 00:52:43,905 --> 00:52:45,575
  3506. [Nina] I'm gonna take it day by day
  3507.  
  3508. 773
  3509. 00:52:45,992 --> 00:52:50,251
  3510. because I feel like he's just gonna
  3511. let me down again. So...
  3512.  
  3513. 774
  3514. 00:52:50,794 --> 00:52:54,467
  3515. If I don't take him seriously,
  3516. I'm not gonna be let down.
  3517.  
  3518. 775
  3519. 00:52:54,552 --> 00:52:56,556
  3520. So, I'm just, like,
  3521. going with it, I guess.
  3522.  
  3523. 776
  3524. 00:53:06,632 --> 00:53:07,828
  3525. -To him? Don't.
  3526. -Yeah.
  3527.  
  3528. 777
  3529. 00:53:07,828 --> 00:53:11,459
  3530. That's a bad... That's... no.
  3531.  
  3532. 778
  3533. 00:53:11,544 --> 00:53:14,967
  3534. -I mean...
  3535. -I just think it's so prevalent,
  3536.  
  3537. 779
  3538. 00:53:15,175 --> 00:53:17,305
  3539. uh, like, violence towards women.
  3540.  
  3541. 780
  3542. 00:53:17,639 --> 00:53:21,772
  3543. And I saw that towards my mother
  3544. and I just think it's...
  3545.  
  3546. 781
  3547. 00:53:22,023 --> 00:53:23,818
  3548. Right. I don't think--
  3549.  
  3550. 782
  3551. 00:53:23,902 --> 00:53:26,991
  3552. [Bing] She had the same idea.
  3553. She was, like, "I don't wanna speak up."
  3554.  
  3555. 783
  3556. 00:53:27,241 --> 00:53:28,661
  3557. Right. I mean...
  3558.  
  3559. 784
  3560. 00:53:31,876 --> 00:53:33,045
  3561. I don't know.
  3562.  
  3563. 785
  3564. 00:53:33,378 --> 00:53:35,759
  3565. Especially like, with me and him,
  3566. like, kinda...
  3567.  
  3568. 786
  3569. 00:53:36,259 --> 00:53:38,514
  3570. being OK right now
  3571. and like hanging out.
  3572.  
  3573. 787
  3574. 00:53:38,598 --> 00:53:40,476
  3575. Like, all that would go down the drain.
  3576.  
  3577. 788
  3578. 00:53:40,936 --> 00:53:42,313
  3579. [Bing] OK.
  3580.  
  3581. 789
  3582. 00:53:42,940 --> 00:53:44,610
  3583. -[door opens]
  3584. -But, yeah.
  3585.  
  3586. 790
  3587. 00:53:45,570 --> 00:53:47,239
  3588. That took a long time.
  3589.  
  3590. 791
  3591. 00:53:47,365 --> 00:53:48,618
  3592. [Zack] It's 50 bucks.
  3593.  
  3594. 792
  3595. 00:53:49,995 --> 00:53:51,832
  3596. -[Nina] That's 50?
  3597. -Yeah.
  3598.  
  3599. 793
  3600. 00:54:02,980 --> 00:54:04,525
  3601. I'm fucking beat, dude?
  3602.  
  3603. 794
  3604. 00:54:05,527 --> 00:54:07,948
  3605. I don't know what else to say. I'm beat.
  3606.  
  3607. 795
  3608. 00:54:08,448 --> 00:54:09,702
  3609. Wait a second.
  3610.  
  3611. 796
  3612. 00:54:11,121 --> 00:54:12,791
  3613. Dude, what's today?
  3614.  
  3615. 797
  3616. 00:54:17,091 --> 00:54:18,803
  3617. I thought it was fucking Friday.
  3618.  
  3619. 798
  3620. 00:54:19,763 --> 00:54:21,517
  3621. I don't gonna have to go back to work.
  3622.  
  3623. 799
  3624. 00:54:24,313 --> 00:54:25,441
  3625. Yes!
  3626.  
  3627. 800
  3628. 00:54:26,026 --> 00:54:28,196
  3629. Oh, my God, yes!
  3630.  
  3631. 801
  3632. 00:54:28,656 --> 00:54:30,535
  3633. Oh, my God.
  3634.  
  3635. 802
  3636. 00:54:48,780 --> 00:54:50,032
  3637. [chuckles]
  3638.  
  3639. 803
  3640. 00:54:52,077 --> 00:54:55,250
  3641. I got my car probably a month or two ago.
  3642.  
  3643. 804
  3644. 00:54:56,169 --> 00:55:02,097
  3645. How many people you know have
  3646. a portable ledge on the back?
  3647.  
  3648. 805
  3649. 00:55:06,231 --> 00:55:07,149
  3650. I quit.
  3651.  
  3652. 806
  3653. 00:55:17,671 --> 00:55:21,512
  3654. I feel like if I stay here,
  3655. I'm just gonna get stuck here.
  3656.  
  3657. 807
  3658. 00:55:23,891 --> 00:55:25,143
  3659. [siren wailing]
  3660.  
  3661. 808
  3662. 00:55:25,603 --> 00:55:28,233
  3663. But, like, moving out
  3664. has just always been scary.
  3665.  
  3666. 809
  3667. 00:55:28,734 --> 00:55:30,572
  3668. Like, I don't wanna just move out
  3669. and just think,
  3670.  
  3671. 810
  3672. 00:55:30,822 --> 00:55:33,410
  3673. by the time rent comes around,
  3674. I don't have the money.
  3675.  
  3676. 811
  3677. 00:55:33,578 --> 00:55:35,582
  3678. Because then,
  3679. I would look stupid and irresponsible.
  3680.  
  3681. 812
  3682. 00:55:40,508 --> 00:55:41,969
  3683. What's good, Merlin?
  3684.  
  3685. 813
  3686. 00:55:43,681 --> 00:55:45,602
  3687. Yo, we're filming that rap video.
  3688.  
  3689. 814
  3690. 00:55:45,685 --> 00:55:47,229
  3691. We're, we're filming a rap video.
  3692.  
  3693. 815
  3694. 00:55:47,647 --> 00:55:51,822
  3695. [indistinct singing]
  3696.  
  3697. 816
  3698. 00:55:54,214 --> 00:55:55,622
  3699. [Merlin] No, we're not guilty.
  3700.  
  3701. 817
  3702. 00:55:55,622 --> 00:55:56,707
  3703. [man in wheelchair]
  3704. That's what they all say.
  3705.  
  3706. 818
  3707. 00:55:56,790 --> 00:55:59,086
  3708. -[Merlin] We didn't do it.
  3709. -He's like, "That's what they all think."
  3710.  
  3711. 819
  3712. 00:56:01,257 --> 00:56:04,221
  3713. Like, see, that shit right there.
  3714. Like right above the pedometer,
  3715.  
  3716. 820
  3717. 00:56:04,556 --> 00:56:07,061
  3718. I have like my registration,
  3719. my insurance, my license.
  3720.  
  3721. 821
  3722. 00:56:07,227 --> 00:56:08,981
  3723. So, you don't have to reach
  3724. for anything in your pockets.
  3725.  
  3726. 822
  3727. 00:56:09,065 --> 00:56:11,152
  3728. Dude, coppers like,
  3729. "License and registration."
  3730.  
  3731. 823
  3732. 00:56:11,235 --> 00:56:13,198
  3733. And I was like sure
  3734. and I reached over there
  3735.  
  3736. 824
  3737. 00:56:13,323 --> 00:56:16,580
  3738. to the fucking... uh, the glove box.
  3739. The cop over there is like...
  3740.  
  3741. 825
  3742. 00:56:16,997 --> 00:56:19,836
  3743. I was just like,
  3744. "Oh, don't fucking shoot me."
  3745.  
  3746. 826
  3747. 00:56:19,962 --> 00:56:21,757
  3748. They are like, "Calm down." I was like,
  3749. what do you mean, "Calm down"?
  3750.  
  3751. 827
  3752. 00:56:21,840 --> 00:56:23,552
  3753. You guys fucking calm down.
  3754.  
  3755. 828
  3756. 00:56:23,678 --> 00:56:27,476
  3757. You fucking pulled
  3758. your gun on me for-- for...
  3759.  
  3760. 829
  3761. 00:56:27,727 --> 00:56:29,773
  3762. like, obeying what you said.
  3763. [chuckles]
  3764.  
  3765. 830
  3766. 00:56:30,023 --> 00:56:32,444
  3767. It's just-- it's just...
  3768. a bunch of shit, you know?
  3769.  
  3770. 831
  3771. 00:56:32,946 --> 00:56:34,281
  3772. [Zack] Did you see that one?
  3773.  
  3774. 832
  3775. 00:56:34,365 --> 00:56:36,411
  3776. -Like at the gas station? Yeah.
  3777. -You saw that one?
  3778.  
  3779. 833
  3780. 00:56:36,537 --> 00:56:38,456
  3781. -He's like, give me your drivers licence.
  3782. -That fucking terrified me.
  3783.  
  3784. 834
  3785. 00:56:38,582 --> 00:56:41,337
  3786. So, the guy turns around and goes
  3787. in his car to get his driver's licence
  3788.  
  3789. 835
  3790. 00:56:41,421 --> 00:56:42,841
  3791. and the cop just shoots him,
  3792. like, four times.
  3793.  
  3794. 836
  3795. 00:56:43,216 --> 00:56:45,805
  3796. I can die really easily here.
  3797.  
  3798. 837
  3799. 00:56:46,097 --> 00:56:49,771
  3800. -This is going to suck.
  3801. -Here no, this is like the funniest video ever.
  3802.  
  3803. 838
  3804. 00:56:49,855 --> 00:56:51,232
  3805. I have to show you this.
  3806.  
  3807. 839
  3808. 00:56:51,441 --> 00:56:54,531
  3809. [man in video]
  3810. ...dumb niggers, dork niggers,
  3811.  
  3812. 840
  3813. 00:56:54,906 --> 00:56:56,409
  3814. Asian niggers,
  3815.  
  3816. 841
  3817. 00:56:56,702 --> 00:56:57,871
  3818. white niggers.
  3819.  
  3820. 842
  3821. 00:56:57,996 --> 00:56:59,331
  3822. [man #2] Suck my dick, bitch!
  3823.  
  3824. 843
  3825. 00:56:59,415 --> 00:57:02,839
  3826. Pundits and niggas just waiting
  3827. for your mother fucking call,
  3828.  
  3829. 844
  3830. 00:57:03,131 --> 00:57:06,304
  3831. they all talking shit about you.
  3832.  
  3833. 845
  3834. 00:57:06,680 --> 00:57:08,601
  3835. [video continues]
  3836.  
  3837. 846
  3838. 00:57:11,314 --> 00:57:12,817
  3839. [harmonica playing]
  3840.  
  3841. 847
  3842. 00:57:15,573 --> 00:57:20,833
  3843. [Keire] Growing up,
  3844. my dad would always tell me,
  3845.  
  3846. 848
  3847. 00:57:21,417 --> 00:57:23,254
  3848. "Keire, like, you know,
  3849. you have a lot of white friends,
  3850.  
  3851. 849
  3852. 00:57:23,338 --> 00:57:24,716
  3853. but don't forget that you're black."
  3854.  
  3855. 850
  3856. 00:57:38,994 --> 00:57:41,124
  3857. You mind taking a nap, buddy?
  3858.  
  3859. 851
  3860. 00:57:42,501 --> 00:57:44,923
  3861. -[woman] Hi!
  3862. -[indistinct chat]
  3863.  
  3864. 852
  3865. 00:57:45,716 --> 00:57:47,344
  3866. Let me have a kiss first.
  3867.  
  3868. 853
  3869. 00:57:49,098 --> 00:57:52,479
  3870. I get him first.
  3871.  
  3872. 854
  3873. 00:57:54,316 --> 00:57:56,613
  3874. [Nina] We didn't, like,
  3875. hug or anything in my family.
  3876.  
  3877. 855
  3878. 00:57:56,822 --> 00:57:59,786
  3879. So, when I first moved out
  3880. from me and Zack's apartment,
  3881.  
  3882. 856
  3883. 00:57:59,995 --> 00:58:03,209
  3884. like, my aunt would give me a hug
  3885. every night before I went to bed and...
  3886.  
  3887. 857
  3888. 00:58:03,293 --> 00:58:05,590
  3889. it was so weird to me
  3890. and at first, I be like, "Ugh!"
  3891.  
  3892. 858
  3893. 00:58:05,965 --> 00:58:08,136
  3894. Like, you're touching me.
  3895. Like don't please!
  3896.  
  3897. 859
  3898. 00:58:08,637 --> 00:58:11,518
  3899. And then after a while, I was, like,
  3900. "OK, I'm going to bed."
  3901.  
  3902. 860
  3903. 00:58:12,477 --> 00:58:14,190
  3904. You know, "Where's my hug?"
  3905.  
  3906. 861
  3907. 00:58:14,481 --> 00:58:16,360
  3908. [Elliot cooing]
  3909.  
  3910. 862
  3911. 00:58:16,570 --> 00:58:18,198
  3912. It's nap time, baby.
  3913.  
  3914. 863
  3915. 00:58:18,574 --> 00:58:21,454
  3916. I never really knew what like
  3917. a family was.
  3918.  
  3919. 864
  3920. 00:58:21,454 --> 00:58:24,878
  3921. I would be very like "Ah! Are you OK?"
  3922.  
  3923. 865
  3924. 00:58:24,878 --> 00:58:28,719
  3925. Like my aunt and uncle showed me that.
  3926. They pretty much adopted me...
  3927.  
  3928. 866
  3929. 00:58:28,928 --> 00:58:30,472
  3930. [chuckling] ... at the age of 21.
  3931.  
  3932. 867
  3933. 00:58:30,556 --> 00:58:32,392
  3934. But it still scares me
  3935. when he gets on the skateboard.
  3936.  
  3937. 868
  3938. 00:58:32,476 --> 00:58:34,313
  3939. -I'm just like...
  3940. -[aunt] Mm-hmm.
  3941.  
  3942. 869
  3943. 00:58:34,564 --> 00:58:36,359
  3944. -We need to find him a little helmet.
  3945. -Yeah.
  3946.  
  3947. 870
  3948. 00:58:37,277 --> 00:58:38,572
  3949. Come here. Come on, bubba.
  3950.  
  3951. 871
  3952. 00:58:38,906 --> 00:58:42,789
  3953. [Nina] Like, now I know,
  3954. what I want my family to be like someday.
  3955.  
  3956. 872
  3957. 00:58:45,544 --> 00:58:47,172
  3958. [groans]
  3959.  
  3960. 873
  3961. 00:58:50,513 --> 00:58:52,850
  3962. [Bing] How've you and Zack been?
  3963.  
  3964. 874
  3965. 00:58:54,061 --> 00:58:59,446
  3966. Uh, same as always.
  3967. He's just doing his own thing.
  3968.  
  3969. 875
  3970. 00:58:59,531 --> 00:59:01,785
  3971. [man on TV] Looks like a job for Superman.
  3972.  
  3973. 876
  3974. 00:59:02,829 --> 00:59:05,458
  3975. [Bing] Is it hard for you
  3976. to move on from him?
  3977.  
  3978. 877
  3979. 00:59:05,793 --> 00:59:07,880
  3980. [Elliot playing with a car]
  3981.  
  3982. 878
  3983. 00:59:08,381 --> 00:59:09,759
  3984. I mean...
  3985.  
  3986. 879
  3987. 00:59:10,218 --> 00:59:13,349
  3988. I don't go one day
  3989. without thinking about him.
  3990.  
  3991. 880
  3992. 00:59:14,143 --> 00:59:16,355
  3993. Really, like, worrying about him or, like,
  3994.  
  3995. 881
  3996. 00:59:16,857 --> 00:59:18,986
  3997. wishing he'd call and, like...
  3998.  
  3999. 882
  4000. 00:59:19,361 --> 00:59:22,618
  4001. You know, not even just for me,
  4002. but for Elliot, too, like...
  4003.  
  4004. 883
  4005. 00:59:25,206 --> 00:59:27,002
  4006. I don't know.
  4007.  
  4008. 884
  4009. 00:59:28,379 --> 00:59:30,342
  4010. Why do you put up with that, though.
  4011.  
  4012. 885
  4013. 00:59:32,346 --> 00:59:35,561
  4014. I mean, even though,
  4015. I've seen the worst of him,
  4016.  
  4017. 886
  4018. 00:59:35,811 --> 00:59:38,274
  4019. I've... you know, I know that there is...
  4020.  
  4021. 887
  4022. 00:59:38,609 --> 00:59:41,072
  4023. a lot of good things about him too.
  4024.  
  4025. 888
  4026. 00:59:47,459 --> 00:59:51,258
  4027. [indistinct conversation]
  4028.  
  4029. 889
  4030. 00:59:51,300 --> 00:59:53,304
  4031. [dishes clanking]
  4032.  
  4033. 890
  4034. 00:59:54,223 --> 00:59:57,354
  4035. I need, uh... fries, please,
  4036. for the steak sandwich.
  4037.  
  4038. 891
  4039. 01:00:06,581 --> 01:00:09,879
  4040. Here you are, sir.
  4041. All right. I'll go grab your menu.
  4042.  
  4043. 892
  4044. 01:00:09,963 --> 01:00:11,215
  4045. Seriously, man.
  4046.  
  4047. 893
  4048. 01:00:13,512 --> 01:00:16,058
  4049. This is, like, so much better
  4050. than being back there
  4051.  
  4052. 894
  4053. 01:00:16,225 --> 01:00:17,937
  4054. and having to do all of that.
  4055.  
  4056. 895
  4057. 01:00:21,695 --> 01:00:26,287
  4058. Right now, it's like, I don't have to ask
  4059. my mom for money. I can give her money.
  4060.  
  4061. 896
  4062. 01:00:26,538 --> 01:00:31,046
  4063. Like, our water was gonna get cut off
  4064. and I, like, helped pay the bill.
  4065.  
  4066. 897
  4067. 01:00:31,840 --> 01:00:33,552
  4068. I felt good really about that.
  4069.  
  4070. 898
  4071. 01:00:38,562 --> 01:00:40,315
  4072. With Zack...
  4073.  
  4074. 899
  4075. 01:00:40,733 --> 01:00:42,737
  4076. we have drifted apart a little bit
  4077.  
  4078. 900
  4079. 01:00:42,945 --> 01:00:44,782
  4080. just 'cause, like, I'm not over there,
  4081. like, everyday.
  4082.  
  4083. 901
  4084. 01:00:46,745 --> 01:00:48,999
  4085. I started hanging out with, like,
  4086. my younger skate friends again.
  4087.  
  4088. 902
  4089. 01:00:50,043 --> 01:00:53,382
  4090. I noticed, like,
  4091. they were on a better path.
  4092.  
  4093. 903
  4094. 01:00:55,136 --> 01:00:56,515
  4095. [man] What classes are you taking?
  4096.  
  4097. 904
  4098. 01:00:56,598 --> 01:00:58,267
  4099. Graphic cards technology
  4100. or graphic design.
  4101.  
  4102. 905
  4103. 01:00:58,351 --> 01:00:59,896
  4104. [man] Sounds like a Gen. Ed. of Liberal Arts.
  4105. [Evan] Yes.
  4106.  
  4107. 906
  4108. 01:00:59,979 --> 01:01:02,275
  4109. [man] I'm just, I'm just gonna get
  4110. something general at first, like,
  4111.  
  4112. 907
  4113. 01:01:02,359 --> 01:01:03,904
  4114. and see what kind of jobs I can get.
  4115.  
  4116. 908
  4117. 01:01:05,699 --> 01:01:07,327
  4118. [Bing] You guys are getting your GED's?
  4119.  
  4120. 909
  4121. 01:01:07,703 --> 01:01:12,630
  4122. Um, I have. Evan has his.
  4123. He-- he graduated and, like...
  4124.  
  4125. 910
  4126. 01:01:13,005 --> 01:01:15,928
  4127. I don't know, It's just,
  4128. I can just prove people wrong.
  4129.  
  4130. 911
  4131. 01:01:17,180 --> 01:01:23,025
  4132. Oh, yeah! Dude. I remembered something
  4133. that my like, dad told me about um, being black.
  4134.  
  4135. 912
  4136. 01:01:23,359 --> 01:01:25,698
  4137. He said, like, being black is cool
  4138.  
  4139. 913
  4140. 01:01:25,781 --> 01:01:27,994
  4141. because you get to prove people wrong
  4142. like, everyday.
  4143.  
  4144. 914
  4145. 01:01:29,664 --> 01:01:32,168
  4146. Like, you sound the way that you sound,
  4147. so, like, you don't...
  4148.  
  4149. 915
  4150. 01:01:32,419 --> 01:01:34,298
  4151. you know it's like,
  4152. you just prove them wrong.
  4153.  
  4154. 916
  4155. 01:01:34,464 --> 01:01:38,932
  4156. [stammers] There's like-- they probably
  4157. feel a little shitty for... for profiling you.
  4158.  
  4159. 917
  4160. 01:01:39,266 --> 01:01:41,646
  4161. Like, I can only imagine,
  4162. like feeling like that.
  4163.  
  4164. 918
  4165. 01:01:41,980 --> 01:01:44,359
  4166. I was the only--
  4167. the only white kid for, like four years,
  4168.  
  4169. 919
  4170. 01:01:44,484 --> 01:01:45,863
  4171. at least, in my class.
  4172.  
  4173. 920
  4174. 01:01:46,238 --> 01:01:49,369
  4175. So, I had to learn real quick that like,
  4176. "Oh, shit, I'm in trouble."
  4177.  
  4178. 921
  4179. 01:01:49,704 --> 01:01:52,083
  4180. Like right away, people were
  4181. mad at me for being white
  4182.  
  4183. 922
  4184. 01:01:52,167 --> 01:01:53,461
  4185. after, like, first history class.
  4186.  
  4187. 923
  4188. 01:01:53,879 --> 01:01:57,218
  4189. In reality, you don't have like,
  4190. as much say because you are white.
  4191.  
  4192. 924
  4193. 01:01:57,469 --> 01:01:59,515
  4194. But [stammers] But I'm educated, though.
  4195.  
  4196. 925
  4197. 01:02:00,099 --> 01:02:04,358
  4198. You're educated 'cause you went through
  4199. just as much as high school as him?
  4200.  
  4201. 926
  4202. 01:02:04,483 --> 01:02:06,236
  4203. -So you know more than him?
  4204. -No.
  4205.  
  4206. 927
  4207. 01:02:06,362 --> 01:02:09,493
  4208. Even though, your race didn't
  4209. go through the same thing as his did.
  4210.  
  4211. 928
  4212. 01:02:09,702 --> 01:02:11,956
  4213. 'Cause my race went through it,
  4214. doesn't mean I went through it.
  4215.  
  4216. 929
  4217. 01:02:12,040 --> 01:02:14,962
  4218. [Evan] He doesn't have the same
  4219. disadvantages everyday that you don't have?
  4220.  
  4221. 930
  4222. 01:02:16,215 --> 01:02:18,260
  4223. [man] There's a certain class
  4224. of whites that's not--
  4225.  
  4226. 931
  4227. 01:02:18,344 --> 01:02:19,764
  4228. "It's easy to be white in America."
  4229.  
  4230. 932
  4231. 01:02:19,889 --> 01:02:22,185
  4232. But then, if you're, like,
  4233. trailer-trash white and shit,
  4234.  
  4235. 933
  4236. 01:02:22,268 --> 01:02:24,022
  4237. then it's not easy to live in America.
  4238. Like...
  4239.  
  4240. 934
  4241. 01:02:24,189 --> 01:02:25,818
  4242. I feel like it is easy, though.
  4243.  
  4244. 935
  4245. 01:02:25,901 --> 01:02:28,322
  4246. Like you still...
  4247. like you can fuckin' just cut your hair
  4248.  
  4249. 936
  4250. 01:02:28,406 --> 01:02:30,577
  4251. and go and get a fucking job
  4252. because they don't look at you, like...
  4253.  
  4254. 937
  4255. 01:02:30,911 --> 01:02:32,915
  4256. [man] But when you're fucking
  4257. stupid you can't do that.
  4258.  
  4259. 938
  4260. 01:02:32,998 --> 01:02:35,002
  4261. But if you're stupid you can't do that.
  4262.  
  4263. 939
  4264. 01:02:35,546 --> 01:02:36,548
  4265. [Keire] When I was younger,
  4266.  
  4267. 940
  4268. 01:02:36,673 --> 01:02:40,054
  4269. I didn't really understand what my dad
  4270. was talking about being black so much.
  4271.  
  4272. 941
  4273. 01:02:40,723 --> 01:02:44,438
  4274. But I remember, he was like,
  4275. if you could choose again,
  4276.  
  4277. 942
  4278. 01:02:44,856 --> 01:02:46,442
  4279. choose to-- to be black.
  4280.  
  4281. 943
  4282. 01:02:47,152 --> 01:02:49,406
  4283. And at first, I didn't get it.
  4284. I was, like,
  4285.  
  4286. 944
  4287. 01:02:49,489 --> 01:02:52,495
  4288. "Why would you wanna be black
  4289. when all that shit's happening to us?"
  4290.  
  4291. 945
  4292. 01:02:54,917 --> 01:02:57,506
  4293. But he explained it as like...
  4294.  
  4295. 946
  4296. 01:02:58,215 --> 01:03:00,470
  4297. Because we have to deal
  4298. with these issues,
  4299.  
  4300. 947
  4301. 01:03:01,388 --> 01:03:03,476
  4302. it just makes...
  4303.  
  4304. 948
  4305. 01:03:04,019 --> 01:03:07,233
  4306. other things that, like, my white friends
  4307. would complain about,
  4308.  
  4309. 949
  4310. 01:03:07,317 --> 01:03:09,321
  4311. like, not even be a problem to me.
  4312.  
  4313. 950
  4314. 01:03:10,114 --> 01:03:11,576
  4315. [sighs]
  4316.  
  4317. 951
  4318. 01:03:23,725 --> 01:03:27,983
  4319. [Joseph] My father's skatepark went under
  4320. because of a downfall in skateboarding.
  4321.  
  4322. 952
  4323. 01:03:29,110 --> 01:03:33,244
  4324. Mine didn't succeed because I got
  4325. hooked up with a bad partner.
  4326.  
  4327. 953
  4328. 01:03:35,081 --> 01:03:39,130
  4329. One day, he calls me and he's like,
  4330. hey, I'm going to go on a vacation.
  4331.  
  4332. 954
  4333. 01:03:40,466 --> 01:03:42,220
  4334. I fucking never heard from the dude again.
  4335.  
  4336. 955
  4337. 01:03:42,428 --> 01:03:43,430
  4338. Never.
  4339.  
  4340. 956
  4341. 01:03:43,974 --> 01:03:45,226
  4342. Come to find out...
  4343.  
  4344. 957
  4345. 01:03:45,309 --> 01:03:48,148
  4346. the guy had never paid any of our bills.
  4347.  
  4348. 958
  4349. 01:03:48,357 --> 01:03:51,573
  4350. All the money we were making,
  4351. everything, he just was keeping it.
  4352.  
  4353. 959
  4354. 01:03:52,490 --> 01:03:53,827
  4355. And that fucked me over.
  4356.  
  4357. 960
  4358. 01:03:53,994 --> 01:03:55,079
  4359. I mean, I've-- I've never--
  4360.  
  4361. 961
  4362. 01:03:55,288 --> 01:03:58,712
  4363. I don't feel like I've done anything
  4364. I've ever wanted to do with my life.
  4365.  
  4366. 962
  4367. 01:04:06,018 --> 01:04:07,103
  4368. [door squeaking]
  4369.  
  4370. 963
  4371. 01:04:07,395 --> 01:04:08,565
  4372. There it is.
  4373.  
  4374. 964
  4375. 01:04:09,482 --> 01:04:11,069
  4376. That's a five-day notice.
  4377.  
  4378. 965
  4379. 01:04:14,869 --> 01:04:16,581
  4380. I try not to come over here.
  4381.  
  4382. 966
  4383. 01:04:16,748 --> 01:04:18,500
  4384. Just like Zack and Kyle don't.
  4385.  
  4386. 967
  4387. 01:04:18,877 --> 01:04:23,678
  4388. Clearly, I mean...
  4389. Do you even want to be here? No.
  4390.  
  4391. 968
  4392. 01:04:24,304 --> 01:04:26,058
  4393. [Bing] Why's all that shit broken?
  4394.  
  4395. 969
  4396. 01:04:26,726 --> 01:04:28,521
  4397. -What?
  4398. -The ground.
  4399.  
  4400. 970
  4401. 01:04:28,688 --> 01:04:30,734
  4402. -The ground?
  4403. -Yeah, what is all this?
  4404.  
  4405. 971
  4406. 01:04:30,943 --> 01:04:33,197
  4407. Poop, it's all poop, dude.
  4408.  
  4409. 972
  4410. 01:04:37,831 --> 01:04:41,004
  4411. All right.
  4412. Let's get out of this fucking place.
  4413.  
  4414. 973
  4415. 01:04:45,681 --> 01:04:47,016
  4416. [man] I feel like I never see Zack.
  4417.  
  4418. 974
  4419. 01:04:48,143 --> 01:04:50,481
  4420. Remember when I used to
  4421. like, skip school?
  4422.  
  4423. 975
  4424. 01:04:50,607 --> 01:04:52,360
  4425. I was just like,
  4426. "Oh, he didn't finish school."
  4427.  
  4428. 976
  4429. 01:04:52,528 --> 01:04:54,740
  4430. Remember, like, he's doing fine.
  4431. I'll be fine.
  4432.  
  4433. 977
  4434. 01:04:54,824 --> 01:04:57,788
  4435. Yeah, but, like, now, like,
  4436. I see them now, I'm, like, "Fuck!"
  4437.  
  4438. 978
  4439. 01:04:58,080 --> 01:04:59,165
  4440. [man chuckling]
  4441.  
  4442. 979
  4443. 01:04:59,457 --> 01:05:03,132
  4444. I don't know, like, I don't think
  4445. they have electricity right now.
  4446.  
  4447. 980
  4448. 01:05:03,842 --> 01:05:05,887
  4449. -Like, that's gonna...
  4450. -Yeah, that's what I heard.
  4451.  
  4452. 981
  4453. 01:05:06,096 --> 01:05:07,056
  4454. That's fucked up.
  4455.  
  4456. 982
  4457. 01:05:08,727 --> 01:05:12,901
  4458. [Keire] When I was younger, everybody just
  4459. seemed like they had it all figured out.
  4460.  
  4461. 983
  4462. 01:05:13,235 --> 01:05:17,870
  4463. You know like... which was the dumbest thing
  4464. that I could have ever told myself.
  4465.  
  4466. 984
  4467. 01:05:18,078 --> 01:05:21,043
  4468. Like, no one knows
  4469. what the fuck they're doing, like...
  4470.  
  4471. 985
  4472. 01:05:21,794 --> 01:05:23,882
  4473. [train bell tolling]
  4474.  
  4475. 986
  4476. 01:05:36,031 --> 01:05:37,075
  4477. Shwoop.
  4478.  
  4479. 987
  4480. 01:05:38,870 --> 01:05:41,751
  4481. What kind of filming are we doing?
  4482. The kind where I pretend you are not there
  4483.  
  4484. 988
  4485. 01:05:42,043 --> 01:05:43,546
  4486. or the other kind?
  4487.  
  4488. 989
  4489. 01:05:45,663 --> 01:05:48,013
  4490. Where we talk the whole time.
  4491. [both laughing]
  4492.  
  4493. 990
  4494. 01:05:58,952 --> 01:05:59,870
  4495. OK.
  4496.  
  4497. 991
  4498. 01:06:00,371 --> 01:06:01,289
  4499. All right, I think I got it.
  4500.  
  4501. 992
  4502. 01:06:02,584 --> 01:06:06,216
  4503. Oh, I didn't plan on
  4504. moving here at all, like.
  4505.  
  4506. 993
  4507. 01:06:06,258 --> 01:06:08,638
  4508. Like, this girl that lives out here
  4509. hit me up.
  4510.  
  4511. 994
  4512. 01:06:08,721 --> 01:06:11,476
  4513. She bought me a plane ticket.
  4514. Got me, like $180 Uber
  4515.  
  4516. 995
  4517. 01:06:11,561 --> 01:06:13,355
  4518. to fucking the Milwaukee airport.
  4519.  
  4520. 996
  4521. 01:06:13,898 --> 01:06:14,942
  4522. Came out here.
  4523.  
  4524. 997
  4525. 01:06:15,527 --> 01:06:17,781
  4526. I was originally gonna be
  4527. out here for two weeks.
  4528.  
  4529. 998
  4530. 01:06:18,783 --> 01:06:21,747
  4531. And, like, she's like
  4532. no, you are just gonna live with me now.
  4533.  
  4534. 999
  4535. 01:06:22,833 --> 01:06:25,797
  4536. You know, not picky.
  4537. I was like, "All right."
  4538.  
  4539. 1000
  4540. 01:06:27,175 --> 01:06:29,470
  4541. I don't know, fuck, I'm doing, like,
  4542. pretty good out here, though.
  4543.  
  4544. 1001
  4545. 01:06:29,555 --> 01:06:30,515
  4546. Like, I'm working.
  4547.  
  4548. 1002
  4549. 01:06:31,266 --> 01:06:33,813
  4550. I've been like, drinking a lot less.
  4551. And I'm definitely not like...
  4552.  
  4553. 1003
  4554. 01:06:34,607 --> 01:06:36,276
  4555. just fucking off as much.
  4556.  
  4557. 1004
  4558. 01:06:36,652 --> 01:06:38,113
  4559. Fucking...
  4560.  
  4561. 1005
  4562. 01:06:39,199 --> 01:06:40,994
  4563. Can you hear me, like,
  4564. in your headphones right now?
  4565.  
  4566. 1006
  4567. 01:06:41,077 --> 01:06:44,500
  4568. -Yeah.
  4569. -There's liquor in this cup.
  4570.  
  4571. 1007
  4572. 01:06:50,931 --> 01:06:54,229
  4573. -[Nina] So, west, fifth street.
  4574. -[seatbelt alarm beeping]
  4575.  
  4576. 1008
  4577. 01:06:54,312 --> 01:06:57,360
  4578. This is Walnut, so I need to be going...
  4579.  
  4580. 1009
  4581. 01:06:57,736 --> 01:06:59,030
  4582. that way.
  4583.  
  4584. 1010
  4585. 01:07:02,203 --> 01:07:03,790
  4586. [Elliot mumbling]
  4587.  
  4588. 1011
  4589. 01:07:03,998 --> 01:07:05,209
  4590. -What?
  4591. -Momma.
  4592.  
  4593. 1012
  4594. 01:07:05,877 --> 01:07:07,965
  4595. -Baby.
  4596. -Take a right.
  4597.  
  4598. 1013
  4599. 01:07:08,257 --> 01:07:10,887
  4600. -What?
  4601. -Take a right.
  4602.  
  4603. 1014
  4604. 01:07:13,016 --> 01:07:16,481
  4605. Zack told me that he was going
  4606. to Colorado, but, um...
  4607.  
  4608. 1015
  4609. 01:07:16,565 --> 01:07:18,820
  4610. he said that he's only going like,
  4611. for a couple of days.
  4612.  
  4613. 1016
  4614. 01:07:19,237 --> 01:07:22,536
  4615. Then he wound up calling me
  4616. while he was there, like,
  4617.  
  4618. 1017
  4619. 01:07:22,744 --> 01:07:24,080
  4620. "Oh, I'm gonna stay here."
  4621.  
  4622. 1018
  4623. 01:07:31,595 --> 01:07:35,019
  4624. [inaudible chatter]
  4625.  
  4626. 1019
  4627. 01:07:37,858 --> 01:07:39,027
  4628. [Zack] Are my teeth yellow?
  4629.  
  4630. 1020
  4631. 01:07:41,197 --> 01:07:46,207
  4632. [Zack] When he does get stable,
  4633. he's gonna wanna be with Elliot again.
  4634.  
  4635. 1021
  4636. 01:07:46,291 --> 01:07:49,506
  4637. And he's gonna wanna be a family
  4638. becase that's what he tells me.
  4639.  
  4640. 1022
  4641. 01:07:49,590 --> 01:07:50,466
  4642. [explosive sounds]
  4643.  
  4644. 1023
  4645. 01:07:50,550 --> 01:07:52,053
  4646. [Nina] But then again,
  4647. all I really have is his word,
  4648.  
  4649. 1024
  4650. 01:07:52,136 --> 01:07:55,935
  4651. which I don't even know if that's true
  4652. because there's so many why's.
  4653.  
  4654. 1025
  4655. 01:07:56,144 --> 01:07:57,355
  4656. Do you know what I mean?
  4657.  
  4658. 1026
  4659. 01:07:59,943 --> 01:08:01,321
  4660. [Zack] Oh, I'm drunk as fuck!
  4661.  
  4662. 1027
  4663. 01:08:01,404 --> 01:08:02,699
  4664. This is a perfect night.
  4665.  
  4666. 1028
  4667. 01:08:04,285 --> 01:08:07,166
  4668. [Keire] It's hard to get
  4669. who Zack actually is
  4670.  
  4671. 1029
  4672. 01:08:07,249 --> 01:08:11,424
  4673. because there's so many versions of him,
  4674. that he might tell you about.
  4675.  
  4676. 1030
  4677. 01:08:16,017 --> 01:08:17,938
  4678. [Keire] It's frustrating. It's like...
  4679.  
  4680. 1031
  4681. 01:08:18,270 --> 01:08:22,154
  4682. You're supposed to be, like, my homie,
  4683. but I feel like I don't know the real you.
  4684.  
  4685. 1032
  4686. 01:08:23,198 --> 01:08:26,496
  4687. [Nina gasps] You spilled juice
  4688. all over your pants.
  4689.  
  4690. 1033
  4691. 01:08:26,622 --> 01:08:27,707
  4692. It's OK.
  4693.  
  4694. 1034
  4695. 01:08:31,590 --> 01:08:33,343
  4696. [aunt] Oh, hi, Elliot!
  4697.  
  4698. 1035
  4699. 01:08:33,385 --> 01:08:34,680
  4700. -Hey, Nina.
  4701. -Hi.
  4702.  
  4703. 1036
  4704. 01:08:34,763 --> 01:08:35,682
  4705. [drums playing]
  4706.  
  4707. 1037
  4708. 01:08:35,765 --> 01:08:36,684
  4709. -[aunt] You look cute.
  4710. -Yeah.
  4711.  
  4712. 1038
  4713. 01:08:36,767 --> 01:08:39,147
  4714. I figure that if I'm gonna go do this
  4715. at the courthouse,
  4716.  
  4717. 1039
  4718. 01:08:39,272 --> 01:08:40,608
  4719. I need to look presentable.
  4720.  
  4721. 1040
  4722. 01:08:44,198 --> 01:08:46,912
  4723. He needs to know
  4724. that there's consequences,
  4725.  
  4726. 1041
  4727. 01:08:47,037 --> 01:08:49,667
  4728. like, you can't just have a child
  4729. and abandon them.
  4730.  
  4731. 1042
  4732. 01:08:50,502 --> 01:08:53,926
  4733. Life doesn't work like that
  4734. and he needs a reality check
  4735.  
  4736. 1043
  4737. 01:08:54,093 --> 01:08:57,684
  4738. and I feel like, you know,
  4739. this is a good way to do that.
  4740.  
  4741. 1044
  4742. 01:08:58,350 --> 01:09:02,694
  4743. I'm here to try and start the process
  4744. of child support.
  4745.  
  4746. 1045
  4747. 01:09:02,944 --> 01:09:04,990
  4748. [woman] You said, child support?
  4749.  
  4750. 1046
  4751. 01:09:06,117 --> 01:09:09,666
  4752. [Nina] Maybe that'll also encourage him
  4753. to wanna come around more.
  4754.  
  4755. 1047
  4756. 01:09:09,917 --> 01:09:12,589
  4757. It's like, maybe if he's paying for him,
  4758. he'll wanna see him.
  4759.  
  4760. 1048
  4761. 01:09:12,714 --> 01:09:14,008
  4762. But, you know, like, I don't know.
  4763.  
  4764. 1049
  4765. 01:09:15,344 --> 01:09:17,223
  4766. I'm just trying to do what I can, I guess.
  4767.  
  4768. 1050
  4769. 01:09:19,185 --> 01:09:20,772
  4770. [Keire] I'm just, I'm just playing.
  4771. Don't start crying.
  4772.  
  4773. 1051
  4774. 01:09:21,147 --> 01:09:22,943
  4775. Look how much fun jumping is, um,
  4776.  
  4777. 1052
  4778. 01:09:23,318 --> 01:09:25,782
  4779. when you don't have to cut-- Mom, Mom.
  4780.  
  4781. 1053
  4782. 01:09:25,865 --> 01:09:27,326
  4783. -He's making noises.
  4784. -Come on, Coco.
  4785.  
  4786. 1054
  4787. 01:09:27,577 --> 01:09:28,537
  4788. Come on, child.
  4789.  
  4790. 1055
  4791. 01:09:28,621 --> 01:09:31,334
  4792. See, like, everyone loves grandma,
  4793. no one likes their uncle.
  4794.  
  4795. 1056
  4796. 01:09:34,633 --> 01:09:37,805
  4797. [Bing] Are you still with...
  4798. Are you still with your boyfriend?
  4799.  
  4800. 1057
  4801. 01:09:38,098 --> 01:09:39,350
  4802. What boyfriend?
  4803.  
  4804. 1058
  4805. 01:09:39,475 --> 01:09:41,145
  4806. I thought you had a boyfriend for a while.
  4807.  
  4808. 1059
  4809. 01:09:41,312 --> 01:09:44,068
  4810. No, he wasn't a boyfriend.
  4811. He was a stupid friend.
  4812.  
  4813. 1060
  4814. 01:09:45,112 --> 01:09:48,243
  4815. No, he's not around anymore.
  4816.  
  4817. 1061
  4818. 01:09:48,368 --> 01:09:49,412
  4819. Thank goodness.
  4820.  
  4821. 1062
  4822. 01:09:49,580 --> 01:09:50,622
  4823. [playing sounds]
  4824.  
  4825. 1063
  4826. 01:09:52,919 --> 01:09:55,675
  4827. [Keire] The older I get,
  4828. the more I think about it.
  4829.  
  4830. 1064
  4831. 01:09:55,883 --> 01:09:59,683
  4832. I feel like there is a part of me
  4833. that really loves my family.
  4834.  
  4835. 1065
  4836. 01:10:00,183 --> 01:10:02,522
  4837. All right, all right, calm down. Just ca--
  4838.  
  4839. 1066
  4840. 01:10:03,524 --> 01:10:07,824
  4841. I guess, because family will,
  4842. will, like, always be there but...
  4843.  
  4844. 1067
  4845. 01:10:08,074 --> 01:10:10,370
  4846. but friends, kinda like come and go.
  4847.  
  4848. 1068
  4849. 01:10:10,622 --> 01:10:13,084
  4850. -Help me!
  4851. -God!
  4852.  
  4853. 1069
  4854. 01:10:13,335 --> 01:10:15,172
  4855. -Wassup, bro.
  4856. -Wassup, Zack.
  4857.  
  4858. 1070
  4859. 01:10:15,255 --> 01:10:16,382
  4860. All he's done is bitch and moan
  4861. for the last ten minutes.
  4862.  
  4863. 1071
  4864. 01:10:16,466 --> 01:10:17,886
  4865. -[Bing] How's it going?
  4866. -Good.
  4867.  
  4868. 1072
  4869. 01:10:20,245 --> 01:10:21,926
  4870. I know, happy to be home.
  4871. I'll tell you what...
  4872.  
  4873. 1073
  4874. 01:10:22,938 --> 01:10:24,566
  4875. -Let's do this.
  4876. -Observe.
  4877.  
  4878. 1074
  4879. 01:10:24,775 --> 01:10:26,612
  4880. -[grunts]
  4881. -[woman] Zack!
  4882.  
  4883. 1075
  4884. 01:10:26,779 --> 01:10:29,033
  4885. [Zack] Denver wasn't really,
  4886. like, my style.
  4887.  
  4888. 1076
  4889. 01:10:30,494 --> 01:10:33,960
  4890. I felt like a lot of the people
  4891. that were down there,
  4892.  
  4893. 1077
  4894. 01:10:34,377 --> 01:10:36,297
  4895. a lot of them were, like, privileged.
  4896.  
  4897. 1078
  4898. 01:10:36,590 --> 01:10:40,682
  4899. So, Sam, my current girlfriend
  4900. flew me back out to Rockford.
  4901.  
  4902. 1079
  4903. 01:10:41,015 --> 01:10:42,727
  4904. I have Sam's name tattooed
  4905. on my wrist now.
  4906.  
  4907. 1080
  4908. 01:10:43,061 --> 01:10:45,190
  4909. [Bing] When did you get
  4910. Sam's name tattooed on there?
  4911.  
  4912. 1081
  4913. 01:10:45,733 --> 01:10:47,236
  4914. -[Sam] When or why?
  4915. -Uh, Saturday?
  4916.  
  4917. 1082
  4918. 01:10:47,737 --> 01:10:48,948
  4919. I don't know.
  4920.  
  4921. 1083
  4922. 01:10:49,741 --> 01:10:50,618
  4923. [Bing] You paid for it.
  4924.  
  4925. 1084
  4926. 01:10:50,743 --> 01:10:51,912
  4927. -[Zack] She paid for it.
  4928. -I paid for it.
  4929.  
  4930. 1085
  4931. 01:10:54,041 --> 01:10:55,795
  4932. [Bing] Do you feel, like, concerned
  4933.  
  4934. 1086
  4935. 01:10:55,878 --> 01:10:58,968
  4936. that Elliot's gonna grow up
  4937. like, messed up?
  4938.  
  4939. 1087
  4940. 01:11:01,932 --> 01:11:04,061
  4941. [sighs] I'm 50-50 about it.
  4942.  
  4943. 1088
  4944. 01:11:07,777 --> 01:11:12,327
  4945. Lately, I have been concerned
  4946. over my influence on him.
  4947.  
  4948. 1089
  4949. 01:11:12,871 --> 01:11:16,377
  4950. And, as he gets older,
  4951.  
  4952. 1090
  4953. 01:11:17,756 --> 01:11:20,427
  4954. how he's gonna look
  4955. at the difference between
  4956.  
  4957. 1091
  4958. 01:11:21,054 --> 01:11:22,974
  4959. the way his family lives
  4960.  
  4961. 1092
  4962. 01:11:23,099 --> 01:11:25,730
  4963. and the way I live. And...
  4964.  
  4965. 1093
  4966. 01:11:27,232 --> 01:11:30,030
  4967. A lot of people grow up,
  4968. and they're all...
  4969.  
  4970. 1094
  4971. 01:11:30,363 --> 01:11:32,367
  4972. "I'm gonna play football,
  4973. and I'm gonna go to college,
  4974.  
  4975. 1095
  4976. 01:11:32,493 --> 01:11:35,082
  4977. and I'm gonna get this nice office job,
  4978. and start a family,
  4979.  
  4980. 1096
  4981. 01:11:35,332 --> 01:11:39,173
  4982. and have two point five kids,
  4983. and a car, and a garage,
  4984.  
  4985. 1097
  4986. 01:11:39,256 --> 01:11:42,972
  4987. and everything's just gonna be nice,
  4988. and I'll buy a boat, and a snowmobile."
  4989.  
  4990. 1098
  4991. 01:11:43,139 --> 01:11:45,185
  4992. Like, fuck you, you piece of shit.
  4993.  
  4994. 1099
  4995. 01:11:45,352 --> 01:11:48,316
  4996. Like, just 'cause you're too fucking
  4997. weak to make your own decisions
  4998.  
  4999. 1100
  5000. 01:11:48,399 --> 01:11:50,153
  5001. and decide what you wanna do
  5002. with your own life.
  5003.  
  5004. 1101
  5005. 01:11:50,320 --> 01:11:52,366
  5006. Doesn't mean everyone else
  5007. is gotta be like you.
  5008.  
  5009. 1102
  5010. 01:11:53,034 --> 01:11:55,497
  5011. I don't know, fuck.
  5012.  
  5013. 1103
  5014. 01:11:56,457 --> 01:11:57,710
  5015. [continues chuckling]
  5016.  
  5017. 1104
  5018. 01:11:57,961 --> 01:12:00,423
  5019. -All right, ask me another question.
  5020. -[man chuckles]
  5021.  
  5022. 1105
  5023. 01:12:00,842 --> 01:12:03,263
  5024. [Bing] I guess, my thing was like,
  5025. you know...
  5026.  
  5027. 1106
  5028. 01:12:03,848 --> 01:12:06,687
  5029. I grew up without knowing my dad.
  5030.  
  5031. 1107
  5032. 01:12:06,812 --> 01:12:08,816
  5033. I saw him three times since I was five.
  5034.  
  5035. 1108
  5036. 01:12:09,108 --> 01:12:13,449
  5037. And, uh, my stepdad used to
  5038. beat the shit out of me and my mom.
  5039.  
  5040. 1109
  5041. 01:12:13,576 --> 01:12:16,038
  5042. -Right.
  5043. -And, so, I don't know how I--
  5044.  
  5045. 1110
  5046. 01:12:16,372 --> 01:12:17,792
  5047. why did I choose this life?
  5048.  
  5049. 1111
  5050. 01:12:18,209 --> 01:12:20,882
  5051. Not that I'm, like,
  5052. gonna get married, and buy a house.
  5053.  
  5054. 1112
  5055. 01:12:21,090 --> 01:12:22,342
  5056. But like, I don't know.
  5057.  
  5058. 1113
  5059. 01:12:22,426 --> 01:12:25,558
  5060. You want, you want me
  5061. to comment on your direction?
  5062.  
  5063. 1114
  5064. 01:12:25,683 --> 01:12:26,852
  5065. [Bing] Yeah.
  5066.  
  5067. 1115
  5068. 01:12:28,146 --> 01:12:29,398
  5069. [Zack] That's, that's the difference.
  5070.  
  5071. 1116
  5072. 01:12:29,608 --> 01:12:34,116
  5073. Like you-- Some-- some people
  5074. do take their negative experiences
  5075.  
  5076. 1117
  5077. 01:12:34,200 --> 01:12:37,624
  5078. and turn them into powerful,
  5079. positive things.
  5080.  
  5081. 1118
  5082. 01:12:38,834 --> 01:12:43,051
  5083. I just don't think
  5084. I'm that type of person. I think I've...
  5085.  
  5086. 1119
  5087. 01:12:45,013 --> 01:12:47,644
  5088. I've found myself in a position
  5089. where I was...
  5090.  
  5091. 1120
  5092. 01:12:48,353 --> 01:12:52,612
  5093. so depressed that I just, I wanted it
  5094. to just get as bad as it could,
  5095.  
  5096. 1121
  5097. 01:12:52,695 --> 01:12:54,240
  5098. just bad as it could until I died.
  5099.  
  5100. 1122
  5101. 01:12:54,699 --> 01:12:58,958
  5102. [singing]
  5103.  
  5104. 1123
  5105. 01:13:00,293 --> 01:13:02,214
  5106. -Could be worse.
  5107. -[Sam] Don't play with my knife.
  5108.  
  5109. 1124
  5110. 01:13:02,507 --> 01:13:04,176
  5111. -Don't play with my knife.
  5112. -Take it off.
  5113.  
  5114. 1125
  5115. 01:13:04,385 --> 01:13:05,763
  5116. Quit being a pussy.
  5117.  
  5118. 1126
  5119. 01:13:06,013 --> 01:13:09,019
  5120. ♪ I want you to be mine again
  5121. Actually ♪
  5122.  
  5123. 1127
  5124. 01:13:09,311 --> 01:13:14,781
  5125. ♪ I know my lifestyle
  5126. Is driving you crazy ♪
  5127.  
  5128. 1128
  5129. 01:13:15,156 --> 01:13:18,413
  5130. Cool. Saw my fucking head off.
  5131. Don't be a pussy.
  5132.  
  5133. 1129
  5134. 01:13:18,496 --> 01:13:20,584
  5135. -No.
  5136. -Oh, you're such a wuss.
  5137.  
  5138. 1130
  5139. 01:13:36,157 --> 01:13:40,666
  5140. [Keire] It's like this place
  5141. just like eats away at you.
  5142.  
  5143. 1131
  5144. 01:13:40,958 --> 01:13:45,425
  5145. I don't know. I just don't wanna
  5146. get trapped here and lockered
  5147.  
  5148. 1132
  5149. 01:13:45,760 --> 01:13:47,471
  5150. like a lot of people have.
  5151.  
  5152. 1133
  5153. 01:13:48,348 --> 01:13:51,395
  5154. [rap music playing on the stereo]
  5155.  
  5156. 1134
  5157. 01:13:52,815 --> 01:13:55,153
  5158. I tried stashing away my money
  5159.  
  5160. 1135
  5161. 01:13:55,529 --> 01:13:58,660
  5162. and then my fucking brother
  5163. broke into my room and stole it.
  5164.  
  5165. 1136
  5166. 01:13:58,994 --> 01:14:01,165
  5167. [music continues playing]
  5168.  
  5169. 1137
  5170. 01:14:07,344 --> 01:14:10,475
  5171. If-- if I ever to told my dad
  5172. what my brother did to me,
  5173.  
  5174. 1138
  5175. 01:14:10,851 --> 01:14:13,565
  5176. my dad would be like
  5177. on his ass right now.
  5178.  
  5179. 1139
  5180. 01:14:13,732 --> 01:14:15,611
  5181. He'll like... He'd be so...
  5182. Oh, my God!
  5183.  
  5184. 1140
  5185. 01:14:17,114 --> 01:14:19,201
  5186. I-- I remember, this one time...
  5187.  
  5188. 1141
  5189. 01:14:19,953 --> 01:14:23,501
  5190. I think, I, like, stole something
  5191. or something, I was like little.
  5192.  
  5193. 1142
  5194. 01:14:24,879 --> 01:14:27,426
  5195. Like, 12, maybe. I stole something.
  5196.  
  5197. 1143
  5198. 01:14:28,136 --> 01:14:31,058
  5199. That was the worst ass whopping
  5200. I've ever gotten.
  5201.  
  5202. 1144
  5203. 01:14:31,183 --> 01:14:34,398
  5204. But it definitely made me
  5205. never steal, like...
  5206.  
  5207. 1145
  5208. 01:14:34,691 --> 01:14:36,318
  5209. I was, like, yeah...
  5210.  
  5211. 1146
  5212. 01:14:36,695 --> 01:14:38,907
  5213. Stealing sucks
  5214. because it gets your ass beat
  5215.  
  5216. 1147
  5217. 01:14:39,116 --> 01:14:41,538
  5218. and, like, you burn bridges.
  5219.  
  5220. 1148
  5221. 01:14:41,872 --> 01:14:43,709
  5222. And burning bridges isn't cool.
  5223.  
  5224. 1149
  5225. 01:14:52,142 --> 01:14:55,064
  5226. Afterwards, after my ass stopped stinging,
  5227.  
  5228. 1150
  5229. 01:14:55,524 --> 01:14:58,697
  5230. he apologized for, like, beating me.
  5231.  
  5232. 1151
  5233. 01:14:59,114 --> 01:15:02,872
  5234. He totally just explained to me.
  5235. It was just how he was raised.
  5236.  
  5237. 1152
  5238. 01:15:06,170 --> 01:15:09,844
  5239. I know that he loved me
  5240. like, that's why he was so hard on me.
  5241.  
  5242. 1153
  5243. 01:15:15,063 --> 01:15:17,735
  5244. [Bing] So, what do you think that
  5245. you've gotten out of this documentary?
  5246.  
  5247. 1154
  5248. 01:15:19,656 --> 01:15:20,908
  5249. Um...
  5250.  
  5251. 1155
  5252. 01:15:24,248 --> 01:15:27,045
  5253. It's almost like... fucking free therapy.
  5254.  
  5255. 1156
  5256. 01:15:27,128 --> 01:15:29,132
  5257. -[chuckles]
  5258. -Yeah.
  5259.  
  5260. 1157
  5261. 01:15:30,051 --> 01:15:33,057
  5262. I'm making this film because I was...
  5263.  
  5264. 1158
  5265. 01:15:33,391 --> 01:15:35,228
  5266. physically disciplined by my step father
  5267.  
  5268. 1159
  5269. 01:15:35,436 --> 01:15:37,232
  5270. and it didn't make sense to me
  5271.  
  5272. 1160
  5273. 01:15:37,440 --> 01:15:40,823
  5274. and I saw myself in your own story.
  5275.  
  5276. 1161
  5277. 01:15:41,448 --> 01:15:42,367
  5278. Hmm.
  5279.  
  5280. 1162
  5281. 01:15:43,996 --> 01:15:45,081
  5282. Wow.
  5283.  
  5284. 1163
  5285. 01:15:48,672 --> 01:15:49,632
  5286. That's...
  5287.  
  5288. 1164
  5289. 01:15:50,926 --> 01:15:53,431
  5290. Wow, Bing, I had no idea, dude.
  5291.  
  5292. 1165
  5293. 01:15:53,974 --> 01:15:56,771
  5294. You know, that's really cool, though.
  5295.  
  5296. 1166
  5297. 01:16:01,196 --> 01:16:02,157
  5298. Wow.
  5299.  
  5300. 1167
  5301. 01:16:03,952 --> 01:16:06,248
  5302. [Bing] So, this might be a weird question,
  5303.  
  5304. 1168
  5305. 01:16:06,332 --> 01:16:09,338
  5306. but you spent a lot of time
  5307. in Zack's house growing up.
  5308.  
  5309. 1169
  5310. 01:16:09,589 --> 01:16:12,637
  5311. Do you think Zack is
  5312. capable of hitting a woman?
  5313.  
  5314. 1170
  5315. 01:16:15,308 --> 01:16:16,352
  5316. Hmm.
  5317.  
  5318. 1171
  5319. 01:16:17,980 --> 01:16:21,278
  5320. Maybe if he's drunk enough,
  5321. and, like, she's, like, hitting him,
  5322.  
  5323. 1172
  5324. 01:16:21,487 --> 01:16:23,909
  5325. like, fucking beating the shit out of him
  5326. or something, maybe.
  5327.  
  5328. 1173
  5329. 01:16:24,034 --> 01:16:26,455
  5330. But I don't think Zack
  5331. would ever just like...
  5332.  
  5333. 1174
  5334. 01:16:27,792 --> 01:16:32,175
  5335. like, just fucking strike a woman.
  5336. Like, I don't think he'd ever do that.
  5337.  
  5338. 1175
  5339. 01:16:44,745 --> 01:16:47,205
  5340. -My, my stepmom and my dad? Um...
  5341. -Yeah.
  5342.  
  5343. 1176
  5344. 01:16:48,542 --> 01:16:49,877
  5345. Yeah, I mean, all the time.
  5346.  
  5347. 1177
  5348. 01:16:50,253 --> 01:16:52,424
  5349. They fucking, most of the time
  5350. they argued about me.
  5351.  
  5352. 1178
  5353. 01:16:53,008 --> 01:16:54,554
  5354. [chuckles] Uh...
  5355.  
  5356. 1179
  5357. 01:16:55,430 --> 01:16:57,601
  5358. Like once or twice
  5359. the cops came to my house, but...
  5360.  
  5361. 1180
  5362. 01:16:58,102 --> 01:17:00,941
  5363. that was when I was young, young,
  5364. maybe, like, 10 or 12.
  5365.  
  5366. 1181
  5367. 01:17:01,275 --> 01:17:04,489
  5368. You know what I mean that?
  5369. Not... not as a teenager. It never got...
  5370.  
  5371. 1182
  5372. 01:17:05,826 --> 01:17:07,747
  5373. I don't think it ever got,
  5374. like, real physical.
  5375.  
  5376. 1183
  5377. 01:17:07,997 --> 01:17:10,042
  5378. I think just the fight got real gnarly.
  5379.  
  5380. 1184
  5381. 01:17:10,126 --> 01:17:14,217
  5382. I mean, shit, I've called the cops on
  5383. fuckin' Nina, on my baby mama before.
  5384.  
  5385. 1185
  5386. 01:17:14,802 --> 01:17:17,056
  5387. Like, sometimes
  5388. you just need the fight to stop.
  5389.  
  5390. 1186
  5391. 01:17:22,403 --> 01:17:23,194
  5392. Oh.
  5393.  
  5394. 1187
  5395. 01:17:23,194 --> 01:17:25,156
  5396. I don't know if you filmed the recording.
  5397.  
  5398. 1188
  5399. 01:17:25,364 --> 01:17:26,910
  5400. That was a pretty...
  5401.  
  5402. 1189
  5403. 01:17:27,787 --> 01:17:29,749
  5404. Like every other day occurrence.
  5405.  
  5406. 1190
  5407. 01:17:29,832 --> 01:17:33,005
  5408. She just fuckin' loses her damn shit.
  5409.  
  5410. 1191
  5411. 01:17:33,088 --> 01:17:34,884
  5412. And she won't shut the fuck up
  5413.  
  5414. 1192
  5415. 01:17:34,967 --> 01:17:38,140
  5416. and it just keeps escalating
  5417. and escalating and escalating and...
  5418.  
  5419. 1193
  5420. 01:17:38,767 --> 01:17:39,936
  5421. [exhales]
  5422.  
  5423. 1194
  5424. 01:17:40,646 --> 01:17:45,404
  5425. You know, my deal with women,
  5426. kinda the way I've dealt with it is,
  5427.  
  5428. 1195
  5429. 01:17:45,488 --> 01:17:48,452
  5430. you know, they get all fuckin' heated
  5431. and mad about shit
  5432.  
  5433. 1196
  5434. 01:17:48,537 --> 01:17:50,039
  5435. or they're complaining about this...
  5436.  
  5437. 1197
  5438. 01:17:50,206 --> 01:17:53,087
  5439. I'm like all right, I'm leaving, bye!
  5440.  
  5441. 1198
  5442. 01:17:53,170 --> 01:17:54,924
  5443. But if a fuckin' woman,
  5444.  
  5445. 1199
  5446. 01:17:55,592 --> 01:17:57,303
  5447. is acting a fucking fool,
  5448.  
  5449. 1200
  5450. 01:17:57,387 --> 01:17:58,765
  5451. they're been acting a fool,
  5452.  
  5453. 1201
  5454. 01:17:58,849 --> 01:18:02,105
  5455. you've asked them to stop, you've tried to
  5456. get away from the situation
  5457.  
  5458. 1202
  5459. 01:18:02,188 --> 01:18:05,779
  5460. and you've done everything that you can
  5461. do, to avoid the situation peacefully,
  5462.  
  5463. 1203
  5464. 01:18:05,863 --> 01:18:07,198
  5465. and she's coming to you,
  5466.  
  5467. 1204
  5468. 01:18:07,323 --> 01:18:08,702
  5469. wanting to argue and fight like
  5470.  
  5471. 1205
  5472. 01:18:08,785 --> 01:18:11,331
  5473. she's a fuckin' man, like,
  5474. she's ready to hurt you.
  5475.  
  5476. 1206
  5477. 01:18:11,331 --> 01:18:12,835
  5478. The...
  5479.  
  5480. 1207
  5481. 01:18:12,835 --> 01:18:13,795
  5482. Ah...
  5483.  
  5484. 1208
  5485. 01:18:14,922 --> 01:18:16,341
  5486. You can't beat up women.
  5487.  
  5488. 1209
  5489. 01:18:17,385 --> 01:18:20,517
  5490. But some bitches need to get slapped
  5491. sometimes, does that make sense?
  5492.  
  5493. 1210
  5494. 01:18:27,405 --> 01:18:29,994
  5495. [Bing] You stayed with him
  5496. because at times, he was sweet.
  5497.  
  5498. 1211
  5499. 01:18:30,286 --> 01:18:33,042
  5500. So what gave you the strength
  5501. to finally leave him?
  5502.  
  5503. 1212
  5504. 01:18:42,352 --> 01:18:44,272
  5505. [Bing's mother]
  5506. Seventeen years.
  5507.  
  5508. 1213
  5509. 01:18:47,691 --> 01:18:51,680
  5510. Um... but then he died anyway.
  5511.  
  5512. 1214
  5513. 01:19:00,981 --> 01:19:03,812
  5514. But that's how I have deal with it.
  5515.  
  5516. 1215
  5517. 01:19:03,812 --> 01:19:06,274
  5518. I don't like that, even now,
  5519. I don't know what to do.
  5520.  
  5521. 1216
  5522. 01:19:17,798 --> 01:19:20,887
  5523. [Nina] Zack and I went to court
  5524. for child support.
  5525.  
  5526. 1217
  5527. 01:19:21,179 --> 01:19:24,060
  5528. And you know,
  5529. it was like one of those moments
  5530.  
  5531. 1218
  5532. 01:19:24,144 --> 01:19:27,275
  5533. where I was just like, wow, like,
  5534. what am I doing with my life.
  5535.  
  5536. 1219
  5537. 01:19:29,362 --> 01:19:30,782
  5538. Wow, you're so cool!
  5539.  
  5540. 1220
  5541. 01:19:31,408 --> 01:19:34,080
  5542. [Zack] You know, on one hand of my brain,
  5543. I'm like,
  5544.  
  5545. 1221
  5546. 01:19:34,164 --> 01:19:37,003
  5547. you shouldn't be around your kid ever,
  5548. like, you-- you fucking suck.
  5549.  
  5550. 1222
  5551. 01:19:37,713 --> 01:19:40,510
  5552. And on the other hand, I'm like no,
  5553. that's my child.
  5554.  
  5555. 1223
  5556. 01:19:42,681 --> 01:19:44,059
  5557. [Keire] "Happy fathers' day.
  5558.  
  5559. 1224
  5560. 01:19:44,894 --> 01:19:48,150
  5561. I hope you all get to spend
  5562. some time with your fathers.
  5563.  
  5564. 1225
  5565. 01:19:48,610 --> 01:19:52,910
  5566. The last time I talked to my dad,
  5567. I argued and fought with him.
  5568.  
  5569. 1226
  5570. 01:19:53,578 --> 01:19:55,999
  5571. I moved out the next day."
  5572.  
  5573. 1227
  5574. 01:20:06,521 --> 01:20:10,444
  5575. The, uh, the last time I came here,
  5576. it was his funeral.
  5577.  
  5578. 1228
  5579. 01:20:14,662 --> 01:20:17,333
  5580. You don't wanna think about it.
  5581.  
  5582. 1229
  5583. 01:20:22,260 --> 01:20:26,686
  5584. Not necessarily, I get--
  5585. I feel, like, shaky and anxious.
  5586.  
  5587. 1230
  5588. 01:20:27,563 --> 01:20:29,900
  5589. I don't--I don't really
  5590. think about him that much.
  5591.  
  5592. 1231
  5593. 01:20:39,502 --> 01:20:43,093
  5594. I've never been able to deal with myself.
  5595.  
  5596. 1232
  5597. 01:20:43,636 --> 01:20:45,055
  5598. Because I'm so busy.
  5599.  
  5600. 1233
  5601. 01:20:45,431 --> 01:20:48,437
  5602. I'm not even convincing other people,
  5603. I'm convincing myself
  5604.  
  5605. 1234
  5606. 01:20:48,646 --> 01:20:51,819
  5607. that I'm a good person or...
  5608. I feel like a clown.
  5609.  
  5610. 1235
  5611. 01:20:52,654 --> 01:20:53,698
  5612. Almost, you know?
  5613.  
  5614. 1236
  5615. 01:20:54,783 --> 01:20:57,956
  5616. You paint up your face
  5617. and you put on your act for everybody.
  5618.  
  5619. 1237
  5620. 01:21:00,545 --> 01:21:03,843
  5621. And you let that act become you.
  5622.  
  5623. 1238
  5624. 01:21:11,776 --> 01:21:14,615
  5625. [Nina] I've always been something
  5626. to someone, you know.
  5627.  
  5628. 1239
  5629. 01:21:14,698 --> 01:21:17,955
  5630. I was someone's daughter, someone's
  5631. sister, someone's significant other
  5632.  
  5633. 1240
  5634. 01:21:18,038 --> 01:21:19,499
  5635. and then someone's mom.
  5636.  
  5637. 1241
  5638. 01:21:19,583 --> 01:21:23,090
  5639. [laughs] So it's like, I never got that
  5640. chance to just, like, figure myself out.
  5641.  
  5642. 1242
  5643. 01:21:25,845 --> 01:21:29,561
  5644. I really wish,
  5645. I could fucking just remember where it is.
  5646.  
  5647. 1243
  5648. 01:21:31,398 --> 01:21:34,571
  5649. It's like, it would make this day
  5650. a lot better for me...
  5651.  
  5652. 1244
  5653. 01:21:42,211 --> 01:21:43,881
  5654. [Zack] I don't want my son...
  5655.  
  5656. 1245
  5657. 01:21:45,050 --> 01:21:46,303
  5658. I just don't want him to grow up...
  5659.  
  5660. 1246
  5661. 01:21:47,889 --> 01:21:51,062
  5662. you know, like fucked up,
  5663. like me, you know?
  5664.  
  5665. 1247
  5666. 01:21:58,118 --> 01:22:01,207
  5667. I can't let myself think that the reason
  5668.  
  5669. 1248
  5670. 01:22:01,416 --> 01:22:05,424
  5671. I have to struggle so hard
  5672. that's 'cause I fucking suck.
  5673.  
  5674. 1249
  5675. 01:22:06,719 --> 01:22:09,349
  5676. I can't... You know, that's what
  5677. the drinking is about.
  5678.  
  5679. 1250
  5680. 01:22:09,641 --> 01:22:11,311
  5681. That's what it's all about.
  5682.  
  5683. 1251
  5684. 01:22:12,104 --> 01:22:14,610
  5685. I just wanna hide, I just wanna run away.
  5686.  
  5687. 1252
  5688. 01:22:25,089 --> 01:22:27,468
  5689. [Zack] It's such a crushing,
  5690. hopeless feeling.
  5691.  
  5692. 1253
  5693. 01:22:28,178 --> 01:22:31,351
  5694. It just sucks knowing
  5695. that you're your own enemy.
  5696.  
  5697. 1254
  5698. 01:22:31,602 --> 01:22:37,238
  5699. That every decision you've ever made has
  5700. culminated in how shitty your life is now.
  5701.  
  5702. 1255
  5703. 01:22:39,283 --> 01:22:40,954
  5704. And there's no escaping it.
  5705.  
  5706. 1256
  5707. 01:22:41,956 --> 01:22:43,375
  5708. [Bing's mother]
  5709. I don't know...
  5710.  
  5711. 1257
  5712. 01:22:43,543 --> 01:22:44,962
  5713. I tried to help you.
  5714.  
  5715. 1258
  5716. 01:22:54,648 --> 01:22:57,403
  5717. Well, the reason why
  5718. I wanted to make this film was...
  5719.  
  5720. 1259
  5721. 01:22:57,821 --> 01:23:01,369
  5722. Maybe I'm-- maybe you're right,
  5723. maybe I'm--
  5724.  
  5725. 1260
  5726. 01:23:01,494 --> 01:23:03,916
  5727. I need to just move on
  5728. and not dwell in the past
  5729.  
  5730. 1261
  5731. 01:23:16,984 --> 01:23:18,111
  5732. Hey, cut.
  5733.  
  5734. 1262
  5735. 01:23:28,591 --> 01:23:30,052
  5736. [Keire] Oh, my God.
  5737.  
  5738. 1263
  5739. 01:23:31,514 --> 01:23:33,058
  5740. Fucking, yes!
  5741.  
  5742. 1264
  5743. 01:23:34,811 --> 01:23:38,443
  5744. I fucking-- I finally fucking found it.
  5745.  
  5746. 1265
  5747. 01:23:39,613 --> 01:23:40,740
  5748. [laughs]
  5749.  
  5750. 1266
  5751. 01:23:41,366 --> 01:23:42,536
  5752. [sniffs]
  5753.  
  5754. 1267
  5755. 01:23:53,599 --> 01:23:55,310
  5756. [whispering] I'm so fucking happy.
  5757.  
  5758. 1268
  5759. 01:25:00,858 --> 01:25:01,819
  5760. Fuck!
  5761.  
  5762. 1269
  5763. 01:25:15,303 --> 01:25:16,389
  5764. Let's-- Let's go.
  5765.  
  5766. 1270
  5767. 01:25:28,914 --> 01:25:30,000
  5768. [exhales]
  5769.  
  5770. 1271
  5771. 01:26:11,792 --> 01:26:14,213
  5772. I get mad at skateboarding, like, a lot.
  5773.  
  5774. 1272
  5775. 01:26:14,338 --> 01:26:18,681
  5776. But at the end of the day I love it
  5777. so much, I can't stay mad at it. [laughs]
  5778.  
  5779. 1273
  5780. 01:26:21,418 --> 01:26:22,688
  5781. Yeah, so did my dad.
  5782.  
  5783. 1274
  5784. 01:26:22,688 --> 01:26:24,274
  5785. But I love him to death.
  5786.  
  5787. 1275
  5788. 01:26:33,125 --> 01:26:34,168
  5789. [no audio]
  5790.  
  5791. 1276
  5792. 01:27:45,520 --> 01:27:47,106
  5793. I'm about to do this shit.
  5794.  
  5795. 1277
  5796. 01:27:47,189 --> 01:27:49,402
  5797. [laughs] Oh, my God, dude,
  5798. I'm gonna fuckin' do it.
  5799.  
  5800. 1278
  5801. 01:27:52,032 --> 01:27:53,911
  5802. [exhales] Moving to Denver.
  5803.  
  5804. 1279
  5805. 01:27:53,911 --> 01:27:55,790
  5806. [sniffles and sighs]
  5807.  
  5808. 1280
  5809. 01:28:01,342 --> 01:28:02,721
  5810. [television blaring]
  5811.  
  5812. 1281
  5813. 01:28:10,820 --> 01:28:12,239
  5814. Can't you wait another month?
  5815.  
  5816. 1282
  5817. 01:28:12,323 --> 01:28:14,077
  5818. [Keire laughs] No.
  5819.  
  5820. 1283
  5821. 01:28:14,285 --> 01:28:16,582
  5822. -'Til it get warm?
  5823. -No, Mom.
  5824.  
  5825. 1284
  5826. 01:28:24,347 --> 01:28:25,850
  5827. See you later, baby.
  5828.  
  5829. 1285
  5830. 01:29:03,091 --> 01:29:05,179
  5831. ["This Year"
  5832. by The Mountain Goats playing]
  5833.  
  5834. 1286
  5835. 01:29:23,549 --> 01:29:26,471
  5836. ♪ I broke free on a Saturday morning ♪
  5837.  
  5838. 1287
  5839. 01:29:26,764 --> 01:29:29,853
  5840. ♪ I put the pedal to the floor ♪
  5841.  
  5842. 1288
  5843. 01:29:30,479 --> 01:29:32,943
  5844. ♪ Headed north on Mills Avenue ♪
  5845.  
  5846. 1289
  5847. 01:29:33,694 --> 01:29:36,784
  5848. ♪ And listened to the engine roar ♪
  5849.  
  5850. 1290
  5851. 01:29:37,368 --> 01:29:40,040
  5852. -Look, I made this for you!
  5853. -Thanks!
  5854.  
  5855. 1291
  5856. 01:29:51,354 --> 01:29:52,983
  5857. ♪ My broken house behind me ♪
  5858.  
  5859. 1292
  5860. 01:29:53,108 --> 01:29:54,485
  5861. ♪ And good things ahead ♪
  5862.  
  5863. 1293
  5864. 01:29:54,569 --> 01:29:57,366
  5865. ♪ A girl named Cathy
  5866. Wants a little of my time ♪
  5867.  
  5868. 1294
  5869. 01:29:58,118 --> 01:29:59,538
  5870. ♪ Six cylinders underneath the hood ♪
  5871.  
  5872. 1295
  5873. 01:30:04,756 --> 01:30:07,929
  5874. ♪ I am going to make it
  5875. Through this year ♪
  5876.  
  5877. 1296
  5878. 01:30:08,179 --> 01:30:09,850
  5879. ♪ If it kills me ♪
  5880.  
  5881. 1297
  5882. 01:30:11,477 --> 01:30:14,651
  5883. ♪ I am going to make it
  5884. Through this year ♪
  5885.  
  5886. 1298
  5887. 01:30:14,943 --> 01:30:16,530
  5888. ♪ If it kills me ♪
  5889.  
  5890. 1299
  5891. 01:30:18,491 --> 01:30:21,665
  5892. ♪ I drove home in the California dusk ♪
  5893.  
  5894. 1300
  5895. 01:30:22,709 --> 01:30:25,673
  5896. ♪ I could feel the alcohol
  5897. Inside of me hum ♪
  5898.  
  5899. 1301
  5900. 01:30:25,757 --> 01:30:28,345
  5901. ♪ Pictured the look
  5902. On my stepfather's face ♪
  5903.  
  5904. 1302
  5905. 01:30:33,438 --> 01:30:35,400
  5906. ♪ As I pulled into the driveway ♪
  5907.  
  5908. 1303
  5909. 01:30:36,277 --> 01:30:39,618
  5910. ♪ The motor screaming out
  5911. Stuck in second gear ♪
  5912.  
  5913. 1304
  5914. 01:30:39,701 --> 01:30:42,456
  5915. ♪ The scene ends badly
  5916. As you might imagine ♪
  5917.  
  5918. 1305
  5919. 01:30:43,041 --> 01:30:45,922
  5920. ♪ In a cavalcade of anger and fear ♪
  5921.  
  5922. 1306
  5923. 01:30:49,679 --> 01:30:53,353
  5924. ♪ In Jerusalem next year ♪
  5925.  
  5926. 1307
  5927. 01:30:53,436 --> 01:30:56,401
  5928. ♪ I am going to make it
  5929. Through this year ♪
  5930.  
  5931. 1308
  5932. 01:30:56,735 --> 01:30:58,739
  5933. ♪ If it kills me ♪
  5934.  
  5935. 1309
  5936. 01:31:00,283 --> 01:31:03,206
  5937. ♪ I am going to make it
  5938. Through this year ♪
  5939.  
  5940. 1310
  5941. 01:31:03,582 --> 01:31:05,419
  5942. ♪ If it kills me ♪
  5943.  
  5944. 1311
  5945. 01:31:12,391 --> 01:31:14,688
  5946. [woman] Cheese, come on boy, come on!
  5947.  
  5948. 1312
  5949. 01:31:26,962 --> 01:31:28,591
  5950. Awesome!
  5951.  
  5952. 1313
  5953. 01:31:33,183 --> 01:31:34,686
  5954. Fuck!
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