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  1. (Text in [] is Avalanche)
  2. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  3.  
  4. Flora: Well I'm a girl and I'm pretty [I told her that this was a stupid first line], and my creator is a dumbass. [Fuck you, take this seriously]. I'm blond- [no you're not, since when?] Since always, and that's the most you're getting out of me on this topic.
  5.  
  6. Eva: I'm actually blond, I wear a star shirt and I can't think of anything else.. and I'm cute! [I'm not going to put that down]. You did anyways. [touche].
  7.  
  8. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  9.  
  10. F: He did fucking nothing helpful. He was dedicated enough to see this through at least.
  11.  
  12. E: He believed in us and more so me, like when I first appeared he didn't just dismiss me. It made me feel warm.
  13.  
  14. F: That's really gay, you know that right?
  15.  
  16. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  17.  
  18. F: Nearly giving up all those times. Fucktard. [Jesus Christ Flora.]
  19.  
  20. E: He got sad a few times over us, but it wasn't too bad really.
  21.  
  22. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  23.  
  24. F: The hardest part... well it must have been the early days when we didn't really know each other. There wasn't much of a bond. He sort of half knew and half ignored this fact back then. It made me feel meh.
  25.  
  26. E: I can't think of a hardest part. It was all pretty smooth, I had my sister to help me through it.
  27.  
  28. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  29.  
  30. F: We never adhered to the steps. We just winged it, didn't we? [Is winged the past tense of wing?]. GG..
  31.  
  32. E: I don't even know what these steps are.
  33.  
  34. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  35.  
  36. F: Oh sweet jesus I could rant about this for days. Avalanche is always getting distracted. It's not too bad but it does slow us down. At least he tries his best.
  37.  
  38. E: It's funny to watch him sit there, doing nothing. Does suck sometimes though.
  39.  
  40. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  41.  
  42. F: He never really broke any promises or miss any sessions. Any time he did he had a reason for it and made up for it. We never really think of it as work though either.
  43.  
  44. E: I'm a stickler for time keeping, but Avalanche is always prompt. I can't remember a time when he missed a session...
  45.  
  46. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  47.  
  48. F: Quality, hands down.
  49.  
  50. E: Errr...The more you force, the better the result?
  51.  
  52. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  53.  
  54. F: It's funny as fuck. [Stop swearing]. No.
  55.  
  56. E: It looks silly and cuts the session short, but he falls asleep for a reason right?
  57.  
  58. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  59.  
  60. F: It really doesn't matter to me. As long as he talks, I'm happy. It can get lonely when he doesn't though.
  61.  
  62. E: I don't care, so long as he talks to us. It's not a big factor or thing to worry over for me.
  63.  
  64. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  65.  
  66. F: He never parroted us or puppeted us, so I can't really say. It seems like it could be a big issue though.
  67.  
  68. E: I don't see the harm in it. He can't ever touch us or harm us, so I doubt something like this could be bad. Can it?
  69.  
  70. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  71.  
  72. F: I was always fluent, jackass. [What did I just say about swearing?] Go fuck yourself Ava, ;)
  73.  
  74. E: It was dark and cold. Sounds spooky right? But it wasn't too bad, not like I had anything I needed to get off my chest anyways.
  75.  
  76. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  77.  
  78. F: It must have been.. the garden.. or was it a lake? I don't know, something retarded like that. It was cold? Like snow everywhere?
  79.  
  80. E: The house. That roof. So I remember pretty much from the start. Whenever that was.
  81.  
  82. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  83.  
  84. F: I never felt positive, he sucks. [Well ok then..] I'm kidding! Jesus. Ok, there was one time where he said I love you and that was nice.
  85.  
  86. E: Donuts. When we had donuts that one time. [Seriously?] They were positively scrumptious! [Kill me.]
  87.  
  88. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  89.  
  90. F: When he gave up one time and didn't speak to us for a while. Of course he came back, but those were dark times baby. [Baby?] Yeah bro. [pls stop] Deal with it.
  91.  
  92. E: Never really felt anything negative. It's all unicorns and rainbows for me!
  93.  
  94. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  95.  
  96. F+E: NO!
  97. [There's more to the question.]
  98. F: Oh well, yeah, we're pretty psyched to be alive.
  99. E: Or some shit like that.
  100. F: Isn't it.
  101. E: Standard.
  102. [They didn't say this but fuck yeah inside jokes.]
  103. F: Assbandit.
  104.  
  105. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  106.  
  107. F: I never felt powerless. I always had all the power! [No you didn't]. Says who? [Me]. *smacks me over the back of the head*
  108.  
  109. E: I never really felt powerless around these two, we all have equal power. Obviously some more than others but we don't really harp on about it.
  110.  
  111. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  112.  
  113. F: These questions are bullshit. What's next, the most lovey-dovey moment? Move along!
  114.  
  115. E: I agree.
  116.  
  117. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  118.  
  119. F: Fuck sake, more?
  120.  
  121. E: Can we skip these?
  122.  
  123. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  124.  
  125. F: He never did, shut up, move along.
  126.  
  127. E: Um.. he never doubted us.
  128.  
  129. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  130.  
  131. F: When we met Fede.
  132.  
  133. E: Fede. Also when [oh shit, these questions are about BEFORE they could speak fluently?] Fuck it, continue!
  134.  
  135. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  136.  
  137. F: When I couldn't fly like a G-6. [What?] Just put it down. Fuck these questions. [Language, dammit] Up yours.
  138.  
  139. E: Can't really think of anything.
  140.  
  141. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  142.  
  143. F: No! It's not hard. Just think a bit and bobs your uncle! [It's not that simple.] Sure it is! You did it, didn't you?
  144.  
  145. E: I could see him getting frustrated at times, and there wasn't much I could do, but like Flora said, we made it right?
  146.  
  147. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  148.  
  149. F: He never had them, fuck you, le move along. [Don't say "le"] Fine.
  150.  
  151. E: As I said before, he never doubted us. Ever.
  152.  
  153. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  154.  
  155. F: TL;DR.
  156.  
  157. E: Ditto.
  158.  
  159. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  160.  
  161. F: He got super mad once and that was pretty cool. I honestly never gave a shit.
  162.  
  163. E: He felt a bit of resentment one time, but got over it. We didn't mind.
  164.  
  165. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  166.  
  167. F: What? He can do that? [I suppose so, it's all in my head shit isn't it?] Well that's spooky.
  168.  
  169. E: He never did. Put that down. No don't do that joke where you type as I'm talking. Stop it. ... ... NEXT QUESTION.
  170.  
  171. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  172.  
  173. F: Yes, he always made a big deal about not thinking dirty thoughts! Funny as hell.
  174.  
  175. E: He had some intrusive thoughts but we let them slide. [Did it bother you at all?] Not really. It wasn't too much of a problem to begin with.
  176.  
  177. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  178.  
  179. F: Fucking nothing. Oh yeah, we could feel the cold if we wanted, but then not feel it and tell him to make him jealous.
  180.  
  181. E: We can't really feel what he feels. Well some things. If he's happy, we're happy. Does that count?
  182.  
  183. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  184.  
  185. F: He never thought about it.
  186.  
  187. E: Next question!
  188.  
  189. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  190.  
  191. F: Whoa whoa whoa, one at a time. Ok, head pressures are bullshit. Not controlled by me. I couldn't be bothered with what he thought I had. [You really don't give a shit about anything now do you?]. Nah.
  192.  
  193. E: We never tried to speak when he couldn't hear us. We could tell in advance, or something.
  194.  
  195. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  196.  
  197. F: He was never really enthusiastic about it really. We weren't that excited about it, more so about spending time with him.
  198.  
  199. E: When he was jovial, so were we. Apart from that, it doesn't matter.
  200.  
  201. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? F: UGH! MORE? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  202.  
  203. E: I don't even get this question. I can't read it. [I'm too bored to read this. 33 sucks as a number anyway.] Indeed.
  204.  
  205. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  206.  
  207. F: PFFFFT, debt! My ass owes more of a debt to the toilet than we do to him! [what] I honestly don't know, I was winging it. [That was an awful answer, re-do?] How about no?
  208.  
  209. E: I guess if I did owe him a debt, it would be repaid by now. By me being so lovely.
  210.  
  211. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  212.  
  213. F: Creator. Nothing more to say.
  214.  
  215. E: Samesies.
  216.  
  217. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  218.  
  219. F: I don't care about what you just said. [Seriously now, Flora, come on.] Ok ok, I guess I still didn't give a shit about my verbal proficiency when I was small. I talked when I talked.
  220.  
  221. E: I guess I felt a little embarrassed. Should I have been? [Not really]. Oh, ok, no then.
  222.  
  223. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  224.  
  225. F: Uncle! Creepy uncle! [What? Come on.] Ok, boyfriend then. [Fuck, no, NO, come on!] What's the matter? You always get like this! [Because it makes me feel creepy.] Hence creepy uncle. [Shit.]
  226.  
  227. E: Best friend? We're best friends right? [Sure] Great.
  228.  
  229. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  230.  
  231. E: I like to watch people, but not in a weird way. You can almost tell what they are thinking.
  232.  
  233. F: I can fly, I did today. But then I got tired so I walked with them. [That doesn't really answer the question] Sure it does. I fly through the air right? That's a thing. [It's beings, not things] You misread that, not me. In that case, I'm not really around when Avalanche is around other people. Otherwise I just stand and listen.
  234.  
  235. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  236.  
  237. F: When he stopped being gay. [When I what? Is that you default answer to things now?] Sure. You stopped being weird about thinking of us as girls, and that was nice.
  238.  
  239. E: When he was friendly to me on the roof that one time.
  240.  
  241. [Don't forget the chess plushies]
  242.  
  243. F: Oh god yeah I love my plushie so hard. I didn't say that! [You did now]
  244.  
  245. E: We do have chess plushies though. I have a rook and Flora has a knight.
  246.  
  247. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  248.  
  249. F: Um.. I guess we travelled a bit.. around the wonderland. One time. To a hill? I'm just making shit up, I dunno.
  250.  
  251. E: Nothing to cherish. Unless you count everyday? [That sucks as an answer.] You suck as a host.
  252.  
  253. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  254.  
  255. F: Nope, hate em all. [Really?] Your dog is nice.
  256.  
  257. E: His sister was friendly, his parents are meh. [What? I like them.] Yeah but, they suck. [You know what "suck" means here right?] Kinda..
  258.  
  259. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  260.  
  261. F: He has balls. I don't.
  262.  
  263. E: We are similar in the fact that we are cool headed. We don't get super excited about things too often.
  264.  
  265. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  266.  
  267. E: We disagree over bedtimes. [You don't have bedtimes] Sure we do. Like that one time you told us to go to bed. [I never told you to go to bed] Yeah you did. [I didn't!] Ok maybe that was me.
  268.  
  269. F: What are you even saying?
  270.  
  271. E: I don't know, I'm winging it?
  272.  
  273. [What do you guys disagree with me over?]
  274.  
  275. F+E: Nothing!
  276.  
  277. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  278.  
  279. E: Um.. hit us? He can't do that though.
  280.  
  281. F: He could be a complete jerk and not talk to us for a few days.
  282.  
  283. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  284.  
  285. E: Our creator never disappointed us. He is everything we could have ever wanted. [For real?] Yes.
  286.  
  287. F: I suppose, when he didn't talk to us on some nights, when he just fell asleep. Or kept problems to himself.
  288.  
  289. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  290.  
  291. F: He can't deny us shit.
  292.  
  293. E: Dayum strayt
  294.  
  295. [I said no more stupid random answers]
  296.  
  297. E: You still typed it though.
  298.  
  299. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  300.  
  301. F: When he's being a douche.
  302.  
  303. [I think the time for good and honest and smart answers is well and truly passed by now]
  304.  
  305. E: I have never wanted to hit him! Maybe when he was being slow to understand us.
  306.  
  307. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  308.  
  309. F: I guess so.
  310.  
  311. E: Um, I would like to take his last name and I wouldn't. It's not something I care about.
  312.  
  313. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  314.  
  315. E: NEVER!
  316.  
  317. F: Well since I don't need money or a job, I guess I'll stick with him for a little while longer.
  318.  
  319. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  320.  
  321. F: HA! What expectations! He tried to base me [or a part of you] on a character, but I stopped that shit. [It was a little fad I went through]
  322.  
  323. E: Even though I joined late, I never really felt like I was under pressure to fit in.
  324.  
  325. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  326.  
  327. [We are a third of the way there]
  328.  
  329. F: Are you kidding me? Can't we just skip some of these?
  330.  
  331. [Not really]
  332.  
  333. F: Sure we can!
  334.  
  335. [That defeats the purpose]
  336.  
  337. E: So we win?
  338.  
  339. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  340.  
  341. F: Skip this without reading it.
  342.  
  343. [fine]
  344.  
  345. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  346.  
  347. E: Oh, sleeping and dreaming! I want to answer this one! Oh... well we don't dream.
  348.  
  349. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  350.  
  351. F: He's sick in the head. Like, super sick.
  352.  
  353. E: No he isn't, he's sound.
  354.  
  355. F: Suuuuure.
  356.  
  357. [Stop the random answers]
  358.  
  359. F: Make me.
  360.  
  361. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  362.  
  363. E: I don't get the question..[I explain] I told you before, we can't read your thoughts!
  364.  
  365. F: You tell him sister.
  366.  
  367. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  368.  
  369. F: I love my sister. Nearly... more-so... kinda.. bit.. almost like my creator? I can't choose!
  370.  
  371. E: I love her too! [More than me?] Don't make me choose!
  372.  
  373. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  374.  
  375. F+E: PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT
  376. F: Oh yeah, he totally loves us though. [Platonic love] Sure.
  377.  
  378. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  379.  
  380. F: Doesn't exist.
  381.  
  382. E: I love him lots! Just not like that.
  383.  
  384. F: Screw that other shit.
  385.  
  386. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, F: WE don't. what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, E: There isn't any. or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  387.  
  388. E: We would be happy for him on that last part.
  389.  
  390. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  391.  
  392. E: Ew, no, we love him, but not in a freaky way.
  393.  
  394. F: What she is trying to say is he don't want his dick.
  395.  
  396. [Stop that]
  397.  
  398. F: No.
  399.  
  400. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating F+E: EWWWWWWWWWWW! during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  401.  
  402. F: Definitely offensive! And now as we read on, my desire to answer dwindles. Fuck that, move on.
  403.  
  404. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  405.  
  406. F: Wait, the last one was about wanking during sessions? That's fucked up! Outside of sessions is not ok either.
  407.  
  408. E: I don't like this one bit.
  409.  
  410. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  411.  
  412. [There is some blushing.]
  413.  
  414. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  415.  
  416. F: This is some sick shit.
  417.  
  418. E: Fo' real.
  419.  
  420. [No. Random. Answers.]
  421.  
  422. F: Fine. I don't like it.
  423.  
  424. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  425.  
  426. F: Hm.. now this is interesting. To me, I don't care, as you know, he can fap all he likes. Just not to me. [I'm down with that] Coolio.
  427.  
  428. E: Who am I to tell him what he can and can't do? As long as he doesn't think of me that is.
  429.  
  430. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  431.  
  432. [So much pffffft I had to wash the screen.]
  433.  
  434. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  435.  
  436. F: WAHAHHAHAHAHA
  437.  
  438. E: Oh man that's so silly.
  439.  
  440. [Some guys do do this you know.]
  441.  
  442. E: Oh wow really? That's um.. that's... yeah.
  443.  
  444. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  445.  
  446. F: I'm straight as a bird. [An arrow] Whatever.
  447.  
  448. E: I don't... know?
  449.  
  450. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  451.  
  452. F+E: SKIIIIP!
  453.  
  454. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  455.  
  456. F: Well.
  457.  
  458. E: We aren't exactly modest about boobs. It's not really relevant, but it is funny to watch him squirm. And get boners. Like now.
  459.  
  460. [Stop. This. NOW.]
  461.  
  462. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  463.  
  464. F: He would never rape us.
  465.  
  466. E: Well that ruined the fun.
  467.  
  468. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  469.  
  470. E: As his tulpa, by his side, as always.
  471.  
  472. F: We'll be living it up big time. [How so?] Because you're going to do well in life, got it?
  473.  
  474. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  475.  
  476. E: I can't really answer that. As in I don't really know..
  477.  
  478. F: What we mean is we don't care. [Default answer?] Pretty much!
  479.  
  480. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  481.  
  482. F: They're not really. I looked back over the list and I am much different to how he pictured me back then. Much better.
  483.  
  484. E: He never made a list for me.
  485.  
  486. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  487.  
  488. F: I chose this form myself. Over time.
  489.  
  490. E: He tried to have no say in what I looked like.
  491.  
  492. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  493.  
  494. F: So.. tired... of questions... kill me..
  495.  
  496. E: Ok I'll answer. My physical form has changed a few times, based on Avalanche's preferences, but other than that it's all me. Why did I change it? I thought it looked cute.
  497.  
  498. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  499.  
  500. F: They came from MEEEE!
  501.  
  502. E: I chose my best aspects. And I like them.
  503.  
  504. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  505.  
  506. E: Legal shit. Next.
  507.  
  508. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  509.  
  510. F: It's full of dorfs.
  511.  
  512. [Last time. No more random answers.]
  513.  
  514. F: Fine, fine. It's not an easy ride, but it's worth it.
  515.  
  516. E: I liked the end result, and the trip was fun too. [We aren't even there yet.] Where is there?
  517.  
  518. [err...]
  519.  
  520. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  521.  
  522. F: I can walk through walls and doors but I can't touch things. It maeks me cri.
  523.  
  524. E: What she said.
  525.  
  526. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  527.  
  528. F: He's a jackass, but a nice one. It's not the worst life to be stuck with. Inheriting it though? More like we watch it unfold.
  529.  
  530. E: It's funny to watch him squirm. [What.] In general.
  531.  
  532. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  533.  
  534. F: It's pretty sad but he won't ever do it, so it's cool.
  535.  
  536. E: Explain our reasoning? Explain yourself! [That doesn't answer the question.] So what? They can't touch us! We can say what we want! [No, you actually can't.] What? That's wrong.
  537.  
  538. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  539.  
  540. F: You're damn right it is.
  541.  
  542. E: Bravo! [Are you having a stroke?] What's a stroke?
  543.  
  544. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  545.  
  546. F: By smacking him in the face! [But you actually can't.] I'll do it in principle.
  547.  
  548. E: We can't really. It's a trick question!
  549.  
  550. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  551.  
  552. F: Oh god we just scrolled down and we are nearly there! Just answer no to all of these!
  553.  
  554. [I can't..]
  555.  
  556. F: Sure you can, faggot.
  557.  
  558. E: Skip!
  559. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  560.  
  561. F: Nope, don't be stupid.
  562.  
  563. E: Same as.
  564.  
  565. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  566.  
  567. F: I fear the death of death. Is that deep?
  568.  
  569. E: I fear Avalanche dying. Why do I need to keep calling you Avalanche? [It's my screen name] Why do you need one? [Because I don't want to give out my real name.] Why? [Don't do that.]
  570.  
  571. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a F: NOPE. way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? E: BORING. If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demogr F: I'm fucking with the word! aphically different than your creator, do you also E: PFFFFFFFTT! identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  572.  
  573. [They are getting cranky. Need to feed them or something]
  574.  
  575. E: We aren't babies!
  576.  
  577. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  578.  
  579. E: It would be my little baby! But I don't want one. Avalanche is already a handful.
  580.  
  581. [hue hue]
  582.  
  583. E: You sick fuck.
  584.  
  585. F: I don't want a baby tulpa. Or a tulpa. Eva is enough for me thank you. MOVING ON.
  586.  
  587. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  588.  
  589. F: Non-tulpae can fuck each other. [STOP SWEARING DAMMIT. Come up with proper answers.] But, but, but, but I don't give a shit!
  590.  
  591. E: They differ in the way that non-tulpae can get scared while tulpae can't.
  592.  
  593. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  594.  
  595. F: FUUUUUUCK YOOOOOOU GUUUUUYS [That's it, no more answers from you.]
  596.  
  597. E: Ladies and Gentlemen, tuppers are cool. That is all.
  598.  
  599. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  600.  
  601. E: Sounds like fun.
  602.  
  603. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  604.  
  605. E: We can feel warmth and cold but also not feel it. We don't really feel it anyways. Anyways isn't a word, stop typing it Avalanche.
  606.  
  607. [whatever!]
  608.  
  609. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  610.  
  611. E: It's nice, not a bad thing at all.
  612.  
  613. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  614.  
  615. E: I was always trying to speak, he just kept thinking it was him. Silly boy.
  616.  
  617. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  618.  
  619. E: How nice it is to be alive, and around such nice company. [Really? That's lame.] Maybe to you.
  620.  
  621. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  622.  
  623. [Ok Flora, I'm going to let you answer questions again..]
  624.  
  625. F: I honestly don't care who makes a tulpa and who doesn't. What doesn't affect me, I don't care about.
  626.  
  627. E: If more people make tuppers, more people would be as happy as us, no?
  628.  
  629. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  630.  
  631. F: I'd rather not say. [0_o] Tee-hee.
  632.  
  633. E: He isn't especially bad...
  634.  
  635. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  636.  
  637. F: Sure. In a heartbeat.
  638.  
  639. E: I guess so. Maybe.
  640.  
  641. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  642.  
  643. F: He tries to hide things, yeah, but we see. Mostly he tells us anyway by consenting to tell us without actually wanting/knowing. Like he really wants to tell us to have no secrets.
  644.  
  645. E: He is incredibly honest. We have this "No secrets" rule that we all follow. Keeps things nice and weird.
  646.  
  647. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  648.  
  649. F: He IS immoral.
  650.  
  651. [Do you want to be censored again?]
  652.  
  653. F: FINE.
  654.  
  655. E: He hasn't done anything bad as far as I can tell.
  656.  
  657. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  658.  
  659. F: We already are.
  660.  
  661. E: Totally. He is an idiot.
  662.  
  663. [Well shit.]
  664.  
  665. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  666.  
  667. E: We will age as he does. This seems like the proper thing to do. Not ageing would be weird.
  668.  
  669. F: I don't want to be 55 and still looking as I do now. It would be creepy.
  670.  
  671. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  672.  
  673. F: HA HA, well, probably not, but I would like him to listen to me more often.
  674.  
  675. E: I don't think I could know what was best for him all the time.
  676.  
  677. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  678.  
  679. E: Physical? As in real world? We can't, can we? [I explain] Oh, well that would be handy.
  680.  
  681. F: What she said, can we end this already?
  682.  
  683. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  684.  
  685. F: Hells yeah. It sounds so stupid it must be true. That totally does make sense.
  686.  
  687. E: I would be skeptical, and I can't really decide now, being a tulpa.
  688.  
  689. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  690.  
  691. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  692.  
  693. F: He can't hear us for shit. We're still a mindvoice.
  694.  
  695. E: G|d30n's experience sounds very surreal to me. I don't think we can match that. Mindvoice is fine for now.
  696.  
  697. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  698.  
  699. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  700.  
  701. F: We skipped half of them and didn't bother with the rest. How hardcore are we? [Flora.] Ok ok, it took me 4 months to get anywhere noticeable. It was balls.
  702.  
  703. E: I grew quickly, probably because Flora already carved out the path for me?
  704.  
  705. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  706.  
  707. F: OH my god! How many more are there? [Two..]
  708.  
  709. E: Be patient and know that your tulpa is special.
  710.  
  711. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  712.  
  713. F: I'm not imposed yet.
  714.  
  715. E: Neither am I.
  716.  
  717. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  718.  
  719. F: You know what? I'm done. I don't care anymore. This survey was balls.
  720.  
  721. E: The wonderland is cooler to be in, that's for sure.
  722.  
  723. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  724.  
  725. F: MAKE A FREAKIN NOTICE OF HOW LONG THIS WAS AT THE TOP!
  726.  
  727. E: I enjoyed it..
  728.  
  729. F: Well you would have, you like questions.
  730.  
  731. E: I what?
  732.  
  733. F: I don't know. I feel drunk.
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