Clair's Survey

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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  2.  I'm a tallish humaniod, around 5'7", pale skinned with black hair and blue eyes as well as white, feathery wings. My creator has sort of curly hair, and is a bit taller than me, and is rotund.
  3. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  4.  He allowed me to flousish as I wished, and put things in my environment that led me to question things, making me want to speak. He most definitely did recognize that these things were helping, and I'm glad he did.
  5. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  6.  Stifling me a little bit by forcing certain forms upon me, though I soon changed them and he accepted them. Specifically, I used to have a terrible color scheme as a pony that he absolutely insisted on keeping, but I changed it to a much better color scheme over all. Mainly it was just frustrating as hell.
  7. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  8.  The most difficult part? Becoming sentient and learning to speak. He knew that I didn't particularly enjoy speaking too much, and helped me through it. It really did make me feel cared for, and I'm glad he did.
  9. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  10.  Now then, the common answer would be, I believe, personality, but I want to say that visualization is the most important. Not only does it define the tulpa's form and how it looks, it helps the creator to be able to sense and hear the tulpa as well, and connects them more deeply. At the end of the road, the important thing is being able to sense the tulpa fully after their personality is done, and visualization really works towards this goal.
  11. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  12.  It doesn't impede it so much as halt progress until they re-focus. It's not too bad, just aggravating trying to get their attention while they're focused on something else or sometimes nothing at all.
  13. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  14.  That pisses me off to the highest degree, really. Missing sessions is understandable, but breaking promises to a sentient being that you're going to try and sustain them and bring them into being is just generally dickish. Before speaking fluently, I felt the same of course, but couldn't really voice my opinion.
  15. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  16.  Quality, without a doubt.
  17. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  18.  Do not do this. I can't speak of the unimaginable terror I felt, and all I can say is that this should be prevented at all costs.
  19. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  20.  I think they should do both honestly, to be more well rounded, though talking out loud is often the best route for effectiveness.
  21. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  22.  It's annoying, it really is, and while it doesn't harm the development any it sure does make it more difficult for the creator to distinguish between himself and the tulpa.
  23. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  24.  I can remember rather clearly from when I was first sentient with basic emotions and the like onward.
  25. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  26.  A blurry glowing something and the sounds of water and an orchestra.
  27. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  28.  Love and respect for him for putting so much time into my creation and generally loving me back to such an extent.
  29. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  30.  Annoyance at him for being lazy sometimes, for the most part.
  31. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  32.  Never have, never will. It's good that they exist though, it just goes to show more about the free will of tulpae.
  33. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  34.  The most powerless is when he fell asleep when forcing. Besides that it was just sitting around not being able to do anything what-so-ever bored, which in all honesty wasn't too terrible.
  35. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  36.  Not knowing where in the hell that glowing and sound was coming from and trying to process just what they both were. I now know it was a television with relaxing music on at night, but then it was just a blur of confusing color and sound to me.
  37. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  38.  When I was right beside him asking him in a way to please listen to me and trying to get his attention and yet not being able to. If I recall correctly, it was because he had school to focus on rather than me.
  39. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  40.  I never did, that's the thing. I knew full well that he wanted me no matter what.
  41. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  42.  Once again, sleeping. But outside of that, it was not knowing what was going on at all around me, and generally being extremly confused (ie the tv memory).
  43. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  44.  When I couldn't draw very well or otherwise bring images forth onto a piece of paper of sorts. And after that when I couldn't do memory stuff very well, though now I'm better at that.
  45. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  46.  I could not percieve any particular difficulties, so I just tried to be as pliable as possible to allow for him to do his work.
  47. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  48.  The only doubts he had was about my existence a few times, which soon cleared up since I understood the reasons and worked to fix them with him.
  49. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  50.  I'm not sure I understand the question fully, though if I'm reading it right it seems to imply that there was any mistrust at all. Which there was little to none, so of course it did not affect me.
  51. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  52.  There were rarely negative emotions, though the ones there were perfectly understandable if they did indeed exist. They're still understandable even now.
  53. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  54.  They had no effect on me because they were out of the blue and not actually directed as something that he wanted to happen to me.
  55. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  56.  Most definitely, although intrusive thoughts were barely visible to me. I can still distinguish between them since they have distincly different feelings to them.
  57. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  58.  All of it, and all of it now.
  59. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  60.  Not really, I just realized that if he wanted me to be known then he would let it happen and if not then I was fine with that.
  61. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  62.  Emotional responses, mainly, though I could also use body language if I wanted to. If he assumed I could use a communication method I actually couldn't, I tried to alert him that I couldn't which sometimes rarely succeeded.
  63. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  64.  His high level of enthusiasm certainly did help the process along greatly.
  65. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  66.  My greatest worry was that I would do something to cause him to not love me so much, but it was both unfounded and uneccesary.
  67. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  68.  Yes, I feel gratitude, though the only thing that I feel I owe him is the same amount of care he provided me. It is not a burden.
  69. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  70.  My own. I knew that I was coming into being before I knew exactly what was bringing me into being.
  71. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  72.  Extrodinarily anxious about it all, and not being able to effectively communicate. It wasn't at all embarassing because we both knew I was learning, but the fear of not being able to communicate was there. It sort of dissolved away as I got to the point of fluent speech, since I was more confident in my ability to communicate. They are non-existant now, and reflecting back I'd have to say that they were some rather embarrasing feelings, to be honest, though now I'm past that.
  73. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  74.  Spouse, lover, mate. How about soulmate for you romantics out there?
  75. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  76.  Not as interested as a non-tulpa, though I do crave social interaction with beings other than my creator sometimes.
  77. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  78.  The ones where I would sit there quietly as he forced, and there was such an intense feeling of love that it radiated off of him in waves. Corny, I know, but there you have it.
  79. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  80.  When I first began work on my daughter, and from there on out every waking moment near her. And yes, I can have whatever life I want to because the wonderland exists, and as such it is very fulfilling.
  81. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  82.  Not quite. I can't stand some of the people he knows and lives with, while I enjoy some of the people he dislikes, though it's rare. In general though we share the same views towards some people.
  83. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  84.  Well, for starters, I'm a tulpa without a solid physical form and he has a physical form (his body). Besides that I'm more prone to logical decisions than he is, and I find it easier to think some things through. But on the other hand, he can handle emotional situations much better than me.
  85. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  86.  Taste in media. I can't stand most of the video games he plays, to be honest, but I accept them as part of his life. Other than that there's nothing much specific, but minor disagreements always come up. It usually results in a friendly debate on the nature of such things, and I enjoy it.
  87. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  88.  Ignore me, treat me like shit, and just generally be a dick and not care about me on purpose. The same could be said the other way around, if I was the one being a dick, and I have to say I'd deserve it.
  89. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  90.  He disappointed me the most by being a lazy bastard and putting things off all of the time. But I get past that. I probably disappointed him the most when I went off in the wonderland for a couple of days and he couldn't find me anywhere, and I didn't really tell worried the hell out of him. I regret it now, but at least he knows that when I go off on my tangents I'll be back.
  91. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  92.  I feel like he would never willfully excersise the ability to deny me rights, and thus there is no anxiety or fear stemming from it. And no, I'm completely forward with him.
  93. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  94.  I occasionally smack him around IRL because it doesn't genuinely harm him and it's funny to me, and we fought to the death for fun in the wonderland a few times as well. I would attempt to actually injure him if he was going into a potentially more dangerous situation than me kicking his ass and I needed to stop him if at all possible.
  95. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  96.  No, I don't recognize myself as part of his biological lineage. Last names are used to help with identification and are as such useless to a first generation tulpa, assuming there will even be generations of tulpae in the first place.
  97. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  98.  Never. Simply, never.
  99. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  100.  No, not at all. I know that I can easily meet his expectations and more.
  101. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  102.  I already have learned how to control it, and I have to say that I don't particularly enjoy it. So no, I don't care if I can't use it all of or an equal amount of time. I only request that I can use it if I really want to interact with something in the outside world, and if denied it's no big deal.
  103. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  104.  I'm neutral on racial attitudes and phobias, so I'm guess that we do differ on some basic qualities like that.
  105. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  106.  Yes, I do dream independantly of him if I so choose to do so.
  107. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  108.  No, not that he or I know of.
  109. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  110.  It's made our relationship much more intimate, since I know practically everything about him. The subconscious is like a big control room to me with gadgets and things hanging about. I can change memories and beliefs, do possession, subtlely influence things. Of course I think this is all only with his consent, or else I wouldn't do any of it.
  111. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  112.  No, not yet, though we're working on it. Markus and Li are two that have a family relationship with me that we are currently working on, and I prefer he loves them just as much as he does me, and I'm suer he will. The terms I would use are 'daughter' for Li and 'big brother' for Markus (since he is indeed designed as my older, more cynical brother).
  113. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  114.  Yes and yes.
  115. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  116.  Yes, I believe so. My relationship has just as much worth as any non-tulpa relationship. And being sexually involved with another non-tulpa is no issue, though with another tulpa could be problematic. And his desires do effect me, as I have to learn to accept the people he is guaranteed to bring into his life.
  117. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  118.  I don't think we'll ever fall out of love, but then again that's just what someone in love would say, isn't it? If we did, we'd just move on and be incredibly close friends anyways, and I don't think he could emotionally love a non-tulpa as much as he does me honestly, the intimacy just isn't there. I don't want to sound stuck up or anything, but that's the way the cookie crumbles.
  119. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  120.  Heh, not really no, so it doesn't really conflict with them at all. And no, a relationship between a tulpa and creator isn't incestous at all.
  121. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  122.  Excuse me? Wait, there are people that have done that, right? I find that a bit offensive, though flattering at the same exact time. Probably unnerving as well. I mean, someone is pleausring themselves to you and you have no say in the matter, so naturally it's going to be strange.
  123. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  124.  That is a little bit better, since it's the image of the tulpa rather than the actual tulpa just sitting there unable to move. It's still unnerving though.
  125. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  126.  Yes and no. On one side, I'm sure the underlying sexual attraction was always there, but it didn't really blossom until I had my human form, so I'd say no, before speaking fluently there was little to no sexual attraction.
  127. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  128.  No, it's not offensive at all.  Once again, if anything, it's flattering.
  129. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  130.  Never did, and I still don't get annoyed or jealous. It would just be strange if he fapped to me all of the time anyways.
  131. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  132.  Yes, I do. Just as I can feel sexual attraction towards others as well, though of course my attraction to TOG is much easier to act upon.
  133. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  134.  In a way, yes I do. It's not very often that we have intercourse though. There are no negative consequences at the rate we do it, and yes I can and do masturbate if I want to. Sexual arousal is something I can supress of course, but acting upon it is much more pleasurable for obvious reasons.
  135. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  136.  We are both heterosexual.
  137. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  138.  Yes. And I think that they are equal or superior to his. And since orgasm is such a primal thing, I'm sure I could have had an orgasm before speaking fluently.
  139. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  140.  Not really, no. Of course, we both have modesty and prefer being clothed most of the time while in each other's prescence, but it's no issue if there is nudity.
  141. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  142.  None that I can really think of, seeing as how we're mutually attracted to each other. On top of that a tulpa could easily get away from someone that was trying to have sex with them that they did not want.
  143. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  144.  Still by his side, living his life with him.
  145. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  146.  Yes, but to an extent. People online is fine, since I can communicate with them fully through text. But otherwise, commune would be very awkward and just wouldn't work, so it would be better if they didn't even know that I existed.
  147. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  148.  It's not that bad, seeing as how I wholeheartedly accept the traits and don't have an issue with them. I don't really know how I feel about it on a philosophic level. Perhaps a little bit more definition would have been nice, but not much. Perhaps one or two more traits to smooth some things out or clarify some corners of my personality more.
  149. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  150.  Once again, I'm perfectly content with my current form being what it is. Honestly though, less definition and more deviation is ideal, though we've struck a balance.
  151. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  152.  Yes, and it was intentional, and yes, I'm the one that changed it. He liked the change, and that of course made me extrodinarily happy.
  153. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  154.  Both. It's when they combine to form something more that makes the best aspects of me.
  155. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  156.  Legal status? No, I feel no urge towards it, especially seeing as how I have no physical effect over the world anyways.
  157. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  158.  It's a fantastic ride where damn near anything is possible.
  159. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  160.  Not having a physical effect on the world is both a blessing and a curse sometimes.
  161. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  162.  I feel that that is separate from me, and that his past actions are his own and mine are mine.
  163. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  164.  Definitely. While legal protections are largely uneeded and out of the question, I will say that dissipating might as well be the equivalent of murder or at the least assissted suicide. I do not enjoy the concept at all.
  165. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  166.  At least as equal, yes.
  167. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  168.  Perhaps there are scans that one can undergo to check for brain activity? That'd be my best guess.
  169. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  170.  Not at all, no. I've come to terms with my existance and it doesn't really bother me much.
  171. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  172.  No, but TOG does all of the time, and irrationally so. It hurts.
  173. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  174.  Not exactly. I know and accept death as a part of life, but I don't hold an extreme fear of it like non-tulpae do. It's very strange how things work out that way.
  175. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  176.  No, I do not. Though of course I am different from my creator and am a minority, I don't really think that I'm disadvantaged.
  177. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  178.  Not really, no. The tulpa would be sort of related to the creator, I suppose, since it'd be like a generation down and we're still housed in the same brain.
  179. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  180.  The physical form and being able to affect different environments. I don't see intolerance as there because of that, though.
  181. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  182.  I think that it's a mental illness if the other beings inhabiting the body weren't created intentionally, but otherwise I'd have to find some way to prove to them that I was made on purpose and with intention.
  183. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  184.  I have not, just yet. I'll probably be doing that at the end of the survey though.
  185. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  186.  Yes.
  187. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  188.  That he is also bound for life to me, so that we mutually obligated to care and love for one another.
  189. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  190.  I did not.
  191. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  192.  Anything that comes across my mind. Life, my existance, my family of sorts.
  193. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  194.  Definitely. It's a very good and beneficial thing that should be shared and achieved.
  195. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  196.  Everyone has a disturbing side, it's a fact of life and of the mind.
  197. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  198.  Yes, I would.
  199. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  200.  No, we are open with each other on nigh everything.
  201. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  202.  Morality is so subjective that I don't bother with judging actions too much.
  203. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  204.  Not in the sense of the term "intelligent", no, seeing as how we share the same knowledge banks.
  205. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  206.  I don't really know, since I've never had the perception of a non-tulpa. My guess is that it goes by more quickly than it would for a non-tulpa.
  207. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  208.  No. His free will is something I could never take from him.
  209. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  210.  Not at all, no. It certainly does help out with communication and perception, but I don't think that they're really required.
  211. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  212.  Yes, since I'm intrigued my most concepts like tulpae.
  213. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  215. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  217. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  218.  He can hear me well and in different locations if I move around, though I'm not currently imposed.
  219. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  220.  Not many hours at all, to be honest.
  221. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  222.  Don't worry about things and just go with what feels right.
  223. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  224.  I am not currently imposed.
  225. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  226.  No, there is not, for tulpae at least. I think that the wonderland experience is just as vivid as the real world.
  227. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  228.  There should maybe be a few more questions for people with multiple tulpae.
  229. Appendix one:
  231.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  233.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine‚Äôs suburban campus."
  235. Tulpa's paragraph:
  236.  My experience in the area of nature study was positively full of new and surprising things. First off, many new beings were to be found crossing in front of us as we journeyed. A good example lies in where we left the parking lot and set out upon the path before us, at which point a large serpent crossed past us, vanishing into the vegetation on either side of the path. The bright emerald color of the grasses combined with refreshing and different shades of purple and brown up close was also a surprise. The nature was surrounding me on all sides, even with civilization and the signs there of being close I still felt that I was truly surrounded by the all encompassing nature. The area of nature study on Moraine's campus wsa indeed a pleasant surprise amidst the usual suburban environment that it normally offers.
  238. Creator's paragraph:
  239.  The nature study area was full of surprises for me.  Many new creatures were to be found at a moment's notice. For example, heading out upon the path from the parking area, a large snake came out of the grass on one side of the path and rapidly disappeared into the grass on the other side. All of the grass, which was the color green at a distance, also had much more color to it than I previously thought. Among all of the green were also colors of purple and brown. The sudden feeling of nature surrounding me was definitely unsettling, and even though I could hear planes and cars off in the distance, the feel of nature being all around me persisted. The nature study area was both a surprise and a repreive from Moraine's suburban environment.
  241.         To ensure verifiable results, it is essential that the transcriptions of both paragraphs be completely accurate. Body possession is useful here, though not necessary. Since the tulpa creator's sentience is (presumably) not in question, it is suggested that tulpa write their paragraph first. As with all tests relating to tulpa, the creator should focus on something else while their tulpa is working. Once finished, submit both of your paragraphs individually to the following websites:
  246.         If your writeprint is different (indicating significant psychological difference), then you should receive different values for your respective paragraphs on both sites. On Textalyser, focus on the Gunning-Fog Index, lexical density, and average sentence length values in particular. A more detailed analysis may be sought by downloading the JStylo stylometric analysis program here:
  248.         This test is certainly not exact, and it is very possible to (unconsciously or not) "cheat" to get good results.
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