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- Background:
- Last few months my life had been just staying home, doing 3d modeling and gaming on computer. I
- avoided going outside as much as possible.
- First thing I did on mornings was turning computer on and going into games and do game dailies, maybe
- talk with my dear internet friends too.
- I sit front of my computer, put headphones on my head and listen music or voice chat if game had some
- activiteties going on while chain smoking all day.
- That became all my life. I started to feel desperation and depression. Not sure what I really wanted.
- Started to feel lonely, which I did not before feel. No online friend was able or willing to tell me
- what I needed to hear.
- I got to the point I did drink alcohol enough to get two days hangover, felt too depressed to even
- smoke anymore. Alcohol is never the solution and the next three days I did drink psilocybin tea,
- knowing the shrooms have helped me before.
- Third day on shrooms:
- I felt super depressed. I tried to talk to my online friend who was just ignoring me. I hoped I'd just
- disappear. I felt I am bad at everything and every bad thing is my fault. I realised I don't actually
- have real friends to rely on when I am doing bad. My whole world was falling apart.
- I started to cry, which I wasn't able to do for at least past year. It was hard to get the tears.
- After I cried enough I opened my eyes, and I saw at what fucking mess I am living. Smoked cigs
- everywhere and I even hadn't smoked for 4 days.
- BOOM!
- I felt my identity had been crushed and I was freed from it, freed from all the bad thoughts and memories.
- I felt peaceful. Good, calm. All was right, and what wasn't was gonna be someday.
- I took headphones from my head and swapped music to speakers. It felt great, it all was not happening
- inside my head anymore. I was here in this world.
- I cleaned the mess, then I went to bathroom and cut my hair and went to shower. I felt totally
- different person and it was amazing. Like I had just awoken from psychosis or something. I feel I am
- actually living.
- I can say shrooms have had very positive life changing effect on me.
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