Seven days af form

PASSWORD: supportsanggyun

USERNAME: XxCloverLovelessxX

NAME: Shin Jidam

AGE: 21

BIRTHDAY: June 8, 1995

SLOT: Just Friends

YOUR EX: Jimin

BACKUP: Jin

FACE CLAIM: Hello Venus Yooyoung

BACKUP FACE CLAIM: GFriend Sowon




|| snowflakes are falling ||

BACKGROUND: Jidam is a pretty normal girl on the get-go. She was the only child in a fairly well-off yet strictly disciplined family whom she knows she loves and that she's loved in return, and all in all she has grew up pretty well. She didn't go out of her way to have the initiative to make friends with her friendship circle in the present, rather, she met most of them through a mutual friend or family, or if someone else approached her, in which by then she's not really one to refuse offers of companionship either way.

Jidam was neighbors and close family friends with Jin since Jidam was just in preschool. Because of that, Jin has always played with younger Jidam back then, even until now, they have the same brother-sister rapport. Because of that, it was pretty easy for Jidam to make friends as well through Jin. However, she did manage to make friends with those who are her age without too much difficulty when she met them in high school. She attended the same high school as [You're My Everything] and later met Taehyung and Jimin afterwards. She met Namjoon through Jin, then Jungkook through Jimin and Taehyung, and she has already met the rest once she's started attending college, where she pursued a psychology degree.

Jidam wasn't even really sure what had drawn her to Jimin. She does know that he was funny, sweet and playful. When with him, Jidam feels comfortable and relaxed, she feels at ease when he's by her side. She's been harboring feelings for Jimin since high school, and it was only recently that she finally said screw it and asked him out.

Jidam has always acted as the person who tries to get them out of trouble, but never stops them from doing it in the first place. However, she has always tried to maintain some semblance of peace between everyone, and she's going to continue doing it.

PERSONALITY: A nice lady with openly good intentions and careful treatment to her friends with the occasional suddenly rough actions, Jidam is a woman full or contradictions. Easygoing but passionate. Logical but hotblooded. Cautious but reckless. Caring but direct. Emotional by strong. Gentle but firm. But still a lot rougher way deep down.

She's generally good-natured and humorous, even with a dry sense of humor and wit, but Jidam always makes sure that she never steps over a line, or anybody else for that matter. The peacemaker who is the first to make sure everybody gets to make up after a fight. She can go for the soothing and gentle route to get them to do it, and if that doesn't work after several moments of saintly patience and unrelenting stubbornness, then Jidam could then get a little more assertive.

At first glance, Jidam seems to be what people had pegged to be the mature one out of them. Jidam herself doesn't seem to think so, and she clarifies that she's only responsible, not mature. For some reason, she thinks the word equates to being not fun, which she's definitely not. She does lack the initiative to go out there and make friends with strangers, but she's not one to refuse if somebody else approached her. She's friendly enough, caring and surprisingly has a wild side in her if certain conditions are met. However, most of the time, she still attempts to be "the responsible one" in the group, and actually goes out of her way to take care of the others and make sure they are comfortable.

She has a dependable and sisterly aura surrounding her, and she's mostly calm and collected at things and takes every situation with practicality and logic. Sometimes, it's almost unnerving how she could easily control her emotions and merely use simple pragmatism so that she could get her point across. She knows how emotions could cloud someone's judgement, and how it could ruin a good relationship with someone, so she often tries to be the person anyone could feel safe and comfortable no matter what they would say and do. She just doesn't want any unnecessary conflict to happen, and she's fine with losing if it means things wouldn't be a complete mess, no matter how much she wants to, because she knows you can't always get what you want. She's pretty good at reading emotions and deciding what is the best course of action in different situations. However, just because she has a pretty good control of her own emotions doesn't mean she never gets it loose, especially if it should go against her own nature. As long as nobody pushes a certain button, Jidam could keep control.

Because of her decidedly repressing some of her emotions and opinions to mediate and pacify, when Jidam felt like she's suddenly being treated unfairly, when she knows that she's been pushed a little too much, Jidam could actually come off as...intense. If you managed to make her let loose, she's just as wild, bold and intense as anyone, even more. Of course, this side doesn't easily come out. It will slip out sometimes in stressful situations, and she must be inches from a breakdown for her to be able to let it all out. At times like that, being the rational pacifist and mediator goes completely out of the window and the rougher aspects of her personality become more defined and emphasized.

Jidam is still a passionate woman at heart who sometimes feels too much, and she could only put a lid on so much emotion before she explodes. She's a cold layer of ice hiding a strong fire burning underneath. She's hotblooded once you get to know her better, and very protective if you just notice it a little bit more. Jidam's always ready to fight for something she thinks is worth fighting for. She actually has a lot of pride, but she does know when to give up. But Jidam is never the type to forget. Whether it was a nice or painful experience, Jidam is never the type to run away from something and prefers to do it head-on immediately if she has the capability to choose to do so. But since there's the fact that everybody cannot just be like her, she keeps quiet for them. She keeps quiet and comforts them, because sometimes that's what they all need instead of a solution to a problem. She wants to solve it, but she couldn't do it alone.

But perhaps, if she tried, she wouldn't really know how to stop, or take no for an answer, or end up crossing a line somewhere, and that could lead to conflict. That fear of the possibility everything falling apart if she would keep pushing is the only thing keeping her from letting out her naturally brazen and forceful personality come out.

LIKES:
• Her friends
• Sports
• Watching movies
• Baking
• Summer
• Mystery novels
• Sweets

DISLIKES:
• Being forced to do nothing when she could do something
• Zero communication
• Unnecessary conflict between friends
• Being underestimated
• Running away from problems
• Losing

HABITS/HOBBIES:
• Daily morning and nightly jogs
• Stress-baking
• Puts too much force on actions she's doing for the first time
•  Has a tight grip on anything
• She puts up a strained smile and starts blinking if she's feeling angry or sad but she doesn't want to show it to people




|| i guess we changed ||

WHO ARE YOU CLOSEST TO (GIRL): [You Are My Everything]

WHO ARE YOU CLOSEST TO (BOY): Jin




|| snowflakes are falling ||

WHAT WAS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH LI A YEAR AGO: Before and during they were going out, Jidam and Jimin were close friends. Perhaps not as close as she is with Jin, but close enough that they're very comfortable with each other and tell each other things they don't easily share with others. Jidam always acts as if she's looking after Jimin, stopping him for joining the others from doing something stupid, although in the end she ends up joining in the fun anyway. They were sweet and yet still playful with each other, comfortable and affectionate. They banter and tease each other, but in the end they still show that they do love each other. The only difference when they started dating was that they definitely engaged in more skinship, although it was quite sudden. Nothing too major, simple handholding in public, but definitely cuddles in the right situation. However, what was notable was that Jidam seems to at least initiate affection more than Jimin. Jimin does his part of displaying affection as well, but Jidam seems to have been leading the relationship. However it was clear that their relationship was built in trust and comfort. It wasn't the "makes my heart beat so fast" kind, it was the "makes me feel at ease when by my side" kind of romance. It wasn't a reckless first love kind of scenario, they're not that inexperienced. But it was the kind of love where they balanced and grounded each other, and they accept one another, plain and simple.

WHAT WERE THE THINGS YOU DONE WITH LI A YEAR AGO:
• Went stargazing on the beach once on a sudden moment of spontaneity when they were on a nightly jog together and ended up to have slept on the beach
• A sweet and long picnic date at the park, where Jidam first kissed Jimin
• Both of them baking which also ended with a mess in the kitchen as they were also fooling around at that time, but they at least managed to make really good cookies
•  Actually not telling the others that they're dating for a few weeks before suddenly announcing it

WHAT CAUSED YOU TWO TO BREAK UP: When they started dating, Jimin really didn't expect much to change. They were close enough to begin with, and maybe he might feel a little something for her if they give it a shot. It was great at first, nothing seems to have changed, but there were the little things. Little things that Jidam did, holding his hand, initiating cuddles, suddenly turning a normal outing to so much more, that Jidam wouldn't have done to just any guy. Jimin knows that they were what Jidam was supposed to do if they are dating, and Jimin's doing his part, too. He didn't ignored it at first, but those little things suddenly become more frequent, and Jidam wasn't the only one doing it, so was Jimin. And that was where things start to get a bit messy. Moving on from their usual comfortable friendship, to something Jimin wasn't sure he wanted from Jidam. Maybe he really didn't think it through when he agreed to date her, but Jimin thinks that he did like her at time. And when they were dating, Jimin finds himself liking Jidam more and more, but he felt like things were going too fast. He was suddenly starting to see Jidam as something more than a friend, that girl he didn't need to impress because he knows that she knows him, and how that would entail to their familiar routine intimidates him. The transitions overwhelmed him, and he decided that it was just awkward to start treating Jidam completely different than what he was used to. He couldn't just ignore those feelings of discomfort from a sudden change of dynamic anymore, and so Jimin broke up with Jidam.

Jidam was confused and angry, but she was fully willing to fight to make it work. And she did, she really tried to understand and make what they have work. But after seeing that Jimin even wasn't considering, she got the message that he just doesn't want to do it anymore. After seeing how seemingly overwhelmed Jimin was, she decided not to push. She's still not completely sure why, but she could only accept that they could only be friends then. She can't force him to feel something for her, so she could only take his friendship, and reassure him that they ended their relationship on a good note with a kiss on the cheek.

HOW DID YOU LEAVE THE DORM?: Jidam really didn't want to leave the dorm, but after with Jimin, she understands that they both need space after everything that just happened. She chose to be the first one to leave after troubling Jimin. She didn't really made a secret out of it. She announced it to her friends that she needs to leave the dorm since she doesn't want Jimin, and everybody else, to be uncomfortable and awkward with each other, so she's decided to make it easier for everyone to adjust and get used to the fact. She tries to leave on good terms with everyone before going on her way.




|| but really I can't let you go yet ||

HOW YOU ACT AROUND HIM NOW: Jidam acts the same as ever with Jimin before they dated. Or at least she tries. She attempts to be at least as touchy when they were friends, but if she sees any detail that says Jimin isn't comfortable about it, she's fast to back away. She obviously still has that soft spot for him, and as usual, just wants them to be comfortable with each other now that they've met again after several months. Outwardly, she seems to have accepted that he wasn't feeling it when they were dating, and finds ways so that they could return to being friends. Plain and simple.

Of course, way, way, WAY deep down, Jidam's still confused. She's only a little angry now, mostly because she still cannot understand a full reason why he suddenly just want to stop dating her. She has suspected reasons, but she doesn't want to assume until he explains it to her. If he explains, that is. She's also a bit annoyed with him the one acting awkward, but she bites it down. She bites every question she's dying to ask, every negative emotions toward Jimin, every flicker of hope that maybe they could still make another relationship work down, because she didn't want everything to be complicated as it already is. No matter how much she wants to ask why. Why did he let her go? Was she too intense? Too assertive? She's not as clingy as [You're My Everything], is she? So why? No matter how much she sometimes wants to grab him by the lapels and tell him to stop being such a coward. She can't risk everything to get messy again. She managed to hide her feelings from him throughout their high school life, she could hide her still present feelings for him a lot longer.

WHO ARE YOU DATING RIGHT NOW?: Namjoon

HOW HE ACTS AROUND YOU NOW: Ironically enough, while Jidam was acting at least outwardly comfortable with him, Jimin is the one being awkward. He tries to go along with her being friendly and affable as always, but he acts as if skin contact was suddenly forbidden. Of course, they broke up, it was expected to be awkward. His smiles were forced and he can't look her straight in the eye anymore for more than a minute. But he still shows that he cares for her, because he really does. As a friend. At least, that's how it should be.

He sometimes thinks that maybe it was too late? That after breaking up, he couldn't just return to how things were. He couldn't see her as a friend anymore? But Jimin doesn't want to believe that. They could still be friends, right? She said so. He was afraid of "more" with her, but is he satisfied with "less" with her now? Is it really to late for him now to get back as just friend with her? No, Jimin just wants to be just friends. He wants to fix it. He and Jidam could fix it, right?

WHO IS HE DATING RIGHT NOW?: None




|| cherry blossoms are blooming ||

SUGGESTED SCENES WITH THE GROUP:
• Maybe some form of misunderstanding, because of the way Jimin and Jidam acts, they assumed that it was Jidam who dumped him, and wow was Jidam pissed when she clarified that Jimin dumped her
• Just Jidam joining Jin in trying to fix everyone's relationships with each other

SUGGESTED SCENES WITH LI:
• Baking a cake again for Minjin, and things get a little awkward and heated when they reminisce about doing the same thing when they were dating
• Jidam just suddenly spilling out all her emotions on how everything's a mess with everyone's relationships in disarray, Minjin's condition, how she couldn't just stay still, how she couldn't do anything now either way, and Jimin is the one who's there to comfort her
• Kissing while Jidam is dating Namjoon, either one could've initiated it

NOTE TO AUTHOR: So there you go! I've really tried to put as much detail as possible for this. I hope you accept this, or at least consider so that if there's anything you'd want me to change, just let me know and I'll do what I can.