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PinkAura: o-o? did you accidentally invite me?
Ashtaroth: no i meant to but the room blacked out on my end
Ashtaroth: WTF
Ashtaroth: WHY DID IT LOAD THIS ROOM
PinkAura: ?
Ashtaroth has changed the room to: !D Dark NYC Loft
Ashtaroth: THERE
Ashtaroth: pretend you never saw that
PinkAura: awh
PinkAura: i liked that room
Ashtaroth: it's one of my fun rooms
PinkAura: I like it :c
PinkAura: I like the colors
Ashtaroth: Thank you
PinkAura: so what's up?
Ashtaroth: I saw your message earlier about wanting to talk but I was in a bad mood already and didn't want to make things worse
PinkAura: Yeah, I wanted to apologize to you because, idk I like you and I feel bad and I don't want our friendship to get ruined
PinkAura: And I'm sorry if I've been kinda clingy. I've been kinda up and down lately since the thing with Steve.
Ashtaroth: It's okay, I understand the whole steve thing
Ashtaroth: I'm sort of in a bind with the whole Al coming back from the psych ward thing. I know how you feel
PinkAura: I know but it's not an excuse to take it out on you guys.
Ashtaroth: sorry for replying slow i'm like
Ashtaroth: dreading lifting my arms from a resting position
Ashtaroth: I got really defensive last night because Mars means a lot to me. I'm sorry I ignored you all day
PinkAura: It's okay, I didn't realize she meant so much to you.
Ashtaroth: I mean
Ashtaroth: she's my girlfriend
PinkAura: My friend is reading her valentine to me :)))) not realizing how I feel- anyways
PinkAura: Oh
PinkAura: I thought she was just a friend.
Ashtaroth: No, as of yesterday she is not
PinkAura: Lucky
PinkAura: lmfao
Ashtaroth: hm?
PinkAura: nothing
PinkAura  she grabs a pillow off his couch, hugging it close to her chest as she curled up on the couch
Ashtaroth  he scoots closer to her, wrapping his arm around her frame and patting her back in a comforting manner
PinkAura  she scoots away from him, sighing softly "It really hurt my feelings."
PinkAura: I know I hurt you, but you really hurt me.
Ashtaroth: what hurt your feelings?
PinkAura: you ignored me
PinkAura: all day
PinkAura: in front of everyone
PinkAura: Do you think that made me feel good?
PinkAura: I'm sorry I hurt you about Mars, and I'm sorry I'm being overly sensitive about this. But I'm so tired of feeling unwanted.
Ashtaroth: ...You belittled my girlfriend IN FRONT OF ME and you expected me to just be cool with it? To not hold any ill feelings towards you the next day?
PinkAura: I didn't belittle her, I don't even know her or what she did. I was trying to make you understand how Kat and Dahlia felt.
PinkAura: And you know what I'm fucking going through right now
PinkAura: Whatever, it's not like my feelings matter anyways.
PinkAura: i'm not even gonna continue fighting about this, there's no point. I didn't intend to belittle Mars, I don't even know her to judge her.
Ashtaroth: Oh fuck off with this. If you want to turn this into a pity party then fucking do it in someone else's room. I know how they feel it's been established but don't act like you weren't trying to talk down on me. I have the fucking screens. Your feelings matter but not when you're using them to guilt trip me into feeling some sort of fucking way. We're all going through some bullshit right now that's not any fucking reason to do this.
Ashtaroth: Leave.
Ashtaroth: afk.
PinkAura: I wasn't trying to talk down to you, or Mars. But at this point I don't even care. You don't care what you put me through so it doesn't matter. You can think I'm trying to guilt trip you all along I don't care. But it feels like shit to have someone come after me like you did and then we did what we did and then you ignored me like I'm trash. You can ignore this, I don't care, but I need to get it out of me because I'm angry and hurt. I'm so tired of being unwanted and used and led on. Whether you meant to or not it fucking hurts, and I'm so angry. I just wish that life was fucking easy and I can just meet someone who sees me as someone special to them and not see me as someone they can use to take advantage of. I'm so tired of putting everyone else's feelings before my own and no one does the same for me. I'm so tired of putting people before my own self but they wouldn't do the same for me. I thought you were different, but you just see me as worthless too, don't you?
PinkAura: I'm sorry I'm being a bad friend right now, I'm just all over the place with my emotions and the shit going on in my life.
Ashtaroth: What did I put you through? Not talking to you today? You're literally guilt tripping me with the whole "oh no one likes me my feelings don't matter I'm going through so much and you don't care!" routine. I came after you because I liked you. We fucked because I like you. I IGNORED YOU BECAUSE YOU WERE DISRESPECTFUL TO MY RELATIONSHIP. I'm not ignoring shit right now you need to understand that emotional manipulation isn't pretty and for ranting so much about how you've changed yesterday you're still pulling some real gaslighting shit right now. You want to say "oh i'm not al" but this is some Al shit you're on. I never used you or led you on. You can say that all fucking day but at the end of the day we're still FRIENDS. and that's all that we were ever going to be. When have you ever put my feelings above your own? You constanlty invite me or be like "you hate me don't you?" knowing DAMN GOOD AND WELL I DON'T so I'll come swoop in and make you feel better and it's fucking bullshit. Its exhausting. I'm not any different from any other fuckboy on the internet. We just work together. I never said you were worthless but you treat yourself like you are so maybe instead of looking for self worth in random dudes look in the fucking mirror and tell yourself that you're worth something.
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