ph demotion is not my fault and here's why

supreeeYesterday at 8:45 PM
well im back
and i think i have to give my input on the old shark demotion
Weurseuk BéyYesterday at 8:46 PM
Wb
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 8:46 PM
huh?
supreeeYesterday at 8:46 PM
whenever i get infracted for something, i usually admit my own fault to it, like i usually have a knee jerk reaction
but then i realize that it was my own fault
case in point krooks ban where i thought they were waiting for bias ban but it was a really bad thing to say
but this is the only time where i come to the conclusion that it's not my fault
so here's what happened
so you saw that i made that really self deprecating goodbye message in the discord right?
that wasnt because of the demote, even tho just the demote would really suck
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 8:48 PM
yes
Weurseuk BéyYesterday at 8:48 PM
Ye
supreeeYesterday at 8:48 PM
it was two things
so before i get into this i wanna explain something
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 8:48 PM
ok
go ahead
supreeeYesterday at 8:48 PM
my self esteem irl is actually really low and not like how i act here, i mostly act like that to disguise my real self esteem to myself
but if someone i think is cool like insults me or something, i'll have a panic attack and then ill be in a really bad mood the rest of the day
so now on to the two things
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 8:49 PM
shit talk them back
I can train u
I shit talked cenane
supreeeYesterday at 8:49 PM
no like
if i think its bad ill just like be really sad
and not answer
ok so the first thing that made it bad was the fact that ransei basically told me in pms "you're a piece of shit here's your demote" and that everyone in krooks discord came to watch
which was so crushing cause i was having that self hatred attack and it made it a million times worse
Weurseuk BéyYesterday at 8:51 PM
:(
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 8:51 PM
Ransei's going down
supreeeYesterday at 8:51 PM
and then the second one, which i came to realize today, is that all the points for my demotion were total delusional bullshit
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 8:51 PM
he gonna get
YTASH TALKED
supreeeYesterday at 8:51 PM
and after some self reflection i am convinced it's because there is a good group of the staff that doesnt like me
like they really dont
so lets break this down

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supreeeYesterday at 8:53 PM
so because i have humor that can come across as really pointed, and i do it a lot, and i don't point out when it's sarcastic, it has created a negative impression on a bunch of staff

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supreeeYesterday at 8:53 PM
because of this negative impression, they have all decided they dont want me as staff
from discord

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supreeeYesterday at 8:54 PM
so they dont want me as staff
i think ransei is also included in this group
i get the impression he doesnt like me
so anyways they scrounge my ph record for all of the antagonizing evidence they can find
the evidence pile, consisting of unrelated stuff, bias, straight up lies, and out of context stuff can justify at most an hour mute
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 8:55 PM
pokemon is dirty
supreeeYesterday at 8:56 PM
so once the krooks ban came along, something else that's unrelated, they decided they had enough evidence to go through with the plan
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 8:56 PM
like the staff
just make an alt
supreeeYesterday at 8:57 PM
they didn't have nearly enough, but because of my self hatred panic attack cause i thought ransei was a really cool person i really thought it was unarguable and i believed all of it
so thats what led to the message
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 8:57 PM
hmmmmm
supreeeYesterday at 8:57 PM
the reason why i come to the conclusion of it being not enough evidence is because
i'll show you what was said to me

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supreeeYesterday at 9:02 PM
ok so i have compiled all of the evidence
and why it is wrong
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:02 PM
ok
supreeeYesterday at 9:02 PM
so here what was said to me
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:02 PM
CASE STUDY
supreeeYesterday at 9:02 PM
- i say inappropriate things (this is the only thing that is actually solid, i do tend to say inappropriate things sometimes and again i usually dont clarify the joke, but it's not enough)
- i'm rude to new players (which is a lie because i always help them and build new teams for them and make resources for them, like what?)
- i'm immature (the one thing he had on this was cause when one of the staff left i made a joke on "how could you leave me out of the shoutouts" and didnt clarify it, so it made me look like a really bad person)
- i said "hey pokevana you have titties" in a back and forth in ag chat (this is unrelated, was taken super out of context, was blown way out of proportion (pokevana wasnt even offended, because everyone knew that it was a joke and part of the back and forth) and on top of that it was literally a month ago)
- krooks ban (its unrelated and i already got the punishment i deserved)
Gordon RamseyYesterday at 9:03 PM
Lol
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:03 PM
o
supreeeYesterday at 9:03 PM
the rude to new people really caught me off guard because im super nice to new players
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:03 PM
so what happened
like the krook ban and
supreeeYesterday at 9:03 PM
the krook ban and that demote
and then nothing else
the real problem was i believed this all as fact
Gordon RamseyYesterday at 9:03 PM
Me want invite
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:03 PM
what did the poke guys who should go get a job do to u
JerryYesterday at 9:03 PM
wait
supree
supreeeYesterday at 9:03 PM
because of my self esteem dropping so bad

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supreeeYesterday at 9:04 PM
the whole thing when you look at it is utter delusion
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:04 PM
who cares
let em gth
supreeeYesterday at 9:04 PM
dude i care
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:04 PM
shit talk em it feels good
supreeeYesterday at 9:04 PM
i really like playing ph
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:04 PM
its pokemon
JerryYesterday at 9:04 PM
that sucks
supreeeYesterday at 9:04 PM
BUT
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:04 PM
oh
supreeeYesterday at 9:04 PM
there is one thing that gets them from this
JerryYesterday at 9:04 PM
for you
dude
supreee
you should tell other people
about your problems
Weurseuk BéyYesterday at 9:05 PM
That's what he's doing
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:05 PM
like ur parents
supreeeYesterday at 9:05 PM
i was by far the most active contributor in the forums, chat and discord
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:05 PM
they will do something bout it
Weurseuk BéyYesterday at 9:05 PM
Agreed
supreeeYesterday at 9:05 PM
pumping out new teams resources and posts all the time
Parin_PlayzYesterday at 9:05 PM
agreed
supreeeYesterday at 9:05 PM
without me ph is gonna drop dead in activity