Big Gay Baby

bastard manToday at 4:06 AM
i just wanna have a garden and do nothing but take care of my plants
AlasdairToday at 4:06 AM
That's the dream
It might not happen right away but you can get closer to it in little ways
bastard manToday at 4:07 AM
bleh bleh bleh
hard
flops
AlasdairToday at 4:07 AM
I help
bastard manToday at 4:07 AM
b l e h
AlasdairToday at 4:07 AM
Do you have any plants in your place right now?
bastard manToday at 4:08 AM
yes! i have basil and some succulents
AlasdairToday at 4:11 AM
I was gonna look into getting you one of those little windowsill herb gardens to start
bastard manToday at 4:11 AM
hush, youre not allowed to get me anything
plus, i have enough plants for right now
but thank you for the thought
you're kind
you're nothing but kind
i appreciate it
you're a warm presence in my life
AlasdairToday at 4:12 AM
Okay but consider:
I want to so I will
It doesn't have to be plants!
bastard manToday at 4:13 AM
hush hush
AlasdairToday at 4:13 AM
Even if it's something small, I want to get you something you can keep
bastard manToday at 4:13 AM
but ive already got your friendship
and that means more to me than any material thing you can get for me
AlasdairToday at 4:14 AM
Mmmmmmgh you're being sweet
bastard manToday at 4:14 AM
and truthful
the feeling that you give me when we talk is all i need
i just love listening to you talk
or
i guess reading
AlasdairToday at 4:15 AM
But it would mean a lot for me if you had something tangible and physical that you could look at and hold and have it remind you of me even w
w...
God, my heart wasn't ready for that
bastard manToday at 4:16 AM
hehe
how about this-- when we've had one year of friendship, we can send each other something
AlasdairToday at 4:16 AM
DEAL
JUST GOTTA MAKE IT TILL JANUARY BAYBEY
Our friendaversary
Oh, but your birthday gift doesn't count
That's a special occasion and it's exempt
bastard manToday at 4:18 AM
:gun:
AlasdairToday at 4:19 AM
You can point the gun at me all you want but I already paid for it!
bastard manToday at 4:20 AM
...
excuse?
AlasdairToday at 4:21 AM
>:)c
bastard manToday at 4:21 AM
b a b e
what did you do
AlasdairToday at 4:22 AM
Crimes
It's not physical, before you worry!
bastard manToday at 4:22 AM
mmm
but..
but... money
AlasdairToday at 4:23 AM
I don't always have it, but when I do, I want to spend it on the people I care about
I promise, I never go beyond my means
It was just good luck that the day fell around when I had a little extra to spare
If I didn't have enough to splurge on someone important to me, I wouldn't do it
bastard manToday at 4:25 AM
hh...
okay..
i love you man
i appreciate you so much
AlasdairToday at 4:26 AM
I love you too!!! And I want to give back the joy you make me feel a hundredfold, however I can
bastard manToday at 4:31 AM
thats soft and gay and i had to take a moment because i was tearing up a tad
AlasdairToday at 4:32 AM
UUUUGH how dare you be so precious
For the record, I'm STILL thinking about that whole "listening to you talk" bit and it's got the butterflies going wild
bastard manToday at 4:33 AM
look i just
i dont need to know what youre even going on about
i just love seeing messages pop up from you
nothing makes me feel more excited than seeing you type a message
i feel warm and giddy
AlasdairToday at 4:34 AM
I'm
I can't take this
bastard manToday at 4:35 AM
its true
AlasdairToday at 4:35 AM
I KNOW, THAT'S THE THING
I don't even doubt you're speaking the complete honest truth
That's what's got me fucked up
Not for a second do I believe you're anything other than this amazing, cool, chill dude who's happy to be around me and cares about what I have to say
And that's such a wild concept to me that I got so lucky
Don't take this as me, like, going full-on pedestal pushing or whatever because I know you're a dork and there's things we don't agree on or I don't get but the Sheer Fact is that I just like you a whole bunch no matter what and I know having a different perspective or butting heads isn't gonna break us
bastard manToday at 4:40 AM
wtf...
im the lucky one...
AlasdairToday at 4:42 AM
idk I just wanna! spend more time with you, doesn't matter how or what we do
I wanna enjoy your company
bastard manToday at 4:43 AM
hmm... sometime, we should watch something together
something feel good
AlasdairToday at 4:43 AM
Soft and Tender... I have so many candidates lined up
bastard manToday at 4:43 AM
oho?
AlasdairToday at 4:44 AM
Mostly in the vein of weeb shit because honestly what do you expect from me BUT
We'll figure it out
Maybe also [vaguely gestures] a call or something sometime
No pressure
bastard manToday at 4:46 AM
hhh
i dunno
my voice on call makes me feel very
girl
and i dont like it
AlasdairToday at 4:46 AM
GOD, MOOD
bastard manToday at 4:47 AM
plus, if you never hear my voice, you can pretend i sound like haru or dabi or something
which is objectively way cooler
AlasdairToday at 4:47 AM
Yeah but here's the thing, if you'll allow me to be gay for a second
I wanna hear your voice 'cause it's yours, because it belongs to you and nobody else
But Also I'm in the same boat of sounding like a 12 year old boy scout and getting insecure about it and also I've got -1 verbal conversation skills, so I'm the last person to get huffy if you're just not up for it
bastard manToday at 4:49 AM
i feel like i'd be quiet and shy
but
maybe
AlasdairToday at 4:49 AM
I just wanted to let you know the option's out there, if or when you wanna take it <3 No more, no less
bastard manToday at 4:49 AM
:black_heart: ill consider it
because i like you
and you make me like myself a little more
i feel like theres something of value
AlasdairToday at 4:51 AM
I think there's a lot less pressure when it's somebody who's got the same exact Issues™ as you do, and for my part at least, I think the best parts of getting to hang out on call aren't trying to fill every second of silence and you're just allowed to Be
Like, maybe you're doing your own thing and they're doing theirs and it's quiet but it's a Comfy kinda quiet
I like to think that ours can be a nice kinda quiet <3
bastard manToday at 4:52 AM
ah
holup
tears
AlasdairToday at 4:52 AM
BABYYYY
bastard manToday at 4:52 AM
i should just keep my tissue box nearby tbh
AlasdairToday at 4:52 AM
GOD NOW I'M TEARING UP!!!
bastard manToday at 4:53 AM
I JUST
REALLY APPRECIATE YOU
i appreciate how
magical you make every little thing sound
everything was mundane until you started to bring light into my life
and now i see it everywhere
and
pbbt
i dunno
words
things feel good
thank you
AlasdairToday at 4:55 AM
I GOTTA TAKE A SECOND, holy fuck
I love you a whole bunch and I feel a little silly for having to, like, work myself up to mention the fact that I just want to talk to you and hang out and exist in the same general vicinity even if it's not physically
But your comfort and boundaries and general happiness is The Most important thing to me
Nothing's worth it if you're not 100% down and excited and enthusiastic
bastard manToday at 4:59 AM
you're.... gay and im soft...
mmmmmmmMM why are you so sweet
AlasdairToday at 4:59 AM
I AM gay and you ARE soft and I'm sweet because you deserve it
That's all there is to it!
bastard manToday at 4:59 AM
why are you like
a dream come true
AlasdairToday at 5:00 AM
You're worth the very best I have to offer
bastard manToday at 5:00 AM
h
AlasdairToday at 5:00 AM
I mean it! I wouldn't try so hard if I didn't think you were the Bee's Knees
I like Nyx and Sam and our little squad we've got going, they're fun, but do you think I'm murmuring sweet nothings into their DMs every single waking moment? (Don't answer that)
bastard manToday at 5:01 AM
stop making me feel special
i feel dumb for smiling at my computer
AlasdairToday at 5:01 AM
I won't because you are special!
bastard manToday at 5:01 AM
bleh
stop being a silly goose
my face hurts
AlasdairToday at 5:02 AM
You know what'll cure that? A nap
bastard manToday at 5:02 AM
i wanna just shove my face into a pillow and scream cause youre so damn sweet--
..
fucka you
AlasdairToday at 5:02 AM
basard
You never answered my proposal
(Not my marriage proposal, we already did that and you're stuck with me, bitch)
Will you get some rest here and tackle the day in a couple hours?
bastard manToday at 5:03 AM
sighs
yeah
i will
AlasdairToday at 5:04 AM
!!!!!!! <333333
bastard manToday at 5:04 AM
only for you
AlasdairToday at 5:04 AM
You get a kiss when you wake up!
bastard manToday at 5:04 AM
id like that
okay okay
ill rest now
im starting to crash anyways..
you get some sleep too
okay?
i love you lots..
AlasdairToday at 5:05 AM
I will, I will, I'll fall asleep at about the time you're ready to go
I love you many
I wish you the sweetest, softest, gayest dreams
bastard manToday at 5:05 AM
you as well, my love
my sunshine
goodnight
AlasdairToday at 5:05 AM
AH...
Right through the heart
bastard manToday at 5:05 AM
hehe
AlasdairToday at 5:06 AM
Goodnight, my moonbeam <333