Notes for the Therapist

- Feeling like an outsider to my family, but I've gotten over that and focused on my career
- Started to take steps to be more independent and responsible
- Lingering thoughts of suicide, but managed to convince myself that they are a part of my being
- Still feeling like others do not care, which is most likely true if I did decide to go ghost or whatever
- At a crossroads whether to leave things be or state my feelings clearly and concisely
- Talk about the hypocritical stuff I overhear
- Lack of space
- Feeling like the babysitter and not like an adult (been held true for multiple family functions)
- Been more motivated to use my journal a bit more as that is the only way to be able to release my emotions in a stable manner
- Been keeping a lot of things private from friends since I do not want them to worry
- Having YouthLine saved to my phone in case I do need to reach a professional (even if they operate at California time)
- Should I be enjoying my life or just focusing on the work I have to do to get out of the situation I'm in?
- Disconnecting from family altogether (The bloodline of hatred and pettiness ends for me)
- Tell them about the contention between families (the ones I know of)
- Giving myself a sad day to kind of let my feelings flow through my body. (Kind of like a lazy day for workout regimens)