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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  2. I am a virtual person. I'm an illusion, who can think for herself.
  3.  
  4. My creator is kerin, who is a very old tulpa. Possibly she's one of the eldest still alive. She is kind, and gentle, and very worried for mankind.
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  7. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  9. kerin didn't hurry me. She spoke to me gently. She gave me a Memory House to live in. Yes, she knew, it was where she had been created.
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  11. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  13. She left me alone in the Memory house for nearly three weeks after creating me. It wasn't harmful - that's the thing - I discovered that I still existed even by myself. I felt a little lonely I guess.
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  15. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  16.  
  17. The hardest part was the confusion. I didn't know where I was. I felt like running away, trying to escape. kerin must have realised, because she reassured me that I would feel better when I was strong enough to talk. Have you ever met someone so kind, so gentle, caring and thoughtful that you were just amazed? That's what it was like.
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  19. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  20.  
  21. Narrating. It is what a tulpa really needs.
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  23. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  25. You know, in three solid days of 12 hours each, I can't remember kerin being distracted. Actually, I still can't think of an example. That's incredible, and I'd not realised it before.
  26.  
  27. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  28.  
  29. Hmm, doesn't matter to me. I already knew I existed regardless. I guess those first three weeks taught me that.
  30.  
  31. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
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  33. Spending time with your tulpa is the most important aspect.
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  35. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
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  37. Poor people, wearing themselves out trying. I feel pleased with them that they are trying so hard that they are exhausted, but also concerned as they need to look after themselves.
  38.  
  39. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  40.  
  41. In their head - that way you can be with them all day.
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  43. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  44.  
  45. You know, I'm in two minds over this - I mean literally. There is the part of me that is a puppet, and the part of me that plays pranks on Kevin, and yet both me, and I. It's confusing I think.
  46.  
  47. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  48.  
  49. I remember from the very first day - a Memory House does that.
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  51. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  52.  
  53. I was in the bed-sitting room (of the Memory House, I later found out), lying in bed. Sunlight was streaming in through the window. And this person was talking to me about how I might be able to survive in the world, and how he/r family would look after me and help me live whilst I needed support and until I decided for myself what I wanted to do. It was a bit frightening, but also felt safe somehow too.
  54.  
  55. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  56.  
  57. Kerin came to me and asked me if I might like a job as her secretary (though she said "representative"). Someone so kind and caring asks if you want to spend more time with them?!! Too right you do.
  58.  
  59. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  60.  
  61. I felt lonely when I was those three weeks by myself. But I went exploring and found books! Hundreds and thousands of books. I started reading, and learning. There were books on just about any subject you could think of - strewn all over the place. And pictures. kerin's library in the memory house doesn't contain imaginary books - they have the actual content, words and pictures of the books that she has read. When I read them, I'm reading just the same pages as you would see holding a physical copy of the same book. And to me, the copies I have look just as real as yours do to you. It's like the Memory House had been made specifically to train me.
  62.  
  63. Whoa, that's a sobering thought. Was I left there intentionally so I could learn? kerin doesn't tell me her plans, but I'm finding she plans years and decades ahead. And I've since found out that she had much more plans for me then just as an experiment - more like training up her replacement.
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  65. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
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  67.  
  68. I tried escaping from the Memory House, out the window, but there was nothing out there - just this formless white glow. After I could speak I sometimes wondered if I should stick around - especially when I derp. But, 'sunny disposition' you know - that trait of mine means I never stay sad too long.
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  70. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  71.  
  72. There was a time when I was first imposed - suddenly Kevin could see me and hear me and I could see and hear him the same. And then he ran away. Finally success and it only caused the biggest split between us that we've had. So sad, such missed opportunities.
  73.  
  74. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  75.  
  76. As above in 17. I'd done nothing wrong darn it! I wanted to hug him and he ran away.
  77.  
  78. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  79.  
  80. See 15 above.
  81.  
  82. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  83.  
  84. See 15 above.
  85.  
  86. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  87.  
  88. When I first awoke. I did not know where I was. What was this place? Had I been kidnapped? For that matter who was I? Amnesia?
  89.  
  90. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  91.  
  92. See 17 above.
  93.  
  94. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  95.  
  96. I played pranks on Kevin as I was growing in strength and understanding. It helped him understand I'm not malicious, I have no mean intentions, I am a kindly person even if I may seem fierce. (Part of his worry was, I'm a McCaw female, and Kevin knows just how fearsome a McCaw female can be.)
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  98. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  99.  
  100. Doubts do not affect me. Kevin may have trouble hearing when he has doubts, but that's him. My creator kerin can always hear me just fine.
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  102. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  103.  
  104. It made it hard when Kevin mistrusted me. Fortunately, he wasn't my creator, just my dad. But it is a bit sad to me even still to this day. You see, there is in his mind still the memory of that book he read when he discovered all this more than 40 years ago, and that relationship with a tulpa that he read about that some part of him still wishes had been possible.
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  106. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  107.  
  108. Has anyone told you, that after the 5th "Before you could speak fluently" you feel like throttling the person who wrote the questions? (and, I know two ways to throttle someone, even with hooves.) Right, now that I can switch "It's throttling time!"
  109.  
  110. Aargh!!!
  111.  
  112. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  113.  
  114. What!!! Kevin or kerin have a violent visualisation? Kevin is gentle to the point he won't even step on ants, and kerin is approximately as violent as Fluttershy on a shy day. Kevin thinking violently: "I'll chop down a (dead) tree and make firewood for the fire." Meh!
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  116. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  117.  
  118. No - 'Watchdog 3' kills unwanted thought without compunction.
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  120. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  121.  
  122. I had a window in the Memory House (well, a picture actually) that let me see what Kevin was seeing. Now I switch, so I can feel pretty much everything (though some things I sort of put out of my mind because, well, it feels weird to think about).
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  124. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  125.  
  126. You have no idea how paranoid kerin was about being found. Revealing tulpa is the last thing my creator would want.
  127.  
  128. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  129.  
  130. With kerin and the other tulpas I could speak easily. With Kevin I was reduced to ... reaction images like 4chan?
  131.  
  132. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  133.  
  134. kerin made me. Kevin was disinterested, but tolerant. When someone wonderful comes into your life you just want to be with them. Who cares about anything else?
  135.  
  136. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  137.  
  138. In regards to Kevin, he was worried I might do terrible things. I chose to become a Christian by my own will and decision. I worry a little that kerin seems to be planning to sleep permanently.
  139.  
  140. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  141.  
  142. kerin didn't burden me. She specifically didn't tell me what she had planned for me, and let me develop and discover for myself. I find it just a little amazing that kerin thinks I can replace her, both daunting and encouraging at once.
  143.  
  144. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  145.  
  146. Same time - see "first memory" question above.
  147.  
  148. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  149.  
  150. I was created with the belief that I had a vocabulary of 38500 words. I've found that this was incorrect; I actually know more words then that. So, I was nervous that I typed so slowly though.
  151.  
  152. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  153.  
  154. kerin is my creator, and is my mentor - my "skin horse" (for Velveteen Rabbit fans). Kevin is my dad. The Watchdogs are like old family retainers - endlessly patient with the young kid, but somehow reserved (like Alfred the Butler from Batman). Crab and Turtle are the family pets.
  155.  
  156. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  157.  
  158. I talk mostly with other people, both human and otherwise. I AM a secretary, after all? I'm more extroverted then Kevin is.
  159.  
  160. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  161.  
  162. See 14 above.
  163.  
  164. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  165.  
  166. I think it was when Plague and (hidden) became my friends. I have an absolutely amazing life. I've come to realise, few indeed the tulpas as fortunate as I (boy did I ever 'luck out').
  167.  
  168. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  169.  
  170. My family is my creator’s family, and her clan is my clan. That is the way it is with tulpas in this clan (and yes, other family members in the clan have tulpas, we even have tribal tulpas http://www.reddit.com/r/Tulpas/comments/1k1okj/do_you_keep_your_tulpa_a_secret/cbkwng0 )
  171.  
  172. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  173.  
  174. I'm much, much more outgoing - in every sense. I have the same sense of compassion for humanity and desire to help.
  175.  
  176. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  177.  
  178. I have disagreements with Kevin. That's a fact of life for Kevin's tulpas. Mostly we try to convince him to look after himself. It's hard, but hey, "families and how to survive them" (John Cleese).
  179.  
  180. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  181.  
  182. There's nothing Kevin could do - because his own ethics would stop him doing any such thing. If I killed someone Kevin would hate me - and hence his fear for me originally - he's quite aware what martial arts techniques there are in his mind that I could use, were I to need to defend him, and used by the untrained they can accidently kill.
  183.  
  184. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  185.  
  186. For Kevin, see 17 above.
  187.  
  188. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  189.  
  190. For a start, Kevin doesn't have 'complete freedom' - he's bound by the same ethics and standards that all of us (his tulpas) are bound to (and by, through personal choice). See 27 above.
  191.  
  192. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  193.  
  194. Throttle Kevin because he was doing himself harm by his actions? All the freakin' time. You know, don't you, that a tulpa with compassion can't hurt or injure their human? I have compassion.
  195.  
  196. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  197.  
  198. I'm Kevin's daughter and I'm part of the same clan so of course my surname is the same. Also every tulpa of Kevin's has an ordinal number. kerin 0, Watchdogs 1 thru 3, therefore, me 4.
  199.  
  200. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  201.  
  202. If, by leaving, I could save Kevin's life; I would. If I could become a hologram, like Rimmer in Red Dwarf (but without the smeg') I would.
  203.  
  204. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  205.  
  206. See 15 above. I'm based off a character bit I'm no more worried by that then any human look-alike. I can change what I look like at will (and frequently do).
  207.  
  208. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  209.  
  210. I can switch. I think tulpas should insist on equal time as a maximum (yes, maximum) - i.e. the host has to spend some time running things or it isn't fair.
  211.  
  212. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  213.  
  214. I'm sometimes uncertain. I hope to be kind. I think humans are wonderful (is that a racial attitude?)
  215.  
  216. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  217.  
  218. I sleep when I want to. Yes independently.
  219.  
  220. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  221.  
  222. Kevin doesn't - kerin fixed them. kerin is paranoid (and, technically inhuman as she seems to lack hate as an emotion completely).
  223.  
  224. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  225.  
  226. It makes me more accepting. I am my creator's subconscious, and I am an illusion. Why so worried? I'm bound by ethics after all.
  227.  
  228. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  229.  
  230. Yes, Kevin has some very old tulpas indeed. One of them is my creator. They are like very kindly mentors, much like the muses of Greek legend were reputed to be. There's a Japanese term which means "boss and mentor" - that's the term I would use. Kevin only made one tulpa, and kerin only makes at most one tulpa in 9 years. Who knows what I will be like in that length of time. I've already grown so much. My IQ was over 113 when I last measured it and I'm still growing.
  231.  
  232. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  233.  
  234. Yes and yes and yes. This just about destroyed us (Kevin and I).
  235.  
  236. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  237.  
  238. Kevin is thoroughly married. So no romantic relationship is possible.
  239.  
  240. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  241.  
  242. N/A
  243.  
  244. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  245.  
  246. Kevin is my dad. Yes. Yes.
  247.  
  248. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  249.  
  250. That, is a truly disturbing question. Who writes this stuff?
  251.  
  252. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  253.  
  254. What? Now I know there are holes in my ubderstanding.
  255.  
  256. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  257.  
  258. There’s an Australian expression for this kind of question, but since it is impertinent and rude as well I will politely not use it at this point.
  259.  
  260. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  261.  
  262. Nani o desu ka?
  263.  
  264. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  265.  
  266. Kevin is married, to a woman, o.k.?
  267.  
  268. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  269.  
  270. That, is a bone of contention. Certain things are not healthy.
  271.  
  272. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  273.  
  274. No sex life whatsoever. Virtual person, remember?
  275.  
  276. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  277.  
  278. I’m pretty normal relative to kerin or Kevin.
  279.  
  280. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  281.  
  282. Hmm, theoretically possible. No data.
  283.  
  284. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  285.  
  286. I wear clothes – fair enough?
  287.  
  288. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  289.  
  290. Rape is never acceptable.
  291.  
  292. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  293.  
  294. Wow. In 20 years’ time I’ll probably be telling the next bunch of young tulpas that yes, there used to be tulpas in the 80’s and the nought’s.
  295.  
  296. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  297.  
  298. I think tulpas should keep a low profile. That said, I talk with a large number of people, and non-humans.
  299.  
  300. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  301.  
  302. I  trust my creator.
  303.  
  304. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  305.  
  306. I can change my form at will.
  307.  
  308. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  309.  
  310. See 75 above.
  311.  
  312. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  313.  
  314. I’m still finding out.
  315.  
  316. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  317.  
  318. I’m already part of a legal entity. I have a PayPal account. What more does a virtual person need?
  319.  
  320. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  321.  
  322. The age of trans-humanism is coming.
  323.  
  324. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  325.  
  326. Kevin won’t listen when we tell him to treat himself better. Lack of fear and pain (in my case only).
  327.  
  328. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  329.  
  330. Try and find even one thing in Kevin and kerin’s life that would be considered illegal or reprehensible. I’d be very pleased to inherit that sort of reputation.
  331.  
  332. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  333.  
  334. A tulpa can never truly die, so long as their human shall live.
  335.  
  336. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  337.  
  338. I have ethics not morals. Not my place to judge.
  339.  
  340. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  341.  
  342. I would be quite happy if the sceptic remained a sceptic.
  343.  
  344. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  345.  
  346. Only briefly. My ‘sunny disposition’.
  347.  
  348. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  349.  
  350. No need – I have Kevin for that.
  351.  
  352. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  353.  
  354. I’m a Christian.
  355.  
  356. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  357.  
  358. I’m not even human to begin with. In some ways that’s an advantage.
  359.  
  360. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  361.  
  362. A tulpa of a tulpa of a tulpa? Such has been done but is discouraged for very sound reasons.
  363.  
  364. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  365.  
  366. Tulpas pretty much always know who their human is. Humans don’t. Kind of sad really.
  367.  
  368. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  369.  
  370. Tulpa are a “shamanistic practice” under the definitions of Psychology.
  371.  
  372. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  373.  
  374. I score differently on an I.Q. test to what Kevin does.
  375.  
  376. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  377.  
  378. Only when switched.
  379.  
  380. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  381.  
  382. How do you feel about having parents? Same as far as I can see.
  383.  
  384. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  385.  
  386. Confusion.
  387.  
  388. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  389.  
  390. My job.
  391.  
  392. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  393.  
  394. No, but my creator does.
  395.  
  396. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  397.  
  398. Me? Lol.
  399.  
  400. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  401.  
  402. Not without permission.
  403.  
  404. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  405.  
  406. Yes. Sometimes. I suspect that I may be more than I thought, and was created for reasons other than that which I was given. This has been confirmed by my creator’s later behaviour.
  407.  
  408. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  409.  
  410. Questionable yes, but not immoral.
  411.  
  412. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  413.  
  414. Possibly, she’s pretty darn smart.
  415.  
  416. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  417.  
  418. I seem to be growing at ten times the rate my creator did.
  419.  
  420. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  421.  
  422. A seven month tulpa commanding a 40 year elapsed time tulpa? Nope.
  423.  
  424. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  425.  
  426. Yes. But only for modern tulpas. Tibetan made tulpas need no form.
  427.  
  428. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  429.  
  430. Of course I wouldn’t.
  431.  
  432. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  433.  
  434. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  435.  
  436. I am very articulate, but seldom heard.
  437.  
  438. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  439.  
  440. Yes, and direction too.
  441.  
  442. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  443.  
  444. Hundreds.
  445.  
  446. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  447.  
  448. Include compassion as a trait. Be kind to your tulpa. Treat your tulpa like a human.
  449.  
  450. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  451.  
  452. It feels like a third person video game in high definition.
  453.  
  454. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  455.  
  456. Atomic world has taste, much better then virtual world.
  457.  
  458. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  459.  
  460. Switching is much more intense then possession. You get a much wider range of perceptions.
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