Willhart - Today at 6:34 AM
Also was that server just randomly deleted?
Aposke - Today at 6:35 AM
No, it's still there, you're just banned
Willhart - Today at 6:35 AM
I hear other people could not enger either.
*enter
Also I would like to talk about it with mable, assuming they run that place.
Aposke - Today at 6:38 AM
yeah, good luck with that
she hates you
Willhart - Today at 6:38 AM
pholtos yesterday: seems like discordhaus 1 is gone
Completely
Also why is that?
I don't think I have done anything to them.(edited)
What would be the best way to contact them?
I still want to be part of the talkhaus community. I don't think that is a crime.
And they did not even contact me or anything.
I did not plan on causing any drama there either. Just to be present.
I'm kinda tired of how people have been treating me recently.
Did they give any reason for it afterwards?(edited)
Aposke - Today at 7:00 AM
...not that I'm aware
Apparently mabel just short-circuited?
Willhart - Today at 7:07 AM
Sounds worrying.
Willhart - Today at 10:15 AM
I don't get how it is so damn hard for Horikawa to allow me to comment on her videos again.
Aposke - Today at 2:11 PM
Because she's sick of you
And also because you creep her out
And also because you never stop
And you never see the fundamental problem that you have
Willhart - Today at 2:14 PM
It was not always like this.
Aposke - Today at 2:15 PM
Of course it wasn't, and then you started obsessing over her
Willhart - Today at 2:19 PM
I ended up harassing her and did a lot of mistakes, but I never wanted to hurt her. Again I just want to be her fan now.
I wanted to be able to comment on her videos to show that I could handle it and not use them obsessively.
Aposke - Today at 2:20 PM
You offered her money for her to let you comment again
You can obviously not handle it
I've met a lot of insane people on the internet during the last 10 years and just from having seen your posts and talked to you for a few days, you're by far the worst I've ever encountered
Willhart - Today at 2:20 PM
I hoped it would make it easier for her.
And more sincere.
Aposke - Today at 2:21 PM
You just never stop. You never give up, even when it's abundantly clear you have less than a 0% chance of winning
Willhart - Today at 2:21 PM
That I had no second intentions.
Aposke - Today at 2:22 PM
Here's an easy question for you: How many times do you need to be told "No" before you stop
Willhart - Today at 2:22 PM
And I know the history and know there has got to be some way.
Aposke - Today at 2:22 PM
There is no way
Willhart - Today at 2:22 PM
Also depends on a question.
Aposke - Today at 2:23 PM
Most things are impossible, and if you act stupid, you're just making even more things impossible for you
Sometimes people will refuse to listen to you and want nothing to do with you
And there's nothing you can do about it
Willhart - Today at 2:23 PM
It is not a big thing to ask. I limited it to make it as easy as possible.
Aposke - Today at 2:24 PM
You have absolutely no capability of empathy
Willhart - Today at 2:24 PM
And there are still things I've not tried.
Why do you say that?
Aposke - Today at 2:24 PM
You can't even see why she would turn that request down
You can't for a moment imagine what other people might think of you
Willhart - Today at 2:24 PM
I am desperate.
Aposke - Today at 2:24 PM
No, you're clinically insane
You're far beyond the realm of people one can take seriously(edited)
Willhart - Today at 2:26 PM
I just feel like that I did not explain it right or something.
Aposke - Today at 2:27 PM
That's not the issue.
Someone like you could never explain it right
It's like asking a fish to fly
It's never going to do it
Willhart - Today at 2:27 PM
The way she described it was very different from how I intended it.
And it shouldn't be that hard of an concept.
Aposke - Today at 2:28 PM
People who aren't you are going to think differently than you
The more you try to "fix" this, the more you're gonna dig your own grave
There is nothing left for you to do here, you can literally only make it worse
Willhart - Today at 2:29 PM
Hmm. I don't want to be in this situation though.
Aposke - Today at 2:29 PM
Shit happens
Willhart - Today at 2:29 PM
And as I said I still have hope.
Aposke - Today at 2:29 PM
You don't have hope, you have an obsession
And you are not able to resolve every situation you don't want to be in
That's how life works
Willhart - Today at 2:30 PM
And yeah that's true.
I feel like it is more than that.
I'll have to go now tho.
Willhart - Today at 3:14 PM
She has still not said neither yes or no for the offer yet, I don't think. Only said that I had done it.(edited)
Aposke - Today at 3:14 PM
As I have said before, you are incapable of empathy, and that's why you think she has not said yes or no yet
Much of human communication is not explicit, and she does not need to explicitly say "Yes" or "No" in order for 99,9% of her viewership to get her message
Willhart - Today at 3:35 PM
I don't think I have complete lack of empathy. The therapy would have brought something like that up by now.
I'm just kind of jaded to the current situation.
I kinda lost a lot due to my actions.
Aposke - Today at 3:38 PM
It's very likely that your lack of empathy is simply a symptom of a more fundamental personality issue and that's simply why your therapist hasn't explicitly brought it up
Not that you'd need to be a therapist to notice it
Adding to your lack of empathy, you don't take other people seriously and never take a single thing they say to heart
You always come up with your own excuses, why it's okay what you're doing currently, and why you'll be doing them in the future, too
When people tell you to change your behavior, you never do, because you always think there's a way out for you
But guess what, there isn't
Willhart - Today at 3:40 PM
It's hard for me to believe that there is absolutely no way out.
Aposke - Today at 3:40 PM
There is absolutely no way out
This is, in fact, one of the defining features of human life
You cannot change most things to your will
Willhart - Today at 3:41 PM
She had no problem with it earlier.
Like I really don't think anything is impossible with some time. unless someone dies.
Aposke - Today at 3:43 PM
And that's where you're wrong
A fish will never survive without water
An elephant is never going to fly a plane
Willhart - Today at 3:44 PM
For a short while yes.
Also I don't think the metaphors are helping much.
Aposke - Today at 3:44 PM
The sun is going to turn into a red giant and burn every living being on the planet
Willhart - Today at 3:45 PM
If I had a gun I would have probably already shot myself.
Fortunately I don't.
Aposke - Today at 3:45 PM
Thermodynamics dictate that the entire universe will end in a state of uniform termperature
All of those are facts that you cannot change
You can't change that you'll eventually die, either
You can't change the fact that winter will come, and it'll become cold
Willhart - Today at 3:46 PM
I don't think this is similar issue.
Aposke - Today at 3:46 PM
You can't change the fact that you need water to survive
Willhart - Today at 3:46 PM
People change.
Aposke - Today at 3:46 PM
Yeah, but not in the way you want them to
You cannot make other people change to your will. Ever.
Willhart - Today at 3:46 PM
I know as much.
Aposke - Today at 3:46 PM
Unless you physically restrain them, and at that point you might as well keep them as your slave
Good, then stop trying.
Willhart - Today at 3:47 PM
I still have not explained it properly.
Like it was clear she did not understand it.
Aposke - Today at 3:47 PM
It was not "clear"
Willhart - Today at 3:47 PM
That I really need it.
Aposke - Today at 3:47 PM
Your entire 1-hour tirade wasn't "clear" in the slightest, either
Willhart - Today at 3:47 PM
I blame english.
Aposke - Today at 3:47 PM
You're radically misunderstanding everything everyone around you says
And you keep thinking that, no, you are the one being misunderstood
That it's everyone else's fault
Willhart - Today at 3:48 PM
It means I need to explain it better.
Aposke - Today at 3:48 PM
Heck, it doesn't even matter whose fault it is
No
It means you need to stop.
You've done all you could, long ago
Willhart - Today at 3:48 PM
I really don't think it is the time yet.