For you Melly x. Fly high. Miss you so much.

These last few months have been extremely hard for me. But I appreciate all the love and support I have received from various amounts of  people and I cannot express my thanks. I really respect, love and appreciate all of you for being in my life. You've helped me through so much, and I'll always be there for anyone who needs support.

It all started out when I lost my best friend. She was my day one. She helped me through so much. I asked her for a ride when I first came here, and all I had was a backpack. She gave me a tour, helped me get work and then took me under her wing as a friend. She asked me to rent with her and I said yes.

Our friendship grew closer and closer, we had a strong bond and I loved her so much. We cried, laughed and gossiped about which girl was hooking up with this guy, when it was going to happen and now. I loved spending time with her, she was my light. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be where I was now.. I don't know where I would be if I didn't meet her.

We all fight demons and unfortunately she couldn't defeat them. She took her own life, and I was broken. I didn't know what to do, where to go, and who to talk to. She was the only girl I knew. She was my light, my angel, my everything.

I went to work drunk, high and looking like a wreck. I smelt like alcohol, tobacco and weed. A girl approched me called Khandalyce. She asked if I was okay, and I opened up to her so easily. She was so honest and told me about what she's been through. We clicked and after a few weeks, started dating. We where so close, and it kills me thinking what happened to her, and I really don't want to mention it. But baby, boo, my princess.. I miss you. <3 I look through our photos, messages and memories every day. I call you, no one answers. But I always try, just to hear your voicemail. Your voice always ligthens up my day, but saddens me at the same time. Rest in peace.

This bar opened up and I went there. I looked like a wreck, and I was drinking heavily.

There I met Melly. He took me home and cleaned me up. Told me I was loved, he took care of me. He helped me get my life back on track, he got me sober and gave me a second chance. I was a complete wreck, he could have left me. He saw potential in me and believed in me. I saw him every day from then on, and we caught up often. He did so much for me, and I wish there was a way I could thank him now. He was the kindest guy ever. He had a big heart and he helped so many other people. Sadly Melly was also recently taken from this world.

You three people meant the world to me and you've all been taken from this earth within the last three months and I'm sorry I wasn't there for you three when you needed me most. I love you all. I hope you're looking down at me smiling. <3

I love you three so fucking much. We all had our good times, our bad times and great memories. I'll remember you all.