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- This is the time when i just sit and think as i smoke
- Wishing i was harry potter just hiding in an invisible cloak
- and sometimes things get tough but i figure it out and cope
- I have to strive to be better because i dont want to be labeled a the common folk
- And this may have taken up to much of your time im sorry
- but its feelings you get when you smoking with marley
- And i cant call myself a pot head not even fucking hardly
- Its just something i do because even emotions scar me
- Even deeper then anyone could even ever imagine and see
- How it is to live under a person who i am related to so closely
- Because he is treated like hes made of solid gold
- And im forgotten and treated like an acquaintance that is old
- Possibly because my actions and personal satisfaction is to bold
- When all i wan to do in life is break the fucking mold
- Because being the only one they look down upon and hate
- Is worse then living life without someone to remember your place
- And who you are and could have been in this time and place
- But you are just tossed around like broccoli on a fucking plate
- with no chance of just receiving one hug
- But they look at you and shun you like a fucking bug
- Like they regret for even having a second son
- Because he has different morals and see's things differently
- Lets see after i jump if anyone will even look for me
- Or after im gone and 6 feet under if they will ever visit me
- Because living in a world with no fucking emotional support
- Is worse then if my mother chose to just fucking quit and abort
- And get rid of me before i built up an emotional fort
- Where everyone is kept out unless you make yourself reach the port
- Because im done, i am at the end of my fucking witz
- Pop a bottle of perks until i get fucking sick
- And slowly drift my way to darkness at the bottom of the pit
- And even after i pass they will still be fucking critics
- On how i didn't do it right and i didn't die fast enough
- And how im a pussy ass bitch born with no nuts or guts
- its to the point where im ganna grab the biggest knife
- put it in as far as possible and spin it twice
- so that i know for a fact my body has no chance to live or fight
- and just let the blood pour out and accept the blackness as night
- because there is no pont to live in a world where your not accepted or wanted
- where your so called family left the biggest scars of you being taunted
- and you are hardly even recognized while the golden child is flaunted
- i dont want to be part of a group of people that are the fucking outcast
- where i am like a mr cellophane and people just walk past
- while he sits there with his egotistical self behind a 10,000 mask
- it makes no sense in being part of a reality that you in no way have a say
- of what will be done but you are just resented and quickly fall away
- why is it that my life was full of colors and now is just another simple shade of gray
- but this is where it fucking ends and i said my fucking peace
- and i am done with all these bullshit lies like we love you, every little piece
- because in actuality im resented from the top of my head to my feet
- and the dog gets more appreciation and im treated like a piece of fucking beef
- there is no point to go on and continue living in a house i despise with my every being
- i want to rip my own eyes out but that still wont stop me from seeing
- that i will always be on the bottom looking up at them peeing
- happy with only themselves so full of glee they are gleaming
- but its when i finally smoke that last blunt and remember all the times
- that i wanted to just raise my chrome to my dome and finally blow my mind
- and empty all my brain matter on the floor as one of them walks on by
- then they yell at me for making a mess and shuns me for this crime
- and now the time has come where i just pull out the pill filled with cyanide
- take the pill with a shot of vodka chased with bacardi and i whisper as i say
- "hey, no one gave a fuck anyway, ending 21 years of life is the perfect way to end this day."
- as i relax i calm down start reach peace and then finally start to lay
- i will finally be peaceful when i am piece by piece just fading away
- And when they wake up in the morning and see me blue .... then what will they say?
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