You are going to read this, and listen carefully, and please fucking give me a serious response, not victimizing me and making me seem like the bad guy.
 I do not want anymore fighting. We were both in the fucking wrong during this, and you can blame me all you want and say you did nothing wrong, but at the end of the day, we both did things wrong, and I understand I did far worst and I admit to that. I am not trying to hide anything, I know what I did was wrong and I do regret that, but you also know what does trigger me, and what pisses me off like that... I am sorry that you got kicked out of your house and you don't deserve it, but your parents need to stop holding my past against me and fucking use that to judge me. I could be like oh your dad is a abusive father (since he has hit you before) and who likes to cheat on his wife. I could always bring that up and hold it against him and fucking make him feel like shit; but I don't. I seriously thought Friday evening was a second chance for us to begin again, you made it seem that way, and you made it seem that we have to be a team to work together, and to solve the issues that arise together... we aren't suppose to be bringing each other down, instead we are suppose to fucking trying to build each other back up. We are both broken, and we are both hurt, but we have to motivate and bring positivity into each others life. You tell me I don't try to change, but like you can't even answer your fucking phone for me, like if I text you, like put a ringer on or something because I may need you...... Like you need to try to help me change and be there for me when I need you and when I do something wrong and make a mistake, you need to encourage me to do better, not fucking start fighting with me and making me feel like shit. I fucking do love you Zantrice Ann Marie McGillis with all of my fucking heart. I fucking think about us every damn day, and what I could have done differently so this could not happy, but I am fucking broken into a billion pieces. I am trying to change, but you can't expect a broken person to fucking be 100% again and be perfect right away without any support from the person they love.