Emily, we've been friends for more than a year, and we've been through a lot of stuff together throughout the years. You've been a great friend all those times but after a while I started to catch feelings for you, I've had feelings for you for more than half a year and I always wanted to tell you how I felt. But I get jealous easily and all those times when I saw you with viking, killa, laner, and even william I thought I'd never have a chance with you, I thought you'd never liked me because I thought you liked someone else and I didn't want to tell you how I felt because I didn't want to ruin our friendship. But after a while I wanted to tell you how I really felt  so badly that when I finally did tell you how I really felt, my face was numb, I was crying and I was just so nervous to tell you because I was scared of rejection. I didn't think I was good enough for you, I didn't know how you really felt about me nor the others. But after I had told you how I really felt, and saw that you liked me back, It made me the happiest I've ever been in my life. To know that the girl I loved, loved me back. I don't know if you remember and maybe it's a bad idea to bring up what happened before, but if you remember when I got mad at you forgiving william, or the other stuff that happened with viking, killa and laner. It's because I got so jealous and I thought I could never call you my girlfriend. I've enjoyed every moment with you, friends or lovers, bad or good. The reason I get frustrated when you don't respond as much or the reason I ask questions is because I enjoy talking with you, I enjoy talking with you so much and playing with you so much that I get frustrated easily when we stop doing it as much. I just wanna spend as much time with you as I can, and I'm sorry if you hate it. I know I hate doing it because I know It's annoying but I guess it's just how I am. I really do love you, you mean everything to me emily and I'm sorry If I let you down. I told you before that If I'm ever doing something you don't like, just tell me. And I meant it, I'm always going to be honest with you. Friends or lovers, I won't hide anything from you, emily. I know It may be too soon to write this, but I know If i wait too long then It might be too late. I just want to be your boyfriend, and I want to be able to call you my girlfriend. You're a special girl em, you really are unique and I will never find a girl like you. You deserve better than me, you deserve someone that doesn't get jealous when you talk to other guys, or frustrated when you don't respond that much. I'm sorry If I made it seem like I don't love you, but I really do love you and I don't want to let you go. I made a promise that I will never leave you, friends or lovers and I will keep that promise forever. Maybe we don't make a good couple, but I know we are great friends and I will not stop being friends with you, maybe one day I might do something that makes you hate me, but I will always love you. I will love you as a friend, I will love you as my lover. If you give me a second chance, I promise I will try and be better but If you don't think we can make It work, I will move on. But I will always be your friend. You're special to me, emily. I will never find a friend, or girlfriend like you again, you really are unique. You have an amazing personality, you are gorgeous, you always make me laugh and I love making you laugh and making you smile. I will always try and make you laugh and smile as friends or lovers. I just want to do everything I can to make sure you're always happy, I know there are times when I make you annoyed or mad at me, even if you won't show it. I love being around you and talking with you every single day, everytime you go to sleep, I wait at least an hour before I sleep so I can make sure that if you send a message, I will be sure to always respond. No matter what I'm doing I always try and respond because I don't like making you wait for a response, even if you don't mind waiting.

I really do love you with all my heart, emily. I want to be able to call you my girlfriend, I want to be the lucky guy that can call you his girlfriend. I want to meet you in real life so we can one day take an online relationship to the real world, I know that might be pushing things but I told you I'll always be honest, so I'm being honest with you. I want to be able to wake up everyday and remind you about how much I love you, and remind you that you're beautiful. I want to wake up everyday and give you a hug, or a kiss so you will never forget about how much I truly love you. If you give me a second chance I promise I will try and change, but if you honestly don't think that we can make It work, I will stop mentioning It and i wll move on. If we don't end up being together again, I hope you find an amazing guy that will treat you better than how I treated you, whoever gets to call you his girlfriend, they're are really lucky.
I will always love you, and I will not pressure you into taking me back. If you need time, I will give you time to think about It because I want it to be a choice you make on your own without any input from me.